i 1 ^^. i'iC ^ ^ #• A FAIKY KRIUE FKOM ItaLV, WITH S.M Was coming through the vin ELt.S OF OLEANDERS IN HER HAIR, ES TO TOUCH HIS HAND. Pag^e 28-. Aurora Leigh AND OTHER POEMS Elizabeth Barrett Browning VIGNETTE EDITION. WITH NUMEROUS NEW ILL US TR A TIONS Frederick C. Gordon NEW YORK FREDEIUCK A. STOKES COMPANY MDCCCXCII ■x? I .h Copyright, 1892 By FREDERICK A. STOKES COMPANY CONTENTS AURORA LEIGH: First Book, Second Book, Third Book, Fourth Book, Fifth Book, Sixth Book, Seventh Book, Eighth Book, Ninth Book, A DRAMA OF EXILE. THE SERAPHIM, PROMETHEUS BOUND. of ^schylus. From the Greek 3 30 64 96 128 162 196 230 263 289 353 -.81 AURORA LEIGH FIRST BOOK. Of writing many books there is no end ; And I. who liave written much in prose and verse For others' uses, wiU write now for mine,— Will write my story for my better self, As when you paint your portrait for a friend, Who keeps it in a drawer, and looks at_ it Long- after he has ceased to love you, just To hold together what he was and is. I, writing thus, am still what men call young •. I'have not so far left the coasts of life To travel inland, that I cannot hear That murmur of the outer Infinite Which unweaned babies smile at in their sleep When wondered at for smiling ; not so far, But still I catch my mother at her post Beside the nursery-door, with finger up, " Hush, hush, here's too much noise !" while her sweet eyes Leap forward, taking part against her word In the child's riot. Still I sit, and feel My father's slow hand, when she had left us both, Stroke out my childish curls across his knee, And hear Assunta's daily jest (she knew He liked it better than a better jest) Inquire how many golden scudi went To make such ringlets. O my father's hand. Stroke heavilv, heavily, the poor hair down. Draw, press the child's head closer to thy knee ! I'm still too young, too young, to sit alone. Aurora Leigh. frail ; I write, IVIy mother was a Florentine, Whose rare blue eyes were shut from seeing me When scarcely I was four years old ; my lite A poor spark snatched up from a failing lamp Which went out therefore. She was weak and She could not bear the joy of giving life ; The mother's rapture slew her. If her kiss Had left a longer weight upon my lips, It might have steadied the uneasy breath, And reconciled and fraternized my soul With the new order. As it was, indeed, I felt a mother- want about the world, And still went seeking, like a bleating lamb Left out at night in shutting up the fold, — As restless as a nest-deserted bird Grown chill through something being away, though what It knows not. 1, Aurora Leigh, was born To make my father sadder, and myself Not overjoyous, truly. Women know The way to rear up children (to be just) ; They know a simple, merry, tender knack Of tying sashes, fitting baby-shoes, And stringing pretty words that make And kissing full sense words ; WHiich things are \ As RESTLESS AS A NEST- DESERTED HIKD. no sense, into empty corals to cut life up- on, Although such trifles: children learn by such. Love's holy earnest in a pretty play. And get not over-early solem- nized. But seeing, as in a rose-bush, Love's Divine, Which burns and hurts not,— not a single bloom,- Become aware and unafraid of love. Such good do mothers. Fathers love as well, — Mine did, I know, — but still with heavier brains, And wills more consciously responsible. And not as wisely, since less foolishly: So mothers have God's license to be missed. Aurora Leigh. My father was an austere Englishman, Who, after a dry Hfetime spent at home In college-learnmg, law, and parish talk. Was flooded with a passion unaware. His whole provisioned and complacent past Drowned out from him that moment. As he stood In Florence, where he had come to spend a month. And note the secret of Da Vinci's drains. He musing somewhat absently perhaps Some English question . . , whether men should pay The unpopular but necessary tax With left or right hand — in the alien sun In that great square of the Santissima There drifted past him, (scarcely marked enough To move his comfortable island scorn) A train of priestly banners, cross and psalm, The white- veiled, rose-crowned maidens holding up Tall tapers, weighty for such wrists, aslant To the blue luminous tremor of the air. And letting drop the white wax as they went To eat the bishop's wafer at the church ; From which long trail of chanting priests and girls A face flashed like a cymbal on his face. And shook with silent clangor brain and heart. Transfiguring him to music. Thus, even thus. He, too, received his sacramental gift With eucharistic meanings ; for he loved. And thus beloved, she died. I've heard it said That but to see him, in the first surprise Of widower and father, nursing me, Unmothered little child of four years old,^ His large man's hands afraid to touch my curls. As if the gold would tarnish, his grave lips Contriving such a miserable smile As if he knew needs must, or I should die, And yet 'twas hard, — would almost make the stones Cry out for pity. There's a verse he set In Santa Croce to her memory, — " Weep for an infant too young to weep much When death removed this mother," — stops the mirth To-day on women's faces when they walk. With rosy children hanging on their gowns. Under the cloister to escape the sun Aurora Leiirh. That scorches in the piazza. After which He left our Florence, and made haste to hide Himself, his prattling child, and silent grief, Among the mountains above Pelago ; Because unmothered babes, he thought, had need Of mother-nature more than others use, And Pan's white goats, with udders warm, and full Of mystic contemplations, come to feed Poor milkless lips of orphans like his own. Such scholar-scraps he talked, I've heard from friends For even prosaic men who wear grief long Will get to wear it as a hat aside With a flower stuck in't. Father, then, and child, We lived among the mountains many years, God's silence on the outside of the house. And we who did not speak too loud within, And old Assunta to make up the fire, Crossing herself whene'er a sudden flame Which lightened from the firewood made alive That picture of my mother on the wall. The painter drew it after she was dead ; And when the face was finished, throat and hands, Her cameriera carried him, in hate Of the English-fashioned shroud, the last brocade She dressed in at the Pitti, " He should paint No sadder thing than that," she swore, " to wrong Her poor signora." Therefore very strange The effect was. I, a little child, would crouch For hours upon the floor, with knees drawn up. And gaze across them, half in terror, half In adoration, at the picture there, — That swan-like supernatural white life Just sailing upward from the red stiff silk Which seemed to have no part in it, nor power To keep it from quite breaking out of bounds. For hours I sate and stared. Assunta's awe And my poor father's melancholy eyes Still pointed that way. That way went my thoughts When wandering beyond sight. And as I grew In years, I mixed, confused, unconsciously, W^hatever I last read, or heard, or dreamed, — Abhorrent, admirable, beautiful, Pathetical, or ghastly, or grotesque,— Aurora Leigh. With still that face . . . which did not therefore change, But kept the mystic level of all forms, Hates, fears, and admirations— was by turns Ghost, fiend, and angel, fairy, witch, and sprite ; A dauntless Muse who eyes a dreadful Fate ; A loving Psyche who loses sight of Love ; A still Medusa with mild milky brows. All curdled and all clothed upon with snakes Whose slime falls fast as sweat will ; or anon Our Lady of the Passion, stabbed with swords Where the Babe sucked ; or Lamia in her first Moonlighted pallor, ere she shrunk and blinked, And shuddering wriggled down to the unclean ; Or my own mother, leaving her last smile In her last kiss upon the baby-mouth My father pushed down on the bed for that ; Or my dead mother, without smile or kiss, Buried at Florence. All which images, Concentred on the picture, glassed themselves Before my meditative childhood, as The incoherencies of change and death Are represented fully, mixed and merged. In the smooth fair mystery of perpetual life. And while I stared away my childish wits Upon my mother's picture, (ah, poor child !) My father, who through love had suddenly Thrown off the old conventions, broken loose From chin-bands of the soul, like Lazarus, Yet had no time to learn to talk and walk. Or grow anew familiar with the sun ; Who had reached to freedom, not to action, lived, But lived as one entranced, with thoughts, not aims ; Whom love had unmade from a common man. But not completed to an uncommon man, — My father taught me what he had learnt the best Before he died, and left me, — grief and love. And seeing we had books among the hills. Strong words of counselling souls confederate With vocal pines and waters, out of books He taught me all the ignorance of men. And how God laughs in heaven when any man Says, " Here I'm learned ; this I understand ; In that I am never caught at fault or doubt." Aurora Leigh. He sent the schools to school, demonstrating A fool will pass for such through one mistake, While a philosopher will pass for such Through said mistakes being ventured in the gross And heaped up to a system. They tell me, my dear father. Broader brows Howbeit, upon a slenderer undergrowth Of delicate features,^ — paler, near as grave ; But then my mother's smile breaks up the whole, And makes it better sometimes than itself. I am like, So nine full years our days were hid with God Among his mountains, I was just thirteen, Still growing like the plants from unseen roots In tongue-tied springs, and suddenly awoke To full life and life's needs and agonies, With an intense, strong, struggling heart, beside A stone-dead father. Life, struck sharp on death. Makes awful lightning. His last word was, " Love — Love, my child, love, love ! " — (then he had done with grief) " Love, my child." Ere I answered, he was gone. And none was left to love in all the world. There ended childhood. What succeeded next I recollect, as, after fevers, men Thread back the passage of delirium. Missing the turn still, baffled by the door ; Smooth, endless days, notched here and there with knives, A weary, wormy darkness, spurred i' the flank With flame, that it should eat and end itself Like some tormented scor- pion. Then at last I WAS jrsT 1 do remember clearlv how there came Aurora Leij^/i. A stranger with authority, not right (I thought not), who commanded, caught me up From old Assunta's neck ; how with a shriek She let me go, while I, with ears too full Of my father's silence to shriek back a word, In all a child's astonishment at grief, Stared at the wharf-edge where she stood and moaned. My poor Assunta, where she stood and moaned ! The white walls, the blue hills, my Italy, Drawn backward from the shuddering steamer-deck. Like one in anger drawing back her skirts Which suppliants catch at. Then the bitter sea Inexorably pushed between us both. And, sweeping up the ship with my despair, Threw us out as a pasture to the stars. Ten nights and days we voyaged on the deep ; Ten nights and days without the common face Of any day or night ; the moon and sun Cut off from the green reconciling earth, To starve into a blind ferocity. And glare unnatural ; the very sky (Dropping its bell-net down upon the sea As if no human heart should 'scape alive), Bedraggled with the desolating salt, Until it seemed no more that holy heaven To which my father went. All new and strange , The universe turned stranger, for a child. Then land ! — then England ! oh, the frosty cliffs Looked cold upon me. Could I find a home Among those mean red houses through the fog.-* And when I heard my father's language first From alien lips which had no kiss for mine, I wept aloud, then laughed, then wept, then wept ; And some one near me said the child was mad Through much sea-sickness. The train swept us on. Was this my father's England ? the great isle } The ground seemed cut up from the fellowship Of verdure, field from field, as man from man: The skies themselves looked low and positive. As almost you could touch them with a hand. And dared to do it, they were so far off From God's celestial crystals ; all things blurred Aurora Lei^h. And dull and vague. Did Shakespeare and his mates Absorb the light here ? Not a hill or stone V/ith heart to strike a radiant color up, Or active outline on the indifferent air. I think I see my father's sister stand Upon the hall-step of her country-house To give me welcome. She stood straight and calm, Her somewhat narrow forehead braided tight As if for taming accidental thoughts From possible pulses ; brown hair pricked with gray By frigid use of life (she was not old, Although my father's elder by a year) ; A nose drawn sharply, yet in delicate lines , A close mild mouth, a little soured about The ends, through speaking unrequited loves Or, peradventure, niggardly half-truths ; Eyes of no color — once they might have smiled, But never, never, have forgot themselves In smiling ; cheeks in which was yet a rose Of perished summers, like a rose in a book. Kept more for ruth than pleasure — if past bloom, Past fading also. She had lived, we'll say A harmless life, she called a virtuous life, A quiet life, v/hich was not life at all, (But that, she had not lived enough to know), Between the vicar and the county squires. The lord -lieutenant looking down sometimes From the empyrean to assure their souls Against chance vulgarisms, and, in the abyss, The apothecary looked on once a year To prove their soundness of humility. The poor-club exercised her Christian gifts Of knitting stockings, stitching petticoats, Because we are of one flesh, after all, And need one flannel (with a proper sense Of difference in the quality) ; and still The book-club, guarded from your modern trick Of shaking dangerous questions from the crease, Preserved her intellectual. She had lived A sort of cage-bird life, born in a cage, Accounting that to leap from perch to perch Was act and joy enough for any bird. Aurora Leij^/i. Dear Heaven, how silly are the things that live In thickets, and eat berries ! I, alas! A wild bird scarcely fledged, was brought to her cage, And she was there to meet me. Very kind. Bring the clean water, give out the fresh seed. She stood upon the steps to welcome me. Calm, in black garb. I clung about her neck : Young babes, who catch at every shred of wool To draw the new light closer, catch and cling Less blindly. In my ears my father's word Hummed ignorantly, as the sea in shells, — " Love, love, my child." She, black there with my grief Might feel my love : she was his sister once. I clung to her. A moment she seemed moved, Kissed me with cold lips, suffered me to cling, And drew me feebly through the hall into The room she sate in. There, with some strange spasm Of pain and passion, she w^rung loose my hands Imperiously, and held me at arm's-length. And with two gray-steel naked-bladed eyes Searched through my face,— ay, stabbed it through and through. Through brows and cheeks and chin, as if to tind A wicked murderer in my innocent face. If not here, there perhaps. Then, drawing breath, She struggled for her ordinary calm, And missed it rather ; told me not to shrink. As if she had told me not to lie or swear, " She loved my father, and would love me too As long as I deserved it." Very kind. I understood her meaning afterward : She thought to find my mother in my face. And questioned it for'that. For she, my aunt, Had loved my father truly, as she could. And hated with the gall of gentle souls My Tuscan mother, who had fooled away A wise man from wise courses, a good man From obvious duties, and depriving her. His sister, of the household precedence. Had wronged his tenants, robbed his native land, And made him mad, alike by life and death. lo Aurora Leigh. In love and sorrow. She had pored for years What sort of woman could be suitable To her sort of hate, to entertain it with, And so her very curiosity Became hate too, and all the idealism She ever used in life was used for hate. Till hate, so nourished, did exceed at last The love from which it grew in strength and heat, And wrinkled her smooth conscience with a sense Of disputable virtue (say not sin) When Christian doctrine was enforced at church. And thus my father's sister was to me My mother's hater. From that day she did Her duty to me (I appreciate it In her own word as spoken to herself). Her duty in large measure, well pressed out, But measured always. She was generous, bland, More courteous than was tender, gave me still The first place, as if fearful that God's saints Would look down suddenly and say. " Herein You missed a point, I think, through lack of love." Alas ! a mother never is afraid Of speaking angrily to any child. Since love, she knows, is justified of love. And I — I was a good child, on the whole, A meek and manageable child. Why not .^ I did not live to have the faults of life. There seemed more true life in my father's grave Than in all England. Since f/iat threw me off Who fain would cleave (his latest will, they say. Consigned me to his land), I only thought Of lying quiet there, where I was thrown Like seaweed on the rocks, and suffering her To prick me to a pattern with her pin. Fibre from fibre, delicate leaf from leaf. And dry out from my drowned anatomy The last sea-salt left in me. So it was. I broke the copious curls upon my head In braids, because she liked smooth-ordered hair. I left off saying my sweet Tuscan words Which still at any stirring of the. heart Aurora Leigh. Came up to float across the English phrase As lilies {Bene or Che che), because She liked my father's child to speak his tongue. I learnt the collects and the catechism, The creeds, from Athanasius back to Nice, The Articles, the Tracts against the times (By no means Buonaventure's " Prick of Love "), And various popular synopses of Inhuman doctrines never taught by John, Because she liked instructed piety. I learnt my complement of classic f^rcnch (Kept pure of Balzac and neologism) And German also, since she liked a range Of liberal education, — tongues, not books. I learnt a little algebra, a little Of the mathematics, brushed with extreme flounce The circle of the sciences, because She misliked women who are frivolous. I learnt the royal genealogies Of Oviedo, the internal laws Of the Burmese Empire, by how many feet Mount Chimborazo outsoars Teneriffe, What navigable river joins itself To Lara, and what census of the year five Was taken at Klagenfurt, because she liked A general insight into useful facts. I learnt much music, such as would have been As quite impossible in Johnson's day As still it might be wished, fine sleights of hand And unimagined fingering, shuf^ing off The hearer's soul through hurricanes of notes To a noisy Tophet ; and I drew . . . costumes From French engravings, nereids neatly draped (With smirks of simmering godship). I washed in Landscapes from nature (rather say, washed out). I danced the polka and Cellarius, Spun glass, stuffed birds, and modelled flowers in wax, Because she liked accomplishments in girls. I read a score of books on womanhood. To prove, if women do not think at all. They may teach thinking (to a maiden-aunt. Or else the author), — books that boldly assert Their right of comprehending husband's talk When not too deep, and even of answering 12 Aurora Lei}^h. With pretty " may it please you," or " so it is ; " Their rapid insiglu and fine aptitude, Particular worth and general missionariness, As long as they keep quiet by the firf^, And never say " no " when the world says " ay," For that is fatal ; their angelic reach Of virtue, chiefly used to sit and darn, And fatten household sinners ; their, in brief. Potential faculty in every thing Of abdicting power in it : she owned She liked a woman to be womanly, And English women, she thanked God, and sighed (Some people always sigh in thanking God), Were models to the universe. And last I learnt cross-stitch, because she did not like To see me wear the night with empty hands, A-doing nothing. So my shepherdess Was something, after all (the pastoral saints Be praised for't), leaning lovelorn, with pink eyes To match her shoes, when I mistook the silks, Her head uncrushed by that round weight of hat So strangely similar to the tortoise-shell Which slew the tragic poet. By the way. The works of women are symbolical. We sew, sew, prick our fingers, dull our sight, Producing what .^ A pair of slippers, sir, To put on when you're weary, or a stool To stumble over, and vex you ..." Curse that stool I " Or else, at best, a cushion, where you lean And sleep, and dream of something we are not, But would be for your sake. Alas, alas I This hurts most, this, — that after all we are paid The worth of our work, perhaps. In looking down Those years of education (to return) I wonder if Brinvilliers suffered more In the water-torture . . . flood succeeding flood To drench the incapable throat, and split the veins , . . Than I did. Certain of your feebler souls Go out in cuch a process ; many pine To a sick, inodorous light ; my own endured : 1 had relations in the Unseen, and drew The elemental nutriment and heat Aurora Leigh. 13 From nature, as earth feels the sun at nights, Or as a babe sucks surely in the dark I kept the life thrust on me, on the outside Of the inner life, with all its ample room For heart and lungs, for will and intellect, Inviolable by conventions. God, I thank thee for that grace of thine ! At first I felt no life which was not patience ; did The thing she bade me, without heed to a thing Beyond it ; sate in just the chair she placed. With back against the window, to exclude The sight of the great lime-tree on the lawn. Which seemed to have come on purpose from the woods To bring the house a message, — ay, and walked Demurely in her carpeted low rooms. As if 1 should not, barkening my own steps, Misdoubt I was alive. I read her books ; Was civil to her cousin, Romney Leigh ; Gave ear to her vicar, tea to her visitors. And heard them whisper, when I changed a cup (I blushed for joy at that), — " The Italian child, For all her blue eyes and her quiet ways. Thrives ill in England. She is paler yet Than when we came the last time : she will die." " Will die." My cousin Romney Leigh blushed too. With sudden anger, and approaching me. Said low between his teeth, " You're wicked now ! You wish to die and leave the world a-dusk For others, with your naughty light blown out } " I looked into his face defyingly. He might have known, that, being what I was, 'Twas natural to like to get away As far as dead folk can ; and then, indeed. Some people make no trouble when they die. He turned and went abruptly, slammed the door, And shut his dog out. Romney, Romney Leigh. I have not named my cousin hitherto, And yet I used him as a sort of friend ; My elder by few years, but cold and shy And absent . . . tender, when he thought of it, Which scarcely was imperative, grave betimes. Aurora Lcii^/i. As well as early master of Leigh Hall, Whereof the nightmare sate upon his youth Repressing all its seasonable delights, And agonizing with a ghastly sense Of universal hideous want and wrong To incriminate possession. When he came From college to the country, very oft He crossed the hill on visits to my aunt, With gifts of blue grapes from the hothouses, A book in one hand, — mere statistics (if I chanced to lift the cover), count of all The goats whose beards grow sprouting down toward hell Against God's separative judgment-hour. And she, — she almost loved him ; even allowed That sometimes he should seem to sigh my way : It made him easier to be pitiful, And sighing was his gift. So, undisturbed At whiles, she let him shut my music up. And push my needles down, and lead me out To see in that south angle of the house The figs grow black as if by a Tuscan rock, On some light pretext. She would turn her head At other moments, go to fetch a thing, And leave me breath enough to speak with him. For his sake : it was simple. Sometimes too He would have saved me utterly, it seemed, He stood and looked so. Once he stood so near He dropped a sudden hand upon my head Bent down on woman's work, as soft as rain ; But then I rose, and shook it off as fire, — The stranger's touch that took my father's place. Yet dared seem soft. 1 used him for a friend Before I ever knew him for a friend. 'Twas better, 'twas worse also, afterward : We came so close, we saw our differences Too intimately. Always Romney Leigh Was looking for the worms, I for the gods. A godlike nature his ; the gods look down, Incurious of themselves ; and certainly 'Tis well I should remember, how, those days, I was a worm too, and he looked on me. Aurora Leigh. 15 A little by his act perhaps, yet more By something in me, surely not my will, I did not die ; but slowly, as one in swoon, To whom life creeps back in the fonri of death. With a sense of separation, a blind pain Of blank obstruction, and a roar i' the ears Of visionary chariots which retreat As earth grows clearer . . . slowly, by degrees, I woke, rose up . . . where was I ? in the world ; For uses therefore I must count worth while. I had a little chamber in the house. As green as any privet-hedge a bird Might choose to build in, though the nest itself Could show but dead-brown sticks and straws. The walls Were green ; the carpet was pure green ; the straight Small bed was curtained greenly ; and the folds Hung green about the window, which let in The outdoor world with all its greenery. You could not push your head out, and escape A dash of dawn-dew from the honey-suckle, But so you were baptized into the grace And privilege of seeing. . . . First the lime (I had enough there, of the lime, be sure : My morning-dream was often hummed away By the bees in it) ; past the lime the lawn, Which, after sweeping broadly round the house, Went trickling through the shrubberies in a stream Of tender turf, and wore and lost itself Among the acacias, over which you saw The irregular line of elms by the deep lane Which stopped the grounds, and dammed the overflow Of arbutus and laurel. Out of sight The lane was ; sunk so deep, no foreign tramp, Nor drover of wild ponies out of Wales, Could guess if lady's hall or tenant's lodge Dispensed such odors, though his stick, well crooked, Might reach the lowest trail of blossoming brier Which dipped upon the wall.- Behind the elms. And through their tops, you saw the folded hills Striped up and down with hedges (burly oaks Projecting from the line to show themselves), Through which my cousin Romney's chimneys smoked. 1 6 Aurora Leis:h. As still as when a silent mouth in frost Breathes, showing where the woodlands hid Leigh Hall ; While, far above, a jut of table-land, A promontory without water, stretched. You could not catch it if the days were thick, Or took it for a cloud ; but, otherwise. The vigorous sun would catch it up at eve. And use it for an anvil till he had tilled The shelves of heaven with burning thunderbolts, Protesting against night and darkness ; then, When all his setting trouble was resolved To a trance of passive glory, you might see In apparition on the golden sky, (Alas, my Giotto's background !) the sheep run Along the fine clear outline, small as mice That run along a witch's scarlet thread. Not a grand nature ; not my chestnut woods Of Vallombrosa, cleaving by the spurs To the precipices ; not my headlong leaps Of waters, that cry out for joy or fear In leaping through the palpitating pines. Like a white soul tossed out to eternity With thrills of time upon it ; not, indeed, My multitudinous mountains, sitting in The magic circle, with the mutual touch Electric, panting from their full deep hearts Beneath the influent heavens, and waiting for Communion and commission. Italy Is one thing, England one. On English ground You understand the letter, — ere the fall How Adam lived in a garden. All the fields Are tied up fast with hedges, nosegay-like ; The hills are crumpled plains, the plains parterres; The trees round, woolly, ready to be clipped ; And if you seek for any wilderness. You find at best a park. A nature tamed, And grown domestic like a barn-door fowl, Which does not awe you with its claws and beak. Nor tempt you to an eyry too high up, But which in cackling sets you thinking of Your eggs to-morrow at breakfast, in the pause Of finer meditation. Aurora Leigh. 17 Ok waters that cry out for jov OK FEAR. A place for The moon And swept my foolish The sun came, lift this light Against the lime- not look ? I make the birds Rather say, A sweet familiar nature, stealing in As a dog might, or child, to touch your hand, Or pluck your gown, and humbly mind you so Of presence and affection, excel- lent For inner uses, from the things without. could not be unthankful, I who was Entreated thus, and holpen. In the room I speak of, ere the house was well awake. And also after it was well asleep, 1 sate alone, and drew the blessing in Of "all that nature. • _ With a gradual step, A stir among the leaves, a breath, a 5^-4^: ray. -!;. It came in " '- ' softly, while the angels made it beside me. came, chamber clean of thoughts, saying, " Shall 1 tree, and you will ng : listen !— but, for you, God never hears your voice, excepting when You lie upon the bed at nights, and weep." 1 8 Aurora Leiirh Then something moved me. Then I wakened up, More slowly than 1 verily write now ; But wholly, at last, 1 wakened, opened wide The window^ and my soul, and let the airs And outdoor sights sweep gradual gospels in, Regenerating what I was. O Life ! How oft we throw it off, and think, " Enough, Enough of life in so much ! — here's a cause For rapture ; herein v^e must break with Life, Or be ourselves unworthy ; here we are wronged, Maimed, spoiled for aspiration : farewell, Life I " And so, as froward babes, we hide our eyes And think all ended. Then Life calls to us In some transformed, apocalyptic voice. Above us, or below us, or around : Perhaps we name it Nature's voice, or Love's, Tricking ourselves, because we are more ashamed To own our compensations than our griefs : Still Life's voice ; still we make our peace with Life. And I, so young then, was not sullen. Soon I used to get up early just to sit And watch the morning quicken in the gray. And hear the silence open like a flower, Leaf after leaf, and stroke with listless hand The woodbine through the window, till at last I came to do it with a sort of love. At foolish unaware : whereat I smiled, A melancholy smile, to catch myself Smiling for joy. Capacity for joy- Admits temptation. It seemed, next, worth while To dodge the sharp sword set against my life. To slip down-stairs through all the sleepy house. As mute as any dream there, and escape. As a soul from the body, out of doors. Glide through the shrubberies, drop into the lane, And wander on the hills an hour or two. Then back again, before the house should stir. Or else I sate on in my chamber green, And lived my life, and thought my thoughts, and prayed My prayers without the vicar ; read my books, Without considering whether they were ht Aurora Leigh. 19 To do me good. Mark there. We get no good By being ungenerous, even to a book, And calculating profits,— so much help By so much reading. It is rather when We gloriously forget ourselves, and plunge Soul-forward, headlong, into a book's profound, Impassioned for its beauty and salt of truth,— Tis then we get the right good from a book. I read much. What my father taught before From many a volume, love re-emphasized Upon the selfsame pages: Theophrast Grew tender with the memory of his eyes. And y^lian made mine wet. The trick of Greek And Latin he had taught me, as he would Have taught me wrestling, or the game of fives, If such he had known,— most like a shipwrecked man, Who heaps his single platter with goats' cheese And scarlet berries ; or like any man Who loves but one, and so gives all at once, Because he has it, rather than because He counts it worthy. Thus my father gave ; And thus, as did the women formerly By young Achilles, when they pinned a veil Across the boy's audacious front, and swept With tuneful laughs the silver-fretted rocks, He wrapt his little daughter in his large Man's doublet, careless did it fit or no. But after I had read for memory I read for hope. The path my father's foot Had trod me out (which suddenly broke off What time he dropped the wallet of the flesh And passed) alone I carried on, and set My child-heart 'gainst the thorny underwood. To reach the grassy shelter of the trees. Ah babe i' the wood, without a brother-babe ! My own self-pity, like the redbreast bird, Flies back to cover all that past with leaves. Sublimest danger, over which none weeps. When any young wayfaring soul goes forth Alone, unconscious of the perilous road. The day-sun dazzling in his limpid eyes, / 20 X Aurora Leigh. To ihrust hi^wn way, he an alien, through The w-p^l^/^f books ! Ah, you ! — you think it fir You clap hands — " A fair day ! "—you cheer hi As if the worst could happen were to rest Too long beside a fountain. Yet behold. Behold ! — the world of books is still the w^orld, And w^orldlings in it are less merciful And more puissant. For the wicked there Are winged like angels ; every knife that strikesV Is edged from elemental fire to assail A spiritual life ; the beautiful seems right By force of beauty, and the feeble wrong Because of weakness ; power is justified. Though armed against St. Michael ; many ^rown Covers bald foreheads. In the book-world, true, There's no lack, neither, of God's saints and kings. That shake the ashes of the grave aside From their calm locks, and, undiscomfited. Look steadfast truths against Time's changing mask. True, many a prophet teaches in the roads ; True, many a seer pulls down the flaming heavens Upon his own head in strong martyrdom In order to light men a moment's space. But stay ! Who judges } Who distinguishes 'Twixt Saul and Nahash justly, at first sight. And leaves King Saul precisely at the sin, To serve King David } Who discerns at once The sound of the trumpets, when the trumpets blow For Alaric as well as Charlemagne } Who judges wizards, and can tell true seers From conjurers? The child, there? Would you leave That child to wander in a battle-field. And push his innocent smile against the guns? Or even in a catacomb, his torch Grown ragged in the fluttering air, and a) The dark a-mutter round him ? not a child. ,/ I read books bad and good,— some bad and good At once (good aims not always make good books • Well-tempered spades turn up ill-smelling soils In digging vineyards even); books that prove God's being so definitely, that man's doubt Grows self-defined the other side the line. Made atheist by suggestion ; moral books. Aurora Leigh. 21 Exasperating to license ; genial books ; Discounting from the human dignity; And merry books, which set you weeping when The sun shines ; ay, and melancholy books, Which make you laugh that any one should weep In this disjointed life for one wrong more. The world of books is still the world, I write ; And both worlds have God's providence, thank God, To keep and hearten. With some struggle, indeed. Among the breakers, some hard swimming through The deeps, I lost breath in my soul sometimes. And cried, " God save me, if there's any God ! " But, even so, God saved me, and, being dashed From error on to error, every turn Still brought me nearer to the central truth. I thought so. All this anguish in the thick Of men's opinions . . , press and counterpress, Now up, now down, now underfoot, and now Emergent ... all the best of it, perhaps, But throws you back upon a noble trust And use of your own instinct, — merely proves Pure reason stronger than bare inference At strongest. Try it,— fix against heaven's wall The scaling-ladders of school logic, mount Step by step ! — sight goes faster ; that still ray Which strikes out from you, how, you cannot tell. And why, you know not, (did you eliminate, That such as you indeed should analyze ?) Goes straight and fast as light, and high as God. The cygnet finds the water ; but the man Is born in ignorance of his element, And feels out, blind at first, disorganized By sin i' the blood, his spirit-insight dulled And crossed by his sensations. Presently He feels it quicken in the dark sometimes, When, mark, be reverent, be obedient, For such dumb motions of imperfect life Are oracles of vital Deity, Attesting the Hereafter. Let who says " The soul's a clean white paper," rather say, A palimpsest, a prophet's holograph, 2 2 Aurora Leigh. Defiled, erased, and covered by a monk's, — The apocalypse, by a Longus ! poring on Which obscene text, we may discern, perhaps, Some fair, fine trace of what was written once. Some upstroke of an alpha and omega Expressing the old scripture. Books, books, books ! I had found the secret of a garret-room, Piled high with cases in my father's name. Piled high, packed large, where, creeping in and out Among the giant fossils of my past. Like some small nimble mouse between the ribs Of a mastodon, I nibbled here and there At this or that box, pulling through the gap In heats of terror, haste, victorious joy. The first book first. And how I felt it beat Under my pillow in the morning's dark, An hour before the sun would let me read ! My books ! At last, because the time was ripe, I chanced upon the poets. As the earth Plunges in fury, when the internal fires Have reached and pricked her heart, and throwing flat The marts and temples, the triumphal gates And towers of observation, clears herself To elemental freedom — thus, my soul, At poetry's divine first finger- touch. Let go conventions, and sprang up surprised, Convicted of the great eternuies Before two worlds. What's this, Aurora Leigh, You write so of the poets, and not laugh ? Those virtuous liars, dreamers after dark, Exaggerators of the sun and moon. And soothsayers in a tea-cup ? I write so Of the only truth-tellers now left to God, The only speakers of essential truth. Opposed to relative, comparative. And temporal truths ; the only holders by His sun-skirts, through conventional gray glooms ; The only teachers who instruct mankind. From just a shadow on a charnel-wall. To find man's veritable stature out Aurora Leigh. 23 Erect, sublime, — the measure of a man ; And that's the measure of an angel, says The apostle. Ay, and while your common men Lay telegraphs, gauge railroads, reign, reap, dine. And dust the flaunty carpets of the world For kings to walk on, or our president. The poet suddenly will catch them up With his voice like a thunder, — " This is soul. This is life, this word is being said in heaven. Here's God down on us ! what are you about ? " How all those workers start amid their work. Look round, look up, and feel, a moment's space. That carpet-dusting, though a pretty trade. Is not the imperative labor, after all ! j\Iy own best poets, am I one with you. That thus I love you, — or but one through love ? Does all this smell of thyme about iny feet Conclude my visit to your holy hill In personal presence, or but testify The rustling of your vesture through my dreams With influent odors ? When my joy and pain. My thought and aspiration, like the stops Of pipe or flute, are absolutely dumb, Unless melodious, do you play on me, My pipers ? — and if, sooth, you did not blow, Would no sound come ? or is the music mine. As a man's voice or breath is called his own. Inbreathed by the Life-breather? There's a doubt For cloudy seasons ! But the sun was high When first I felt my pulses set themselves For concord ; when the rhythmic turbulence Of blood and brain swept outward upon words. As wind upon the alders, blanching them By turning up their under-natures till They trembled in dilation. O delight And triumph of the poet, who would say A man's mere "yes," a woman's common " no." A little human hope of that or this. And says the word so that it burns you through With a special revelation, shakes the heart Of all the men and women in the world. As if one came back from the dead, and spoke, 2 4 Aurora Leigh. With eyes too happy, a familiar thing Become divine i' the utterance ! while for him The poet, speaker, he expands with joy ; The palpitating angel in his tiesh I'hrills inly with consenting fellowship To those innumerous spirits who sun themselves Outside of time. O life ! O poetry, — Which means life in life : cognizant of life Beyond this blood-beat, passionate for truth Beyond these senses .'—poetry, my life. My eagle, with both grappling feet still hot From Zeus's thunder, who hast ravished me Away from all the shepherds, sheep, and dogs, And set me in the Olympian roar and round Of luminous faces for a cup-bearer. To keep the mouths of all the godheads moist F'or everlasting laughters, — I myself Half drunk across the beaker with their eyes ! How those gods look ! Enough so, Ganymede, We shall not bear above a round or two. We drop the golden cup at Here's foot. And swoon back to the earth, and find ourselves. Face down among the pine-cones, cold with dew, While the dogs bark, and many a shepherd scoffs. " What's now come to the youth ? " Such ups and downs Have poets. Am I such indeed ? The name Is royal, and to sign it like a queen Is what I dare not, — though some royal blood Would seem to tingle in me now and then. With sense of power and ache, — with imposthumes And manias usual to the race. Howbeit I dare not : 'tis too easy to go mad And ape a Bourbon in a crown of straws: The thing's too common. Many fervent souls Strike rhyme on rhyme, who would strike steel on steel. If steel had offered, in a restless heat Of doing something. Many tender souls Have strung their losses on a rhyming thread, As children, cowslips : the more pains they take. The work more withers. Young men, ay, and maids, Aurora Leigh. 25 Too often sow their wild oats in tame verse, Before they sit down under their own vine, And live for use. Alas ! near all the birds Will sing at dawn ; and yet we do not take The chaffering swallow for the holy lark. In those days, though, 1 never analyzed, Not even myself. Analysis comes late. You catch a sight of Nature earliest In full front sun-face, and your eyelids wink And drop before the wonder of 't : you miss The form, through seeing the light. 1 lived those days, And wrote because I lived — unlicensed else; My heart beat in my brain. Life's violent flood Abolished bounds ; and which my neighbor's field, Which mine, what mattered ? It is thus in youth. We play at leap-frog over the god Term ; The love within us and the love without Are mixed, confounded : if we are loved, or love, We scarce distinguish. Thus with other power; Being acted on and acting seem the same. In that first onrush of life's chariot-wheels. We know not if the forests move, or we. And so, like most young poets, in a flush 0{ individual life I poured myself Along the veins of others, and achieved Mere lifeless imitations of live verse, And made the living answer for the dead, Profaning nature. " Touch not, do not taste. Nor handle," — we're too legal, who write young: We beat the phorminx till we hurt our thumbs. As if still ignorant of counterpoint ; We call the Muse, — " O Muse, benignant Muse I "— As if we had seen her purple-braided head. With the eyes in it, start between the boughs y\s often as a stag's. What make-believe, With so much earnest! what effete results From virile efforts I what cold wire-drawn odes, From such white heats ! — bucolics, where the cows Would scare the writer if they splashed the mud In lashing off the flies ; didactics, driven Against the heels of what the master said ; And counterfeiting epics, shrill with trumps 26 Aurora Leigh. A babe might blow between two straining cheeks Of bubbled rose, to make his mother laugh ; And elegiac griefs, and songs of love, Like cast-off nosegays picked up on the road, The worse for being warm : all these things, writ On happy mornings, with a morning heart, That leaps for love, is active for resolve, Weak for art only. Oft the ancient forms Will thrill, indeed, in carrying the young blood. The wine-skins, now and then a little warped, Will crack even, as the new wfne gurgles in. Spare the old bottles I Spill not the new wine. By Keats's soul, the man who never stepped In gradual progress like another man. But, turning grandly on his central self, Ensphered himself in twenty perfect years. And died, not young (the life of a long life Distilled to a mere drop, falling like a tear Upon the world's cold cheek to make it burn Forever), — by that strong excepted soul I count it strange and hard to understand That nearly all young poets should write old ; That Pope was sexagenary at sixteen. And beardless Byron academical, And so with others. It may be, perhaps. Such have not settled long and deep enough In trance to attain to clairvoyance ; and still The memory mixes with the vision, spoils. And works it turbid. Or perhaps, again. In order to discover the Muse-Sphinx, The melancholy desert must sweep round. Behind you as before. For me, I wrote False poems, like the rest, and thought them true Because myself was true in writing them. I, perad venture, have writ true ones since With less complacence. But I could not hide My quickening inner life from those at watch. They saw a light at a window now and then They had not set there : who had set it there ? My father's sister started when she caught Aurora Leigh. 27 My soul agaze in my eyes. She could not say I had no business with a sort of soul ; But plainly she objected, and demurred That souls were dangerous things to carry straight Through all the spilt saltpetre of the world. She said sometimes, " Aurora, have you done Your task this morning } have you read that book } And are you ready for the crochet here .-' " — As if she said, " I know there's something wrong ; I know I have not ground you down enough To flatten and bake you to a wholesome crust, For household uses and proprieties. Before the rain has got into my barn, And set the grains a-sprouting. What, you're green With outdoor impudence .'' you almost grow .^ " To which I answ^ered, " Would she hear my task, And verify my abstract of the book } Or should I sit down to the crochet-work } Was such her pleasure ? " Then I sate and teased The patient needle till it spilt the thread. Which oozed off from it in meandering lace From hour to hour. I was not therefore sad ; My soul was singing at a work apart. Behind the wall of sense, as safe from harm As sings the lark when sucked up out of sight In vortices of glory and blue air. And so, through forced work and spontaneous work, The inner life informed the outer life. Reduced the irregular blood to a settled rhythm. Made cool the forehead with fresh-sprinkling dreams. And rounding to the spheric soul the thin. Pined body, struck a color up the cheeks. Though somewhat faint. I clinched my brows across My blue eyes, greatening in the looking-glass, And said, " We'll live, Aurora I we'll be strong. The dogs are on us ; but we will not die." Whoever lives true life will love true love. I learnt to love that England. Very oft, Before the day was born, or otherwise Through secret windijigs of the afternoons, I threw my hunters off, and plunged myself Among the deep hills, as a hunted stag 28 Aurora Leiirh. .^c'.f 1^> ^,-^^Will take the wa- ters, shiver- ing with the fear And passion of the course. And when at last Escaped, so many a green slope built on slope Betwixt me and the enemy's house behind, 1 dared to rest, or wander in a rest Made sweeter for the step upon the grass, And view the ground's most gentle dimplement (As if God's finger touched, but did not press, In making England) ; such an up-and- down Of verdure, nothing too much up or down, A ripple of land ; such little hills the sky Can stoop to tenderly, and the wheat- fields climb ; Such nooks of valleys lined with orchises, Fed full of noises by invisible streams ; And open pastures where you scarcely tell White daisies from white dew ; at intervals The mythic oaks and elm-trees standing out Self-poised upon their prodigy of shade, — I thought my father's land was worthy too Of being my Shakespeare's. Very oft alone. Unlicensed ; not un frequently with leave To walk the third with Romney and his friend The rising painter, Vincent Carrington, Whom men judge hardly as bee-bonneted, Because he holds that, paint a body well, You paint a soul by implication, like The grand first Master. Pleasant walks ; for if He said, " When I was last in Italy," ^ And open pastures where you scarcely tell white daisies from white dew. Aurora Leigh. 29 It sounded as an instrument that's played Too far off for the tune, and yet it's fine To listen. Ofter we walked only two, If cousin Romney pleased to walk with me. We read, or talked, or quarrelled, as it chanced. We were not lovers, nor even friends well matched : Say, rather, scholars upon different tracks. And thinkers disagreed,— he, overfull Of what is, and I, haply, overbold For what might be. But then the thrushes sang. And shook my pulses and the elm's new leaves ; At which I turned, and held my finger up, And bade him mark, that howsoe'er the world Went ill, as he related, certainly The thrushes still sang^ in it. At the word His brow would soften ; and he bore with me In melancholy patience, not unkind. While, breaking into voluble ecstasy, I flattered all the beauteous country round. As poets use,— the skies, the clouds, the fields. The happy violets hiding from the roads The primroses run down to, carrying gold ; The tangled hedgerow^s, where the cows push out Impatient horns and tolerant churning mouths 'Twixt dripping ash-boughs; hedgerows all alive With birds and gnats, and large white butterflies Which look as if the Mayflower had caught life, And palpitated forth upon the wind ; Hills, vales, woods, netted in a silver mist ; Farms, granges, doubled up among the hills ; And cattle grazing in the watered vales ; And cottage-chimneys smoking from the woods ; And cottage-gardens smelling everywhere,^ Confused with smell of orchards. " See ! " I said, "And see ! is not God with us on the earth ? And shall we put him down by aught we do ? Who says there's nothing for the poor and vile Save poverty and wickedness ? Behold ! " And ankle-deep in English grass I leaped. And clapped my hands and called all very fair. In the beginning, when God called all good. 30 Aurora Leigh. Even then, was evil near us, it is writ ; But we indeed who call things good and fair, The evil is upon us while we speak : Deliver us from evil, let us pray. SECOND BOOK. Times followed one another. Came a morn I stood upon the brink of twenty years, And looked before and after, as I stood Woman and artist, either incomplete, Both credulous of completion. There I held The whole creation in my little cup. And smiled with thirsty lips before I drank " Good health to you and me, sweet neighbor mine, And all these peoples." I was glad that day The June was in me, with its multitudes Of nightingales all singing in the dark. And rosebuds reddening where the calyx split. . I felt so young, so strong, so sure of God, So glad,'l could not choose be very wise. And, old at twenty, was inclined to pull My childhood backward in a childish jest To see the face of 't once more, and farewell ! In which fantastic mood 1 bounded forth At early morning, would not wait so long As even to snatch my bonnet by the strings. But, brushing a green trail across the lawn With my gown m the dew, took will and way Among 'the acacias of the shrubberies, To fly my fancies in the open air. And keep my birthday till my aunt awoke To stop good dreams. Meanwhile I murmured on As honeyed bees keep humming to themselves, " The worthiest poets have remained uncrowned Till death has bleached their foreheads to the bone ; And so with me it must be, unless I prove Unworthy of the grand adversity ; And certainly I would not fail so much. Aurora Leigh. 3' What, therefore, if 1 crown myself to-day In sport, not pride, to learn the feel of it Before my brows be numbed as Dante's own To all the tender pricking of such leaves? Such leaves ! what leaves ? " „ ^ , , u i 1 pulled the branches down To choose from. , . , , . " Not the bay ! I choose no bay, (The fates deny us if we are overbold) Nor myrtle, which means chiefly love ; and love Is something awful, which one dares not touch So early o' mornings. This verbena strains The point of passionate fragrance ; and hard by This guelder-rose, at far too slight a beck Of the wind, will toss about her flower-apples. Ah, there's my choice, that ivy on the wall, That headlong iw ! not a leaf will grow i^ut thinking of a wreath. Large leaves, smooth leaves, Serrated like my vines, and half as green. I like such ivy, bold to leap a height 'Twas strong to climb ; as good to grow on graves As twist about a thyrsus ; pretty too, (And that's not ill) when twisted round a comb. Thus speaking to myself, half singing it, Because some thoughts are fashioned like a bell. To ring with once being touched, I drew a wreath Drenched, blinding me with dew, across my brow, And, fastening it behind so, turning, faced My public ! — cousin Romney— with a mouth Twice graver than his eyes. I stood there fixed. My arms up, like the caryatid, sole Of some abolished temple, helplessly Persistent in a gesture which derides A former purpose. Yet my blush was flame, As if from flax, not stone. . " Aurora Leigh, The earliest of Auroras ! " , , j Hand stretched out I clasped, as shipwrecked men will clasp a hand, Indifferent to the sort of palm. The tide Had caught me at my pastime, writing down My foolish name too near upon the sea, 32 Aurora Leigk. Not a leaf will gkovv iu.t thinking ov a wreath. Aurora Leigh. 33 Which drowned me with a blush as foolish. " You. My cousin ! " ^^^ ^^^^.^^ ^j^^ ^^^ .^ ^i, eyes, And dropped upon his Hps, a cold dead weight. For just a moment, " Here's a book 1 found ; No name writ on it-poems, by the form , Some Greek upon the margm ; lady s Greek Without the accents. Read it ? Not a word. I saw at once the thing had witchcraft in t, Whereof the reading calls up dangerous spirits . I rather bring it to the witch. ^^ ^^^^ ^^^^ You found it •• . . . ^^ ^^ ^^^ ^^^^^^^ ^y ^j^e stream That beech leans down into, of which you said The Oread in it has a Naiad's heart, And pines for waters." ,, ^^^^_^^ ^^^^ „ "Thanks \.o you My cousin, that I have seen you not too much Witch, scholar, poet, dreamer, and the rest. To be a woman also." ^^,.^^ ^ ^^^^^^^ The smile rose in his eyes again, and touched The ivy on my forehead, hght as air. 1 answered gravely, " Poets needs must be, Or men and women, more s the pity. ^^ ^^^ But men, and still less women, happily, Scarce n;ed be poets. Keep to the green wreath, Since even dreaming of the stone and bron e Brings headaches, pretty cousin, and dehles TheV^ean white morning dresses. ^^ ^^ ^^^ .^^^^ Because I love the beautiful I must Love pleasure chiefly, and be overcharged For ease and whiteness ! well, you know the woild, And only miss your cousin : tis not much Bnr learn this- I would rather take my part Witi God's dead, who afford to walk in white. Yet spread his glory, than keep quiet here, And gather up my feet from even a step. For fear to soil my gown in so much dust 1 choose to walk at all risks. Here, if heads 34 Aurora Leigh. That hold a rhythmic thought must ache perforce, For my part I choose headaches, — and to-day's my birth- day." " Dear Aurora, choose instead To cure them. You have balsams." " I perceive. The headache is too noble for my sex. You think the heartache would sound decenter, Since that's the woman's special, proper ache. And altogether tolerable, except To a woman." Saying which, I loosed my wreath. And swinging it beside me as I walked, Half petulant, half playful, as we walked, I sent a sidelong look to find his thought, As falcon set on falconer's finger may, With sidelong head, and startled, braving eye. Which means, " You'll see, you'll see ! I'll soon take flight. You shall not hinder.'' He, as shaking out His hand, and answering, " Fly, then," did not speak, Except by such a gesture. Silently We paced, until, just coming into sight Of the house-windows, he abruptly caught At one end of the swinging wreath, and said, " Aurora ! " There I stopped short, breath and all. " Aurora, let's be serious, and throw by This game of head and heart. Life means, be sure. Both heart and head, — both active, both complete, And both in earnest. Men and women make The world, as head and heart make human life. Work, man, work, woman, since there's work to do In this beleaguered earth for head and heart ; And thought can never do the work of love : But work for ends, I mean for uses, not For such sleek fringes (do you call them ends, Still less God's glory ?) as we sew ourselves Upon the velvet of those baldaquins Held 'twixt us and the sun. That book of yours I have not read a page of ; but I toss A rose up— it falls calyx down, you see ! The chances are, that being a woman, young And pure, with such a pair of large, calm eyes. You write as well . . . and ill . . . upon the whole, Aurora Lci^h. 35 As other women. If as well, what then ? If even a little better . . . still, what then ? We want the best in art now, or no art. The time is done for facile settings-up Of minnow-gods, nymphs here, and tritons there : The polytheists have gone out in God, That unity of bests. No best, no God ! And so with art, we say. Give art's divine, Direct, indubitable, real as grief. Or, leave us to the grief, we grow ourselves Divine by overcoming with mere hope And most prosaic patience. You, you are young As Eve with nature's daybreak on her face ; But this same world you are come to, dearest coz, Has done with keeping birthdays, saves her wreaths To hang upon her ruins, and forgets To rhyme the cry with which she still beats back Those savage, hungry dogs that hunt her down To the empty grave of Christ. The world's hard pressed : The sweat of labor in the early curse Has (turning acrid in six thousand years) Become the sweat of torture. Who has time. An hour's time . . . think ! — to sit upon a bank, And hear the cymbal tinkle in white hands .> When Egypt's slain, I say, let Miriam sing! — Before — where's Moses ? " " Ah, exactly that. Where's Moses } Is a Moses to be found } You'll seek him vainly in the bulrushes. While I in vain touch cymbals. Yet concede. Such sounding brass has done some actual good (The application in a woman's hand. If that were credible, being scarcely spoilt), In colonizing beehives." " There it is ! You play beside a death-bed like a child. Yet measure to yourself a prophet's place To teach the living. None of all these things Can women understand. You generalize, Oh, nothing,— not even grief ! "Your quick-breathed hearts, So sympathetic to the personal pang. Close on each separate knife-stroke, yielding up A whole life at each wound, incapable Of deepening, widening a large lap of life 36 Aurora Leigh. To hold the world-full woe. The human race To you means such a child, or such a man, You saw one morning waiting in the cold Beside that gate, perhaps. You gather up A few such cases, and when strong sometimes Will write of factories and of slaves, as if Your father were a negro, and your son A spinner in the mills. All's yours and you. All colored with your blood, or otherwise Just nothing to you. Why, I call you hard To general suffering. Here's the world half-blind With intellectual light, half-brutalized With civilization, having caught the plague In silks from Tarsus, shrieking east and west Along a thousand railroads, mad with pain And sin too ! . . . does one woman of you all (You who weep easily) grow pale to see This tiger shake his cage .'' Does one of you Stand still from dancing, stop from stringing pearls, And pine and die, because of the great sum Of universal anguish } Show me a tear Wet as Cordelia's in eyes bright as yours, Because the world is mad. You cannot count That you should weep for this account, not you ! You weep for what you know. A red-haired child Sick in a fever, if you touch him once. Though but so little as with a finger-tip. Will set you weeping ; but a. million sick . . . You could as soon weep for the rule of three Or compound fractions. Therefore this same world Uncomprehended by you, must remain Uninfluenced by you. W^omen as you are, Mere women, personal and passionate, You give us doating mothers, and perfect wives, Sublime Madonnas, and enduring saints : We get no Christ from you, and verily We shall not get a poet, in my mind." " With which conclusion you conclude " . That you, Aurora, with the large live brow And steady eyelids, cannot condescend To play at art, as children play at swords. To show a pretty spirit, chiefly admired But this : Aurora Leisrh. 37 Because true action is impossible. You never can be satisfied with praise Which men give women when they judge a book Not as mere work, but as mere woman's work, Expressing the comparative respect, Which means the absokite scorn. ' O, excellent ! What grace, what facile turns, what fluent sweeps, What delicate discernment . . . almost thought ! The book does honor to the sex, we hold. Among our female authors we make room For this fair writer, and congratulate The country that produces in these times Such women, competent to ' . . . spell." " Stop there," I answered, burning through his thread of talk With a quick flame of emotion, — " you have read My soul, if not my book, and argue well. I would not condescend ... we will not say To such a kind of praise (a worthless end Is praise of all kinds), but to such a use Of holy art and golden life. I am young. And peradventure weak — you tell me so- Through being a woman. And for all the rest, Take thanks for justice. I would rather dance At fairs on tight-rope, till the babies dropped Their gingerbread for joy, than shift the types For tolerable verse, intolerable To men who act and suffer. Better far Pursue a frivolous trade by serious means, Than a sublime art frivolously." "You Choose nobler work than either, O moist eyes, And hurrying lips, and heaving heart ! We are young, Aurora, you and I. The world, — look round.— The world we're come to late is swollen hard With perished generations and their sins : The civilizer's spade grinds horribly On dead men's bones, and cannot turn up soil That's otherwise than fetid. All success Proves partial failure ; all advance implies What's left behind ; all triumph, something crushed At the chariot-wheels ; all government, some wrong ; And rich men make the poor, who curse the rich. Who agonize together, rich and poor. 38 Aurora Leigh. Under and over, in the social spasm And crisis of the ages. Here's an age That makes its own vocation ; here we have stepped Across the bonds of time ; here's nought to see, But just the rich man and just Lazarus, And both in torments with a mediate gulf, Though not, a hint of Abraham's bosom. Who, Being man, Aurora, carl stand calmly by And view these things, and never tease his soul f'or some great cure } No physic for this grief, In all the earth and heavens too.^ " " You believe In God. for your part .^ — ay ? that He who makes Can make good things from ill things, best from worst. As men plant tulips upon dunghills when They wish them finest ? " " True. A death-heat is The same as life-heat, to be accurate; And in all nature is no death at all, As men account of death, so long as God Stands witnessing for life perpetually. By being just God. That's abstract truth, I know, Philosophy, or sympathy with God ; But I, I sympathize with man, not God, (I think I was a man for chiefly this,) And, when I stand beside a dying bed, 'Tis death to me. Observe : it had not much Consoled the race of mastodons to know, Before they went to fossil, that anon Their place would quicken with the elephant : They were not elephants, but mastodons ; And I, a man, as men are now, and not As men may be hereafter, feel with men In the agonizing present." " Is it so," I said, " my cousin ? Is the world so bad, While I hear nothing of it through the trees } The world was always evil,— but so bad } " " So bad. Aurora. Dear, my soul is gray With poring over the long sum of ill ; So much for vice, so much for discontent. So much for the necessities of power. So much for the connivances of fear. Aurora Leigh. 39 Coherent in statistical despairs With such a total of distracted life . , . To see it down in figures on a page, Plain, silent, clear, as God sees through the earth The sense of all the graves, — that's terrible For one who is not God, and cannot right The wrong he looks on. May I choose indeed But vow away my years, my means, my aims, Among the helpers, if there's any help' In such a social strait? The common blood That swings along my veins is strong enough To draw me to this duty." Then I spoke : " I have not stood long on the strand of life, And these salt waters have had scarcely time To creep so high up as to wet my feet ; I cannot judge these tides — I shall, perhaps. A woman's always younger than a man At equal years, because she is disallowed Maturing by the outdoor sun and air. And kept in long-clothes past the age to walk. Ah, well ! I know you men judge otherwise. You think a woman ripens as a peach. In the cheeks, chiefly. Pass it to me now : I'm young in age, and younger still, I think, As a woman. But a child may say amen To a bishop's prayer, and feel the way it goes. And I, incapable to loose the knot Of social questions, can approve, applaud August compassion. Christian thoughts that shoot Beyond the vulgar white of personal aims. Accept my reverence." There he glowed on me With all his face and eyes. " No other help } " Said he, " no more than so ? " " What help ? " I asked. " You'd scorn my help, as Nature's self, you say. Has scorned to put her music in my mouth, Because a woman's. Do you now turn round And ask for what a woman cannot give ? " " For what she only can, I turn and ask," He answered, catching up my hands in his. And dropping on me from his high-eaved brow 40 Aurora Leigh. The full weight of his soul. " I ask for love, And that, she can ; for life in fellowship Through bitter duties, that, I know she can ; For wifehood — will she ? " " Now," I said, " may God Be witness 'twixt us two I " and with the word, Meseemed I floated into a sudden light Above his stature, — " am I proved too weak To stand alone, yet strong enough to bear Such leaners on my shoulder? poor to think, Yet rich enough to sympathize with thought ? Incompetent to sing, as blackbirds can. Yet competent to love, like hiini ? " Perhaps I darkened, as the lighthouse will That turns upon the sea. " It's always so. Any thing does for a wife." I paused : Aurora dear. And dearly honored," he pressed in at once With eager utterance, " you translate me ill. I do not contradict my thought of you. Which is most reverent, with another thought Found less so. If your sex is weak for art, (And I who said so did but honor you By using truth in courtship,) it is strong For life and duty. Place your fecund heart In mine, and let us blossom for the world That wants love's color in the gray of time. My talk, meanwhile, is arid to you, ay. Since all my talk can only set you where You look dow^n coldly on the arena-heaps Of headless bodies, shapeless, indistinct. The judgment-angel scarce would find his way Through such a heap of generalized distress To the individual man with lips and eyes, Much less Aurora. Ah, my sweet, come down. And hand in hand we'll go where yours shall touch These victims one by one, till, one by one, The formless, nameless trunk of every man Shall seem to wear a head with hair you know, And every woman catch your mother's face To melt you into passion." *' I am a girl," I answered slowly : " you do well to name Aurora Leigh. My mother's face. Though far too early, alas ! God's hand did interpose 'tvvixt it and me, I know so much of love as used to shine In that face and another; just so much, No more, indeed, at all. I have not seen So much love since, I pray you pardon me. As answers even to make a marriage with In this cold land of England. What you love Is not a woman, Romney, but a cause : You want a helpmate, not a mistress, sir ; A wife to help your ends, in her no end. Your cause is noble, your ends excellent ; But I, being most unworthy of these and that, Do otherwise conceive of love. Farewell I " " Farewell, Aurora ? you reject me thus ? " He said. " Sir, you were married long ago. You have a wife already whom you love, — Your social theory. Bless you both, I say. For my part, I am scarcely meek enough To be the handmaid of a lawful spouse. Do I look a Hagar, think you } " " So you jest." " Nay, so I speak in earnest," I replied. " You treat of marriage too much like, at least, A chief apostle : you would bear with you A wife ... a sister . . . shall we speak it out .^— A sister of charity." " Then must it be, Indeed, farewell ? And was I so far wrong In hope and in illusion, when I took The woman to be nobler than the man. Yourself the noblest woman in the use And comprehension of what love is, — love That generates the likeness of itself Through all heroic duties ? so far wrong In saying bluntly, venturing truth on love, ' Come, human creature, love and work with me,' Instead of, ' Lady, thou art wondrous fair, And, where the Graces walk before, the Muse Will follow at the lightning of their eyes. And where the Muse walks, lovers need to creep : Turn round and love me, or I die of love ? ' " 42 Aurora Leigh With quiet indignation I broke in, " You misconceive the question like a man, Who sees a woman as the complement Of his sex merely. You forget too much That every creature, female as the male, Stands single in responsible act and thought As also in birth and death. Whoever says To a loyal woman, ' Love and work with me,' Will get fair answers, if the work and love, Being good themselves, are good for her, — the best She was born for. Women of a softer mood. Surprised by men when scarcely awake to life, Will sometimes only hear the first word, love, And catch up with it any kind of work, Indifferent, so that dear love go with it. I do not blame such women, though for love They pick much oakum : earth's fanatics make Too frequently heaven's saints. But mc your work Is not the best for, nor your love the best, Nor able to commend the kind of work For love's sake merely. Ah I you force me, sir. To be over-bold in speaking of myself : I, too, have my vocation, — work to do, The heavens and earth have set me since I changed My father's face for theirs, and, though your world W^ere twice as wretched as you represent, Most serious work, most necessary work As any of the economists'. Reform, Make trade a Christian possibility, And individual right no general wrong. Wipe out earth's furrows of the thine and mine. And leave one green for men to play at bowls, With innings for them all ! . . . what then, indeed. If mortals are not greater by the head Than any of their prosperities ? what then. Unless the artist keep up open roads Betwixt the seen and unseen, bursting through The best of your conventions with his best. The speakable, imaginable best God bids him speak, to prove what lies beyond Both speech and imagination ? A starved man Exceeds a fat beast : we'll not barter, sir. The beautiful for barley. And, even so, I hold you will not compass your poor ends Aurora Leigh. 43 Of barley-feeding and material ease Without a poet's individualism To work your universal. It takes a soul To move a body : it takes a high-souled man To move the masses even to a cleaner sty : It takes the ideal to blow a hair's-breadth off The dust of the actual. Ah ! your Fouriers failed, Because not poets enough to understand That life develops from within. For me. Perhaps I am not worthy, as you say. Of work like this: perhaps a woman's soul Aspires, and not creates : yet we aspire, And yet I'll try out your perhapses, sir, And if 1 fail . . , why, burn me up my straw Like other false works. I'll not ask for grace: Your scorn is better, cousin Romney. I Who love my art would never wish it lower To suit my stature, I may love my art. You'll grant that even a woman may love art, Seeing that to waste true love on any thing Is womanly, past question." I retain The very last word which I said that day, As you the creaking of the door, years past, Which let upon you such disabling news You ever after have been graver. He, His eyes, the motions in his silent mouth, Were fiery points on which my words were caught, Transfixed forever in my memory For his sake, not their own. And yet I know I did not love him . . . nor he me . . . that's sure And what I said is unrepented of, As truth is always. Yet ... a princely man— If hard to me, heroic for himself. He bears down on me through the slanting years, The stronger for the distance. If he had loved. Ay, lov^ed me, with that retributive face, . . . I might have been a common woman now. And happier, less known, and less left alone. Perhaps a better woman, after all. With chubby children hanging on my neck To keep me low and wise. Ah me I the vines That bear such fruit are proud to stoop with it. The palm stands upright m a realm of sand. 44 Aurora Leigh. And I, who spoke the truth then, stand upright, Still worthy of having spoken out the truth, By being content I spoke it, though it set Him there, me here. Oh, woman's vile remorse, To hanker after a mere name, a show, A supposition, a potential love ! Does every man who names love in our lives Become a power for that ? Is love's true thing So much best to us, that what personates love Is next best ? A potential love forsooth ! I'm not so vile. No, no ! He cleaves, I think, This man, this image, chiefly for the wrong And shock he gave my life in finding me Precisely where the devil of my youth Had set me on those mountain peaks of hope, All glittering with the dawn-dew, all erect, And famished for the noon, exclaiming, while I looked for empire and much tribute, " Come, I have some worthy work for thee below. Come, sweep my barns, and keep my hospitals, And I will pay thee with a current coin Which men give women." As we spoke, the grass Was trod in haste beside us, and my aunt. With smile distorted by the sun, — face, voice, As much at issue with the summer-day As if you brought a candle out of doors, — Broke in with, " Romney, here ! — My child, entreat Your cousin to the house and have your talk, If girls must talk upon their birthdays. Come." He answered for me calmly, with pale lips That seemed to motion for a smile in vain. " The talk is ended, madam, where we stand. Your brother's daughter has dismissed me here ; And all my answer can be better said Beneath the trees than wrong by such a word Your house's hospitalities. Farewell." With that he vanished. I could hear his heel Ring bluntly in the lane as down he leapt The short way from us. Then a measured speech Withdrew me. " What means this, Aurora Leigh .■* My brother's daughter has dismissed my guests .-' " Aurora Leis:h. 'S'^' 45 The lion in me felt the keeper's voice Through all its quivering dewlaps : I was quelled Before her, meekened to the child she knew : I prayed her pardon, said " I had little thought To give dismissal to a guest of hers In letting go a friend of mine who came To take me into service as a wife, — No more than that, indeed." " No more, no more? Pray Heaven," she answered, " that I was not mad. I could not mean to tell her to her face That Romney Leigh had asked me for a wife, And I refused him ? " " Did he ask } " I said. " I think he rather stooped to take me up For certain uses which he found to do For something called a wife. He never asked." " What stuff ! " she answered. " Are they queens, these girls ? They must have mantles stitched with twenty silks, Spread out upon the ground, before they'll step One footstep for the noblest lover born." " But I am born," I said with firmness, ' I, To walk another way than his, dear aunt." " You walk, you walk ! A babe at thirteen months Will walk as well as you," she cried in haste. " Without a steadying finger. Why, you child, God help you ! you are groping in the dark. For all this sunlight. You suppose, perhaps. That you, sole offspring of an opulent man, Are rich, and free to choose a way to walk.'* You think, and it's a reasonable thought. That I, beside, being well to do in life. Will leave my handful in my niece's hand When death shall paralyze these fingers ? Pray, Pray, child, albeit 1 know you love me not. As if you loved me, that I may not die ; For when I die and leave you, out you go, (Unless I make room for you in my grave,) Unhoused, unfed, my dear, poor brother's lamb, 46 Aurora Leigh. (Ah, heaven 1 that pains ) without a right to crop A single blade of grass beneath these trees, Or cast a lamb's small shadow on the lawn, Unfed, unfolded. Ah, my brother, here's The fruit you planted in your foreign loves ! Ay, there's the fruit he planted I Never look Astonished at me with your mother's eyes, For it was they who set you where you are. An undowered orphan. Child, your father's choice Of that said mother disinherited His daughter, his and hers. Men do not think Of sons and daughters when they fall in love, So much more than of sisters : otherwise He would have paused to ponder what he did, And shrunk before that clause in the entail Excluding offspring by a foreign wife, (The clause set up a hundred years ago By a Leigh who wedded a French dancing-girl. And had his heart danced over in return ; ) But this man shrank at nothing, never thought Of you, Aurora, any more than me. Your mother must have been a pretty thing. For all the coarse Italian blacks and browns. To make a good man, which my brother was, Unchary of the duties to his house ; But so it fell indeed. Our cousin Vane, Vane Leigh, the father of this Romney, wrote, Directly on your birth, to Italy : ' I ask your baby-daughter for my son, In whom the entail now merges by the law, Betroth her to us out of love, instead Of colder reasons, and she shall not lose By love or law from henceforth : ' so he wrote. A generous cousin was my cousin Vane. Remember how he drew you to his knee The year you came here, just before he died, And hollowed out his hands to hold your cheeks, And wished them redder : you remember Vane .'' And now his son. who represents our house. And holds the fiefs and manors in his place. To whom reverts my pittance when I die, (Except a few books and a pair of shawls) — The boy is generous like him, and prepared To carry out his kindest word and thought Aurora Leigh. 47 To you, Aurora. Yes, a fine youn,«- man Is Romney Leigh, although the sun of youth Has shone too straight upon his brain, 1 know. And fevered him with dreams of doing good To good-for-nothing people. But a wife Will put all right, and stroke his temples cool With healthy touches," . . . I broke in at that. I could not lift my heavy heart to breathe Till then ; but then I raised it, and it fell In broken words like these, — " No need to wait : The dream of doing good to . . . me, at least, Is ended without waiting for a wife To cool the fever for him. We've escaped That danger — thank Heaven for it." " You," she cried, " Have got a fever. What, I talk and talk An hour long to you, I instruct you how You cannot eat, or drink, or stand, or sit. Or even die, like any decent wretch In all this unroofed and unfurnished world, Without your cousin, and you still maintain There's room 'twixt him and you for flirting fans, And running knots in eyebrows ? You must have A pattern lover sighing on his knee ? You do not count enough a noble heart (Above book-patterns) which this very morn Unclosed itself in two dear father's names To embrace your orphaned life .-* Fie, fie ! But stay, I write a word, and counteract this sin." She would have turned to leave me, but I clung. " Oh, sweet my father's sister, hear my word Before you write yours. Cousin Vane did well, And cousin Romney well, and I well too. In casting back with all my strength and will The good they meant me. O my God, my God ! God meant me good, too, when he hindered me From saying 'yes ' this morning. If you write A word, it shall be ' no.' I say no, no ! I tie up ' no ' upon his altar-horns Quite out of reach of perjury ! At least My soul is not a pauper : I can live At least my soul's life, without alms from men ; 48 Aurora Leigh, And if it must be in heaven instead of earth, Let heaven look to it : I am not afraid." She seized my hand with both hers, strained them fast, And drew her probing- and unscrupulous eyes Right through me, body and heart. " Yet, foolish sweet, You love this man. I've watched you when he came. And when he went, and when we've talked of him. I am not old for nothing ; I can tell The weather-signs of love : you love this man." Girls blush sometimes because they are alive, Half wishing they were dead to save the shame. The sudden blush devours them, neck and brow : They have drawn too near the fire of life, like gnats, And flare up bodily, wings and all. What then } Who's sorry for a gnat ... or girl ? I blushed. I feel the brand upon my forehead now Strike hot, sear deep, as guiltless men may feel The felon's iron, say, and scorn the mark Of what they are not. Most illogical, Irrational nature of our womanhood. That blushes one way, feels another way. And prays, perhaps, another. After all, W^e cannot be the equal of the male. Who rules his blood a little. For although I blushed indeed, as if I loved the man. And her incisive smile, accrediting That treason of false witness in my blush. Did bow me downward like a swathe of grass Below its level that struck me, I attest The conscious skies and all their daily suns, I think I loved him not, — nor then, nor since, Nor ever. Do we love the schoolmaster. Being busy in the woods } much less, being poor, The overseer of the parish ? Do we keep Our love to pay our debts with ? White and cold I grew next moment. As my blood recoiled From that imputed ignominy, I made My heart great with it. Then, at last, I spoke. Spoke veritable words, but passionate. Au7'ora Leizh. 49 We may call against the lighted windows of thy fair June heaven. 5© Aurora Leigh. Too passionate perhaps . . . ground up with sobs To shapeless endings. She let fall my hands And took her smile off in sedate disgust, As peradventure she had touched a snake, — • A dead snake, mind ! — and, turning round, replied, " We'll leave Italian manners, if you please. 1 think you had an English father, child. And ought to find it possible to speak A quiet 'yes ' or ' no,' like English girls. Without convulsions. In another month We'll take another answer, — no, or yes." With that, she left me in the garden-walk. I had a father ! yes, but long ago, — How long it seemed that moment! Oh, how far. How far and safe, God, dost thou keep thy saints, When once gone from us ! We may call against The lighted windows of thy fair June heaven. Where all the souls are happy, and not one. Not even my father, look from work or play To ask, "Who is it that cries after us Below there, in the dusk.'*" Yet formerly He turned his face upon me quick enough. If I said, "Father." Now I might cry loud : The little lark reached higher with his song Than I with crying. Oh, alone, alone. Not troubling any in heaven, nor any on earth, I stood there in the garden, and looked up The deaf blue sky that brings the roses out On such June mornings. You who keep account Of crisis and transition in this life. Set down the first time Nature says plain "no" To some " yes " in you, and walks over you In gorgeous sweeps of scorn. W^e all begin By singing with the birds, and running fast With June days, hand in hand ; but once, for all. The birds must sing against us, and the sun Strike down upon us like as friend's sword caught By an enemy to slay us, while we read The dear name on the blade which bites at us ! That's bitter and convincing. After that. We seldom doubt that something in the large. Smooth order of creation, though no more Than haply a man's footstep, has gone wrong. Aurora Leigh. 51 Some tears fell down my cheeks, and then I smiled, As those smile who have no face in the world To smile back to them. I had lost a friend In Romney Leigh. The thing was sure, — a friend Who had looked at me most gently now and then, And spoken of my favorite books, " our books," With such a voice ! Well, voice and look were now More utterly shut out from me, I felt. Than even my father's. Romney now was turned To a benefactor, to a generous man, Who had tied himself to marry . . . me, instead Of such a woman, with low timorous lids He lifted with a sudden word one day. And left, perhaps, for my sake. Ah, self-tied By a contract, male Iphigenia bound At a fatal Aulis for the winds to change, (But loose him, they'll not change,) he well might seem A little cold and dominant in love ; He had a right to be dogmatical, This poor, good Romney. Love to him was made A simple law-clause. If I married him, I should not dare to call my soul my own Which so he had bought and paid for : every thought And every heart-beat down there in the bill ; Not one found honestly deductible From any use that pleased him ! He might cut My body into coins to give away Among his other paupers : change my sons. While I stood dumb as Griseld, for black babes Or piteous foundlings ; might unquestioned set My right hand teaching in the ragged schools. My left hand washing in the public baths. What time my angel of the Ideal stretched Both his to me in vain. I could not claim The poor right of a mouse in a trap to squeal, And take so much as pity from myself. Farewell, good Romney ! if I loved you even. I could but ill afford to let you be So generous to me. Farewell, friend, since friend Betwixt us two, forsooth, must be a word So heavily overladen. And, since help Must come to me from those who love me not, Farewell, all helpers : I must help myself, ^2 Aurora Leigh. And am alone from henceforth. Then I stooped And Ufted the soiled garland from the earth, And set it on my head as bitterly As when the Spanish monarch crowned the bones Of his dead love. So be it. I preserve That crown still, in the drawer there : 'twas the first ; The rest are like it, those Olympian crowns We run for till we lose sight of the sun In the dust of the racing chariots. After that. Before the evening fell, I had a note. Which ran,—" Aurora, sweet Chaldai^an, you read My meaning backward, Uke your eastern books. While I am from the west, dear. Read me now A httle plainer. Did you hate me quite But yesterday } I loved you for my part ; I love you. If I spoke untenderly This morning, my beloved, pardon it. And comprehend me that I loved you so I set you on the level of my soul. And overwashed you with the bitter brine Of some habitual thoughts. Henceforth, my Hower, Be planted out of reach of any such. And lean the side you please with all your leaves. Write woman's verses and dream woman's dreams ; But let me feel your perfume in my home To make my sabbath after working-days. Bloom out your youth beside me ; be my wife." I wrote in answer : " We Chaldasans discern Still further than we read. I know your heart, And shut it like the holy book it is. Reserved for mild-eyed saints to pore upon Betwixt their prayers at vespers. Well, you're right, I did not surely hate you yesterday ; And yet I do not love you enough to-day To wed you, cousin Romney, Take this word. And let it stop you as a generous man From speaking further. You may tease, indeed, And blow about my feelings, or my leaves ; And here's my aunt will help 3'ou with east winds. And break a stalk, perhaps, tormenting me : But certain flowers grow near as deep as trees : And, cousin, you'll not move my root, not you, Aurora Leigh. 53 With all your confluent storms. Then let me grow Within my wayside hedge, and pass your way. This flower has never as much to say to you As the antique tomb which said to travellers, ' Pause, ' Sisfe, viator: " Ending thus, I sighed. The next week passed in silence, so the next, And several after : Romney did not come, Nor my aunt chide me. 1 lived on and on. As if my heart were kept beneath a glass. And everybodv stood, all eyes and ears To see and hear it tick. 1 could not sit. Nor walk, nor take a book, nor lay it down. Nor sew on steadily, nor drop a stitch And a sigh with it, but I felt her looks Still cleaving to me, like the sucking asp To Cleopatra's breast, persistently Through the intermittent pantings. Being observed When observation is not sympathy Is just being tortured. If she said a word, .^ A " thank you," or an " if it please you, dear, She meant a commination, or at best An exorcism against the devildom Which plainly held me. So with all the house. Susannah could not stand and twist my hair. Without such glancing at the looking-glass To see my face there, that she missed the plait. And John— I never sent my plate for soup, Or did not send it, but the foolish John Resolved the problem, 'twixt his napkined thumbs, Of what was signified by taking soup. Or choosing mackerel. Neighbors who dropped in On morning visits, feeling a joint wrong, Smiled admonition, sate uneasily, And talked with measured, emphasized reserve. Of parish news, like doctors to the sick, Wa-ien not called in,— as if, with leave to speak. They might say something. Nay, the very dog Would watch me from his sun-patch on the floor, In alternation with the large black fly Not yet in reach of snapping. So I lived. A Roman died so,— smeared with honey, teased By insects, stared to torture by the noon ; 54 Aurora Leigh. And many patient souls 'neath English roofs Have died like Romans. 1, in looking back, Wish only now I had borne the plague of all With meeker spirits than were rife at Rome. For on the sixth week the dead sea broke up, Dashed suddenly through beneath the heel of Him There I sate, and wished that morning-truce of God wollu LAST till E\E. Who stands upon the sea and earth, and swears Time shall be nevermore. The clock struck nme That morning too ; no lark was out of tune ; The hidden farms among the hills breathed straight Their smoke toward heaven ; the lime-tree scarcely stirred Beneath the blue weight of the cloudless sky, Though still the July air came floating through The woodbine at my window, in and out, With touches of the out-door country news For a bending forehead. There I sate, and wished That morning-truce of God would last till eve. Or longer. " Sleep," I thought, "late sleepers; sleep. And spare me yet the burden of your eyes." Then suddenly a single ghastly shriek Aurora Leigh. 55 Tore upward from the bottom of the house. Like one who wakens in a grave, and shrieks, The still house seemed to shriek itself alive. And shudder through its passages and stairs, With slam of doors and clash of bells. I sprang, I stood up in the middle of the room, And there confronted at my chamber-door A white face, — shivering, ineffectual lips. " Come, come ! " they tried to utter, and I went. As if a ghost had drawn me at the point Of a fiery finger through the uneven dark, I went with reeling footsteps down the stair, Nor asked a question. There she sate, my aunt, Bolt upright in the chair beside her bed. Whose pillow had no dint. She had used no bed For that night's sleeping, yet slept well. My God ! The dumb derision of that gray, peaked face Concluded something grave against the sun. Which filled the chamber with its July burst, When Susan drew the curtains, ignorant Of who sate open-eyed behind her. There She sate ... it sate . . . we said " she " yesterday . . . And held a letter with unbroken seal. As Susan gave it to her hand last night. All night she had held it. If its news referred To duchies or to dunghills, not an inch She'd budge, 'twas obvious, for such worthless odds ; Nor, though the stars were suns, and overburned Their spheric limitations, swallowing up Like wax the azure spaces, could they force Those open eyes to wink once. What last sight Had left them blank and flat so, drawing out The faculty of vision from the roots. As nothing more, worth seeing, remained behind ? Were those the eyes that watched me, worried me } That dogged me up and down the hours and days, A beatenr breathless, miserable soul ? And did I pray, a half-hour back, but so. To escape the burden of those eyes . . . those eyes . " Sleep late," I said.— Why now, indeed, they sleep. God answers sharp and sudden on some prayers, And thrusts the tiling we have prayed for m our face. 56 Aurora Leigh. A gauntlet with a gift in't. Every wish Is like a prayer, with God. I had my wish, To read and meditate the thing I would. To fashion all my life upon my thought, And marry, or not marry. Henceforth none Could disapprove me, vex me, hamper me. Full ground-room in this desert newly made. For Babylon or Balbec, when the breath. Now choked with sand, returns for building towns. The heir came over on the funeral day. And we two cousins met before the dead With two pale faces. Was it death, or life, That moved us ? When the will was read and done, The official guests and witnesses withdrawn, We rose up, in a silence almost hard, And looked at one another. Then I said, " Farewell, my cousin." But he touched, just touched My hatstrings tied for going (at the door The carriage stood to take me), and said low. His voice a little unsteady through his smile, ''Siste, viator y " Is there time," 1 asked, " In these last days of railroads, to stop short, Like Csesar's chariot (weighing half a ton,) On the Appian road, for morals ? " " There is time," He answered grave, " for necessary words. Inclusive, trust me, of no epitaph On man or act, my cousin. We have read A will which gives you all the personal goods And funded moneys of your aunt." " I thank Her memory for it. With three hundred pounds. We buy in England, even, clear standing-room To stand and work in. Only two hours since I fancied I was poor." " And, cousin, still You're richer than you fancy. The will says, T/i?'ee himdred pounds, and arty other sum Of which the said testatrix dies possessed. I say she died possessed of other sums." Aurora Leigh. 57 " Dear Romney, need we chronicle the pence ? I'm richer than I thought: that's evident. Enough so." " Listen, rather. You've to do With business and a cousin," he resumed ; " And both, I fear, need patience. Here's the fact. The other sum (there is another sum. Unspecified in any will which dates After possession, yet bequeathed as much And clearly as those said three hundred pounds) Is thirty thousand. You will have it paid _^ When ? . . . where? My duty troubles you with words. He struck the iron when the bar was hot : No wonder if my eyes sent out some sparks. " Pause there ! I thank you. You are delicate In glozing gifts ; but I, who share your blood, Am rather made for giving, like yourself, Than taking, like your pensioners. Farewell." He stopped me with a gesture of calm pride. " A Leigh," he said, " gives largesse, and gives love, But glozes never : if a Leigh could gloze. He would not do it, moreover, to a Leigh, With blood trained up along nine centuries To hound and hate a lie from eyes like yours. And now we'll make the rest as clear. Your aunt Possessed these moneys." " You will make it clear, My cousin, as the honor of us both. Or one of us speaks vainly. That's not I. My aunt possessed this sum— inherited From whom, and when ? Bring documents, prove dates." " Why, now indeed you throw your bonnet off As if you had time left for a logarithm ! The faith's the want. Dear cousin, give me faith, And you shall walk this road with silken shoes. As clean as any lady of our house Supposed the proudest. Oh, I comprehend The whole position from your point of sight. I oust you from your father's halls and lands, And make you poor by getting rich— that's law ; Considering which, in common circumstance 58 Aurora Leigh. You would not scruple to accept from me Some compensation, some sufficiency Of income— that were justice ; but, alas ! I love you— that's mere nature ; you reject My love — that's nature also ; and at once You cannot, from a suitor disallowed, A hand thrown back, as mine is, into yours, Receiv^e a doit, a farthing, — not for the world ! That's woman's etiquette, and obviously Exceeds the claim of nature, law, and right, Unanswerable to all. I grant, you see, The case as you conceive it ; leave you room To sweep your ample skirts of womanhood, While, standing humbly squeezed against the wall, I own myself excluded from being just. Restrained from paying indubitable debts, Because denied from giving you my soul. That's my misfortune. I submit to it As if, in some more reasonable age, ' Twould not be less inevitable. Enough. You'll trust me, cousin, as a gentleman, To keep your honor, as you count it, pure. Your scruples ( just as if I thought them wise) Safe, and inviolate from gifts of mine." I answered mild but earnest : " I believe In no one's honor which another keeps. Nor man's nor woman's. As I keep, myself, My truth and my religion, I depute No father, though I had one this side death. Nor brother, though I had twenty, much less you. Though twice my cousin, and once Romney Leigh, To keep my honor pure. You face to-day A man who wants instruction, mark me, not A woman who wants protection. As to a man, Show manhood, speak out plainly, be precise With facts and dates. My aunt inherited This sum, you say "— " I said she died possessed Of this, dear cousin." " Not by heritage. Thank you : we're getting to the facts at last. Perhaps she played at commerce with a ship Which came in heavy with Australian gold .'' Aurora Lei^h '^'''- 59 Or touched a lottery with her finger-end, Which tumbled on a sudden into her lap Some old Rhine tower or principality ? Perhaps she had to do with a marine Sub-transatlantic railroad which prepays As well as presupposes ? or perhaps Some stale ancestral debt was afterpaid By a hundred years, and took her by surprise? You shake your head, my cousin : 1 guess ill." " You need not guess, Aurora, nor deride : The truth is not afraid of hurting you. You'll find no cause in all your scruples, why Your aunt should cavil at a deed of gift 'Twixt her and me." " I thought so— ah ! a gift." " You naturally thought so," he resumed. " A very natural gift." A gift, a gift Her individual life being stranded high Above all want, approaching opulence, Too haughty was she to accept a gift Without some ultimate aim. Ah, ah, I see ! — A gift intended plainly for her heirs. And so accepted . . .' if accepted . . . ah, Indeed that might be : I am snared perhaps Just so. But, cousin, shall I pardon you. If thus you have caught me with a cruel springe ? " He answered gently, " Need you tremble and pant Like a netted lioness ? Is 't my fault, mine. That you're a grand wild creature of the woods. And hate the stall built for you ? Any way. Though triply netted, need you glare at me ? I do not hold the cords of such a net : You're free from me, Aurora." " Now may God Deliver me from this strait ! This gift of yours Was tendered . . . when .^ accepted . . . when .^ " I asked. " A month ... a fortnight since ? Six weeks ago It was not tendered : by a word she dropped I know it was not tendered nor received. When was it ? Bring your dates." 6o Aurora Leis^h. " What matters when ? A half-hour ere she died, or a half-year, Secured the gift, maintains the heritage Inviolable with law. As easy pluck The golden stars from heaven's embroidered stole To pin them on the gray side of this earth, As make you poor again, thank God I " " Not poor Nor clean again from henceforth, you thank God ? Well, sir — I ask you ... I insist at need . . . Vouchsafe the special date, the special date." " The day before her death-day," he replied, " The gift was in her hands. We'll find that deed, And certify that date to you." As one Who has climbed a mountain-height, and carried up His own heart climbing, panting, in his throat With the toil of the ascent, takes breath at last. Looks back in triumph, so I stood and looked. " Dear cousin Romney, we have reached the top Of this steep question, and may rest, I think. But first, I pray you pardon that the shock And surge of natural feeling and event Has made me oblivious of acquainting you That this — this letter (unread, mark, still sealed) Was found infolded in the poor dead hand. That spirit of hers had gone beyond the address, Which could not find her, though you wrote it clear. 1 know your writing, Romney, — recognize The open-hearted A, the liberal sweep Of the G. Now listen. Let us understand : You will not find that famous deed of gift. Unless you find it in the letter here, Which, not being mine, I give you back. Refuse ^ To take the letter.^ Well, then, you and I, As writer and as heiress, open it ' Together, by your leave. Exactly so : The words in which the noble offering's made Are nobler still, my cousin ; and I own The proudest and most delicate heart alive. Distracted from the measure of the gift By such a grace in giving, might accept Your largesse, without thinking any more Aurora Leisrh. 6i Of the burthen of it than King Solomon Considered, when he wore his holy ring- Charactered over with the ineffable spell, How many carats of tine gold made up Its money-value. So Leigh gives to Leigh ! 'Or rather might have given, observe, — for that's The point we come to. Here's a proof of gift ; But here's no proof, sir, of acceptancy. But. rather, disproof. Death's black dust, being blown, Infiltrated through every secret fold Of this sealed letter by a puff of fate. Dried up forever the fresh-written ink. Annulled the gift, disutilized the grace, ^ - It fluttered from my hands. And left these fragments." As I spoke, I tore The paper up and down, and down and up. And crosswise, till it fluttered from my hands, As forest-leaves, stripped suddenly, and rapt By a whirlwind on Valdarno, drop again, — Drop slow, and strew the melancholy ground Before the amazed hills . . . why so, indeed, 62 Aurora Leigh. I'm writing like a poet, somewhat large In the type of the image, and exaggerate A small thing with a great thing, topping it ; But then I'm thinking how his eyes looked, his, With what despondent and surprised reproach ! I think the tears were in them as he looked ; I think the manly mouth just trembled. Then He broke the silence. " I may ask, perhaps, Although no stranger . . . only Romney Leigh, Which means still less . . . than Vincent Carrington, Your plcns in going hence, and where you go. This cannot be a secret.' " All my life Is open to 3'ou, cousin. I go hence To London, to the gathering-place of souls. To live mine straight out, vocally, in books ; Harmoniously for others, if indeed A woman's soul, like man's, be wide enough To carry the whole octave (that's to prove) ; Or, if I fail, still purely for myself. Pray God be with me, Romney." " Ah, poor child ! Who fight against the mother's 'tiring hand. And choose the headsman's. May God change his world For your sake, sweet, and make it mild as heaven, And juster than I have found you." But I paused. " And you, my cousin } " " I," he said — " you ask .'* You care to ask } Well, girls have curious minds. And fain would know the end of everything. Of cousins, therefore, with the rest. For me, Aurora, I've my work : you know my work ; And, having missed this year some personal hope, I must beware the rather that I miss No reasonable duty. While you sing Your happy pastorals of the meads and trees, Bethink you that I go to impress and prove On stified brains and deafened ears, stunned deaf. Crushed dull with grief, that nature sings itself, And needs no mediate poet, lute, or voice To make it vocal. While you ask of men Your audience, I may get their leave, perhaps. Aurora Leigh. 63 For hungry orphans to say audibly, ' We're hungry, see ; ' for beaten and bullied wives To hold their unweaned babies up in sight, Whom orphanage would better ; and for all To speak and claim their portion ... by no means Of the soil . . . but of the sweat in tilling it ; Since this is nowadays turned privilege. To have onlv God's curse on us, and not man's. Such work I'have for doing, elbow-deep In social problems, as you tie your rhymes, To draw my uses to cohere with needs, And bring the uneven world back to its round, Or, failing so much, fill up. bridge at least To smoother issues, some abysmal cracks And feuds of earth intestine heats have made To keep men separate, using sorry shifts Of hospitals, almshouses, infant schools. And other practical stuff of partial good You lovers of the beautiful and whole Despise by svstem." " / despise ? The scorn Is yours, my cousin. Poets become such Through scorning nothing. You decry them for The good of beauty sung and taught by them ; While they respect your practical partial good As being a part of beauty's self. Adieu ! When God helps all the workers for his world. The singers shall have help of him, not last." He smiled as men smile when they will not speak Because of something bitter in the thought ; And still I feel his melancholy eyes Look judgment on me. It is seven years since. I know not if 'twas pity or 'twas scorn Has made them so far-reaching : judge it. ye Who have had to do with pity more than love. And scorn than hatred. I am used, since then To other ways from equal men. But so. Even so, we let go hands, my cousin and I, And in between us rushed the torrent world To blanch our faces like divided rocks, And bar forever mutual sight and touch. Except through swirl of spray and all that roar. 64 Aurora Lcigfi. THIRD BOOK. " To-day thou girdest up thy loins thyself, And goest where thou wouldest : presently Others shall gird thee," said the Lord, " to go Where thou would'st not." He spoke to Peter thus, To signify the death which he should die When crucified head downward. If he spoke To Peter then, he speaks to us the same. The word suits many different martyrdoms. And signifies a multiform of death. Although we scarcely die apostles, we, And have mislaid the keys of heaven and earth. For 'tis not in mere death that men die most ; And, after our first girding of the loins In youth's fine linen and fair broidery To run up hill and meet the rising sun. We are apt to sit tired, patient as a fool. While others gird us with the violent bands Of social figments, feints, and formalisms. Reversing our straight nature, lifting up Our base needs, keeping down our lofty thoughts, Head downward on the cross-sticks of the world. Yet he can pluck us from that shameful cross. God, set our feet low and our forehead high, And show us how a man was made to walk ! Leave the lamp, Susan, and go up to bed: The room does very well. I have to write Beyond the stroke of midnight. Get away: Your steps, forever buzzing in the room. Tease me like gnats. Ah, letters ! Throw them down At once, as I must have them, to be sure, Whether I bid you never bring me such At such an hour, or bid you. No excuse : You choose to bring them, as I choose, perhaps, To throw them in the fire. Now get to bed. And dream, if possible, I am not cross. Why, what a pettish, petty thing I grow !— A mere, mere woman, a mere fiaccid nerve. Aurora Leigh. 65 A kerchief left out all night in the rain. Turned soft so, — overtasked and overstrained And overlived in this close London life. And yet I should be stronger. Never burn Your letters, poor Aurora ; for they stare With red seals from the table, saying each, " Here's something that you know not." Out, alas ! 'Tis scarcely that the world's more good and wise, Or even straighter and more consequent, Since yesterday at this time ; yet, again, If but one angel spoke from Ararat, I should be very sorry not to hear : So open all the letters, let me read. Blanche Ord, the writer in the " Lady's Fan," Requests my judgment on . . . that, afterwards. Kate Ward desires the model of my cloak, And signs, " Elisha to you." Pringle Sharpe Presents his work on " Social Conduct," craves A little money for his pressing debts . . . From me, who scarce have money for my needs; Art's fiery chariot which we journey in Being apt to singe our singing-robes to holes. Although you ask me for my cloak, Kate Ward. Here's Rudgely knows it, editor and scribe: He's " forced to marry where his heart is not. Because the purse lacks where he lost his heart." Ah — lost it because no one picked it up : That's really loss (and passable imprudence). My critic Hammond flattens prettily. And wants another volume like the last. My critic Bel fair wants another book Entirely diffsrent, which will sell, (and live ?) A striking book, yet not a startling book. The public blames originalities, (You must not pump spring-water unawares Upon a gracious public full of nerves :) Good things, not subtle, new yet orthodox. As easy reading as the dog-eared page That's fingered by said public fifty years. Since first taught spelling by its grandmother, And yet a revelation in some sort : That's hard, my critic Belfair. So — what next ? JMy critic Stokes objects to abstract thoughts. 66 Aurora Leigh. " Call a man John, a woman Joan," says he " And do not prate so of humaiiities : " Whereat I call my critic simply Stokes. My critic Jobson recommends more mirth. Because a cheerful genius suits the times, And all true poets laugh unquenchably Like Shakspeare and the gods. That's very hard. The gods may laugh, and Shakspeare , Dante smiled With such a needy heart on two pale lips. We cry, "Weep, rather, Dante." Poems are Men, if true poems ; and who dares exclaim At any man's door, " Here, 'tis understood The thunder fell last week and killed a wife, And -scared a sickly husband : what of that .'* Get up, be merry, shout, and clap your hands, Because a cheerful genius suits the times ? None says so to the man ; and why, indeed. Should any to the poem ? A ninth seal ; The apocalypse is drawing to a close. Ha — this from Vincent Carrington, — " Dear friend, I want good counsel. Will you lend me wings To raise me to the subject in a sketch I'll bring to-morrow — may I ? — at eleven .'* A poet's only born to turn to use. So save you ! for the world . . . and Carrington." (Writ after.) " Have you heard of Romney Leigh, Beyond what's said of him in newspapers. His phalansteries there, his speeches here. His pamphlets, pleas, and statements everywhere ? He dropped ///£' long ago ; but no one drops A golden apple, though, indeed, one day You hinted that, but jested. Well, at least You know Lord Howe, who sees him . . . whom he sees, Andjou see, and I hate to see, — for Howe Stands high upon the brink of theories. Observes the swimmers, and cries, ' Very fine !' But keeps dry linen equally, — unlike That gallant breaster, Romney. Strange it is. Such sudden madness seizing a young man To make earth over again, while I'm content To make the pictures. Let me bring the sketch : A tiptoe Danae, overbold and hot. Both arms aflame to meet her wishing Jove Halfwav, and burn him faster down ; the face Aurora Leish. 67 The loose locks all glowing with the anticipated gold. And breasts upturned and straining, the loose locks All glowing with the anticipated gold. Or here's another on the self-same theme. She lies here, flat upon her prison-floor, The long hair swathed about her to the heel Like wet seaweed. You dimly see her through The glittering haze of that prodigious rain, Half blotted out of nature by a love As heavy as fate. I'll bring you either sketch. I think, myself, the second indicates More passion." Surely. Self is put away, And calm with abdication. She is Jove, And no more Danae — greater thus. Perhaps The painter symbolizes unaware Two states of the recipient artist-soul, One, forward, personal, wanting reverence, Because aspiring only. We'll be calm. And know, that, when indeed our Joves come down, We all turn stiller than we have ever been. Kind Vincent Carrington. I'll let him come. He talks of Florence, and may say a word Of something as it chanced seven years ago, — A hedgehog in the path, or a lame bird. In those green country walks, in that good time When certainly I was so miserable . . . I seem to have missed a blessing ever since. The music soars within the little lark, And the lark soars. It is not thus with men. 68 Aurora Leigh. We do not make our places with our strains, Content, while they rise, to remain behind Alone on earth, instead of so in heaven. No matter : I bear on my broken tale. When Romney Leig-h and I had parted thus, I took a chamber up three flights of stairs Not far from being as steep as some larks climb, And there, in a certain house in Kensington, Three years I lived and worked. Get leave to work In this 'world— 'tis the best you get at all ; For God, in cursing, gives us better gifts Than men in benediction. God says, " Sweat For foreheads : " men say, " Crowns." And so we are crowned. Ay, gashed by some tormenting circle of steel Which snaps with a secret spring. Get work, get work ! Be sure 'tis better than what you work to get. Serene, and unafraid of solitude. I worked the short days out, and watched the sun On lurid morns or monstrous afternoons (Like some Druidic idol's fiery brass. With fixed unflickering outline of dead heat. From which the blood of wretches pent inside Seems oozing forth to incarnadine the air) Push out through fog with his dilated disk. And startle the slant roofs and chimney-pots With splashes of fierce color. Or I saw Fog only — the great tawny weltering fog — Involve the passive city, strangle it Alive, and draw it off into the void, — Spires, bridges, streets, and squares,— as if a sponge Had wiped out London, or as noon and night Had clapped together, and utterly struck out The intermediate time, undoing themselves In the act. Your city poets see such things Not despicable. Mountains of the south. When, drunk and mad with elemental wines They rend the seamless mist, and stand up bare, Make fewer singers, haply. No one sings. Descending Sinai : on Parnassus-mount You take a mule to climb, and not a muse. Except in fable and figure : forests chant Aurora Leigh. 69 Their anthems to themselves, and leave you diunb. But sit in London at the day's decline, And view the city perish in the mist Like Pharaoh's armaments in the deep Red Sea, The chariots, horsemen, footmen, all the host. Sucked down and choked to silence — then, surprised By a sudden sense of vision and of tune, You feel as conquerors, though you did not fight ; And you and Israel's other singing girls. Ay. Miriam with them, sing the song you choose. I worked with patience, which means almost power, I did some excellent things indifferently, Some bad things excellently. Both were praised. The latter loudest. And by such a time That I myself had set them down as sins Scarce worth the price of sackcloth, week by week Arrived some letter through the sedulous post, Like these Lve read, and yet dissimilar. With pretty maiden seals, — initials twined Of lilies, or a heart marked Etnily, (Convicting Emily of being all heart ;) Or rarer tokens from young bachelors, Who wrote from college with the same goosequill. Suppose, they had just been plucked of, and a snatch From Horace, " Collegisse juvat," set Upon the first page. Many a letter, signed Or unsigned, showing the writers at eighteen Had lived too long, although a muse should help Their dawn by holding candles, — compliments To smile or sigh at. Such could pass with me No more than coins from Moscow circulate At Paris : would ten roubles buy a tag Of ribbon on the boulevard, worth a sou ? I smiled that all this youth should love me, sighed That such a love could scarcely raise them up To love what was more worthy than myself ; Then sighed again, again, less generously, To think the very love they lavished so Proved me inferior. The strong loved me not, And he . . . my cousin Romney . . . did not write. I felt the silent finger of his scorn Prick every bubble of my frivolous fame As my breath blew it, and resolve it back yo Aurora Leigh. To the air it came from. Oh, I justified The measure he had taken of my height : The thing was plain — he was not wrong a line ; I played at art, made thrusts with a toy-sword. Amused the lads and maidens. Came a sigh Deep, hoarse with resolution, — I would work To better ends, or play in earnest. " Heavens, I think I should be almost popular If this went on I " — I ripped my verses up, And found no blood upon the rapier's point ; The heart in them was just an embryo's heart. Which never yet had beat, that it should die ; Just gasps of make-believe galvanic life ; Mere tones, inorganized to any tune. And yet I felt it in me where it burnt. Like those hot hre-seeds of creation held In Jove's clinched palm before the worlds were sown ; But I — I was not Juno even ! my hand Was shut in weak convulsion, woman's ill ; And when I yearned to loose a finger — lo. The nerve revolted. 'Tis the same even now : This hand may never haply open large. Before the spark is quenched, or the palm charred, To prove tb.e power not else than by the pain. It burnt, it burns — my whole life burnt with it; And light, not sunlight and not torchlight, flashed My steps out through the slow and difficult road. I had grown distrustful of too forward springs. The season's books in drear significance Of morals, dropping round me. Lively books } The ash has livelier verdure than the yew ; And yet the yews green longer, and alone Found worthy of the holy Christmas time : We'll plant more yews if possible, albeit We plant the gtaveyards with them. Day and night I worked my rhythmic thought, and furrowed up Both watch and slumber with long lines of life Which did not suit their season. The rose fell From either cheek, my eyes globed luminous Through orbits of blue shadow, and my pulse Aurora Leigh. 71 Would shudder along the purple veined wrist Like a shot bird. Youth's stern, set face to face With youth's ideal ; and when people came And said, " You work too much, you are looking ill," I smiled for pity of them who pitied me. And thought I should be better soon, perhaps. For those ill looks. Observe, " I " means in youth Just /, the conscious and eternal soul With all its ends, and not the outside life. The parcel-man, the doublet of the llesh. The so much liver, lung, integument, Which make the sum of " I " hereafter, when World-talkers talk of doing well or ill. /prosper if I gain a step, although A nail then pierced my foot : although my brain. Embracing any truth, froze paralyzed, /prosper : I but change my instrument ; I break the spade off, digging deep for gold, And catch the mattock up. I worked on, Through all the bristling fence of nights and days Which hedges time in from the eternities I struggled, never stopped to note the stakes Which hurt me in my course. The midnight oil Would stink sometimes; there came some vulgar needs I had to live that therefore I might work. And, being but poor, I was constrained, for life. To work with one hand for the booksellers While working with the other for myself And art : you swim with feet, as well as hands. Or make small way. I apprehended this. In England no one lives by verse that lives ; And, apprehending, I resolved by prose To make a space to sphere my living verse. I wrote for cyclopaedias, magazines. And weekly papers, holding up my name To keep it from the mud. I learnt the use Of the editorial " we " in a review. As courtly ladies the hne trick of trains. And swept it grandly through the open doors. As if one could not pass through doors at all, Save so encumbered. I wrote tales beside. Carved many an article on cherry-stones To suit light readers, — something in the lines 72 Auro?-a Leizh. Revealing, it was said, the mallet-hand ; But that I'll never vouch for. What you do For bread will taste of common grain, not grapes, Although you have a vineyard in Champagne, Much less in Nephelococcygia, As mine was, peradventure. Having bread For just so many days, just breathing-room For body and verse, I stood up straight, and worked My veritable work. And as the soul Which grows within a child makes the child grow, Or as the fiery sap, the touch from God, Careering through a tree, dilates the bark. And roughs with scale and knob, before it strikes The summer-foliage out in a green flame, So life, in deepening with me, deepened all The course I took, the work I did. Indeed, The academic law convinced of sin : The critics cried out on the falling off. Regretting the first manner. But I felt My heart's life throbbing in my verse to show It lived, it also — certes incomplete, Disordered with all Adam in the blood. But even its very tumors, warts, and wens Still organized by and implying life. A lady called upon me on such a day. She had the low voice of your English dames, — Unused, it seems, to need rise half a note To catch attention, — and their quiet mood, As if they lived too high above the earth For that to put them out in anything : So gentle, because verily so proud ; So wary and afraid of hurting you. By no means that you are not really vile. But that they w^ould not touch you with their foot To push you to your place ; so self-possessed. Yet gracious and conciliating, it takes An effort in iheir presence to speak truth : You know the sort of woman, — brilliant stuff. And out of nature. " Lady Waldemar." She said her name quite simply, as if it meant Not much, indeed, but something; took my hands. And smiled as if her sm.ile could help my case, Aurora Leigh. 73 And dropped her eyes on me, and let them melt. " Is this," she said, " the muse ? " " No sibyl, even," I answered, " since she fails to guess the cause Which taxed you with this visit, madam." *' Good," She said. " I value what's sincere at once. Perhaps, if I had found a literal muse. The visit might have taxed me. As it is. You wear your blue so chiefly in your eyes. My fair Aurora, in a frank, good way. It comforts me entirely for your fame, As well as for the trouble of ascent To this Olympus." There a silver laugh Ran rippling through her quickened little breaths The steep stair somewhat justified. *' But still Your ladyship has left me curious why You dared the risk of finding the said muse } " " Ah, keep me, notwithstanding, to the point, Like any pedant ? Is the blue in eyes As awful, as in stockings, after all, I wonder, that you'd have my business out Before I breathe — exact the epic plunge In spite of gasps .^ Well, naturally you think I've come here, as the lion-hunters go To deserts, to secure you with a trap For exhibition in my drawing-rooms On zoologic soirees ? not in the least. Roar softly at me : I am frivolous, I dare say ; I have played at wild-beast shows Like other women of my class, — but now I meet my lion simply as Androcles Met his . . . when at his mercy." So, she bent Her head as queens may mock, then, lifting up Her eyelids with a real grave queenly look, Which ruled, and would not spare, not even herself, — " I think you have a cousin, — Romney Leigh." " You bring a word from h/ml^ " — my eyes leapt up To the very height of hers,^^",4 word from /ii'mf" 74 Aurora Leigh. " I bring a word about him actually. But first " (she pressed me with her urgent eyes), " You do not love him, — you ? " " You're frank at least In putting questions, madam," I replied. " I love my cousin cousinly — no more." " I guessed as much. I'm ready to be frank In answering also, if you'll question me. Or even for something less. You stand outside, You artist women, of the common sex ; You share not with us, and exceed us so Perhaps by what you're mulcted in, your hearts Being starved to make your heads : so run the old Traditions of you. I can therefore speak Without the natural shame which creatures feel, When speaking on their level, to their like. There's many a papist she, would rather die Than own to her maid she put a ribbon on To catch the indifferent eye of such a man. Who yet would count adulteries on her beads At holy Mary's shrine, and never blush, Because the saints are so far off we lose All modesty before them. Thus to-day. 'Tis / love Romney Leigh." " Forbear ! " I cried. " If here's no muse, still less is any saint. Nor even a friend, that Lady Waldemar Should make confessions "... " That's unkindly said. If no friend, w'hat forbids to make a friend To join to our confession, ere we have done } I love your cousin. If it seems unwise To say so, it's still foolisher (we're frank) To feel so. My first husband left me young. And pretty enough, so please you, and rich enough To keep my booth in May-fair with the rest To happy issues. There are marquises Would serve seven years to call me wife, I know, And after seven I might consider it, For there's some comfort in a marquisate, When all's said, — yes, but after the seven years ; I now love Romney. You put up your lip So like a Leigh ! so like him ! Pardon me, Aurora Leigh. 75 I'm well aware I do not derogate In loving Romney Leigh. The name is good, The means are excellent ; but the man, the man- Heaven help us both,— I am near as mad as he In loving such an one." She slowly swuug Her heavy ringlets till they touched her smile. As reasonably sorry for herself. And thus continued :— " Of a truth, ^ Miss Leigh, I have not without struggle come to this. 1 took a master in the German tongue, I gamed a little, went to Paris twice ; But, after all, this love ! . . . you eat of love, And do as vile a thing as if you ate Of garlic, which, whatever else you eat. Tastes uniformly acrid, till your peach Reminds you of your onion. Am I coarse ? Well, love's coarse, nature's coarse. Ah, there's the rub I We fair fine ladies, who park out our lives From common sheep-paths, cannot help the crows From flying over : we're as natural still As Blowsalinda. Drape us perfectly In Lyons velvet, we are not for that Lay-figures, look you : we have hearts within, — Warm, live, improvident, indecent hearts. As ready for outrageous ends and acts As any distressed seamstress of them all That Romney groans and toils for. We catch love, And other fevers, in the vulgar way. Love will not be outwitted by our wit. Nor outrun by our equipages : mine Persisted, spite of efforts. All my cards Turned up but Romney Leigh ; my German stopped At germane Wertherism ; my Paris rounds Returned me from the Champs Elysees just A ghost, and sighing like Dido's. I came home Uncured, convicted rather to myself Of being in love ... in love ! That's coarse, you'll say, I'm talking garlic." Coldly I replied; " Apologize for atheism, not love ! For me, I do believe in love, and God. 76 Aurora Leigh. I know my cousin ; Lady Waldemar I know not : yet 1 say as much as this, — Whoever loves him, let her not excuse. But cleanse herself, that, loving such a man, She may not do it with such unworthy love He cannot stoop and take it." That is said Austerely, like a youthful prophetess, Who knits her brows across her pretty eyes To keep them back from following the gray flight Of doves between the temple-columns. Dear, Be kmder with me : let us two be friends. I'm a mere woman, — the more weak, perhaps. Through being so proud ; you're better ; as for him, He's best. Indeed, he builds his goodness up So high, it topples down to the other side. And makes a sort of badness : there's the worst I have to say against your cousin's best. And so be mild, Aurora, with my worst, For his sake, if not mine." Incredulous of confidence like this Availing him or you." " I own myself And I, myself. Of being worthy of him with any love : In your sense I am not so ; let it pass. And yet I save him if I marry him ; Let that pass too." " Pass, pass ! we play police Upon my cousin's life to indicate What may or may not pass ? " I cried. " He knows What's worthy of him : the choice remains with ////// ; And what he chooses, act or wife, I think I shall not call unworthy, I, for one." " 'Tis somewhat rashly said," she answered slow. " Now let's talk reason, though we talk of love. Your cousin Romney Leigh's a monster : there, The word's out fairly, let me prove the fact. We'll take, say, that' most perfect of antiques They call the Genius of the Vatican, W^hich seems too beauteous to endure itself In this mixed world, and fasten it for once Upon the torso of the Dancing Faun, Aurora Leigh. 77 (Who might limp, surely, if he did not dance,) Instead of Buonarroti's mask ; what then ? We show the sort of monster Romney is, With godlike virtues and heroic aims Subjoined to limping possibilities Of mismade human nature. Grant the man Twice godlike, twice heroic, still he limps ; And here's the point we come to." Pardon me But, Lady Waldemar, the point's tbe thing We never come to." " Caustic, insolent At need ! I like you," — (there she took my hands) " And now, my lioness, help Androcles, For all your roaring. Help me ' for myself I would not say so, but for him. He limps So certainly, he'll fall into the pit A week hence, — so I lose him, so he is lost ! For when he's fairly married, he a Leigh, To a girl of doubtful life, undoubtful birth. Starved out in London till her coarse-grained hands Are whiter than her morals, even you May call his choice unworthy." " Married ! lost ! He . . . Romney! " " Ah, you're moved at last," she said. " These monsters, set out in the open sun, Of course throw monstrous shadows : those who think Awry will scarce act straightly. Who but he ? And who but you can wonder ? He has been mad. The whole world knows, since first, a nominal man. He soured the proctors, tried the gownsmen's wits With equal scorn of triangles and wine. And took no honors, yet was honorable. They'll tell you he lost count of Homer's ships In Melbourne's poor-bills ; Ashley's factory-bills ; Ignored the Aspasia we all dare to praise. For other women, dear, we could not name Because we're decent. Well, he had some right On his side, probably : men always have. Who go absurdly wrong. The living boor Who brews your ale exceeds in vital worth Dead Csesarwho ' stops bungholes ' in the cask. And also, to do good is excellent, 78 Au?ora Leigh. For persons of his income, even to boors. I sympathize with all such things. But he Went mad upon them . . . madder and more mad Yxoxw college times to these, as, going down hill, The faster still, the farther. You must know Your Leigh by heart : he has sown his black young curls With bleaching cares of half a million men Already. If you do not starve, or sin, You're nothing to him : pay the income-tax. And break your heart upon't, he'll scarce be touched ; But come upon the parish, qualified For the parish stocks, and Romney will be there To call you brother, sister, or perhaps A tenderer name still. Had I any chance With Mister Leigh, who am Lady Waldemar, And never committed felony } " " You speak Too bitterly," I said, " for the literal truth." " The truth is bitter. Here's a man who looks Forever on the ground. You must be low. Or else a pictured ceiling overhead. Good painting thrown away. For me, I've done What women may : we're somewhat limited. We modest women ; but I've done my best. — How men are perjured when they swear our eyes Have meaning in them ! They're just blue or brown. They just can drop their lids a little. And yet Mine did more ; for I read half Fourier through, Proudhon, Considerant, and Louis Blanc, With various others of his socialists. And, if I had been a fathom less in love. Had cured myself with gaping. As it was, I quoted from them prettily enough. Perhaps, to make them sound half rational To a saner man than he whene'er we talked, (For which I dodged occasion ; ) learnt by heart His speeches in the Commons and elsewhere LIpon the social question ; heaped r'eports Of wicked women and penitentiaries On all my tables (with a place for Sue) ; And gave my name to swell subscription-lists Toward keeping up the sun at nights in heaven. And other possible ends. All things I did. Aurora Leigh. 79 Except the impossible . . . such as wearing gowns Provided by the Ten Hours' movement : there I stopped — we must stop somewhere. He, meanwhile, Unmoved as the Indian tortoise 'neath the world, Let all that noise go on upon his back. He would not disconcert or throw me out ; 'Twas well to see a woman of my class With such a dawn of conscience. P'or the heart Made firewood for his sake, and flaming up To his face, — he merely warmed his feet at it : Just deigned to let my carriage stop him short In park or street, he leaning on the door With news of the committee which sate last On pickpockets at suck," " You jest, you jest." " As martyrs jest, dear (if you read their lives) Upon the axe which kills them. When all's done By me . . . for him — you'll ask him presently The color of my hair : he cannot tell. Or answers, ' Dark,' at random ; while, be sure, He's absolute on the figure, five or ten, Of my last subscription. Is it bearable, And I a woman } " " Is it reparable, Though / were a man ? " " I know not. That's to prove. But first, this shameful marriage ? " " Ay? " I cried, " Yesterdav " Then really there's a marriage I held him fast upon it. ' Mister Leigh,' Said I, ' shut up a thing, it makes more noise. The boiling town keeps secrets ill : I've known Yours since last week. Forgive my knowledge so : You feel Tm not the woman of the world The world thinks ; you have borne with me before. And used me in your noble work, our work. And now you shall not cast me off because You're at the difficult point, the Jom. 'Tis true Even I can scarce admit the cogency Of such a marriage . . . where you do not love, (Except the class) yet marry, and throw your name Down to the gutter, for a fire-escape 8o Aurora Leigh. To future generations ! 'tis sublime, A great example, a true genesis Of the opening social era. But take heed : This virtuous act must have a patent weight. Or loses half its virtue. Make it tell, Interpret it, and set in the light, And do not muftie it in a winter-cloak As a vulgar bit of shame, — as if, at best, A Leigh had made a misalliance, and blushed A Howard should know it.' Then I pressed hun more : ' He would not choose,' I said, ' that even his kin . . . Aurora Leigh, even . , . should conceive his act Less sacrifice, more fantasy.' At which He grew so pale, dear ... to the lips,'! knew I had touched him. ' Do you know her,' he inquired, ' My cousin Aurora? ' — * Yes,' I said, and lied, (But truly we all know you by your books) And so I offered to come straight to you. Explain the subject, justify the cause. And take you with me to St. Margaret's Court To see this miracle, this Marian Erie, This drover's daughter (she's not pretty, he swears). Upon whose finger, exquisitely pricked By a hundred needles, we're to hang the tie 'Twixt class and class in England,— thus indeed By such a presence, yours and mine, to lift The match up from the doubtful place. At once He thanked me, sighing, murmured to himself, ' She'll do it, perhaps : she's noble,' — thanked me twice. And promised, as my guerdon, to put off His marriage for a month." I answered then, " I understand your drift imperfectly. You wish to lead me to my cousin's betrothed. To touch her hand if worthy, and hold her hand If feeble, thus to justify his match. So be it, then. But how this serves your ends. And how the strange confession of your love Serves this, I have to learn— I cannot see." She knit her restless forehead. " Then, despite Aurora, that most radiant morning name. You're dull as any London afternoon. I wanted time, and gained it ; wanted /^?/^, Aurora Leiir/i. And gain you ! You will come and see the girl In whose most prodigal eyes the lineal pearl And pride of all your lofty race of Leighs Is destined to solution. Authorized By sight and knowledge, then, you'll speak your mind. And prove to Romney, in your brilliant way, He'll wrong the people and posterity,. ( Say such a thing is bad for me and you, And you fail utterly) by concluding thus An execrable marriage. Break it up, Disroot it ; peradventure presently We'll plant a better fortune in its place. Be good to me, Aurora, scorn me les* For saying the thing I should not. Well I know I should not, 1 have kept, as others have. The iron rule of womanly reserve In lip and life, till now : I wept a week Before I came here." Ending, she was pale. The last words, haughtily said, were tremulous. This palfrey pranced in harness, arched her neck. And only by the foam upon the bit You saw she champed against it. Then I rose. " I love love : truth's no cleaner thing than love. I comprehend a love so fiery hot It burns its natural veil of august shame, And stands sublimely in the nude, as chaste As Medicean Venus. But I know, A love that burns through veils will burn through masks. And shrivel up treachery. What, love and lie ! Nay. Go to the opera ! Your love"s curable." " I love and lie } " she said, — " I lie, forsooth ? " And beat her taper foot upon the floor. And smiled against the shoe, — " You're hard. Miss Leigh, Unversed in current phrases. Bowling-greens Of poets are fresher than the world's highways. Forgive me that I rashly blew the dust Which dims our hedges even, in your eyes. And vexed you so much. You find, probably. No evil in this marriage, rather good Of innocence, to pastoralize in song. You'll give the bond your signature, perhaps, Beneath the lady's mark, indifferent Auro?-a Lci^/i. t3..,/irs. Beat hek ta^-er i-oot ui'ON the floor, and smiled agaixct the shoe Aurora Leigh, 83 That Romney chose a wife could write her name, In witnessing he loved her." " Loved," I cried. " Who tells you that he wants a wife to love ? He gets a horse to use, not love, I think : There's work for wives, as well,— and after, straw. When men are liberal. For myself, you err Supposing power in me to break this match. 1 could not do it to save Romney's life, And would not to save mine.'' " You take it so. She said ; " farewell, then. Write your books in peace. As far as may be for some secret stir Now^ obvious to me ; for, most obviously, In coming hither I mistook the way.'' Whereat she touched my hand, and bent her head. And floated from me like a silent cloud That leaves the sense of thunder. I drew breath. Oppressed in my deliverance. After all. This woman breaks her social system up For love, so counted.— the love possible To such ; and lilies are still lilies, pulled By smutty hands, though spotted from their white; And thus she is better haply, of her kind. Than Romney Leigh, who lives by diagrams, And crosses out the spontaneities Of all his individual, personal life With formal universals. As if man Were set upon a high stool at a desk To keep God's books for him in red and black, And feel by millions ! What, if even God Were chiefly God by living out himself To an individualism of the infinite, Eterne, intense, profuse,— still throwing up The golden spray of multitudinous worlds In measure to the proclive weight and rush Of his inner nature, the spontaneous love Still proof and outflow of spontaneous life ? Then live, Aurora. Two hours afterward, Within St. Margaret's Court I stood alone. Close-veiled. A sick child, from an ague-tit. Whose wasted right hand gambolled 'gainst his left 84 Aurora Leigh. With an old brass button in a blot of sun, Jeered weakly at me as I passed across The uneven pavement ; while a woman rouged Upon the angular cheek-bones, kerchief torn, Thin, dangling locks, and flat lascivious mouth, Cursed at a window both ways, in and out, By turns some bed-rid creature and myself, — " Lie still there, mother ! liker the dead dog You'll be to-morrow. What, we pick our way. Fine madam, with those damnable small feet ! We cover up our face from doing good. As if it were our purse ! What brings you here, My lady ? is't to find my gentleman Who visits his tame pigeon in the eaves ? Our cholera catch you with its cramps and spasms. And tumble up your good clothes, veil and all. And turn your whiteness dead-blue I " I looked up : I think I could have walked through hell that day, And never flinched. " The dear Christ comfort you, 1 said, " you must have been most miserable, To be so cruel ; " and I emptied out My purse upon the stones : when, as I had cast The last charm in the caldron, the whole court Went boiling, bubbling up, from all its doors And windows, with a hideous wail of laughs. And roar of oaths, and blows perhaps. . . I passed Too quickly for distinguishing. . . and pushed A little side-door hanging on a hinge. And plunged into the dark, and groped and climbed The long, steep, narrow stair 'twixt broken rail And mildewed wall that let the plaster drop To startle me in the blackness. Still, up, up ! So high lived Romney's bride, I paused at last Before a low door in the roof, and knocked : There came an answer like a hurried dove, — " So soon } can that be Mister Leigh } so soon } " And as I entered an ineffable face Met mine upon the threshold. " Oh, not you, Not you ! " The dropping of the voice implied, " Then, if not you, for me not any one." I looked her in the eyes, and held her hands. And said, " I am his cousin,— Romney Leigh's ; And here I come to see my cousin too." She touched me with her face and with her voice, Aurora Leigh. 85 This daughter of the people. Such soft flowers, From such rough roots ? the people under there Can sin so, curse so, look so, smell so . . .faugh ! Yet have such daughters } Nowise beautiful Was Marian Erie. She was not white nor brown. But could look either, like a mist that changed According to being shone on more or less. The hair, too, ran its opulence of curls. In doubt 'twixt dark and bright, nor left you clear To name the color. Too much hair, perhaps, (I'll name a fault here) for so small a head, Which seemed to droop on that side and on this. As a full-blown rose uneasy with its weight. Though not a wind should trouble it. Again The dimple in the cheek had better gone With redder, fuller rounds ; and somewhat large The mouth was, though the milky little teeth Dissolved it to so infantine a smile. For soon it smiled at me ; the eyes smiled too. But 'twas as if remembering they had wept. And knowing they should some day weep again. We talked. She told me all her story out. Which I'll retell with fuller utterance, As colored and confirmed in aftertimes By others and herself too. Marian Erie Was born upon the ledge of Malvern Hill, To eastward, in a hut built up at night, To evade the landlord's eye, of mud and turf ; Still liable, if once he looked that way. To being straight levelled, scattered by his foot. Like any other anthill. Born, I say. God sent her to his world commissioned right. Her human testimonials fully signed ; Not scant in soul, complete in lineaments : But others had to swindle her a place To wail in when she had come. No place for her, By man's law ! Born an outlaw was this babe : Her first cry in our strange and strangling air. When cast in spasms out by the shuddering womb. Was wrong against the social code, — forced wrong : What business had the baby to cry there } 86 Aui'07-a Leigh. I tell her story and grow passionate. She, Marian, did not tell it so, but used Meek words that made no wonder of herself For being so sad a creature. " Mister Leigh Considered truly that such things should change. They will, in heaven — but meantime, on the earth, There's none can like a nettle as a pink, Except himself. We're nettles, some of us, And give offence by the act of springing up ; And, if we leave the damp side of the wall. The hoes, of course, are on us." So she said. Her father earned his life by random jobs Despised by steadier workmen, — keeping swine On commons, picking hops, or hurrying on The harvest at wet seasons, or, at need. Assisting the Welsh drovers, when a drove Of startled horses plunged into the mist Below the mountain-road, and sowed the wind With wandering neighings. In between the gaps Of such irregular work he drank and slept. And cursed his wife because, the pence being out. She could not buy more drink. At which she turned, (The worm) and beat her baby in revenge For her own broken heart. There's not a crime But takes its proper change out still in crime If once rung on the counter of this world : Let sinners look to it. Yet the outcast child, For whom the very mother's face forewent The mother's special patience, lived and grew ; Learnt early to cry low, and walk alone. With that pathetic, vacillating roll Of the infant body on the uncertain feet, (The earth being felt unstable ground so soon,) At which most women's arms unclose at once With irrepressive instinct. Thus at three This poor weaned kid would run off from the fold. This babe would steal off from the mother's chair, And, creeping through the golden walls of gorse. Would find some keyhole toward the secrecy Of heaven's high blue, and, nestling down, peer out — Oh, not to catch the angels at their games. She had never heard of angels, — but to gaze She knew not why, to see she knew not what. Aurora Leigh. 87 A -hungering- outward from the barren earth For something like a joy. She liked, she said, To dazzle black her sight against the sky ; For then, it seemed, some grand blind Love came down. And groped her out, and clasped her with a kiss. She learnt God that way, and was beat for it Whenever she went home, yet came again. As surely as the trapped hare, getting free. Returns to his form. This grand, blind Love, she said. This skyey father and mother both in one, Instructed her and civilized her more Than even Sunday-school did afterward, To which a lady sent her to learn books, And sit upon a long bench in a row With other children. Well, she laughed sometimes To see them laugh and laugh, and maul their texts ; But ofter she was sorrowful with noise. And wondered if their mothers beat them hard That ever they should laugh so. There was one She loved indeed, — Rose Bell, a seven years' child, So pretty and clever, who read syllables When Marian was at letters : she would laugh At nothing, hold your finger up. she laughed, Then shook her curls d:^wn over eyes and mouth To hide her make-mirth from the schoolmaster. And Rose's pelting glee, as frank as rain On cherry-blossoms, brightened Marian too. To see another merry whom she loved. She whispered once (the children side by side. With mutual arms intwined about their necks) *' Your mother lets you laugh so } '' " Ay," said Rose, "She lets me. She was dug into the ground Six years since, I being but a yearling wean. Such mothers let us play, and lose our time, And never scold nor beat us. Don't you wish You had one like that.? " There. Marian breaking off Looked suddenly in my face. " Poor Rose ! " said she : " I heard her laugh last night in Oxford Street. Fd pour out half my blood to stop that laugh. Poor Rose, poor Rose ! " said Marian. She resumed. It tried her, when she had learnt at Sunday-school What God was, what he wanted from us all. And how in choosing sin we vexed the Christ, 88 Aurora Leigh. To go straight home, and hear her father pull The Name down on us from the thunder-shelf, Then drink away his soul into the dark From seeing judgment. Father, mother, home, Were God and heaven reversed to her : the more She knew of right, the more she guessed their wrong : Her price paid down for knowledge was to know The vileness of her kindred : through her heart. Her filial and tormented heart, henceforth, They struck their blows at virtue. Oh I 'tis hard To learn you have a father up in heaven By a gathering certain sense of being, on earth, Still worse than orphaned : 'tis too heavy a grief The having to thank God for such a joy. And so passed Marian's life from year to year. Her parents took her with them when they tramped. Dodged lanes and heaths, frequented towns and fairs, And once went farther, and saw Manchester. And once the sea, — that blue end of the world, That fair scroll-finis of a wicked book, — And twice a prison, back at intervals, Returning to the hills. Hills draw like heaven. And stronger sometimes, holding out their hands To pull you from the vile flats up to them. And though, perhaps, these strollers still strolled back, As sheep do, simply that they knew the way. They certainly felt bettered unaware. Emerging from the social smut of towns, To wipe their feet clean on the mountain turf. In which long wanderings Marian lived and learned, Endured and learned. The people on the roads Would stop, and ask her why her eyes outgrew Her cheeks, and if she meant to lodge the birds In all that hair ; and then they lifted her,— The miller in his cart a mile or twain. The butcher's boy on horseback. Often, too. The peddler stopped, and tapped her on the head W' ith absolute forefinger, brown and ringed. And asked, if peradventure she could read ; And when she answered, " Ay," would toss her down Some stray odd volume from his heavy pack. — A "Thomson's Seasons," mulcted of the spring. Or half a play of Shakspeare's, torn across, Aurora Leigh. 89 (She had to guess the bottom of a page By just the top, sometimes ; as difficult As, sitting on the moon, to guess the earth !) Or else a sheaf of leaves (for that small Ruth's Small gleanings) torn out from the heart of books, From Churchyard Elegies and Edens Lost, From Burns, and Bunyan, Selkirk, and Tom Jones. 'Twas somewhat hard to keep the things distinct ; And oft the jangling influence jarred the child, Like looking at a sunset full of grace Through a pothouse window, while the drunken oaths Went on behind her. But she weeded out Her book-leaves, threw away the leaves that hurt, (First tore them small, that none should find a word) And made a nosegay of the sweet and good To fold within her breast, and pore upon At broken moments of the noontide glare. When leave was given her to untie her cloak, And rest upon the dusty highway's bank From the road's dust : ox oft, the journey done, Some city friend would lead her by the hand To hear a lecture at an institute. And thus she had grown, this Marian Erie of ours, To no book-learning. She was ignorant Of authors ; not in earshot of the things Outspoken o'er the heads of common men By men who are uncommon, but within The cadenced hum of such, and capable Of catching from the fringes of the wing Some fragmentary phrases here and there Of that fine music, which, being carried in To her soul, had reproduced itself afresh In finer motions of the lips and lids. She said, in speaking of it, " If a flower Were thrown you out of heaven at intervals, You'd soon attain to a trick of looking up," And so with her. She counted me her years, Till / felt old ; and then she counted me Her sorrowful pleasures, till I felt ashamed. She told me she was fortunate and calm On such and such a season, sate and sewed. With no one to break up her crystal thoughts. While rhymes from lovely poems span around 90 Aurora Leigh. Their ringing circles of ecstatic tune, Beneath the moistened finger of the hour. Her parents called her a strange, sickly child, Not good for much, and given to sulk and stare. And smile into the hedges and the clouds, And tremble if one shook her from her fit By any blow, or word even. Outdoor jobs Went ill with her, and household quiet work She was not born to. Had they kept the north, They might have had their pennyworth out of her. Like other parents, in the factories, ( Your children work for you, not you for them, Or else they better had been choked with air The first breath drawn ; ) but, in this tramping life. Was nothing to be done with such a child But tramp and tramp. And yet she knitted hose Not ill, and was not dull at needlework ; And all the country people gave her pence For darning stockings past their natural age. And patching petticoats from old to new. And other light work done for thrifty wives. One day, said Marian,— the sun shone that day, — Her mother had been badly beat, and felt The bruises sore about her wretched soul. (That must have been) : she came in suddenly. And snatching in a sort of breathless rage Her daughter's headgear comb, let down the hair Upon her like a sudden waterfall. Then drew her, drenched and passive, by the arm Outside the hut they lived in. When the child Could clear her blinded face from all that stream Of tresses . . . there a man stood, with beast's eyes. That seemed as they would swallow her alive, Complete in body and spirit, hair and all. And burning stertorous breath that hurt her cheek. He breathed so near. The mother held her tight, Saying hard between her teeth, " Why, wench, why, wench, The squire speaks to you now ! the squire's too good : He means to set you up, and comfort us. Be mannerly at least." The child turned round And looked up piteous in the mother's face, ( Be sure that mother's death-bed will not want Another devil to damn, than such a look ). Aurora Leis:h. 91 " O mother ! " Then, with desperate glance to heaven, " God, free me from my mother ! " she shrieked out, " These mothers are too dreadful." And, with force As passionate as fear, she tore her hands, Like lilies from the rocks, from hers and his, And sprang- down, bounded headlong down the steep, Away from both — away, if possible, As far as God, — away ! They yelled at her. As famished hounds at a hare. She heard them yell ; She felt her name hiss after her from the hills, 'And now I am dead and safi THOUGHT MaKIAN EkLE. Like shot from guns. On, on. And now she had cast The voices off with the uplands. On. Mad fear Was running in her feet, and killing the ground ; The white roads curled as if she burnt them up ; The green fields melted ; wayside trees fell back To make room for her. Then her head grew vexed ; Trees, fields, turned on her and ran after her ; She heard the quick pants of the hills behind, Their keen air pricked her neck : she had lost her feet Could run no more, yet somehow went as fast. The horizon red 'twixt steeples in the east So sucked her forward, forward, while her heart Kept swelling, swelling, till it swelled so big It seem^id to fill her body, when it burst, 92 Aurora Leigh. And overflowed the world, and swamped the hght : " And now I am dead and safe," thought Marian Erie. She had dropped, she had fainted. As the sense returned, The night had passed, — not life's night. She was 'ware Of heavy tumbling motions, creaking wheels, The driver shouting to the lazy team That swung their rankling bells against her brain, While through the wagon's coverture and chinks The cruel yellow morning pecked at her, Alive or dead upon the straw inside ; At which her soul ached back into the dark And prayed, " No more of that." A wagoner Had found her in a ditch beneath the moon. As white as moonshine, save for the oozing blood. At first he thought her dead; but when he had wiped The mouth, and heard it sigh, he raised her up, And laid her in his wagon in the straw, And so conveyed her to the distant town To which his business called himself, and left That heap of misery at the hospital. She stirred : the place seemed new and strange as death. The white strait bed, with others strait and white. Like graves dug side by side at measured lengths. And quiet people walking in and out With wonderful low voices and soft steps, And apparitional equal care for each. Astonished her with order, silence, law ; And when a gentle hand held out a cup. She took it, as you do at sacrament, Half awed, half melted, not being used, indeed. To so much love as makes the form of love And courtesy of manners. Delicate drinks. And rare white bread, to which some dying eyes Were turned in observation. O my God, How sick we must be ere we make men just ! I think it frets the saints in heaven to see How many desolate creatures on the earth Have learnt the simple dues of fellowship And social comfort, in a hospital. As Marian did. She lay here, stunned, ha'.f-tranced, And wished, at intervals of growing sense. She might be sicker yet, if sickness made Aurora Lciij^h. ^3 The world so marvellous kind, the air so hushed, And all her wake-time quiet as a sleep ; For now she understood (as such things were) How sickness ended very oft in heaven Among the unspoken raptures — yet more sick. And surelier happy. Then she dropped her lids, And, folding up her hands as flowers at night. Would lose no moment of the blessed time. She lay and seethed in fever many weeks. But youth was strong, and overcame the test : Revolted soul and flesh were reconciled. And fetched back to the necessary day And daylight duties. She could creep about The long bare rooms, and stare out drearily From any narrow window on the street. Till some one who had nursed her as a friend Said coldly to her, as an enemy, " She had leave to go next week, being well enough," ( While only her heart ached.) " Go ne'xt week," thought she. " Next week ! how would it be with her next week. Let out into that terrible street alone Among the pushing people . . . to go . . . where .5" One day, the last before the dreaded last. Among the convalescents, like herself Prepared to go next morning, she s^te dunib, And heard half absently the women talk,— How one was famished for her baby's cheeks, " The little wretch would know her! a year old And lively, like his father; " one was keen To get to work, and fill some clamorous mouths ; And one was tender for her dear good man Who had missed her sorely ; and one, querulous . . . ^' Would pay backbiting neighbors who had dared To talk about her as already dead ; " And one was proud ..." and if her sweetheart Luke Had left her for a ruddier face than hers, ( The gossip would be seen through at a glance ) Sweet riddance of such sweethearts — let him hang .' 'Twere good to have been sick for such an end." And while they talked, and Marian felt the worse For having missed the worst of all their wrongs, 94 Aurora Leir/i. A visitor was ushered through the wards And paused among the talkers. " When he looked It was as if he spoke, and when he spoke He sang perhaps," said Marian ; " could she tell ? She only knew " (so much she had chronicled. As seraphs might the making of the sun) " That he who came and spake was Romney Leigh, And then and there she saw and heard him first." And when it was her turn to have the face Upon her, all those buzzing pallid lips Being satisfied with comfort — when he changed To Marian, saying, '' And you? you're going, where .^'^ She, moveless as a worm beneath a stone Which some one's stumbling foot has spurned aside, Writhed suddenly, astonished with the light. And breaking into sobs cried, " Where I go ? None asked me till this moment. Can I say Where / go, when it has not seemed worth while To God himself, who thinks of every one, __ To think of me, and fix where I shall go } " " So young," he gently asked her, " you have lost Your father and your mother } " " Both," she said, " Both lost ! My father was burnt up with gin Or ever I sucked milk, and so is lost. My mother sold me to a i;ian last month. And so my mother's lost, 'tis manifest. And I, who fied from her for miles and miles, As if I had caught sight of the fire of hell Through some wild gap, (she was my mother, sir) It seems I shall be lost too presently : And so we end, all three of us." " Poor child I ' He said, with such a pity in his voice, It soothed her more than her own tears, — '* poor child ! 'Tis simple that betrayal by mother's love Should bring despair of God's too. Yet be taught, He's better to us than many mothers are. And children cannot wander beyond reach Of the sweep of his white raiment. Touch and hold ! And, if you weep still, weep where John was laid While Jesus loved him." " She could sav the words,' Aurora Leiirk. 95 She told me, " exactly as he uttered them A year back, since in any doubt or dark They came out like the stars, and shone on her With just their comfort. Common words, perhaps The ministers in church might say the same ; But he, he made the church with what he spoke : The difference was the miracle," said she. She sewed and sewed. and sewed. Then catching up her smile to ravishment, She added quickly, " I repeat his words, But not his tones . can any one repeat The music of an organ out of church ? And when he said, ' Poor child ! ' I shut my eyes To feel how tenderly his voice broke through, As the ointment-box broke on the Holy feet To let out the rich medicative nard." ■ She told me how he had raised and rescued her With reverent pity, as in touching grief He touched the wounds of Christ, and made her feel More self-respecting. Hope he called belief In God ; work, worship : therefore let us pray. And thus, to snatch her soul from atheism, 96 Aurora Leigh, And keep it stainless from her mother's face, He sent her to a famous seamstress-house Far off in London, there to work and hope. With that they parted. She kept sight of heaven, But not of Romney. He had good to do To others. Through the days and through the nights She sewed and sewed and sewed. She drooped some- times, And wondered, while along the tawny light She struck the new thread into her needle's eye. How people without mothers on the hills Could choose the town to live in ; then she drew The stitch, and mused how Romney's face would look, And if 'twere likely he'd remember hers When they two had their meeting after death. BOOK FOURTH. Thev met still sooner. 'Twas a year from thence That Lucy Gresham— the sick seamstress girl, Who sewed by Marian's chair so still and quick. And leant her head upon its back to cough More freely, when, the mistress turning round, The others took occasion to laugh out — Gave up at last. Among the workers spoke A bold girl with black eyebrows and red lips : " You know the news ? Who's dying, do you think } Our Lucy Gresham. I expected it As little as Nell Hart's wedding. — Blush not, Nell, Thy curls be red enough without thy cheeks, And some day there'll be found a man to dote On red curls. Lucy Gresham swooned last night. Dropped sudden in the street while going home ; And now the baker says, who took her up And laid her by her grandmother in bed, He'll give her a week to die in. Pass the silk. Let's hope he gave her a loaf too, within reach : For otherwise they'll starve before they die. That funny pair of bedfellows I — Miss Bell, I'll thank you for the scissors. The old crone Is paralytic ; that's the reason why Our Lucv's thread went faster than her breath. Aurora Leigh. 97 Which went too quick, we all know,— Marian Erie ! Why, Marian Erie, you're not the fool to cry? Your tears spoil Lady Waldemar's new dress, You piece of pity !" Marian rose up straight, And, breaking through the talk and through the work. Went outward, in the face of their surprise, To Lucy's home, to nurse her back. to life Or down to death. She knew% by such an act. All place and grace were forfeit in the house, Whose mistress would supply the missing hand With necessary not inhuman haste, And take no blame. But pity, too, had dues. She could not leave a solitary soul To founder in the dark, while she sate still And lavished stitches on a lady's hem, As if no other work were paramount. " Why, God," thought Marian, " has a missing hand This moment : Lucy wants a drink, perhaps. Let others miss me ! never miss me, God ! " So Marian sate by Lucy's bed, content With duty, and was strong, for recompense, To hold the lamp of human love arm-high. To catch the death-strained eyes, and comfort them, Until the angels, on the luminous side Of death, had got theirs ready. And she said, If Lucy thanked her sometimes, called her kind. It touched her strangely. " Marian Erie, called kind ! What Marian, beaten and sold, who could not die ! 'Tis verily good fortune to be kind. Ah, you f " she said, " who are born to such a grace, Be sorry for the unlicensed class, the poor, Reduced to think the best good fortune means That others simply should be kind to them." From sleep to sleep when Lucy had slid away So gently, like the light upon a hill. Of Which none names the moment that it goes Though all see when 'tis gone, a man came in And stood beside the bed. The old idiot wretch Screamed feebly, like a baby overlain. " Sir, sir, you won't mistake' me for the corpse ? Don't look at me, sir! never bury me! 98 Aurora Leigh. Although I He here, I'm alive as you, Except my legs and arms, — I eat and drink And understand, — (that you're the gentleman Who tits the funerals up. Heaven speed you, sir,) And certainly I should be livelier still If Lucy here . . . sir, Lucy is the corpse . . . Had worked more properly to buy me wine ; But Lucy, sir, was always slow at work, I sha'n't lose much by Lucy. — Marian Erie, Speak up, and show the gentleman the corpse." And then a voice said, " Marian Erie." She rose ; It M'as the hour for angels — there stood hers I She scarcely marvelled to see Romney Leigh. As light November snows to empty nests, As grass to graves, as moss to mildewed stones. As July suns to ruins, through the rents, As ministering spirits to mourners through a loss. As Heaven itself to men, through pangs of death, He came uncalled wherever grief had come. " And so," said Marian Erie, " w'e met anew, " And added softly, " so, we shall not part." He was not angry that she had left the house Wherein he placed her. \Vell, she had feared it might Have vexed him. Also, wlien he found her set On keeping, though the dead was out of sight. That half-dead, half-live body left behind With cankerous heart and flesh, which took your best, And cursed you for the little good it did, ( Could any leave the bedrid wretch alone. So joyless she was thankless even to God, Much more to you } ) he did not say 'twas well, Yet Marian thought he did not take it ill, Since day by day he came, and every day She felt within his utterance and his eyes A closer, tenderer presence of the soul, Until at last he said, " We shall not part." On that same day was Marian's work complete : She had smoothed the empty bed, and swept the floor Of cofifin sawdust, set the chairs anew The dead had ended gossip in, and stood In that poor room so cold and orderly, Aurora Leig/i. 99 The door-key in her hand, prepared to go As they had, howbeit not their way. He spoke. " Dear Marian, of one clay God made us all ; And though men push and poke and paddle ni t, ( As children play at fashioning dirt-pies ) And call their fancies by the name of facts, Assuming difference, lordship, privilege, When all's plain dirt, they come back to it at last : The first grave-digger proves it with a spade. And pats all even. Need we wait for this. You Marian, and I Romney ? " ci . .1 . She, at that. Looked blindly in his face, as when one looks Through driving autumn-rains to find the sky. He went on speaking : ^ " Marian, I being born What men call noble, and you issued from The noble people, though the tyrannous sword Which pierced Christ's heart has cleft the world m twain 'Twixt class and class, opposing rich to poor, Shall we keep parted ? Not so. Let us lean And strain together rather, each to each. Compress the red lips of this gaping wound As far as two souls can, ay, lean and league,— I from my superabundance, from your want You,— joinii^g i"^ ^ protest 'gainst the wrong On both sides." ,,111 i „ ^ All the rest he held her hand In speaking, which confused the sense of much. Iler heart against his words beat out so thick, They might^s well be written on the dust Where some poor bird, escaping from hawk's beak. Has dropped, and beats its shuddering wings, the lines Are rubbed so : yet 'twas something like to this : '« That they two, standing at the two extremes Of social classes, had received one seal. Been dedicate and drawn beyond themselves To mercy and ministration,— he, indeed, Throuo-h what he knew, and she, through what she telt ; He, by man's conscience, she, by woman's heart, Relinquishing their several 'vantage posts Of wealthy case and honorable toil. To work with God at love. And since God willed. Aurora Leiirh. That, putting out his hand to touch this ark, He found a woman's hand there, he'd accept The sign too, hold the tender fingers fast, And say, ' My fellow-worker, be my wife ! ' " She told the tale with simple, rustic turns. Strong leaps of meaning in her sudden eyes That took the gaps of any imperfect phrase Of the unschooled speaker : 1 have rather writ The thing I understood so than the thing I heard so. And I cannot render right Her quick gesticulation, wild yet soft, Self-startled from the habitual mood she used, Half sad, half languid, — like dumb creatures ( now A rustling bird, and now a wandering deer. Or squirrel 'gainst the oak-gloom flashing up His sidelong, burnished head, in just her way Of savage spontaneity, ) that stir Abruptly the green silence of the woods. And make it stranger, holier, more profound ; As Nature's general heart confessed itself Of life, and then fell backward on repose. I kissed the lips that ended. " So, indeed. He loves you, Marian ? " " Loves me ! " She looked up With a child's'wonder when you ask him first Who made the sun, — a puzzled blush, that grew. Then broke off in a rapid, radiant smile Of sure solution. " Loves me ! He loves all. And me, of course. He had not asked me else To work with him forever, and be his wife." Her words reproved me. This, perhaps, was love, — To have its hands too full of gifts to give, For putting out a hand to take a gift ; To love so much, the perfect round of love Includes in strict conclusion being loved ; As Eden-dew went up, and fell again. Enough for watering Eden. Obviously She had not thought about his love at all. The cataracts of her soul had poured themselves. And risen self-crowned in rainbow : would she ask Who crowned her.^ It sufficed that she was crowned. Aurora Leiir/i. loi With women of my class 'tis otherwise : We haggle for the small change of our gold. And so much love accord for so much love, Rialto-prices. Are we therefore wrong ? If marriage be a contract, look to it then, Contracting parties should be equal, just ; But if, a simple fealty on one side, A mere religion, right to give, is all, And certain brides of Europe duly ask To mount the pile as Indian widows do. The spices of their tender youth heaped up, The jewels of their gracious virtues worn, More gems, more glory, to consume entire For a living husband : as the man's alive. Not dead, the woman's duty by so much Advanced in England beyond Hindostan. I sate there musing, till she touched my hand With hers, as softly as a strange white bird She feared to startle in touching. " You are kind. But are you, peradventure, vexed at heart Because your cousin takes me for a wife .'' I know I am not worthy — nay, in truth, I'm glad on't, since, for that, he chooses me. He likes the poor things of the world the best ; I would not, therefore, if I could, be rich. It pleasures him to stoop for buttercups. I would not be a rose upon the wall A queen might stop at, near the palace-door, To say to a courtier, ' Pluck that rose for me : It's prettier than the rest.' O Romney Leigh ! I'd rather far be trodden by his foot Than lie in a great queen's bosom." Out of breatl , She paused. " Sweet Marian, do you disavow The roses with that face ? " She dropt her head As if the wind had caught that flower of her And bent it in the garden, then looked up With grave assurance. " Well, you think me bold ; But so we all are, when we're praying God. And if I'm bold, yet, lady, credit me, That since I know myself for what I am,— Much fitter for his handmaid than his wife, — I'll prove the handmaid and the wife at once, :o2 Aurora Lei^h. Serve tenderly, and love obediently, And be a worthier mate, perhaps, than some Who are wooed in silk among their learned books ; While I shall set myself to read his eyes, Till such grow plainer to me than the French To wisest ladies. Do you think I'll miss A letter in the spelling of his mind? No more than they do when they sit and write Their flying words with flickering wild-fowl tails, Nor ever pause to find how many /s, Should that be j or /, they know't so well : I've seen them writing, when I brought a dress And waited, floating out their soft white hands On shining paper. But they're hard sometimes, For all those hands. We've used out many nights, And worn the yellow daylight into shreds Which flapped and shivered down our aching eyes Till night appeared more tolerable, just That pretty ladies might look beautiful. Who said at last . . . ' You're lazy in that house ! You're slow in sending home the work : I count I've waited near an hour for't.' Pardon me, I do not blame them, madam, nor misprise : They are fair and gracious ; ay, but not like you. Since none but you has Mister Leigh's own blood, Both noble and gentle, — and without it . . . well, They are fair, I said ; so fair, it scarce seems strange That, flashing out in any looking-glass The wonder of their glorious brows and breasts. They're charmed so, they forget to look behind, And mark how pale we've grown, we pitiful Remainders of the world. And so perhaps If Mister Leigh had chosen a wife from these, She might, although he's better than her best. And dearly she would know it, steal a thought Which should be all his, an eye-glance from his face, To plunge into the mirror opposite In search of her own beauty's pearl ; while / . . . Ah, dearest lady, serge will outweigh silk For winter-wear, when bodies feel a-cold. And I'll be a true wife to your cousin Leigh." Before I answered, he was there himself. I think he had been standing in the room. Aurora Leig/i. 103 And listened probably to half her talk, Arrested, turned to stone, — as white as stone. Will tender sayings make men look so white ? He loves her then profoundly. " You are here, Aurora } Here I meet you ! " We clasped hands. " Even so, dear Romney. Lady Waldemar Has sent me in haste to find a cousin of mine Who shall be." " Lady Waldemar is good." " Here's one, at least, who is good," I sighed, and touched Poor Marian's happy head, as dog-like she. Most passionately patient, waited on, A-tremble for her turn of greeting words ; " I've sate a full hour with your Marian Erie, And learnt the thing by heart, and from my heart Am therefore competent to give you thanks For such a cousin." " You accept at last A gift from me, Aurora, without scorn } At last I please you } " How his voice was changed ! " You cannot please a woman against her will. And once you vexed me. Shall we speak of that ? We'll say, then, you were noble in it all, And I not ignorant — let it pass ! And now You please me, Romney, when you please yourself : So, please you. be fanatical in love. And I'm well pleased. Ah, cousin I at the old hall, Among the gallery portraits of our Leighs, We shall not find a sweeter signory Than this pure forehead's." Not a word he said. How arrogant men are ! Even philanthropists — ■ Who try to take a wife up in the way They put down a subscription-check, if once She turns, and says, " I will not tax you so, Most charitable sir " — feel ill at ease. As though she had wronged them somehow. I suppose We women should remember what we are. And not throw back an obolus inscribed With Caesar's image lightly. I resumed. I04 Aurora Leigh. " It strikes me, some of those sublime A^andyl^es Were not too proud to make good saints in heaven ; And, if so, then they're not too proud to-day, To bow down (now the ruffs are off their necks) And own this good, true, noble Marian, yours. And mine I'll say ! For poets (bear the word). Half-poets even, are still whole democrats,^ Oh, not that we're disloyal to the high, But loyal to the low, and cognizant Of the less scrutable majesties. For me, I comprehend your choice, I justify Your right in choosing." " No, no, no ' " he sighed. With a sort of melancholy impatient scorn, As some grown man who never had a child Puts by some child who plays at being a man, " You did not, do not, can not comprehend My choice, my ends, my motives, nor myself : No matter now — we'll let it pass, you say. I thank you for your generous cousinship Which helps this present : I accept for her Your favorable thoughts. W^e're fallen on days, We two who are not poets, when to wed Requires less mutual love than common love For two together to bear out at once Upon the loveless many. Work in pairs, In galley-couplings or in marriage-rings. The difference lies in the honor, not the work, — And such we're bound to, I and she. But love, ( You poets are benighted in this age, The hour's too late for catching even moths, You've gnats instead,) love ! — love's fool-paradise Is out of date, like Adam's. Set a swan To swim the Trenton rather than true love To float its fabulous plumage safely down The cataracts of this loud transition-time. Whose roar ::orever henceforth in my ears Must keep me deaf to music." There, I turned And kissed poor Marian, out of discontent. The man had bafifled, chafed me. till I flung For refuge to the woman, as sometimes. Impatient of some crowded room's close smell. You throw a window open, and lean out Aurora Leigh. To breathe a long breath in the dewy night, And cool your angry forehead. She, at least. Was not built up as walls are, brick by brick. Each fancy squared, each feeling ranged by line, The very heat of burning youth applied To indurate form and system ! excellent bricks, A well-built wall, which stops you on the road, And into which you cannot see an inch Although you beat your head against it — pshaw ! " Adieu," I said, " for this time, cousins both. And cousin Romney, pardon me the word. Be happy, — oh ! in some esoteric sense Of course, — I mean no harm in wishing well. Adieu, my Marian. May she come to me. Dear Romney, and be married from my house.'' It is not part of your philosophy To keep your bird upon the blackthorn } " He answered ; " but it is. I take my wife Directly from the people ; and she comes. As Austria's daughter to imperial France, Betwixt her eagles, blinking not her race, From Margaret's Court at garret-height, to meet And wed me at St. James's, nor put off Her gown of serge for that. The things we do, We do : we'll wear no mask, as if we blushed." " Dear Romney, you're the poet," I replied, But felt my smile too mournful for my word, And turned and went. Ay, masks, I thought, — beware Of tragic masks we tie before the glass, Uplifted on the cothurn half a yard Above the natural stature ! we would play Heroic parts to ourselves, and end, perhaps, As impotently as Athenian wdves Who shrieked in fits at the Eumenides. His foot pursued me down the stair. " At least You'll suffer me to walk with you beyond These hideous streets, these graves, where men alive, Packed close with earthworms, burr unconsciously About the plague that slew them : let me go. • The very women pelt their souls in mud "Ay, io6 Aurora Leigh. At any woman who walks here alone. How came you here alone? — you are ignorant." We had a strange and melancholy walk : The night came drizzling downward in dark rain, And as we walked, the color of the time. The act, the presence, my hand upon his arm, His voice in my ear, and mine to my own sense, Appeared unnatural. We talked modern books And daily papers, Spanish marriage-schemes And English climate — was't so cold last year.'' And will the wind change by to-morrow morn } Can Guizot stand } is London full } is trade Competitive } has Dickens turned his hinge A-pinch upon the fingers of the great .'* And are potatoes to grow mythical Like moly } will the apple die out too ? Which way is the wind to-night.^ south-east.^ due east .^ We talked on fast, while every common word Seemed tangled with the thunder at one end, And ready to pull down upon our heads A terror out of sight. And yet to pause Were surelier mortal : we tore greedily up All silence, all the innocent breathing-points, As if, like pale conspirators in haste. We tore up papers where our signatures Imperilled us to an ugly shame or death. I cannot tell you why it was. 'Tis plain We had not loved nor hated : wherefore dread To spill gunpowder on ground safe from fire.'' Perhaps w^e had lived too closely to diverge So absolutely : leave two clocks, they say, Wound up to different hours, upon one shelf. And slowly, through the interior wheels of each. The blind mechanic motion sets itself A-throb to feel out for the mutual time. It was not so with us, indeed : while he Struck midnight, I kept striking six at dawn ; While he marked judgment, I, redemption-day : And such exception to a general law- Imperious upon inert matter even, Might make us, each to either, insecure, A beckoning mystery, or a troubling fear. Aurora Leigh. 107 I mind me, when we parted at the door, How strange his good-night sounded, — like ^ood-night Beside a deathbed, where the morrow's sun Is sure to come too late for more good days. And all that night I thought . . . "Good-night," said he. And so a month passed. Let me set it down At once, — I have been wrong, I have been wrong. We are wrong always when we think too much Of what we think or are : albeit our thoughts Be verily bitter as self-sacrihce. We're no less selfish. If we sleep on rocks Or roses, sleeping past the hour of noon, We're lazy. This I write against myself. I had done a duty in the visit paid To Marian, and was ready otherwise To give the witness of my presence and name Whenever she should marry. Which, I thought, Sufficed. I even had cast into the scale An overweight of justice toward the match. The Lady Waldemar had missed her tool. And broken it in the lock as being too straight For a crooked purpose ; while poor Marian Erie Missed nothing in my accents or my acts : I had not been ungenerous on the whole, Nor yet untender : so enough. I felt Tired, overworked : this marriage somewhat jarred ; Or, if it did not, all the bridal noise, The pricking of the map of life with pins, In schemes of . . . " Here we'll go," and " There we'll stay," And " Everywhere we'll prosper in cur love," Was scarce my business : let them order it : Who else should care } I threw myself aside. As one who had done her work, and shuts her eyes To rest the better. I, who should have known, Forereckoned mischief ! Where we disavow Being keeper to our brother, we're his Cain. I might have held that poor child to my heart A little longer ! 'twould have hurt me much To have hastened by its beats the marriage-day, And kept her safe meantime from tampering hands, Or, peradventure, traps. What drew me back loS A 1 17-0 r a Lei^h. From telling Romney plainly the designs Of Lady Waldemar, as spoken out To me . . . me ? had I any right, ay, right, With womanly compassion and reserve To break the fall of woman's impudence ? — To stand by calmly, knowing what I knew, And hear him call \\t'c good? Distrust that word. " There is none good save God," said Jesus Christ. If he once, in the first creation- week, Called creatures good, forever afterward, The Devil only has done it, and his heirs. The knaves who win so, and the fools who lose : The word's grown dangerous. In the middle age I think they called malignant fays and imps Good people. A good neighbor, even in this. Is fatal sometimes, cuts your morning up To mince-meat of the very smallest talk, Then helps to sugar her bohea at night With your reputation. I have known good wives, As chaste, or nearly so, as Potiphar's ; And good, good mothers, who would use a child To better an intrigue ; good friends, beside, (Very good) who hung succinctly round your neck And sucked your breath, as cats are fabled to do By sleeping infants. And we all have known Good critics who have stamped out poet's hope, Good statesmen who pulled ruin on the state. Good patriots who for a theory risked a cause. Good kings who disembowelled for a tax. Good popes who brought all good to jeopardy. Good Christians who sate still in easy -chairs And damned the general world for standing up. Now may the good God pardon all good men ! How bitterly I speak ! how certainly The innocent white milk in us is turned By much persistent shining of the sun ! Shake up the sweetest in us long enough With men, it drops to foolish curd, too sour To feed the most untender of Christ's lambs. I should have thought, — a woman of the world Like her I'm meaning, centre to herself. Aurora Leigh. 109 Who has wheeled on her own pivot half a life In isolated self-love and self-will, As a windmill seen at distance radiating Its delicate white vans against the sky, So soft and soundless, simply beautiful, Seen nearer,— what a roar and tear it makes, How it grinds and bruises ! — if she loves at last, Her love's a re-adjustment of self-love, No more, — a need felt of another's use To her one advantage, as the mill wants grain, The fire wants fuel, "the very wolf wants prey, And none of these is more unscrupulous Than such a charming woman when she loves. She'll not be thwarted by an obstacle So trifling as . . . her soul is . . . much less yours ! — Is God a consideration ? — she loves you, Not God : she will not flinch for him indeed : She did not for the Marchioness of Perth, When wanting tickets for the fancy ball. She loves you, sir, with passion, to lunacy. She loves you like her diamonds . . . almost. Well, A month passed so, and then the notice came. On such a day the marriage at the church. I was not backward. Half Saint Giles in frieze Was bidden to meet Saint James in cloth-of-gold. And, after contract at the altar, pass To eat a marriage-feast on Hampstead Heath. Of course the people came in uncompelled, Lame, blind, and worse; sick, sorrowful, and worse; The humors of the peccant social wound All pressed out, poured down upon Pimlico, Exasperating the unaccustomed air With a hideous interfusion. You'd suppose A finished generation, dead of plague, Swept outward from their graves into the sun, The moil of death upon them. What a sight ! A holiday of miserable men Is sadder than a burial-day of kings. They clogged the streets, they oozed into the church In a dark slow stream, like blood. To see that sight, The noble ladies stood up in their pews. Aurora Leigh. As A UI.NUMILL SEEN AT DISTANCE. Aurora Leigh. iii Some pale for fear, a few as red lor hate, Some simply curious, some just insolent, And some in wondering scorn, " What next ? what next ? These crushed their delicate rose lips from the smile That misbecame them in a holy place, With broidered hems of perfumed handkerchiefs ; Those passed the salts, with confidence of eyes. And simultaneous shiver of moire silk : While all the aisles, alive and black with heads. Crawled slowly toward the altar from the street. As bruised snakes crawl and hiss out of a hole With shuddering involution, swaying slow From right to left, and then from left to right. In pants and pauses. What an ugly crest Of faces rose upon you everywhere From that crammed mass ! you did not usually See faces like them in the open day : They hide in cellars, not to make you mad As Romney Leigh is. Faces ! O my God, We call those faces ? — men's and women's . . . ay. And children's ; babies, hanging like a rag Forgotten on their mother's neck — poor mouths, Wiped clean of mother's milk by mother's blow Before they are taught her cursing. Faces } . . . phew, We'll call them vices, festering to despairs. Or sorrows, petrifying to vices : not A finger-touch of God left whole on them. All ruined, lost, the countenance worn out As the garment, the will dissolute as the act. The passions loose and draggling in the dirt, To trip a foot up at the first free step ! Those faces.'*— 'twas as if you had stirred up hell To heave its lowest dreg-fiends uppermost In fiery swirls of slime, such strangled fronts. Such obdurate jaws, were thrown up constantly To twit you with your race, corrupt your blood. And grind to devilish colors all your dreams Henceforth, though haply you should drop asleep By clink of silver waters, in a muse On Raffael's mild Madonna of the Bird. I've waked and slept through many nights and days Since then ; but still that day will catch my breath Like a nightmare. There are fatal days, indeed, In which the fibrous years have taken root IT2 Aurora Leij^/i. So deeply, that they quiver to their tups Whene'er you stir the dust of such a day. My cousin met me with his eyes and hand, And then, with just a word, . . . that " Marian Erie Was coming with her bridesmaids presently," Made haste to place me by the altar-stair Where he and other noble gentlemen And high-born ladies waited for the bride. We waited. It was early: there was time For greeting and the morning's compliment ; And gradually a ripple of women's talk Arose and fell, and tossed about a spray Of English s's, soft as a silent hush. And, notwithstanding, quite as audible As louder phrases thrown out by the men. — " Yes, really, if we need to wait in church W^e need to talk there." — " She ? 'tis Lady Ayr, In blue, not purple ! that's the dowager." " She looks as young " — " She flirts as young, you mean. Why, if you had seen her upon Thursday night. You'd call Miss Norris modest." — " You again ! I waltzed w^th you three hours back. Up at six. Up still at ten ; scarce time to change one's shoes : I feel as white and sulky as a ghost, So pray don't speak to me. Lord Belcher." — " No, I'll look at you instead, and it's enough While you have that face." — " In church, my lord ! fie, fie ! " — " Adair, you staid for the Division } " — " Lost By one." — " The devil it is ! I'm sorry for't. And if I had not promised Mistress Grove "... " You might have kept your word to Liverpool." — " Constituents must remember, after all. We're mortal." — " We remind them of it." — " Hark, The bride comes ! here she comes in a stream of milk ! " — " There ? Dear you are asleep still : don't you know The five Miss Granvilles ? always dressed in white To show they're ready to be married." " Lower ! The aunt is at your elbow." — " Lady Maud, Did Lady Waldemar tell you she had seen This girl of Leigh's ? " — " No — wait ! 'twas Mistress Brookes Who told me Lady Waldemar told her — No, 'twasn't Mistress Brookes " — " She's pretty ? " — " Who ? Aurora Ltigh. 113 Mistress Brookes ? Lady Waldemar ? " — ■" How hot I Pray is't the law to-day we're not to breathe ? You're treading on my shawl — 1 thank you, sir." — " They say the bride's a mere child, who can't read, But knows the things she shouldn't, with wide-awake Great eyes. I'd go through fire to look at her." — " You do, I thmk." — " And Lady Waldemar ( You see her ; sitting close to Romney Leigh. How beautiful she looks, a little flushed !) Has taken up the girl, and methodized Leigh's folly. Should I have come here, you suppose. Except she'd asked me } " — " She'd have served him more By marrying him herself." " Ah — there she comes, The bride, at last I " " Indeed, no. Past eleven. She puts off her patched petticoat to-day And puts on May-fair manners, so begins By setting us to wait." — " Yes, yes, this Leigh Was always odd : it's in the blood, I think. His father's uncle's cousin's second son Was, was . . . you understand me ; and for him. He's stark — has turned quite lunatic upon This modern question of the poor — the poor. An excellent subject when you're moderate. You've seen Prince Albert's model lodging-house ? Does honor to his Royal Highness. Good I But would he stop his carriage in Cheapside To shake a common fellow^ by the fist Whose name was . . . Shakspeare ? no. We draw a line ; And if we stand not by our order, we In England, we fall headlong. Here's a sight, — A hideous sight, a most indecent sight ! My wife would come, sir, or I had kept her back. By heaven, sir, when poor Damiens' trunk and limbs Were torn by horses, women of the court Stood by and stared, exactly as to-day On this dismembering of society. With pretty, troubled faces." Now, at last. She comes now." " W^here ? who sees } you push me, sir, Beyond the point of what is mannerly. You're standing, madam, on my second flounce. 114 Aurora Leigh I do beseech you "... " No — it's not the bride. Half-past eleven. How late I The bridegroom, mark, Gets anxious and goes out." " And, as I said. These Leighs ! our best blood running in the rut ! It's somethmg awful. We had pardoned him A simple misalliance got up aside For a pair of sky-blue eyes : the House of Lords Has winked at such things, and we've all been young. But here's an intermarriage reasoned out, A contract (carried boldly to the light To challenge observation, pioneer Good acts by a great example) 'twixt the extremes Of martyrized society, — on the left The well-born, on the right the merest mob. To treat as equals I — 'tis anarchical ; It means more than it says ; 'tis damnable. Why, sir, we can't have even our coffee good. Unless we strain it," " Here, Miss Leigh ! " *' Lord Howe, You're Romney's friend. What's all this waiting for.-* " " I cannot tell. The bride has lost her head (And way. perhaps) to prove her sympathy With the bridegroom." " What,— you also disapprove ! " " Oh, / approve of nothing in the world," He answered, " not of you, still less of me, Nor even of Romney, though he's worth us both. We're all gone wrong. The tune in us is lost ; And whistling down back alleys to the moon Will never catch it." Let me draw Lord Howe. A born aristocrat, bred radical. And educated socialist, who still Goes floating, on traditions of his kind, Across the theoretic flood from France. Though, like a drenched Noah on a rotten deck, Scarce safer for his place there. He, at least, Will never land on Ararat, he knows. To recommence the world on the new plan : Aurora Leigh. 115 Indeed, he thinks said world had better end. He sympathizes rather with the hsh Outside than with the drowned paired beasts within, Who cannot couple again or multiply, — And that's the sort of Noah he is, Lord Howe. He never could be anything complete. Except a loyal, upright gentleman, A liberal landlord, graceful diner-out. And entertainer more than hospitable. Whom authors dine with, and forget the hock. Whatever he believes, and it is much, But nowise certain, now here and now there. He still has sympathies beyond his creed Diverting him from action. In the House No party counts upon him, while for all His speeches have a noticeable weight. Men like his books too (he has written books), Which, safe to lie beside a bishop's chair. At times outreach themselves with jets of fire At which the foremost of the progressists May warm audacious hands in passing by. Of stature over-tall, lounging for ease ; Light hair, that seems to carry a wind in it ; . And eyes, that, when they look on you, will lean Their whole weight, half in indolence, and half In wishing you unmitigated good. Until you know not if to flinch from him. Or thank him. — 'Tis Lord Howe. " W^e're all gone wrong," Said he; "and Romney, that dear friend of ours. Is nowise right. There's one true thing on earth. That's love : he takes it up, and dresses it. And acts a play with it, as Hamlet did. To show what cruel uncles we have been. And how we should be uneasy in our minds, While he. Prince Hamlet, weds a pretty maid (Who keeps us too long waiting we'll confess) By symbol to instruct us formally To fill the ditches up 'twixt class and class. And live together in phalansteries. What then ) — he's mad, our Hamlet ! clap his play. And bind him." " Ah, Lord Howe ! this spectacle Pulls stronger at us than the Dane's. See there ! ii6 Aurora Lciirh. The crammed aisles heave and strain and steam with life. Dear Heaven, what life ! " " Why, yes, — a poet sees ; Which makes him different from a common man. I, too, see somewhat, though I cannot sing : I should have been a poet, only that My mother took fright at the ugly world. And bore me tongue-tied. If you'll grant me now That Romney gives us a fine actor-piece To make us merry on his marriage-morn. The fable's worse than Hamlet's I'll concede. The terrible people, old and poor and blind, Their eyes eat out with plague and poverty From seeing beautiful and cheerful sights We'll liken to a brutalized King Lear, Led out, — by no means to clear scores with wrongs, — His wrongs are so far back, he has forgot (All's past like youth) ; but just to witness here A simple contract, — he upon his side. And Regan with her sister Goneril, And all the dappled courtiers and court-fools. On their side. Not that any of these would say They're sorry, neither. What is done is done. And violence is not turned privilege, As cream turns cheese, if buried long enough. What could such lovely ladies have to do With the old man there in those ill-odorous rags, Except to keep the wind-side of him ? Lear Is flat and quiet, as a decent grave : He does not curse his daughters in the least. Be these his daughters ? Lear is thinking of His porridge chiefly . . . is it getting cold At Hampstead .-' will the ale be served in pots ? Poor Lear, poor daughters! Bravo, Romney's play." A murmur and a movement drew around ; A naked whisper touched us. Something wrong! What's wrong } The black crowd, as an overstrained Cord, quivered in vibration, and I saw . . . Was that his face I saw.'' . . . his . . . Romney Leigh's . . . Which tossed a sudden horror like a sponge Into all eyes, while himself stood white upon The topmost altar-stair, and tried to speak, Aurora Leigh. n? And failed, and lifted higher above his head A letter . . . as a man who drowns and gasps. " My brothers, bear with me ! I am very weak. I meant but only good. Perhaps I meant Too proudly, and God snatched the circumstance, And changed it therefore. There's no marriage— none. She leaves me,— she departs,— she disappears, I lose her. Yet I never forced her ' ay,' To have her ' no ' so cast into my teeth In manner of an accusation, thus. My friends you are dismissed. Go, eat and drink According to the programme— and farewell ! " He ended. There was silence in the church. We heard a baby sucking in its sleep At the farthest end of the aisle. Then spoke a man, " Now, look to it, coves, that all the beef and drink Be not filched from us, like the other fun ; For beer's spilt easier than a woman's lost ! This gentry is not honest with the poor : They bring us up, to trick us."—" Go it, Jim ! " A woman screamed back. " I'm a tender soul ; I never banged a child at two years old, And drew blood from him, but I sobbed for it Next moment, and I've had a plague of seven. I'm tender : I've no stomach even for beef. Until I know about the girl that's lost. That's killed mayhap. I did misdoubt at first, The fine lord meant no good by her or us. He, maybe, got the upper hand of her By holding up a wedding-ring, and then A choking finger on her throat last night. And just a clever tale to keep us still, As she is, poor lost innocent. ' Disappear . Who ever disappears, except a ghost ? And who believes a story of a ghost ? I ask you, would a girl go off, instead Of staying to be married? A fine tale ! A wicked man, I say, a wicked man ! _ For my part I would rather starve on gin ^^ Than make my dinner on his beef and beer.' At which a cry rose up, " We'll have our rights. We'll have the girl, the girl ! Your ladies there Aur07-a Leigh. Are married safely and smoothly e \' e r y day, And she shall not drop through into a trap Because she's poor and of the people. Shame ! We'll have no tricks played off by gen- tle folks. We'll see her righted." Through the rage and roar heard the broken words which Rom- ney flung Among the turbulent masses, from the ground He held still with his masterful pale face. As huntsmen throw the ration to the pack. Who, falling on it headlong, dog on dog. In heaps of fury, rend it, swallow it up" With yelling hound-jaws, — his indignant words ; His suppliant words, his most pathetic words. Whereof I caught the meaning here and there By his gesture . . . torn in morsels, yelled across. And so devoured. From end to end, the church Rocked round us like the sea in storm, and then Broke up like the earth in earthquake. Men cried out, " Police ! " and women stood, and shrieked for God, Or dropt and swooned ; or. like a herd of deer, (For whom the black woods suddenly grow alive. Unleashing their wild shadows down the wind To hunt the creatures into corners, back And forward), madly fled, or blindly fell. Trod screeching underneath the feet of those Who fled and screeched. The last sight left to me Was Romney's terrible calm face above The tumult. The last sound was. " Pull him down ! At which a cry rose up, RIGHTS. 'We'll have our Aurora Leigh. 1 19 Strike— kill him ! " Stretching my unreasoning arms, As men in dreams, who vainly interpose 'Twixt gods and their undoing, with a cry I struggled to precipitate myself Headforemost to the rescue of my soul In that white face . . . till some one caught me back, And so the world went out,— I felt no more. What followed was told after by Lord Howe, Who bore me senseless from the strangling crowd In church and street, and then returned alone To see the tumult quelled. The men of law Had fallen as thunder on a roaring fire, And made all silent, while the people's smoke Passed eddying slowly from the emptied aisles. Here's Marian's letter, which a ragged child Brought running, just as Romney at the porch Looked out expectant of the bride. He sent The letter to me by his friend. Lord Howe, Some two hours after, folded in a sheet On which his well-known hand had left a word. Here's Marian's letter. , , . • , , " Noble friend, dear saint, Be patient with me. Never think me vile. Who might to-morrow morning be your wife But that'l loved you more than such a name. Farewell, my Romney. Let me write it once,— My Romney. , , , ^ " 'Tis so pretty a coupled word, I have no heart to pluck it with a blot. We say, ' My God ' sometimes, upon our knees. Who is not therefore vexed : so bear with it . . . And me. I know I'm foolish, weak, and vain ; Yet most of all I'm angry with myself For losing your last footstep on the stair That last time of your coming,— yesterday ! The very first time I lost step of yours, ( Its sweetness comes the next to what you speak,) But yesterday sobs took me by the throat And' cut me off from music. t • u " Mister Leigh, You'll set me down as wrong in many things. You've praised me, sir, for truth— and now you 11 learn Aurora Lei^h. I had not courage to be rightly true. I once began to tell you how she came, The woman . . . and you stared upon the floor In one of your fixed thoughts , . . which put me out For that day. After, some one spoke of me So wisely, and of you so tenderly. Persuading me to silence for your sake . . . Well, well ! it seems this moment I was wrong In keeping back from telling you the truth : . There might be truth betwixt us two, at least, If nothing else. And yet 'twas dangerous. Suppose a real angel came from heaven To live with men and women ! he'd go mad, If no considerate hand should tie a blind Across his piercing eyes. 'Tis thus with you : You see us too much in your heavenly light. I always thought so, angel, and indeed There's danger that you beat yourself to death Against the edges of this alien world, In some divine and fluttering pity. "Yes, It would be dreadful for a friend of yours To see all England thrust you out of doors, And mock you from the windows. You might say, Or think (that's worse), ' There's some one in the house I miss and love still.' Dreadful ! " Very kind, I pray you, mark, was Lady W aide mar. She came to see me nine times, rather ten — So beautiful, she hurts one like the day Let suddenly on sick eyes. " Most kind of all, Your cousin — ah, most like you ! Ere you came She kissed me mouth to mouth : I felt her soul Dip through her serious lips in holy fire. God help me ; but it made me arrogant. I almost told her that you would not lose By taking me to wife ; though ever since I've pondered much a certain thing she asked ... ' He loves you, Marian .^ ' ... in a sort of mild Derisive sadness ... as a mother asks Her babe, ' You'll touch that star, you think } ' " Farewell I I know I never touched it. Aurora Leigh. "This is worst : Babes grow, and lose the hope of things above : A silver threepence sets them leaping high — But no more stars ! mark that. " I've writ all night, Yet told you nothing. God, if 1 could die, And let this letter break off innocent Just here! But no— for your sake . . . " Here's the last : I never could be happy as your wife, I never could be harmless as your friend, I never will look more into your face Till God says, ' Look ! ' I charge you seek me not. Nor vex yourself with lamentable thoughts That peradventure I have come to grief ; Be sure I'm well, I'm merry, I'm at ease. But such a long way, long way, long way off, I think you'll find me sooner in my grave. And that's my choice, observe. For what remains. An over-generous friend will care for me, And keep me happy . . . happier . . . " There's a blot I This ink runs thick . . . we light girls lightly weep . . . And keep me happier . . . was the thing to say. Than as your wife I could be.— Oh, my star. My saint, my soul ! for surely you're my soul, Through whom God touched me ! I am not so lost I cannot thank you for the good you did. The tears you stopped, which fell down bitterly, Like these — the times you made me weep for joy At hoping I should learn to write your notes. And save the tiring of your eyes at night ; And most for that sweet thrice you kissed my lips. Saying, ' Dear Marian.' " 'Twould be hard to read, This letter, for a reader half as learned, But you'll be sure to master it in spite Of ups and downs. My hand shakes, I am blind ; I'm poor at writing at the best — and yet I tried to make my_^'s the way you showed. Farewell ! Christ love you ! Say, ' Poor Marian ! ' now." Poor Marian ! — wanton Marian ! — was it so, Or so ? For days, her touching, foolish lines 122 Aurora Leigh. We mused on with conjectural fantasy, As if some riddle of a summer-cloud On which one tries unlike similitudes, Of now a spotted hydra-skin cast off, And now a screen of carven ivory That shuts the heavens' conventual secrets up From mortals over-bold. We sought the sense. She loved him so perhaps (such words mean love,) That, worked on by some shrewd perfidious tongue, ( And then I thought of Lady Waldemar) She left him not to hurt him ; or perhaps She loved one in her class ; or did not love, But mused upon her wild bad tramping life, Until the free blood fluttered at her heart, And black bread eaten by the roadside hedge Seemed sweeter than being put to Romney's school Of philanthropical self-sacrifice Irrevocably. Girls are girls, beside, Thought I, and like a wedding by one rule. You seldom catch these birds except with chaff. They feel it almost an immoral thing To go out and be married in broad day, Unless some winning special flattery should Excuse them to themselves for't ..." No one parts Her hair with such a silver line as you, One moonbeam from the forehead to the crown I " Or else ..." You bite your lip in such a way It spoils me for the smiling of the rest ; " And so on. Then a worthless gaud or two To keep for love, — a ribbon for the neck, Or some glass pin, — they have their weight with girls. And Romney sought her many days and weeks. He sifted all the refuse of the town. Explored the trains, inquired among the ships. And felt the country through from end to end ; No Marian ! Though I hinted what I knew, — A friend of his had reasons of her owm For tfirowing back the match, — he would not hear : The lady had been ailing ever since. The shock had harmed her. Something in his tone Repressed me ; something in me shamed my doubt To a sign repressed too. He went on to say, That, putting questions where his Marian lodged, Aurora Leigh. 123 He found she had received for visitors — Besides himself and Lady Waldemar, And, that once, me — a dubious woman dressed Beyond us both : the rings upon her hands Had dazed the children when she threw them pence ; " She wore her bonnet as the queen might hers. To show the crown," they said, — " a scarlet crown Of roses that had never been in bud." When Romney told me that, for now and then He came to tell me how the search advanced, His voice dropped. I bent forward for the rest. The woman had been with her, it appeared. At first from week to week, then day by day And last, 'twas sure . . . I looked upon the ground To escape the anguish of his eyes, and asked, As low as when you speak to mourners new Of those they cannot bear yet to call dead, "If Marian had as much as named to him A certain Rose, an early friend of hers, A ruined creature." " Never ! " Starting up. He strode from side to side about the room. Most like some prisoned lion sprung awake, Who has felt the desert sting him through his dreams. " What was I to her, that she should tell me aught ? A friend ! was / a friend .'' I see all clear. Such devils would pull angels out of heaven, Provided they could reach them : 'tis their pride. And that's the odds 'twixt soul and body plague ! The veriest slave who drops in Cairo's street Cries, ' Stand off from me ! ' to the passengers ; While these blotched souls are eager to infect, And blow their bad breath in a sister's face, As if they got some ease by it." I broke through. " Some natures catch no plagues. I've read of babes Found whole, and sleeping by the spotted breast Of one a full day dead. I hold it true, As I'm a woman and know womanhood, That Marian Erie, however lured from place. Deceived in way, keeps pure in aim and heart 124 Aicrora Leigh. As snow that's drifted from the garden-bank To the open road." 'Twas hard to hear him laugh. " The figure's happ3\ Well, a dozen carts And trampers will secure you presently A fine white snow-drift. Leave it there, your snow ! 'Twill pass for soot ere sunset. Pure in aim ? She's pure in aim, I grant you, like myself, Who thought to take the world upon my back To carry it o'er a chasm of social ill. And end by letting slip, through impotence, A single soul, a child's weight in a soul. Straight down the pit of hell ! Yes, I and she Have reason to be proud of our pure aims." Then softly, as the last repenting drops Of a thunder-shower, he added, "The poor child, Poor Marian ! 'twas a luckless day for her. When first she chanced on my philanthropy." He drew^ a chair beside me, and sate down ; And I instinctively — as women use Before a sw^eet friend's grief, when in his ear They hum the tune of comfort, though themselves Most ignorant of the special words of such, And quiet so and fortify his brain. And give it time and strength for feeling out To reach the availing sense beyond that sound — Went murmuring to him what, if written here, Would seem not much, yet fetched him better help Than peradventure if it had been more. I've known the pregnant thinkers of our time, And stood by breathless, hanging on their lips, When some chromatic sequence of fine thought In learned modulation phrased itself To an unconjectured harmony of truth ; And yet I've been more moved, more raised, I say, By a simple word ... a broken, easy thing A three-years infant might at need repeat, A look, a sigh, a touch upon the palm. Which meant less than " I love you," than by all The full-voiced rhetoric of those master-mouths. " Ah, dear Aurora." he began at last, His pale lips fumbling for a sort of smile, Aurora Leigh. " Your printer's devils have not spoilt your heart : That's well. And who knows, but long years ago When you and I talked, you were somewhat riglit In being so peevish with me? You, at least, Have ruined no one through your dreams. Instead, You've helped the facile youth to live youth's day With innocent distraction, still, perhaps Suggestive of things better than your rhymes. Asleep i' the sun, her head upon her knees. The little shepherd-maiden, eight years old, I've seen upon the mountains of Vaucluse, Asleep i' the sun, her head upon her knees, The flocks all scattered, is more laudable Than any sheep-dog trained imperfectly. Who bites the kids through too much zeal." " I look As if I had slept, then } " He was touched at once By something in my face. Indeed, 'twas sure That he and I, despite a year or two 126 Aurora Leigh. Of younger life on my side, and on his The' heaping of the years' work on the days, The three-hour speeches from the member's seat, The hot committees in and out of doors. The pamphlets, " Arguments," " Collective Views," Tossed out as straw before sick houses, just To show one's sick, and so be trod to dirt. And no more use, — through this world's underground The burrowing, gropmg effort, whence the arm And heart come torn, — 'twas sure that he and I Were, after all, unequally fatigued ; That he, in his developed manhood, stood A Uttle sunburnt by the glare of life. While I ... it seemed no sun had shone on me. So many seasons I had missed my springs. My cheeks had pined and perished from their orbs. And all the youth-blood in them had grown white As dew on autumn cyclamens ; alone My eyes and forehead answered for my face. He said, " Aurora, you are changed — are ill ! " " Not so, my cousin, — only not asleep," I answered, smiling gently. " Let it be. You scarcely found the poet of Vaucluse As drowsy as the shepherds. What is art But life upon the larger scale, the higher, When, graduating up in a spiral line Of still expanding.and ascending gyres. It pushes toward the intense significance Of all things, hungry for the Infinite ? Art's life ; and where we hve, we suffer and toil." He seemed to sift me with his painful eyes. " You take it gravely cousin : you refuse Your dreamland's right of common, and green rest. You break the mythic turf where danced the nymphs, With crooked ploughs of actual fife, let in The axes to the legendary woods. To pay the poll-tax. You are fallen indeed On evil days, you poets, if yourselves Can praise the art of yours no otherwise ; And if you cannot . . . better take a trade And be of use ; 'twere cheaper for your youth." Auro7'a Leigh. 127 " Of use ? " I softly echoed, " there's the point We sweep about forever in argument, Like swallows which the exasperate, dying year Sets spinning in black circles, round and round, Preparing for far flights o'er unknown seas. And we — where tend we ? " " Where ? " he said, and sighed. " The whole creation, from the hour we are born. Perplexes us with questions. Not a stone But cries behind us, every weary step, ' Where, where } ' I leave stones to reply to stones. Enough for me and for my fleshly heart To hearken the invocations of my kind, When men catch hold upon my shuddering nerves, And shriek, * What help ? what hope ? what bread i' the house ? What fire i' the frost ? ' There must be some response, Though mine fail utterly. This social Sphinx Who sits between the sepulchres and stews, Makes mock and mow against the crystal heavens. And bullies God, — exacts a word at least From each man standing on the side of God, However paying a sphinx-price for it. We pay it also, if we hold our peace, In pangs and pity. Let me speak and die. Alas ! you'll say I speak and kill instead." I pressed in there, " The best men, doing their best, Know peradventure least of what they do ; Men usefullest i' the world are simply used ; The nail that holds the wood must pierce it first ; And he alone who wields the hammer sees The work advanced by the earliest blow. Take heart." " Ah, if I could have taken yours ! " he said— " But that's past now." Then rising, — " I will take At least your kindness and encouragement. I thank you. Dear, be happy. Sing your songs, If that's your way ; but sometimes slumber too, Nor tire too much with following, out of breath, The rhymes upon your mountains of Delight. Reflect, if art be in truth the higher life. You need the lower life to stand upon In order to reach up unto that higher ; 128 Aufora Leigh. And none can stand a-tiptoe in the place He cannot stand in with two stable feet. . Remember then ! for art's sake hold your life." We parted so. I held him in respect. 1 comprehended what he was in heart And sacrificial greatness. Ay. but he Supposed me a thing too small to deign to know. He blew me, plainly, from the crucible As some intruding, interrupting fly, Not worth the pains of his analysis Absorbed on nobler subjects. Hurt a fly ! He would not for the w^orld : he's pitiful To flies even. " Sing," says he, " and tease me still, If that's your way, poor insect." That's your way I FIFTH BOOK. Aurora Leigh, be humble. Shall I hope To speak my poems in mysterious tune With man and nature ? with the lava-lymph That trickles from successive galaxies Still drop by drop adown the finger of God 1;, ^ 1 =««^^«-H» ijji ^^ "^^^ ' i... ;— \ "SS SUMMEK-DAVS l.N THIS THAT SCARCE DARE BREATHE, THEV ARE SO BEAUTIFCL. In still new worlds ? with summer-days in this That scarce dare breathe, they are so beautiful ? With spring's delicious trouble in the ground, Aurora Leigh. 129 Tormented by the quickened blood of roots, And softly pricked by golden crocus-sheaves In token of tne harvest-time of tiowers ? With winters and with autumns, and beyond With the human heart's large seasons, when it hopes And fears, joys, grieves, and loves ? with all that strain Of sexual passion, which devours the flesh In a sacrament of souls ? with mother's breasts. Which, round the new-made creatures hanging there, Throb luminous and harmonious like pure spheres ? With multitudinous life, and, finally. With the great escapings of ecstatic souls, Who, in a rush of too long prisoned flame, Their radiant faces upward, burn away This dark of the body, issuing on a world Beyond our mortal ? Can I speak my verse So plainly in tune to these things and the rest, That men shall feel it catch them on the quick, As having the same warrant over them To hold and move them, if they will or no. Alike imperious as the primal rhythm Of that theurgic nature ? I must fail, Who fail at the beginning to hold and move One man, and he my cousin, and he my friend, And he born tender, made intelligent, Inclined to ponder the precipitous sides Of difficult questions, yet obtuse to me. Of me, incurious ! likes me very well, And wishes me a paradise of good, — • Good looks, good means, and good digestion, — ay, But otherwise evades me, puts me off With kindness, with a tolerant gentleness, — Too light a book for a grave man's reading ! Go, Aurora Leigh : be humble. There it is. We women are too apt to look to one. Which proves a certain impotence in art. We strain our natures at doing something great. Far less because it's something great to do Than haply that we, so, commend ourselves As being not small, and more appreciable To some one friend. We must have mediators Betwixt our highest conscience and the judge ; Some sweet saint's blood must quicken in our palms. [30 Aurora Leigh. Or all the life in heaven seems slow and cold ; Good only being perceived as the end of good, And God alone pleased,— that's too poor, we think, And not enough for us by any means. Ay, Romney, I remember, told me once We miss the abstract when we comprehend ; We miss it most when we aspire, — and fail. Yet, so, I will not. This vile woman's way Of trailing garments shall not trip me up :' ril have no traffic with the personal thought In art's pure temple. Must I work in vain. Without the approbation of a man ? It cannot be ; it shall not. Fame itself, That approbation of the general race, Presents a poor end, (though the arrow speed. Shot straight with vigorous finger to the white,) And the highest fame was never reached except By what was aimed above it. Art for art, And good for God himself, the essential Good I We'll keep our aims sublime, our eyes erect, Although our woman-hands should shake and fail ; And if we fail . . . But must we? — Shall I fail ? The Greeks said grandly in their tragic phrase, " Let no one be called happy till his death." To which I add. Let no one till his death Be called unhappy. Measure not the work Until the day's out and the labor done ; Then bring your gauges. If the day's work's scant. Why, call it scant ; affect no compromise ; And, in that we've nobly striven at least. Deal with us nobly, women though we be. And honor us with truth, if not with praise. My ballads prospered ; but the ballad's race Is rapid for a poet who bears weights Of thought and golden image. He can stand Like Atlas, in the sonnet, and support His own heavens pregnant with dynastic stars: But then he must stand still, nor take a step. In that descriptive poem called " The Hills," The prospects were too far and indistinct. Aurora Leigh. 131 'Tis true my critics said, "A fine view, that ! " The public scarcely cared to climb my book For even the finest, and the public's right : A tree's mere firewood, unless humanized; Which well the Greeks knew when they stirred its bark With close-pressed bosoms of subsiding nymphs, And made the forest-rivers garrulous With babble of gods. For us, we are called to mark A still more intimate humanity In this inferior nature, or ourselves Must fall like dead leaves trodden underfoot By veritable artists. Earth (shut up By Adam, like a fakir in a box Left too long buried) remained stiff and dry, A mere dumb corpse, till Christ Lord came down. Unlocked the doors, forced open blank eyes, And used his kingly chrism straighten out The leathery tongue turned back into ^.^ the throat ; Since when, she lives, remembers, pal- pitates In every limb, aspires in every breath. Embraces infinite relations. Now We want no half-gods, Panompha^an Joves, Fauns, Naiads, Tritons, Oreads, and the rest, To take possession of a senseless world To unnatural vampire-uses. See the earth. The body of our body, the green earth, Indubitably human like this flesh And these articulated veins through which Our heart drives blood ! There's not a flower of spring That dies ere June, but vaunts itself allied By issue and symbol, by significance And correspondence, to that spirit-world Outside the limits of our space and time, Whereto we are bound. Let poets give it voice With human meanings, else they miss the thought, lin A FLOWER OF SPRING. 132 Aurora Leigh. And henceforth step down lower, stand confessed Instructed poorly for interpreters, Thrown out by an easy cowslip in the text. Even so my pastoral failed : it was a book Of surface-pictures, pretty, cold, and false With literal transcript, — the worse done, I think, For being- not ill done : let me set my mark Against such doings, and do otherwise. This strikes me. — if the public whom we know Could catch me at such admissions, I should pass For being right modest. Yet how proud we are In daring to look down upon ourselves ! The critics say that epics have died out With Agamemnon and the goat-nursed gods : I'll not believe it. I could never deem, As Payne Knight did, (the mythic mountaineer Who travelled higher ihan he was born to live, And showed sometimes the goitre in his throat Discoursing of an image seen through fog, ) That Homer's heroes measured twelve feet high. They were but men : his Helen's hair turned gray Like any plain Miss Smith's who wears a front ; And Hector's infant whimpered at a plume As yours last Friday at a turkey-cock. All actual heroes are essential men, And all men possible heroes : every age. Heroic in proportions, double-faced. Looks backward and before, expects a morn And claims an epos. Ay ; but every age Appears to souls who live in't ( ask Carlyle ) Most unheroic. Ours, for instance, ours — The thinkers scout it, and the poets abound Who scorn to touch it with a finger-tip — A pewter age, mixed metal, silver-washed — An age of scum, spooned off the richer past, — An age of patches for old gaberdines. An age of mere transition, meaning naught Except that what succeeds must shame it quite If God please. That's wrong thinking, to my mind, And wrong thoughts make poor poems. Every age. Through being beheld too close, is ill discerned Aurora Leigh. 133 liy those who have not lived past it. We'll suppose Mount Athos carved, as Alexander schemed, To some colossal statue of a man. The peasants, gathering brushwood in his ear. Had guessed as little as the browsing goats Of form or feature of humanity Up there,— in fact, had travelled five miles off Or ere the giant image broke on them. Full human profile, nose and chin distinct, Mouth muttering rhythms of silence up the sky, And fed at evening with the blood of sons ; Grand torso,— hand that flung perpetually The largesse of a silver river down To all the country pastures. 'Tis even thus With times we live in,— evermore too great To be apprehended near. But poets should Exert a double vision ; should have eyes To see near things as comprehensively As if afar they took their point of sight. And distant things as intimately deep As if they touched them. Let us strive for this. I do distrust the poet who discerns No character or glory in his times. And trundles back his soul five hundred years. Past moat and draw^bridge, into a castle-court. To sing — oh, not of lizard or of toad Alive i' the ditch there,— 'twere excusable, But of some black chief, half knight, half sheep-lifter, Some beauteous dame, half chattel and half queen, As dead as must be, for the greater part, The poems made on their chivalric bones; And that's no wonder : death inherits death. Nay, if there's room for poets in this world A little overgrown, (I think there is) Their sole work is to represent the age, Their age, not Charlemagne's,— this live, throbbing age, That brawls, cheats, maddens, calculates, aspires, And spends more passion, more heroic heat. Betwixt the mirrors of its drawing-rooms, Than Roland with his knights at Roncesvalles. To flinch from modern varnish, coat or flounce, Cry out for togas and the picturesque. 134 Aurora Leigh. Is fatal, — foolish too. King Arthur's self Was commonplace to Lady Guinevere ; And Camelot to minstrels seemed as flat As Fleet Street to our poets. Never flinch. But still, unscrupulously epic, catch Upon the burning lava of a song The full-veined, heaving, double-breasted age. That, when the next shall come, the men of that May touch the impress with reverent hand, and say, " Behold, behold, the paps we all have sucked ! This bosom seems to beat still, or at least It sets ours beating : this is living art. Which thus presents and thus records true life." What form is best for poems } Let me think Of forms less, and the external. Trust the spirit, As sovran nature does, to make the form ; For otherwise we only imprison spirit And not embody. Inward evermore To outward, — so in life, and so in art. Which still is life. Five acts to make a play. And why not fifteen ? why not ten } or seven ? What matter for the number of the leaves, Supposing the tree lives and grows } exact The literal unities of time and place. When 'tis the essence of passion to ignore Both time and place ? Absurd. Keep up the fire, And leave the generous flames to shape themselves. 'Tis true the stage requires obsequiousness To this or that convention ; " exit " here And " enter " there ; the points for clapping fixed, Like Jacob's white-peeled rods before the ram$ ; And all the close-curled imagery clipped In manner of their fleece at shearing-time. Forget to pick the galleries to the heart Precisely at the fourth act, culminate Our five pyramidal acts with one act more. We're lost so : Shakspeare's ghost could scarcely plead Against our just damnation. Stand aside ; We'll muse, for comfort, that last century. On this same tragic stage on which we have failed, A wigless Hamlet would have failed the same. Aurora Leigh. 135 And whosoever writes good poetry Looks just to art. He does not write for you Or nie, for London or for Edinburgh ; He will not suffer the best critic known To step into his sunshine of free thought And self-absorbed conception, and exact An inch-long swerving of the holy lines. If virtue done for popularity Defiles like vice, can art, for praise or hire. Still keep its splendor, and remain pure art ? Eschew such serfdom. What the poet writes. He writes. Mankind accepts it if it suits, And that's success : if not, the poem's passed From hand to hand, and yet from hand to hand, Until the unborn snatch it, crying out In pity on their fathers being so dull ; And that's success too. I will write no plays, Because the drama, less sublime in this, Makes lower appeals ; submits more menially; Adopts the standard of the public taste To chalk its height on ; wears a dog-chain round Its regal neck, and learns to carry and fetch The fashions of the day to please the day ; Fawns close on pit and boxes, who clap hands. Commending chiefly its docility And humor in stage-tricks; or else, indeed. Gets hissed at, howled at, stamped at like a dog, Or worse, we'll say. For dogs, unjustly kicked, Yell, bite at need ; but if your dramatist ( Being wronged by some five hundred nobodies, Because their grosser brains most naturally Misjudge the fineness of his subtle wit) Shows teeth an almond's breath, protests the length Of a modest phrase, " My gentle countrymen. There's something in it haply of your fault," Why then, besides five hundred nobodies. He'll have five thousand and five thousand more Against him, — the whole public, all the hoofs Of King Saul's father's asses, in full drove. And obviously deserve it. He appealed To these, and why say more if they condemn. Than if they praise him ? Weep, my ^schylus, But low and far, upon Sicilian shores ! 336 Aurora Leigh. For since 'twas Athens (so I read the myth) Who gave commission to that fatal weight The tortoise, cold and hard, to drop on thee And crush thee, better cover thy bald head. She'll hear the softest hum of Hyblan bee Before thy loudest protestation. ' Then The risk's still w^orse upon the modern stage : I could not, for so little, accept success ; Nor would I risk so much, in ease and calm, For manifester gains : let those who prize Pursue them : 1 stand off. And yet forbid That any irreverent fancy or conceit Should litter in the drama's throne-room, where The rulers of our art, in whose full veins Dynastic glories mingle, sit in strength And do their kingly work, conceive, command. And from the imagination's crucial heat Catch up their men and women all aflame For action, all alive, and forced to prove Their life by living out heart, brain, and nerve, Until mankind makes witness, " These be men As we are," and vouchsafes the greeting due To Imogen and Juliet,— sweetest kin On art's side. 'Tis that, honoring to its worth The drama, I would fear to keep it down To the level of the footlights. Dies no more The sacrificial goat, for Bacchus slain, His filmed ej^es fluttered by the whirling white Of choral vestures, troubled in his blood. While tragic voices that clanged keen as swords, Leapt high together with the altar-flame, And made the blue air wink. The waxen mask, Which set the grand, still front of Themis' son Upon the puckered visage of a player ; The buskin, which he rose upon and moved, As some tall ship, first conscious of the wind. Sweeps slowly past the piers ; the mouthpiece, where The mere man's voice, with all its breaths and breaks. Went sheathed in brass, and clashed on even heights Its phrased thunders, — these things are no more. Which once were. And concluding, which is clear. The growing drama has outgrown such toys Aurora Leigh. 137 Of simulated stature, face, and speech, It also perad venture may outgrow The simulation of the painted scene. Boards, actors, prompters, gaslight, and costume. And take for a worthier stage the soul itself, Its shifting fancies and celestial lights, With all its grand orchestral silences To keep the pauses of its rhythmic sounds. Alas ! I still see something to be done, And what I do falls short of what I see, Though I waste myself on doing. Long green days, Worn bare of grass and sunshine ; long calm nights. From which the silken sleeps were fretted out,— Be witness for me, with no amateur's Irreverent haste and busy idleness I set myself to art ! What then ? what's done ? What's done, at last ? Behold, at last, a book. If life-blood's necessary, which it is, — ( By that blue vein a-throb on Mahomet's brow, Each prophet-poet's book must show man's blood ! ) If life-blood's fertilizing, I wrung mine On every leaf of this, unless the drops Slid heavily on one side, and left it dry. That chances often. Many a fervid man Writes books as cold and flat as graveyard stones From which the lichen's scraped ; and if St. Preux Had written his own letters, as he might, We had never wept to think of the little mole 'Neath Julie's drooping eyelid. Passion is But something suffered, after all. While art Set action on the top of suffering, The artist's part is both to be and do. Transfixing with a special central power The flat experience of the common man, And turning outward, with a sudden wrench, Half agony, half ecstasy, the thing He feels the inmost, — never felt the less Because he sings it. Does a torch less burn For burning next reflectors of blue steel, That he should be the colder for his place 'Twixt two incessant fires, — his personal life's. Aurora Leigh. And that intense refraction which burns back Perpetually against him from the round Of crN'Stal conscience he was born into, If artist-born? Oh, sorrowful, great gift Conferred on poets, of a twofold life. When one life has been found enough for pain ! We, staggering 'neath our burden as mere men. Being called to stand up straight as demigods, Support the intolerable strain "and stress Of the universal, and send clearly up With voices broken by the human sob, Our poems to find rhymes among the stars ! But soft, — a " poet " is a word soon said, A book's a thing soon written. Nay, indeed, The more the poet shall be questionable. The more unquestionably comes his book. And this of mine — well, granting to myself Some passion in it, furrowing up the flats, Mere passion will not prove a volume worth Its gall and rags even. Bubbles round a keel Mean nought, excepting that the vessel moves. There's more than passion goes to make a man Or book, which is a man too. I am sad. I wonder if Pygmalion had these doubts, And, feeling the hard marble first relent. Grow supple to the straining of his arms, And tingle through its cold to his burning lip. Supposed his senses mocked, supposed the toil Of stretching past the known and seen to reach The archetypal beauty out of sight, Had made his heart beat fast enough for two. And with his own life dazed and blinded him I Not so. Pygmalion loved ; and whoso loves Believes the impossible. But I am sad I cannot thoroughly love a work of mine, Since none seems worthy of my thought and hope More highly mated. He has shot them down. My Phoebus Apollo, soul within my soul, W' ho judges by the attempted what's attained. And with the silver arrow from his height Has struck down all my works before my face. While I said nothing. Is there aught to say .> Aurora Lei^h. I called the artist but a greatened man. He may be childless also, like a man. I labored on alone. The wind and dust And sun of the world beat blistering in my face ; And hope, now for me, now against me, dragged My spirits onward, as some fallen balloon, Which, whether caught by blossoming tree or bare. Is torn alike. I sometimes touched my aim, Or seemed, and generous souls cried out, " Be strong, Take courage ; now you're on our level — now ! The next step saves you." I was flushed with praise ; But, pausing just a moment to draw breath, I could not choose but murmur to myself, " Is this all ? all that's done } and all that's gained } If this, then, be success, 'tis dismaller Than any failure." O my God, my God, O supreme Artist, who, as sole return For all the cosmic wonder of thy work, Demandest of us just a word ... a name, " My Father ! " thou hast knowledge, only thou, How dreary 'tis for women to sit still. On winter nights, by solitary fires. And hear the nations praising them far off. Too far ! ay, praising our quick sense of love. Our very heart of passionate womanhood, Which could not beat so in the verse, without Being present also in the unkissed lips. And eyes undried, because there's none to ask The reason they grew moist. To sit alone, And think for comfort, how that very night Affianced lovers, leaning face to face, With sweet half-listenings for each other's breath, Are reading haply from a page of ours, To pause with a thrill (as if their cheeks had touched) When such a stanza, level to their mood, Seems floating their own thought out — " So I feel For thee," — " And I, for thee : this poet knows What everlasting love is ! " — how that night Some father, issuing from the misty roads Upon the luminous round of lamp and hearth, And happy children, having caught up first I40 Aurora Lei^rh. Affianced lovers, i.eamxg face to face. Aurora Leigh. 141 The youngest there, until it shrink and shriek To feel the cold chin prick its dimples through With winter from the hills, may throw i' the' lap Of the eldest (who has learnt to drop her lids To hide some sweetness newer than last year's) Our book, and cry ..." Ah, you, you care for rhymes : So here be rhymes to pore on under trees, When April comes to let you ! I've been told They are not idle, as so many are, But set hearts beating pure, as well as fast. 'Tis yours, the book : I'll write your name in it, That so you may not lose, however lost In poet's lore and charming revery, The thought of how your father thought of /^// In riding from the town." To have our books Appraised by love, associated with love, While we sit loveless ! is it hard, you think } At least 'tis mournful. Fame, indeed, 'twas said. Means simply love. It was a man said that. And then there's love and love : the love of all ( To risk in turn a woman's paradox) Is but a small thing to the love of one. You bid a hungry child be satisfied With a heritage of many cornfields : nay, He says he's hungry ; he would rather have That little barley-cake you keep from him While reckoning up his harvests. So with us ; ( Here, Romney, too, we fail to generalize !) We're hungry. Hungry! But it's pitiful To wail like un weaned babes, and suck our thumbs. Because we're hungry. Who in all this world ( Wherein we are haply set to pray and fast. And learn what good is by its opposite ) Has never hungered } Woe to him who has found The meal enough ! If Ugolino's full. His teeth have crunched some foul unnatural thing ; For here satiety proves penury More utterly irremediable. And since We needs must hunger, better, for man's love Than God's truth ! better, for companions sweet Than g;reat convictions ! Let us bear our weights, Preferring dreary hearths to desert souls. 142 Aurora Leigh. Well, well I they say we're envious, we who rhyme ; But I — because I am a woman, perhaps, And so rhyme ill — am ill at envying. I never envied Graham his breadth of style, Which gives you, with a random smutch or two, ( Near-sighted critics analyze to smutch ) Such delicate perspectives of full life ; Nor Belmore, for the unity of aim To which he cuts his cedarn poems, fine, As sketchers do their pencils ; nor Mark Gage, For that caressing color and trancing tone Whereby you're swept away, and melted in The sensual element, which, with a back wave, Restores you to the level of pure souls. And leav^es you with Plotinus. None of these. For native gifts or popular applause, Fve envied ; but for this, — that when by chance Says some one, " There goes Belmore, a great man I He leaves clean work behind him, and requires No sweeper-up of the chips," ... a girl 1 know, Who answers nothing, save with her brown eyes. Smiles unaware, as if a guardian saint Smiled in her ; for this, too, that Gage comes home, And lays his last book's prodigal review Upon his mother's knee, where, years ago. He laid his childish spelling-book, and learned To chirp, and peck the letters from her mouth. As young birds must. " Well done," she murmured then She will not say it now more wonderingly. And yet the last " Well done," will touch him more, As catching up to-day and yesterday In a perfect chord of love. And so, Mark Gage, I envy you your mother— and you, Graham, Because you have a wife who loves you so, She half forgets, at moments, to be proud Of being Graham's wife, until a friend observes, " The boy here has his father's massive brow. Done small in wax ... if we push back the curls." Who loves me ? Dearest father, mother sweet, — I speak the names out sometimes by myself. And make the silence shiver. They sound strange. As Hindostanee to an Ind-born man Accustomed many years to English speech ; Aurora Leigh. ^43 Or lovely poet-words grown obsolete, Which will not leave off singing. Up in neaven I have my father, with my mother's face Beside him in a blotch of heavenly light ; No more for earth's familiar, household use. No more The best verse written by this hand Can never reach them where they sit to seem Well done to them. Death quite unfellows us. Sets dreadful odds betwixt the live and dead. And makes us part, as those at Babel did Through sudden ignorance of a common tongue. A living Csesar would not dare to play At bowls with such as my dead father is. And yet this may be less so than appears. This change and separation. Sparrows hve For just two farthings, and God cares for each. If God is not too great for little cares. Is any creature, because gone to God } I've seen some men, veracious, nowise mad. Who have thought or dreamed, declared and testitied, They heard the dead a-ticking like a clock Which strikes the hours of the eternities, Beside them, with their natural ears, and known That human spirits feel the human way, And hate the unreasoning awe which waves them oil From possible communion. It may be. At least, earth separates as well as heaven. For instance, I have not seen Romney Leigh Full eighteen months ... add six, you get two years. Thev say he's very busiy with good works. Has' parted Leigh Hall into almshouses. He made one day an almshouse of his heart. Which ever since is loose upon the latch For those who pull the string.— I never did. It always makes me sad to go abroad. And now I'm sadder that I went to-night ^ Among the lights and talkers at Lord Howe s. His wife is gracious, with her glossy braids. And even voice, and gorgeous eyeballs, calm As her other jewels. If she's somewhat cold. Who wonders, when her blood has stood so long 144 Aurora Leigh. Those alabaster shoulders. Aurora Leigh. 145 In the ducal reservoir she calls her line liy no means arrogantly ? She's not proud ; Not prouder than the swan is of the lake He has always swum in : 'tis her element, And so she takes it with a natural grace, Ignoring tadpoles. She just knows, perhaps. There are who travel without outriders. Which isn't her fault. Ah, to watch her face, When good Lord Howe expounds his theories Of social justice and equality ! 'Tis curious what a tender, tolerant bend Her neck takes ; for she loves him, likes his talk, " Such clever talk— that dear odd Algernon ! " She listens on, exactly as if he talked Some Scandinavian myth of Lemures, Too pretty to dispute, and too absurd. She's gracious to me as her husband's friend. And would be gracious were I not a Leigh, Being used to smile just so, without her eyes. On Joseph Strangways, the Leeds mesmerist. And Delia Dobbs, the lecturer from " the States " Upon the " Woman's question." Then, for him— I like him : he's my friend. And all the rooms Were full of crinkling silks that swept about The fine dust of most subtle courtesies. What then } Why, then we come home to be sad. How lovely one I love not looked to-night ! She's very pretty. Lady Waldemar. Her maid must use both hands to twist that coil Of tresses, then be careful lest the rich Bronze rounds should slip : she missed, though, a gray hair. A single one,— I saw it ; otherwise The woman looked immortal. How they told. Those alabaster shoulders and bare breasts, On which the pearls, drowned out of sight in milk. Were lost, excepting for the ruby clasp. They split the amaranth velvet bodice down To the waist, or nearly, with the audacious press Of full-breathed beauty. If the heart within Were half as white !— but, if it were, perhaps The breast were closer covered, and the sight Less aspectable by half, too. I heard 146 Aurora Leigh. The young man with the German student's look — A sharp face, like a knife in a cleft stick. Which shot up straight against the parting line So equally dividing the long hair — Say softly to his neighbor (thirty-five And mediceval), " Look that way. Sir Blaise, She's Lady Waldemar, — to the left — in red, — Whom Romney Leigh, our ablest man just now, Is soon about to marry." Then replied Sir Blaise Delorme, with quiet, priest-like voice, Too used to syllable damnations round To make a natural emphasis worth while, " Is Leigh your ablest man? — the same, I think, Once jilted by a recreant pretty maid Adopted from the people? Now, in change. He seems to have plucked a flower from the other side Of the social hedge." " A flower, a flower ! " exclaimed My German student, his own eyes full blown Bent upon her. He was twenty, certainly. Sir Blaise resumed with gentle arrogance, As if he had dropped his alms into a hat And gained the right to counsel, " My young friend, I doubt your ablest man's ability To get the least good or help meet for him, For Pagan phalanstery or Christian home, From such a flowery creature." " Beautiful ! " My student murmured, rapt. " Mark how she stirs ! Just waves her head, as if a flower indeed. Touched far off by the vain breath of our talk." At which that bilious Grimwald (he who writes For the Renovator), who had seemed absorbed Upon the table-book of autographs, I dare say mentally he crunched the bones Of all those writers, wishing them alive To feel his tooth in earnest), turned short round With low, carnivorous laugh, — " A flower, of course ! She neither sews nor spins, and takes no thought Of her garments . . . falling off." Aurora Leigh. 147 The student Hi ached ; Sir Blaise the same ; then both, drawing back their chairs As if they spied black-beetles on the floor, Pursued their talk without a word being thrown To the critic. Good Sir Blaise's brow is high, And noticeably narrow ; a strong wind, You fancy, might unroof him suddenly. And blow that great top attic off his head • So piled with feudal relics. You admire His nose in profile, though you miss his chin ; But, though you miss his chin, you seldom miss His ebon cross worn innermostly, (carved For penance by a saintly Styrian monk Whose flesh was too much with him,) slipping through Some unaware unbuttoned casualty Of the under waistcoat. With an absent air Sir Blaise sate fingering it, and speaking low, While I upon the sofa heard it all. " My dear young friend, if we could bear our eyes. Like blessedest St. Lucy, on a plate. They would not trick us into choosing wives, As doublets, by the color. Otherwise Our fathers chose ; and therefore, when they had hung Their household keys about a lady's waist. The sense of duty gave her dignity : She kept her bosom holy to her babes. And, if a morahst reproved her dress, 'Twas, " Too much starch ! " and not, " Too little lawn ! " Now, pshaw ! " returned the other in a heat, A little fretted by being called " Young friend," Or so I took it,—" for St. Lucy's sake. If she's the saint to swear by, let us leave Our fathers,— plagued enough about our sons ! " (He stroked his beardless chin) " yes, plagued, sir, plagued The future generations lie on us As heavy as the nightmare of a seer ; Our meat and drink grow painful prophecy. I ask you. have we leisure, if we liked, To hollow out our weary hands to keep Your intermittent rushlight of the past From draughts in lobbies ? Prejudice of sex 48 Aurora Leigh. And marriage-law . . . the socket drops them through While we two speak, however may protest Some over-delicate nostrils like your own, 'Gainst odors thence arising." " You are young," Sir Blaise objected, " If I am," he said With fire, " though somewhat less so than I seem, The young run on before, and see the thing That's coming, ' Reverence for the young ! ' I cry. In that new church for which the world's near ripe, You'll have the younger in the elder's chair, Presiding with his ivory front of hope O'er foreheads clawed by cruel carrion birds Of life's experience," "Pray your blessing, sir," Sir Blaise replied good-humoredly. " I plucked A silver hair this morning from my beard. Which left me your inferior. Would I were Eighteen, and worthy to admonish you ! If young men of your order run before To see such sights as sexual prejudice And marriage-law dissolved, — in plainer words, A general concubinage expressed In a universal pruriency, — the thing Is scarce worth running fast for, and you'd gain By loitering with your elders." " Ah ! " he said, '• Who, getting to the top of Pisgah-hill, Can talk with one at bottom of the view, To make it comprehensible } Why, Leigh Himself, although our ablest man, I said. Is scarce advanced to see as far as this ; W^hich some are. He takes up imperfectly The social question, — by one handle, — leaves The rest to trail. A Christian socialist Is Romney Leigh, you understand." I disbelieve in Christian-Pagans, much As you in women-fishes. If we mix Two colors, we lose both, and make a third, Distinct from either. Mark you ! to mistake A color is the sign of a sick brain, Not I. Aurora Leigh. i49 And mine, I thank the saints, is clear and cool : A neutral tint is here impossible. The church— and by the church, I mean, of course, The catholic, apostolic, mother-church— Draws lines as plain and straight as her own wall. Inside of which are Christians, obviously. And outside . . . dogs." "We thank you. Well I know The ancient mother-church would fain still bite, For all her toothless gums, as Leigh himself Would fain be a Christian still, for all his wit. Pass that : vou two may settle it for me. You're slow in England. In a month I learnt At Gdttingen enough philosophy To stock your English schools for fifty years ; Pass that too. Here alone, I stop you short. —Supposing a true man like Leigh could stand Unequal in the stature of his life To the height of his opinions. , Choose a wite Because of a smooth skin ? Not he, not he ! He'd rail at Venus' self for creaking shoes. Unless she walked his way of righteousness ; And if he takes a Venus Meretrix ( No imputation on the lady there ) Be sure, that, by some sleight of Christian art, He has metamorphosed and converted her To a Blessed Virgin." . , , . , u ^u " Soft ! " Sir Blaise drew breath As if it hurt him.—" Soft ! no blasphemy, 1 pray you . ^^ ^^^ ^^^^ Chiistians did the thing : Why not the last ? " asked he of Gottingen. With just that shade of sneering on the lip, Compensates for the lagging of the beard,— " And so the case is. If that fairest fair Is talked of as the future wife of Leigh, She's talked of too, at least as certainly, As Leigh's disciple. You may find her name On all his missions and commissions, schools, Asylums, hospitals : he had her down. With other ladies whom her starry lead Persuaded from their spheres, to his country-place In Shropshire, to the famed phalanstery At Leigh Hall, christianized from Fourier's own, 50 Aurora Leigh. ( In which he has planted out his sapling stocks Of knowledge into social nurseries ) And there they say she has tarried half a week. And milked the co'ws, and churned, and pressed the curd, And said ' My sister ' to the lowest drab Of all the assembled castaways : such girls ! Ay, sided with them at the washing-tub — Conceive, Sir Blaise, those naked perfect arms. Round glittering arms, plunged elbow-deep in suds. Like wild swans hid in lilies all a- shake." Lord Howe came up. " What, talking poetry So near the image of the unfavoring Muse ? That's you, Miss Leigh : I've watched you half an hour. Precisely as I watched the statue called A Pallas in the Vatican. — You mind The face. Sir Blaise ? — intensely calm and sad. As wisdom cut it off from fellowship. But that spoke louder, — Not a word from you ! And these two gentlemen were bold, I marked, And unabashed bv even your silence." "Ah," Said I, " my dear Lord Howe, you shall not speak To a printing woman who has lost her place ( The sweet safe corner of the household fire Behind the heads of children ) compliments, As if she were a woman. We who have dipt The curls before our eyes may see at least As plain as men do. Speak out, man to man. No compliments, beseech you." " Friend to friend, Let that be. We are sad to-night, I saw, (—Good-night, Sir Blaise ! ah. Smith— he has slipped away) I saw you across the room, and staid, Miss Leigh, To keep a crowd of lion-hunters off. With faces toward your jungle. There were three : A spacious lady, five feet ten, and fat, Who has the devil in her (and there's room) For walking to and fro upon the earth, From Chippewa to China ; she requires Your autograph upon a tinted leaf 'Twixt Queen Pomare's and Emperor Soulouque's. Pray give it ! she has energies, though fat : For me I'd rather see a rick on fire Aurora Leigh. 151 Than such a woman angry. Then a youth Fresh from the backwoods, green as the underboughs, Asks modestly, Miss Leigh, to kiss your shoe, And adds he has an epic in twelve parts. Which when you've read, you'll do it for his boot : All which I saved you, and absorb next week Both manuscript and man, — because a lord Is still more potent than a poetess With any extreme Republican. Ah, ah, You smile at last, then." " Thank you." " Leave the smile. I'll lose the thanks for't, ay, and throw you in My transatlantic girl, with golden eyes. That draw you to her splendid whiteness as The pistil of a water-lily draws, Adust with gold. Those girls across the sea Are tyrannously pretty, and I swore ( She seemed to me an innocent frank girl) To bring her to you for a woman's kiss ; Not now, but on some other day or week : — We'll call it perjury ; I give her up." " No, bring her." " Now," said he, " you make it hard To touch such goodness with a grimy palm. I thought to tease you well, and fret you cross. And steel myself, when rightly vexed with you, For telling you a thing to tease you more." " Of Romney ? " " No, no : nothing worse," he cried, " Of Romney Leigh than what is buzzed about, — That he is taken in an eye-trap too. Like many half as wise. The thing I mean Refers to you, not him." " Refers to me." He echoed, — " * Me ' ! You sound it like a stone Dropped down a dry well very listlessly By one who never thinks about the toad Alive at the bottom. Presently perhaps You'll sound your 'me ' more proudly— till I shrink." " Lord Howe's the toad, then, in this question } " 152 Aurora Leigh. " Brief, We'll take it graver. Give me sofa-room, And quiet hearing. You know Eglinton, — John Eglinton of Eglinton in Kent ? " " Is he the toad ? He's rather like the snail, Known chiefly for the house upon his back : Divide the man and house, you kill the man : That's Eglinton of Eglinton, Lord Howe." He answered grave : " A reputable man, An excellent landlord of the olden stamp If somewhat slack in new philanthropies. Who keeps his birthdays with a tenants' dance, Is hard upon them when they miss the church Or hold their children back from catechism. But not ungentle when the aged poor Pick sticks at hedgesides : nay, I've heard him say, ' The old dame has a twinge because she stoops : That's punishment enough for felony.' " " O tender-hearted landlord I may I take My long lease with him, when the time arrives For gathering winter-fagots I " " He likes art ; Buys books and pictures ... of a certain kind ; Neglects no patent duty ; a good son "... " To a most obedient mother. Born to wear His father's shoes, he wears her husband's too : Indeed I've heard it's touching. Dear Lord Howe, You shall not praise me so against your heart When I'm at worst for praise and fagots." "Be Less bitter with me ; for ... in short," he said, " I have a letter, which he urged me so To bring you ... I could scarcely choose but yield ; Insisting that a new lov'e, passing through The hand of an old friendship, caught from it Some reconciling odor." " Love, you say .'' My lord, I cannot love : I only find The rhvme for lov^e : and that's not love, my lord. Aurora Lcii^h. 153 Take back your letter." " Pause. You'll read it first ? " " I will not read it ; it is stereotyped. The same he wrote to, — anybody's name, Anne Blythe the actress, when she died so true A duchess fainted in a private box ; Pauline the dancer, after the great /^?^ In which her little feet winked overhead Like other fireflies, and amazed the pit ; Or Baldinacci, when her F in alt Had touched the silver tops of heaven itself With such a pungent spirit-dart, the (2ueen Laid softl3% each to each, her white gloved palms, And sighed for joy ; or else (I thank your friend) Aurora Leigh, when some indifferent rhymes, Like those the boys sang round the holy ox On Memphis-highway, chance perhaps to set Our Apis-public lowing. Oh, he wants. Instead of any worthy wife at home, A star upon his stage of Egiinton } Advise him that he is not over-shrewd In being so little modest : a dropped star Makes bitter waters, says a Book I've read, — And there's his unread letter." " My dear friend," Lord Howe began . . . In haste I tore the phrase. •' You mean your friend of Egiinton, or me ? " " I mean you, you ! " he answered with some fire. " A happy life means prudent compromise ; The tare runs through the farmer's garnered sheaves. And, though the gleaner's apron holds pure wheat We count her poorer. Tare with wheat, we cry. And good with drawbacks. You, you love your art. And, certain of vocation, set your soul On utterance. Only, in this world we have made, ( They say God made it first, but if he did 'Twas so long since, and, since, we have spoiled it so, He scarce would know it, if he looked this way. From hells we preach of, with the llames blown out,) — In this bad, twisted, topsyturvy world. Where all the heaviest wrongs get uppermost, — 154 Aurora Leigh. In this uneven, unfostering England here, Where ledger-strokes and sword-strokes count indeed, But soul-strokes merely tell upon the flesh They strike from, — it is hard to stand for art, Unless some golden tripod from the sea Be fished up, by Apollo's divine chance, To throne such feet as yours, my prophetess, At Delphi. Think, — the god comes down as fierce As twenty bloodhounds, shakes you, strangles you. Until the oracular shriek shall ooze in froth I At best 'tis not all ease ; at worst too hard. A place to stand on is a 'vantage gained, And here's your tripod. To be plain, dear friend, You're poor, except in what you richly give ; You labor for your own bread painfully. Or ere you pour our wine. For art's sake, pause." I answered slow, — as some wayfaring man, Who feels himself at night too far from home, Makes steadfast face against the bitter wind, — " Is art so less a thing than virtue is. That artists first must cater for their ease. Or ever they make issue past themselves To generous use ? Alas ! and is it so. That we who would be somewhat clean must sweep Our ways, as well as walk them, and no friend Confirm us nobly, — ' Leave results to God, But you, be clean ! ' What ! ' prudent compromise Makes acceptable life,' you say instead, — You, you, Lord Howe } — in things indifferent, well. For instance, compromise the wheaten bread For rye, the meat for lentils, silk for serge, And sleep on down, if needs, for sleep on straw ; But there end compromise. I will not bate One artist-dream on straw or down, my lord, Nor pinch my liberal soul, though I be poor, Nor cease to love high, though I live-thus low." So speaking, with less anger in my voice Than sorrow, I rose quickly to depart ; While he, thrown back upon the noble shame Of such high stumbling natures, murmured words, — The right words after wrong ones. Ah, the man Is worthy, but so given to entertain Aurora Leigh. 155 Impossible plans of superhuman life. He sets his virtues on so raised a shelf, To keep them at the grand millennial height, He has to mount a stool to get at them, And meantime lives on quite the common way. With everybody's morals. As we passed, Lord Howe insisting that his friendly arm Should oar me across the sparkling, brawling stream Which swept from room to room, we fell at once On Lady Waldemar. " Miss Leigh," she said. And gave me such a smile,— so cold and bright, As if she tried it in a 'tiring glass And liked it, — " all to-night I've strained at you As babes at bawbles held up out of reach By spiteful nurses, (' Never snatch,' they say,) And there you sate, most perfectly shut in By good Sir Blaise and clever Mister Smith, And then our dear Lord Howe ! At last indeed I almost snatched. I have a world to speak About your cousin's place in Shropshire where Lve been to see his work ... our work,— you heard I went } . . . and of a letter yesterday. In which if I should read a page or two You might feel interest, though you're locked of course In Hterary toil.— You'll like to hear Your last book lies at the phalanstery. As judged innocuous for the elder girls And younger women w4io still care for books. We all must read, you see, before we live, Till slowly the ineffable light comes up And as it deepens drowns the written w'ord : So said your cousin, while we stood and felt A sunset from his favorite beech-tree seat. He might have been a poet if he w^ould ; But then he saw the higher thing at once And climbed to it. I think he looks well now, Has quite got over that unfortunate . . . Ah, ah ... I know^ it moved you. Tender-heart ! You took a liking to the wretched girl. Perhaps you thought the marriage suitable, Who knows ? A poet hankers for romance, And so on. As for Romney Leigh, 'tis sure He never loved her,— never. By the way, 56 Aurora Leigh, You have not heard of her . . . ? Quite out of sight, And out of saving? Lost in every sense? " She might have gone on talking half an hour And I stood still, and cold, and pale, I think, As a garden-statue a child pelts with snow For pretty pastime. Every now and then I put in " yes " or " no," I scarce knew why: The blind man walks wherever the dog pulls, And so I answered. Till Lord Howe broke in : " What penance takes the wretch who interrupts The talk of charming women ? I at last Must brave it. Pardon, Lady Waldemar ! The lady on my arm is tired, unwell. And loyally I've promised she shall say No harder word this evening than . . . good-night : The rest her face speaks for her." — Then we went. And I breathe large at home. I drop my cloak. Unclasp my girdle, loose the band that ties My hair . . . now could I but unloose my soul ! We are sepulchred alive in this close world, And want more room. The charming woman there — This reckoning up and writing down her talk Affects me singularly. How she talked To pain me ! woman's spite. You wear Steel mail ; A woman takes a housewife from her breast, And plucks the delicatest needle out As 'twere a rose, and pricks you carefully 'Neath nails, 'neath eyelids, in your nostrils, say: A beast would roar so tortured ; but a man, A human creature, must not, shall not, flinch. No, not for shame. What vexes, after all, Is just that such as she, with such as I, Knows how to vex. Sweet Heaven ! she takes me up As if she had fingered me, and dogeared me, And spelled me by the fireside half a life. She knows my turns, my feeble points. What then ? The knowledge of a thing implies the thing: Of course, she found that in me, she saw that. Her pencil underscored this for a fault. And I, still ignorant. Shut the book up— cloge I ^-. Aurora Leigh. 157 And crush that beetle in the leaves. O heart At last we shall grow hard too, like the rest, And call it self-defence because we are soft. And after all, now . . . why should I be pained That Romney Leigh, my cousin, should espouse This Lady Waldemar ? And, say she held Her newly blossomed gladness in my face, . .' . 'Twas natural surely, if not generous. Considering how, when winter held her fast, I helped the frost with mine, and pained her more Than she pains me. Pains me ! — But wherefore pained } 'Tis clear my cousin Romney wants a wife. So, good ! The man's need of the woman, here, Is greater than the woman's of the man. And easier served ; for where the man discerns A sex (ah, ah, the man can generalize. Said he), we see but one ideally And really : where we yearn to lose ourselves, And melt like white pearls, in another's wine. He seeks to double himself by what he loves. And makes his drink more costly by our pearls. At board, at bed, at work and holiday. It is not good for man to be alone ; And that's his way of thinking, first and last. And thus my cousin Romney wants a wife. But then my cousin sets his dignity On personal virtue. If he understands By love, like others, self-aggrandizement, It is that he may verily be great By doing rightly and kindly. Once he thought. For charitable ends set duly forth In heaven's white judgment-book, to marry . . . ah, We'll call her name Aurora Leigh, although She's changed since then I — and once, for social ends Poor Marian Erie, my sister Marian Erie, My woodland sister, sweet maid Marian, Whose memory moans on in me like the wind Through ill-shut casements, making me more sad Than ever I find reasons for. Alas, Poor pretty plaintive face, embodied ghost ! He finds it easy, then, to clap thee off 158 Aurora Leigh. From pulling at his sleeve and book and pen, He locks thee out at night into the cold, Away from butting with thy horny eyes Against his crystal dreams, that now he's strong To love anew ? that Lady Waldemar Succeeds my Marian ? After all, why not? He loved not Marian more than once he loved Aurora. If he loves at last that third. Albeit she prove as slippery as spilt oil On marble floors, I will not augur him 111 luck for that. Good love, howe'er ill placed. Is better for a man's soul in the end Than if he loved ill what deserves love well. A Pagan kissing for a step of Pan The wild-goat's hoof-print on the loamy down. Exceeds our modern thinker who turns back The strata . . . granite, limestone, coal, and clay, Concluding coldly with, " Here's law ! where's God.'* " And then at worse,— if Romney loves her not, — At worst, — if he's incapable of love, ( Which may be ), — then, indeed, for such a man Incapable of love, she's good enough ; For she, at worst too, is a woman still, And loves him ... as the sort of woman can. My loose long hair began to burn and creep, Alive to the very ends, about my knees : 1 swept it backward, as the wind sweeps flame. With the passion of my hands. Ah, Romney laughed One day . . . (how full the memories come up ! ) — " Your Florence fireflies live on in your hair," He said, "it gleams so." Well, I wrung them out, My fireflies ; made a knot as hard as life Of those loose, soft, impracticable curls. And then sat down and thought ..." She shall not think Her thought of me," — and drew my desk, and wrote. " Dear Lady Waldemar, I could not speak With people round me, nor can sleep to-night, And not speak, after the great news I heard Of you and of my cousin. May you be Most happy, and' the good he meant the world Aurora Leigh. ^59 Replenish his own life 1 Say what I say. And let my word be sweeter for your mouth. As you 2xlyoic ... 1 only Aurora Leigh. That's quiet, guarded : though she hold it up Aea nst\he li|ht, she'll not see through it more Than lies there to be seen. So much for pride ; And now for peace a little. Let me stop , . . i in .a-kh.g bad. ..." Sweet thanks, my sweetest fnend, You've made more joyful my great joy itself -No that's too simple : she would twist it thus, .. My 'joy would still be as sweet as thyme in drawers. However shut up in the dark and dry ; But violets aired and dewed by love like yours Outsmell all thyme : we keep that in our clothes. But drop the other down our bosoms till ?hey smell like" ... Ah ! I see her writing back Tust so She'll make a nosegay of her word:,, And tie it with blue ribbons at the end, To suit a poet. Pshaw! And then we'll have The call to church ; the broken, sad, bad dream Dreamed out at last ; the marriage-vow complete With Jhe marriage-breakfast : praying in white gloves. Drawn off in haste for drinking pagan toasts In somewhat stronger wine than any sipped By gods since Bacchus had his way with grapes. A postscript stops all that and rescues me. '^You need not write. 1 have been overwoiked, And think of leaving London, England even. And hastening to get nearer to the sun,^ Where men sleep better. So, adieu ! I fold And seal ; and now I'm out of all the coil. I breathe now. I spring upward like a branch The ten-years' schoolboy with a crooked sticK May pull down to his level in search of nuts. But cannot hold a moment. How we twang Back on the blue sky. and assert our height. While Se stares after ! Now. the wonder seems That I could wrong myself by such a doubt. We poets always have uneasy hearts. Because our hearts, large-rounded as the globe. Can turn but one side to the sun at once. i6o Aurora Lei^h. We are used to dip our artist hands in gall And potash, trying potentiahties Of alternated color, till at last We get confused, and wonder for our skin How nature tinged it first. Well, here's the true Good flesh-color : I recognize my hand, Which Romney Leigh may clasp as just a friend's, And keep his clean. And now, my Italy. Alas ! if we could ride with naked souls. And make no noise, and pay no price at all, I would have seen thee sooner, Italy ; For still I have heard thee crying through my life, Thou piercing silence of ecstatic graves, Men call that name. But even a witch to-day Must melt down golden pieces in the nard, Wherewith to anoint her broomsti-jk ere she rides ; And poets evermore are scant of gold, And if they find a piece behind the door. It turns by sunset to a withered leaf. The Devil himself scarce trusts his patented Gold-making art to any who make rhymes, But culls his Faustus from philosophers. And not from poets. " Leave my Job," said God ; And so the Devil leaves him without pence, And poverty proves plainly special grace. In these new, just, administrative times Men clamor for an order of merit : why ? Here's black bread on the table, and no wine ! At least I am a poet in being poor. Thank God ! I wonder if the manuscript Of my long poem, if 'twere sold outright. Would fetch enough to buy me shoes to go Afoot (thrown in, the necessary patch For the other side the Alps) ? It cannot be. I fear that I must sell this residue Of my father's books, although the Elzevirs Have fly-leaves over-written by his hand In faded notes as thick and fine and brown As cobwebs on a tawny monument Of the old Greeks — conferenda hcEC cum his — An for a Lei^h. i6i Corrupt e citat — lege pot i its. And so on, in tlie scholar's regal way Of giving judgment on the parts of speech, As if he sate on all twelve thrones uppiled. Arraigning Israel. Ay, but books and notes Must go together. And this Proclus too. In these dear quaint contracted Grecian types, Fantastically crumpled, like his thoughts. Which would not seem too plain ; you go round twice For one step forward, then you take it back. Because you're somewhat giddy ; there's the rule For Proclus. Ah, I stained this middle leaf With pressing in't my Florence iris-bell. Long stalk and all. My father chided me For that stain of blue blood. I recollect The peevish turn his voice took, — " Silly girls ! Who plant their flowers in our philosophy To make it fine, and only spoil the book. No more of it, Aurora." Yes — no more. Ah, blame of love, that's sweeter than all praise Of those who love not ! 'Tis so lost to me, I cannot, in such beggared life, afford To lose my Proclus— not for Florence even. The kissing Judas, Wolff, shall go instead. Who builds us such a royal book as this To honor a chief poet, folio-built, And writes above, " The house of Nobody I " Who floats in cream as rich as any sucked From Juno's breasts, the broad Homeric lines, And while with their spondaic prodigious mouths They lap the lucent margins as babe-gods, Proclaims them bastard. Wolff's an atheist ; And if the Iliad fell out, as he says. By mere fortuitous concourse of old songs, Conclude as much, too, for the universe. That Wolff, those Platos : sweep the upper shelves As clean as this, and so I am almost rich. Which means, not forced to think of being poor In sight of ends. To-morrow : no delay. I'll wait in Paris till good Carrington Dispose of such, and, having chaffered for My book's price with the publisher, direct 1 62 Aurora Leigh. All proceeds to me. Just a line to ask His help. And now I come, my Italy, My own hills ! Are you 'ware of me, my hills, — How I burn toward you ? do you feel to-night The urgency and yearning of my soul, As sleeping mothers feel the sucking babe, And smile ? Nay, not so much as when in heat Vain lightnings catch at your inviolate tops And tremble, while ye are steadfast. Still ye go Your own determined, calm, indifferent way Toward sunrise, shade by shade, and light by light, Of all the grand procession naught left out. As if God verily made you for yourselves. And would not interrupt your life with ours. SIXTH BOOK. The English have a scornful insular way Of calling the French light. The levity Is in the judgment only, which yet stands ; For, say a foolish thing but oft enough ( And here's the secret of a hundred creeds, Men get opinions as boys learn to spell. By re-iteration chiefly), the same thing Shall pass at last for absolutely wise. And not with fools exclusively. And so We say the French are light, as if we said The cat mews, or the milch-cow gives us milk : Say, rather, cats are milked, and milch-cows mew ; For what is lightness but inconsequence. Vague fluctuations 'twixt effect and cause. Compelled by neither? Is a bullet light. That dashes from the gun-mouth, while the eye Winks and the heart beats one, to flatten itself To a wafer on the white speck on the wall A hundred paces off? Even so direct. So sternly undivertible of aim, Is this French people. All idealists Aurora Leigh. 163 Too absolute and earnest, with them all The idea of a knife cuts real flesh ; And still, devouring the safe interval Which nature placed between the thought and act. With those too fiery and impatient souls. They threaten conHagration to the world. And rush with most unscrupulous logic on Impossible practice. Set your orators To blow upon them with loud windy mouths Through watchword phrases, jest or sentiment, Which drive our burly brutal English mobs, Like so much chaff whichever way they blow, — This light French people will not thus be driven. They turn indeed ; but then they turn upon Some central pivot of their thought and choice, And veer out by the force of holding fast. That's hard to understand, for Englishmen Unused to abstract questions, and untrained To trace the involutions, valve by valve, In each orbed bulb-root of a general truth, And mark what subtly fine integument Divides opposed compartments. Freedom's self Comes concrete to us, to be understood, Fixed in a feudal form incarnately To suit our ways of thought and reverence ; The special form, with us, being still the thing. With us, I say, though I'm of Italy By mother's birth and grave, by father's grave And memory, let it be, — a poet's heart, Can swell to a pair of nationalities. However ill lodged in a woman's breast. And so I am strong to love this noble France, This poet of the nations, who dreams on And wails on (while the household goes to wreck) Forever, after some ideal good. Some equal poise of sex, some unvowed love Inviolate, some spontaneous brotherhood. Some wealth that leaves none poor and finds none tired. Some freedom of the many that respects The wisdom of the few. Heroic dreams ! Sublime to dream so ; natural to wake ; And sad to use such lofty scaffoldings, Erected for the building of a church. 164 Aurora Leigh. To build, instead, a brothel or a prison. May God save France ! And if at last she sighs Her great soul up into a great man's face, To flush his temples out so gloriously That few dare carp at Caesar for being bald. What then? This Caesar represents, not reigns. And is no despot, though twice absolute : This head has all the people for a heart ; This purple's lined with the democracy, — Now let him see to it ! for a rent within Would leave irreparable rags without. A serious riddle : find such anywhere Except in France, and, when 'tis found in France, Be sure to read it rightly. So, I mused Fair fantastic Paris. Up and down, up and down, the terraced streets. The glittering boulevards, the white colonnades. Of fair fantastic Paris who wears trees Like plumes, as if man made them, spire and tower As if they had grown by nature, tossing up Her fountains in the sunshine of the squares, Aurora Lfidi. 165 As if in beauty's game she tossed the dice, Or blew the silver down-balls of her dreams To sow futurity with seeds of thought. And count the passage of her festive hours. The city swims in verdure, beautiful As Venice on the waters,— the sea-swan. What boskv gardens dropped in close-walled courts, Like plums' in ladies' laps who start and laugh ! What miles of streets that run on after trees. Still carrying all the necessary shops. Those open caskets with the jewels seen ! And trade is art, and art's philosophy. In Paris. There's a silk, for instance, there. As worth an artist's study for the folds. As that bronze opposite ! nay, the bronze has faults ; Art's here too artful,— conscious as a maid Who leans to mark her shadow on the wall Until she lose a 'vantage in her step. Yet art walks forward, and knows where to walk : The art'sts also are idealists. Too absolute for nature, logical To austerity in the application of The special theory ; not a soul content To paint a crooked pollard and an ass, As the English will, because they find it so, And like it somehow.— There the old Tuilenes Is pulling its high cap down on its eyes, Confounded, conscience-stricken, and amazed By the apparition of a new fair face In those devouring mirrors. Through the grate Within the gardens, what a heap of babes, Swept up like leaves beneath the chestnut-trees From every street and alley of the town, By ghosts, perhaps, that blow too bleak this way A-looking for their heads ! dear pretty babes, I wish them luck to have their ball-play out Before the next change. Here the air is thronged With statues poised upon their columns fine, As if to stand a moment were a feat. Against that blue ! What squares ! what breathing roon) For a nation that runs fast, ay, runs against The dentist's teeth at the corner in pale rows. Which grin at progress, in an epigram ! 1 66 Aurora Leis:h. I walked the day out, listening to the chink Of the first Napoleon's bones in his second grave, By victories guarded 'neath the golden dome That caps all Paris like a bubble. " Shall These dry bones live," thought Louis Philippe once, And lived to know. Herein is argument For kings and politicians, but still more For poets, who bear buckets to the well Of ampler draught. These crowds are very good For meditation (when we are very strong.) Though love of beauty makes us timorous, And draws us backward from the coarse town-sights To count the daisies upon dappled fields, And hear the streams bleat on among the hills In innocent and indolent repose ; While still with silken elegiac thoughts We wind out from us the distracting world, And die into the chrysalis of a man, And leave the best that may, to come of us, In some brown moth. I would be bold, and bear, To look into the swarthiest face of things, For God's sake who has made them. Six days' work ; The last day shutting 'twixt its dawn and eve The whole work bettered of the previous five ! Since God collected and resumed in man The firmaments, the strata, and the lights. Fish, fowl, and beast, and insect, — all their trains Of various life caught back upon his arm. Re-organized, and constituted man, The microcosm, the adding-up of works ; Within whose fluttering nostrils, then, at last Consummating himself the Maker sighed. As some strong winner at the foot-race sighs Touching the goal. Humanity is great ; And if I w^ould not rather pore upon An ounce of common, ugl}^ human dust. An artisan's palm or a peasant's brow, Unsmooth, ignoble, save to me and God, Than track old Nilus to his silver roots. Or wait on all the changes of the moon Among the mountain-peaks of Thessaly Aurora Leigh. 167 ( Until her magic crystal round itself For many a witch to see in )— set it down As weakness, strength by no means. How is this, That men of science, osteologists And surgeons, beat some poets in respect For nature ? — count naught common or unclean, Spend raptures upon perfect specimens Of indurated veins, distorted joints. Or beautiful new cases of curved spine. While we, we are shocked at nature's falling off. We dare to shrink back from her warts and blains. We will not, when she sneezes, look at her. Not even to say, " God bless her ! " That's our wrong For that, she will not trust us often with Her larger sense of beauty and desire, But tethers us to a lily or a rose. And bids us diet on the dew inside, Left ignorant that the hungry beggar-boy ( Who stares unseen against our absent eyes. And w^onders at the gods that we must be. To pass so careless for the oranges ! ) Bears yet a breastful of a fellow-world To this world, undisparaged, undespoiled. And (while we scorn him for a flower or two, As being. Heaven help us, less poetical) Contains himself both flowers and firmaments And surging seas and aspectable stars And all that we would push him out of sight In order to see nearer. Let us pray God's grace to keep God's image in repute. That so the poet and philanthropist ( Even I and Romney ) may stand side by side, Because we both stand face to face with men. Contemplating the people in the rough, Yet each so follow a vocation, his And mine. I walked on, musing with myself On life and art, and whether after all A larger metaphysics might not help Our physics, a completer poetry Adjust our daily life and vulgar wants More fully than the special outside plans. Phalansteries, material institutes, The civil conscriptions, and lay monasteries 1 68 Aurora Leizh. Preferred by modern thinkers, as they thought The bread of man indeed made all his life, And washing- seven times in the " People's Baths " Were sovereign for a people's leprosy, Still leaving out the essential prophet's word That comes in power. On which we thunder down, We prophets, poets, — Virtue's in \.\\^word ! The maker burnt the darkness up with his, To inaugurate the use of vocal life ; And plant a poet's word even deep enough In any man's breast, looking presently For ofifshoots, you have done more for the man Than if you dressed him in a broad-cloth coat. And warmed his Sunday pottage at your fire. Yet Romney leaves me . . God ! what face is that ? Romney, O Marian ! W^alking on the quays. And pulling thoughts to pieces leisurely. As if I caught at grasses in a field, And bit them slow between my absent lips, And shred them with my hands ... What face is that } What a face, what a look, what a likeness ! Full on mine The sudden blow of it came down, till all My blood swam, my eyes dazzled, then I sprang . . . It was as if a meditative man Were dreaming out a summer afternoon. And watching gnats a-prick upon a pond. When something floats up suddenly, out there. Turns over ... a dead face, known once alive . . . So old, so new ! it would be dreadful now To lose the sight, and keep the doubt of this : He plunges— ha! he has lost it in the splash. 1 plunged — I tore the crowd up, either side, And rushed on, forward, forward, after her. Her ? whom ? A woman sauntered slow in front. Munching an apple ; she left off amazed As if I had snatched it : that's not she, at least. A man walked arm-linked with a lady veiled. Aurora Leigh. 169 Both heads dropped closer than the need of talk They started : he forgot her with his face, And she, herself, and clung to him as if My look were fatal. Such a stream of folk, And all with cares and business of their own ! I ran the whole quay down against their eyes- No Marian ; nowhere Marian. Almost, now% I could call " Marian, Marian ! " with the shriek Of desperate creatures calling for the dead. Where is she, was she } was she anywhere } I stood still, breathless, gazing, straining out In every uncertain distance, till at last A gentleman abstracted as myself Came full against me, then resolved the clash In voluble excuses,— obviously Some learned member of the Institute Upon his way there, walking, for his health, While meditating on the last " Discourse ; " Pinching the empty air 'twixt finger and thumb. From which the snuff being ousted by that shock Defiled his snow-white waistcoat duly pricked At the button -hole with honorable red ; " Madame, your pardon,"— there he swerved from me A metre, as'confounded as he had heard That Dumas would be chosen to till up The next chair vacant, by his " men /;/ its." Since when was genius found respectable ? It passes in its place, indeed, which means The seventh floor back, or else the hospital. Revolving pistols are ingenious things ; But prudent men (academicians are) Scarce keep them in the cupboard next the prunes. And so, abandoned to a bitter mirth, I loitered to my inn. O world, O world, O jurists, rhymers, dreamers, what you please, We play a weary game of hide-and-seek ! We shape a figure of our fantasy, Call nothing something, and run after it And lose it, lose ourselves, too, in the search, Till clash against us comes a somebody Who also has lost something and is lost, — Philosopher against philanthropist, Academician against poet, man 170 Aurora Leigh. Against woman, against the living the dead — Then home, with a bad headache and worse jest. To change the water for my heliotropes And yellow roses. Paris has such flowers, But England also. 'Twas a yellow rose, By that south window of the little house. My cousin Romney gathered with his hand On all my birthdays for me, save the last ; And then I shook the tree too rough, too rough. For roses to stay after. Now, my maps. I must not linger here from Italy Till the last nightingale is tired of song, And the last firefly dies off in the maize. My soul's in haste to leap into the sun, And scorch and seethe itself to a finer mood. Which here in this chill north is apt to stand Too stiffly in former moulds. 'J hat face persists. It floats up, it turns over in my mind As like to Marian as one dead is like The same alive. In very deed a face. And not a fancy, though it vanished so : The small fair face between the darks of hair I used to liken, when I saw her first. To a point of moonlit water down a well ; The low brow, the frank space between the eyes, Which always had the brown pathetic look Of a dumb creature, who had been beaten once. And never since was easy with the world. Ah ah ! now I remember perfectly Those eyes to-day : how overlarge they seemed ! As if some patient passionate despair Twas a yellow rose. Aurora Leigh. 171 ( Like a coal dropt and forgot on tapestry, Which slowly burnt a widening circle out ) Had burnt them larger, larger. And those eyes, To-day, I do remember, saw me too, As I saw them, with conscious lids astrain In recognition. Now, a fantasy, A simple shade or image of the brain. Is merely passive, does not retroact, Is seen, but sees not. 'Twas a real fac«. Perhaps a real Marian. Which being so, I ought to write to Romney, " Marian's here : Be comforted for Marian." My pen fell ; My hands struck sharp together, as hands do Which hold at nothing. Can I write to hi?n A half-truth } can I keep my own soul blind To the other half ... the worse ? What are our souls, If still, to run on straight a sober pace. Nor start at every pebble or dead leaf. They must wear blinkers, ignore facts, suppress Six-tenths of the road } Confront the truth, my soul ! And, oh ! as truly as that was Marian's face. The arms of that same Marian clasped a thing . . . Not hid so wtU beneath the scanty shawl, I cannot name it now^ for what it was. A child. Small business has a castaway Like Marian, with that crown of prosperous wives, At which the gentlest she grows arrogant. And says, " My child." Who finds an emerald ring On a beggar's middle finger, and requires More testimony to convict a thief ? A child's too costly for so mere a wretch : She filched it somewhere ; and it means with her. Instead of honor, blessing, merely shame. I cannot write to Romney, " Here she is. Here's Marian found ! I'll set you on her track. I saw^ her here in Paris, . . . and her child. She put away your love two years ago. But, plainly, not to starve. You suffered then ; And now that you've forgot her utterly. As any last year's annual, in whose place 172 Aurora Leigh. You've planted a thick flowering evergreen, I choose, being kind, to write and tell you this To make you wholly easy, — she's not dead, But only . . . damned." Stop there : I go too fast I'm cruel, like the rest, — in haste to take The first stir in the arras for a rat. And set my barking, biting thoughts upon't. — A child ! what then ? Suppose a neighbor's sick. And asked her, " Marian, carry out my child In this spring air," — I punish her for that ? Or say, "^he child should hold her round the neck For good child reasons, that he liked it so. And would not leave her, — she had winning ways, — I brand her, therefore, that she took the child ? Not so. I will not write to Romney Leigh For now he's happy, and she may, indeed. Be guilty, and the knowledge of her fault Would draggle his smooth time. But I, whose days Are not so fine they cannot bear the rain, And who, moreover, having seen her face. Must see it again . . . will see it, by my hopes Of one day seeing heaven too. The police Shall track her, hound her, ferret their own soil : We'll dig this Paris to its catacombs But certainly we'll find her, have her out, And save her, if she will or will not, child Or no child, — if a child, then one to save ! The long weeks passed on without consequence. As easy find a footstep on the sand The morning after spring-tide, as the trace Of Marian's feet between the incessant surfs Of this live flood. She may have moved this way ; But so the star-fish does, and crosses out The dent of her small shoe. The foiled police Renounced me. " Could they find a girl and child, No other signalment but girl and child } No data shown but noticeable eyes. And hair in masses, low upon the brow. As if it were an iron crown, and pressed .'* Friends heighten, and suppose they specify : Why, girls with hair and eyes are everywhere Aurora Leigh. 173 In Paris ; they had turned me up in vain, No Marian Erie indeed, but certainly Mathildes, Justines, Victoires ... or, if I sought The English, Betsies, Saras, by the score. They might as well go out into the fields To find a speckled bean that's somehow specked, And somewhere in the pod. They left me so. Shall / leave Marian } have I dreamed a dream ? —I thank God I have found her ! I must say " Thank God " for finding her, although 'tis true I find the world more sad and wicked for't. But she — I'll write about her presently. My hand's a-tremble, as I had just caught up My heart to write with in the place of it. At least you'd take these letters to be writ At sea, in storm ! — wait now . . . A simple chance Did all. I could not sleep last night, and, tired Of turning on my pillow and harder thoughts, Went out at early morning when the air Is delicate with some last starry touch, To wander through the market-place of flowers ( The prettiest haunt in Paris), and make sure At worst that there were roses in the world. So wandering, musing, with the artist's eye, That keeps the shade-side of the thing it loves, Half-absent, whole observing, while the crowd Of young vivacious and black-braided heads Dipped, quick as finches in a blossomed tree. Among the nosegays, cheapening this and that In such a cheerful twitter of rapid speech, — My heart leapt in me, startled by a voice That slowly, faintly, with long breaths that marked The interval between the wish and word, Inquired in stranger's French, " Would that be much, That branch of flowering mountain-gorse ? " — " So much ? Too much for me, then ! " turning the face round So close upon me that I felt the sigh It turned with. " Marian, Marian ! " — face to face — " Marian ! I find you. Shall I let you go ? " I held her two slight wrists with both my hands ; 174 Aurora Leigh. " Ah, Marian. Marian, can I let you go ? " She fluttered from me Hke a cyclamen As white, which, taken in a sudden wind, Beats on against the palisade. " Let pass," She said at last. " I will not," I replied : '• I lost my sister Marian many days, And sought her ever in my walks and prayers, And now I find her ... do we throw away The bread we worked and prayed for, — crumble it And drop it ... to do even so by thee Whom still I've hungered after more than bread. My sister Marian ? Can I hurt thee, dear ? Then why distrust me ? Never tremble so. Come with me rather, where we'll talk and live. And none shall vex us. I've a home for you And me, and no one else " = . . She shook her head. " A home for you and me and no one else 111 suits one of us : I prefer to such A roof of grass on which a flower might spring. Less costly to me than the cheapest here ; And yet 1 could not at this hour afford A like home even. That you offer yours, I thank you. You are good as heaven itself — As good as one I knew before . . . Farewell ! " I loosed her hands. " In his name no farewell ! " ( She stood as if I held her.) " For his sake. For his sake, — Romney's ! by the good he meant, Ay, always ! by the love he pressed for once. And by the grief, reproach, abandonment. He took in change" ... " He, Romney ! who grieved him ? Who had the heart for't ? what reproach touched him? Be merciful — speak quickly." " Therefore come," I answered with authority. " I think We dare to speak such things, and name such names, In the open squares of Paris." Not a word She said, but in a gentle, humbled way (As one who had forgot herself in grief) Turned round, and followed closely where I went. As if I led her by a narrow plank Aurora Leigh. 175 Across devouring waters, step by step ; And so in silence we walked on a mile. And then she stopped : her face was white as wax. " We go much farther ? " "You are ill," I asked, " Or tired ? " , , She looked the whiter for her smile. " There's one at home," she said, " has need of me By this time ; and I must not let him wait." " Not even," I asked, " to hear of Romney Leigh ? " " Not even," she said, "to hear of Mister Leigh." " In that case," I resumed, " I go with you. And we can talk the same thing there as here. None waits for me : I have my day to spend." Her lips moved in a spasm without a sound ; But then she spoke. " It shall be as you please. And better so — 'tis shorter seen than told ; And, though you will not find me worth your pains, That, even, may be worth some pains to know For one as good as you are." ^ Then she led The way ; and I, as by a narrow plank Across devouring waters, followed her, Stepping by her footsteps, breathing by her breath. And holding her with eyes that would not slip ; And so, without a word, we walked a mile. And so another mile, without a word. Until the peopled streets being all dismissed. House row^s and groups all scattered like a flock. The market-gardens thickened, and the long White walls beyond, like spiders' outside threads, Stretched, feeling blindly toward the country-fields Through half-built habitations and half-dug Foundations,— intervals of trenchant chalk That bit betwixt the grassy uneven turfs Where goats (vine-tendrils trailing from their mouths) Stood perched on edges of the cellarage Which should be, staring as about to leap 176 Aurora Leigh. To find their coming Bacchus. All the place Seemed less a cultivation than a waste. Men work here, only, — scarce begin to live : All's sad, the country struggling with the town. Like an untamed hawk upon a strong man's fist, That beats its wings, and tries to get away. And cannot choose be satisfied so soon To hop through court-yards with its right foot tied, The vintage plains and pastoral hills in sight. We stopped beside a house too high and slim To stand there by itself, but waiting till Five others, two on this side, three on that. Should grow up from the sullen second fioo:* They pause at now, to build it to a row. The upper windows partly were unglazed Meantime, — a meagre, unripe house : a line Of rigid poplars elbowed it behind ; And just in front, beyond the lime and bricks That wronged the grass between it and the road, A great acacia with its slender trunk, And overpoise of multitudinous leaves, ( In which a hundred fields might spill their dew And intense verdure, yet find room enough ) Stood reconciling all the place with green. I followed up the stair upon her step. She hurried upward, shot across a face, A woman's on the landing, — " How now, now ! Is no one to have holidays but you } You said an hour, and stay three hours, I think. And Julie waiting for your betters here ? Why, if he had waked, he might have waked, for me." — Just murmuring an excusing word, she passed And shut the rest out with the chamber-door, Myself shut in beside her. 'Twas a room Scarce larger than a grave, and near as bare, — Two stools, a pallet-bed. I saw the room : A mouse could find no sort of shelter in't, Much less a greater secret ; curtainless, — The window fixed you with its torturing eye, Defying you to take a step apart, If, peradventure, you would hide a thing. Aurora Lei^h^ ^n I saw the whole room, I and Marian there Alone. Alone ? She threw her bonnet off, Then, sighing as 'twere sighing the last time. Approached the bed, and drew a shawl away : You could not peel a fruit you fear to bruise More calmly and more carefully than so, — Nor would you find w^ithin, a rosier flushed Pomegranate- There he lay upon his back. The yearling creature, warm and moist with life To the bottom of his dimples,— to the ends Of the lovely tumbled curls about his face ; For since he had been covered over-much Thuuk he lav upon his hack, thh; \kakling lkeatuke, warm anu MOIST wivH i.i;e. 178 Aurora Leigh. To keep him from the Hght-glare, both his cheeks Were hot and scarlet as the first Hve rose The shepherd's heart-blood ebbed away into The faster for his love. And love was here As instant : in the pretty baby-mouth. Shut close, as if for dreaming that it sucked ; The little naked feet, drawn up the way Of nestled birdlings ; every thing so soft And tender,— to the tiny holdfast hands, Which, closing on a finger into sleep, Had kept the mould oft. While we stood there dumb For oh, that it should take such innocence To prove just guilt, 1 thought, and stood there dumb, — The light upon his eyelids pricked them wide. And staring out at us with all their blue, As half perplexed between the angel-hood He had been away to visit in his sleep. And our most mortal presence, gradually He saw his mother's face, accepting it In change for heaven itself with such a smile As might have well been learnt there, never moved, But smiled on in a drowse of ecstasy. So happy (half with her, and half with heaven) He could not have the trouble to be stirred. But smiled and lay there. Like a rose, I said } As red and still indeed as any rose, That blows in all the silence of its leaves, Content, in blowing, to fulfil its hfe. She leaned above him (drinking him as wine) In that extremity of love 'twill pass For agony or rapture, seeing that love Includes the whole of nature, rounding it To love ... no more, since more can never be Than just love. Self-forgot, cast out of self. And drowning in the transpert of the sight. Her whole pale passionate face, mouth, forehead, eyes. One gaze she stood ; then, slowly as he smiled. She smiled too, slow^ly, smiling unaware, And drawing from his countenance to hers A fainter red, as if she watched a flame. And stood in it aglow. " How beautiful ! " Said she. Aurora Leigh. 179 I answered, trying to be cold. ( Must sin have compensations, was my thought, As if it were a holy thing like grief? And is a woman to be fooled aside From putting vice down, with that woman's toy, A baby ? ) — " Ay ! the child is well enough," I answered. " If his mother's palms are clean. They need be glad, of course, in clasping such ; But, if not, I would rather lay my hand. Were I she, on God's brazen altar-bars Red-hot with burning sacrificial lambs. Than touch the sacred curls of such a child." She plunged her fingers in his clustering locks As one who would not be afraid of fire ; And then, with indrawn steady utterance, said, " My lamb, my lamb ! although through such as thou. The most unclean got courage, and approached To God, once, novv they cannot, even with men. Find grace enough for pity and gentle words." " My Marian," I made answer, grave and sad, " The priest who stole a lamb to offer him Was still a thief. And if a woman steals ( Through God's own barrier-hedges of true love, Which fence out license in securing love ) A child like this, that smiles so in her face, She is no mother, but a kidnapper. And he's a dismal orphan, not a son, Whom all her kisses cannot feed so full He will not miss hereafter a pure home To live in, a pure heart to lean against, A pure good mother's name and memory To hope by when the world grows thick and bad, And he feels out for virtue." " Oh ! " she smiled With bitter patience, " the child takes his chance ; Not much worse off in being fatherless Than I was, fathered. He will say, belike, His mother was the saddest creature born ; He'll say his mother lived so contrary To joy, that even the kindest, seeing her. Grew sometimes almost cruel ; he'll not say She flew contrarious in the face of (lod Aurora Leigh. With bat-wings of her vices. Stole my chiLl ! My flower of earth, my only flower on earth, My sweet, my beautv ! " . . . Up she snatched the child. And, breaking on him in a storm of tears. Drew out her long sobs from their shivering roots. Until he took it for a game, and stretched His feet, and flapped his eager arms like wings, And crowed and gurgled through his infant laugh. " Mine, mine ! " she said. " I have as sure a right As any glad proud mother in the world, Who sets her darling down to cut his teeth Upon her church-ring. If she talks of law, I talk of law : I claim my mother-dues By law, — the law which now is paramount ; The common law, by which the poor and weak Are trodden under foot by vicious men, And loathed forever after by the good. Let pass ! I did not filch : I found the child." " You found him, Marian? " " Ay, I found him where I found my curse, — in the gutter with my shame ! Wnat have you, any of you, to say to that. Who all are happy, and sit safe and high. And never spoke before to arraign my right To grief itself ? What, what, . . . being beaten down By hoofs of maddened oxen into a ditch. Half-dead, whole mangled, when a girl at last Breathes, sees . . . and finds there, bedded in her flesh, Because of the extremity of the shock. Some coin of price I . . . and when a good man comes ( That's God ! the best men are not quite as good ) And says, * I dropped the coin there : take it, you, And keep i:, it shall pay you for the loss,' — You all put up your finger — ' See the thief ! Observe what precious thing she has come to filch I How bad those girls are ! ' Oh, my flower, my pet, I dare forget I have you in my arms. And fly off to be angry with the world, And fright you, hurt you with my tempers, till You double' up your lip. ^ Why, that indeed Is bad : a naughty mother ! " " You mistake," Aurora Lei irk. i8i I interrupted. " If I loved you not, I should not, Marian, certainly be here." " Alas ! " she said, " you are so very good ; And yet I wish, indeed, you had never come To make me sob until I vex the child. It is not wholesome for these pleasure-plats To be so early watered by our brine. And then who knows ? he may not like me now As well, perhaps, as ere he saw me fret : One's ugly fretting. He has eyes the same As angels, but he cannot see as deep ; And so I've kept forever in his sight A sort of smile to please him, as you place A green thing from the garden in a cup To make believe it grows there. Look, my sweet, My cowslip-ball ! we've done with that cross face, And here's the face come back you used to like. Ah, ah ! he laughs : he likes me. Ah ! Miss Leigh, You're great and pure ; but were you purer still, — As if you had walked, we'll say no otherwhere Than up and down the New Jerusalem, And held your trailing lutestring up yourself From brushing the twelve stones, for fear of some Small speck as little as a needle-prick. White stitched on white, — the child would keep to me, Would choose his poor lost Marian, like me best, And, though you stretched your arms, cry back and cling, As we do when God says it's time to die And bids us go up higher. Leave us, then : We two are happy. Does he push me off } He's satisfied with me, as I with him." " So soft to one, so hard to others ! Nay," I cried, more angry that she melted me, " We make henceforth a cushion of oar faults To sit and practise easy virtues on ? I thought a child was given to sanctify A woman, — set her, in the sight of all The clear-eyed heavens, a chosen minister To do their business, and lead spirits up The difficult blue heights. A woman lives Not bettered, quickened toward the truth and good Through being a mother } . . . Then she's none, although [82 Aurora Leisrh. She damps her baby's cheeks by kisshig them, As we kill roses." " Kill ! O Christ ! " she said. And turned her wild, sad face from side to side With most despairing wonder in it. " What, What have you in your souls against me then, All of you? Am I wicked, do you think? God knows me, trusts me with the child— but you, You think me really wicked ? " " Complaisant," I answered softly, " to a wrong you've done, Because of certain profits, which is wrong Beyond the first wrong, Marian. When you left The pure place and the noble heart to take The hand of a seducer "... " Whom? whose hand ? I took the hand of " . . . Springing up erect. And lifting up the child at full arm's length. As if to bear him like an oriflamme Unconquerable to armies of reproach, — " By ///;;/," she said, " my child's head and its curls. By these blue eyes no woman born could dare A perjury on, I make my mother's oath. That if I'left that heart to lighten it. The blood of mine was still, except for grief ! No cleaner maid than I was took a step To a sadder end, — no matron-mother now Looks backward to her early maidenhood Through chaster pulses. I speak steadily ; And if 1 lie so . . . if, being fouled in will And paltered with in soul by devil's lust, I dared to bid this angel take my part . . . Would God sit quiet, let us think, in heaven. Nor strike me dumb with thunder ? Yet I speak : He clears me therefore. What, ' seduced ' 's your word ? Do wolves seduce a wandering fawn in France ? Do eagles, who have pinched a lamb with claws, Seduce it into carrion ? So with me. I was not ever, as you say, seduced. But simply murdered." There she paused, and sighed. With such a sigh as drops from agony To exhaustion, — sighing while she let the babe Aurora Leigh. 183 Slide down upon her bosom from her arms, And all her face's light fell after him Like a torch quenched in falling. Down she sank, And sate upon the bedside with the child. But I, convicted, broken utterly, With woman's passion clung about her waist. And kissed her hair and eyes, — " I have been wrong, Sweet Marian "... (weeping in a tender rage), " Sweet, holy Marian ! And now, Marian, now, I'll use your oath, although my lips are hard, And by the child, my Marian, by the child, I swear his mother shall be innocent Before my conscience, as in the open Book Of Him who reads for judgment. Innocent, My sister ! Let the night be ne'er so dark. The moon is surely somewhere in the sky. So surely is your whiteness to be found Through all dark facts. But pardon, pardon me. And smile a little, Marian, — for the child. If not for me, my sister." The poor lip Just motioned for the smile, and let it go ; And then, wath scarce a stirring of the mouth. As if a statue spoke that could not breathe, But spoke on calm between its marble lips, — " I'm glad, I'm very glad, you clear me so. I should be sorry that you set me down With harlots, or with even a better name Which misbecomes his mother. For the rest, I am not on a level with your love. Nor ever was, you know, but now am worse, Because that world of yours has dealt with me As when the hard sea bites and chews a stone, And changes the first form of it. I've marked A shore of pebbles bitten to one shape From all the various life of madrepores ; And so that little stone called Marian Erie, Picked up and dropped by you and another friend. Was ground and tortured by the incessant sea, And bruised from what she was, — changed ! death's a change. And she, I said, was murdered : Marian's dead. What can you do with people when they are dead. 184 Aurora Leigh. But, if yoLi are pious, sing a hymn and go, Or, if you are tender, heave a sigh and go. But go by all means, and permit the grass To keep its green feud up 'twixt them and you ? Then leave me, — let me rest. I'm dead, I say. And if, to save the child from death as well. The mother in me has survived the rest. Why, that's God's miracle you must not tax, I'm not less dead for that : I'm nothing more But just a mother. Only for the child I'm warm, and cold, and hungry, and afraid, And smell the flowers a little, and see the sun. And speak still, and am silent, — just for him ! I pray you therefore to mistake me not, And treat me haply as I were alive ; For, though you ran a pin into my soul, I think it would not hurt nor trouble me. Here's proof, dear lady, — in the market-place But now, you promised me to say a word About ... a friend, who once, long years ago, Took God's place toward me, when he leans and loves. And does not thunder . . . whom at last I left, As all of us leave God. You thought perhaps I seemed to care for hearing of that friend ? Now judge me ! We have sate here half an hour And talked together of the child and me, And I not asked as much as ' What's the thing You had to tell me of the friend . . . the friend ? He's sad, I think you said, — he's sick perhaps ? 'Tis nought to Marian if he's sad or sick. Another would have crawled beside your foot. And prayed your words out. Why, a beast, a dog, A starved cat, if he had fed it once with milk. Would show less hardness. But I'm dead, you see. And that explains it." Poor, poor thing, she spoke And shook her head, as white and calm as frost On days too cold for raining any more, But still with such a face, so much alive, I could not choose but take it on my arm. And stroke the placid patience of its cheeks, Then told my story out, of Romney Leigh, — How, having lost her, sought her, missed her still He, broken-hearted for himself and her. Aurora Leigh. 185 Had drawn tiie curtains of the world awhile As if he had done with morning. There I stopped ; F'or when she gasped, and pressed me with her eyes, " And now . . . how^ is it with him ? tell me now," I felt the shame of compensated grief. And chose my words with scruple — slowly stepped Upon the slippery stones set here and there Across the sliding water. " Certainly As evening empties morning into night, Another morning takes the evening up With healthful, providential interchange ; And though he thought still of her — " " Yes, she knew, She understood : she had supposed, indeed, That as one stops a hole upon a flute. At which a new note comes and shapes the tune, Excluding her would bring a worthier in, And, long ere this, that Lady Waldemar He loved so " . . . " Loved ! " . I started — " loved her so ! Now tell me " . . . " I will tell you," she replied : " But, since we're taking oaths, you'll promise first That he in P2ngland, he, shall never learn In what a dreadful trap his creature here. Round whose unworthy neck he had meant to tie The honorable ribbon of his name, Fell unaware, and came to butchery : Because, — I know him, — as he takes to heart The grief of every stranger, he's not like To banish mine as far as I should choose In wishing him most happy. Now he leaves To think of me, perverse, who went my way, Unkind, and left him ; but if once he knew . . Ah, then, the sharp nail of my cruel wrong Would fasten me forever in his sight. Like some poor curious bird, through each spread wing Nailed high up over a fierce hunter's fire. To spoil the dinner of all tenderer folk Come in by chance. Nay, since your Marian's dead, You shall not hang her up, but dig a hole. And bury her in silence ; ring no bells." :86 Aurora Leigh. I answered gayly, though my whole voice wept, " We'll ring the joy-bells, not the funeral-bells, Because we have her back, dead or alive." She never answered that, but shook her head ; Then low and calm, as one who, safe in heaven. Shall tell a story of his lower life. Unmoved by shame or anger, so she spoke. She told me she had loved upon her knees, As others pray, more perfectly absorbed In the act and inspiration. She felt his For just his uses, not her own at all, His stool, to sit on or put up his foot ; His cup, to fill with wine or vinegar, Whichever drink might please him at the chance. For that should please her always ; let him write His name upon her ... it seemed natural : It was most precious, standing on his shelf, To wait until he chose to lift his hand. Well, well, — I saw her then, and must have seen How bright her life went floating on her love. Like wicks the housewives send afloat on oil Which feeds them to a flame that lasts the night. To do good seemed so much his business, That having done it she was fain to think Must fill up his capacity for joy. At first she never mooted with herself If he was happy, since he made her so ; Or if he loved her, being so much beloved. Who thinks of asking if the sun is light, Observing that it lightens } who's so bold. To question God of his felicity? Still less. And thus she took for granted first What, first of all, she should have put to proof. And sinned against him so, but only so. " What could you hope," she said, " of such as she ? You take a kid' you like, and turn it out In some fair garden : though the creature's fond And gentle, it will leap upon the beds. And break your tulips, bite your tender trees : The wonder would be if such innocence Spoiled less. A garden is no place for kids." Aurora Leigh. 187 And by degrees, when he who had chosen her Brought in his courteous and benignant friends To spend their goodness on her, which she took So very gladly, as a part of his,— By slow degrees it broke on her slow sense, That she, too, in that Eden of delight Was out of place, and, like the silly kid. Still did most mischief where she meant most love. A thought enough to make a woman mad, ( No beast in this but she may well go mad ) That saying " I am thine to love and use " May blow the plague in her protesting breath To the very man for whom she claims to die ; That, clinging round his neck, she pulls him down And drowns him ; and that, lavishing her soul, She hales perdition on him. " So, being mad," Said Marian . . . " Ah ! who stirred such thoughts," you ask ? " Whose fault it was that she should have such thoughts } None's fault, none's fault. The light comes, and we see : But if it were not truly for our eyes, There w^ould be nothing seen for all the light : And so with Marian. If she saw at last. The sense was in her : Lady Waldemar Had spoken all in vain else." O prophet in my heart ! " I cried aloud. " Then Lady Waldemar spoke ! " "O my heart, "Did she speak .'' " Mused Marian softly, " or did she sign } Or did she put a word into her face And look, and so impress you with the word } Or leave it in the foldings of her gown, Like rosemary smells a movement will shake out When no one's conscious } Who shall say, or guess ? One thing alone was certain,— from the day The gracious lady paid a visit first, She, Marian, saw^ things different, — felt distrust Of all that sheltering roof of circumstance Her hopes were building into with clay nests : Her heart was restless, pacing up and djown. And fluttering, like dumb creatures before storms. Not knowing wherefore she was ill at ease." 1 88 Aurora LcigJi. "And still the lady came," said Marian Erie, — " Much oftener than he knew it, Mister Leigh. She bade me never tell him she had come, She liked to love me better than he knew : So very kind was Lady Waldemar. And every time she brought with her more light. And every light made sorrow clearer . . , Well, Ah, well ! we cannot give her blame for that : 'Twould be the same thing if an angel came, Whose right should prove our wrong. And every time The lady came she looked more beautiful. And spoke more like a fiute among green trees. Until at last, as one, whose heart being sad On hearing lovely music, suddenly Dissolves in weeping, I brake out in tears Before her, asked her counsel, — * Had I erred In being too happy .^ would she set me straight .'' For she, being wise and good, and born above The flats I had never climbed from, could perceive If such as I might grow upon the hills, And whether such poor herb sufficed to grow For Romney Leigh to break his fast upon't ; Or would he pine on such, or haply starve } ' She wrapt me in her generous arms at once. And let me dream a moment how it feels To have a real mother, like some girls ; But, when I looked, her face was younger ... ay, Youth's too bright not to be a little hard. And beauty keeps itself still uppermost. That's true ! Though Lady Waldemar was kind, She hurt me, hurt, as if the morning-sun Should smite us on the eyelids when we sleep. And wake us up with headache. Ay, and soon Was light enough to make my heart ache too. She told me truths I asked for, — 'twas my own fault,— ' That Romney could not love me, if he would. As men call loving : there are bloods that flow Together, like some rivers, and not mix. Through contraries of nature. He, indeed. Was set to wed me, to espouse my class, Act out a rash opinion ; and, once wed. So just a man and gentle could not choose But make my life as smooth as marriage-ring. Bespeak me mildly, keep me a cheerful house, Aurora Leisrh. 189 With servants, brooches, all the flowers I liked. And pretty dresses, silk the whole year round ' . . . At which I stopped her, — ' This for me. And now For ///;// ? ' She hesitated, — truth grew hard ; She owned ' 'Twas plain a man like Romney Leigh Required a wife more level to himself. If day by day he had to bend his height To pick up sympathies, opinions, thoughts, And interchange the common talk of life, Which helps a man to live, as well as talk, His days were heavily taxed. Who buys a staff To fit the hand, that reaches but the knee } He'd feel it bitter to be forced to miss The perfect joy of married suited pairs. Who, bursting through the separating hedge Of personal dues with that sweet eglantine Of equal love, keep saying, " So we think, T^sJ^ Sweet eglantine. It Strikes us, that's our fancy." ' — When I asked If earnest will, dev^oted love, employed In youth like mine, would fail to raise me up, As two strong arms will always raise a child To a fruit hung overhead, she sighed and sighed . ' That could not be,' she feared. ' You take a pink, You dig about its roots, and water it. And so improve it to a garden-pink, But will not change it to a heliotrope : The kind remains. And then the harder truth, — This Romney Leigh, so rash to leap a pale. So bold for conscience, quick for martyrdom. Would suffer steadily and never flinch. igo Aurora Leigh. But suffer surely and keenly, when his class Turned shoulder on him for a shameful match, And set him up as ninepin in their talk To bowl him down with jestings.' There she paused, And when I used the pause in doubting that We wronged him, after all, in what we feared — ' Suppose such things could never touch him more In his high conscience (if the things should be,) Than, when the queen sits in an upper room, The horses in the street can spatter her ! ' — A moment, hope came ; but the lady closed That door, and nicked the lock, and shut it out. Observing wisely, that ' the tender heart Which made him over-soft to a lower class Would scarcely fail to make him sensitive To a higher, — how they thought, and what they felt. " Alas, alas ! " said Marian, rocking slow The pretty baby who was near asleep, The eyelids creeping over the blue balls, — " vShe made it clear, too clear : I saw the whole. And yet who knows if I had seen my way Straight out of it by looking, though 'twas clear. Unless the generous lady, 'ware of this. Had set her own house all a-fire for me To light me forwards ? Leaning on my face Her heavy agate eyes, which crushed my will, She told me tenderly, (as when men come To a bedside to tell people they must die) She knew of knowledge, — ay, of knowledge knew, That Romney Leigh had loved her formerly. And she loved him, she might say, now the chance Was past. But that, of course, he never guessed. For something came between them, — something thin As a cobweb, catching every fly of doubt To hold it buzzing at the window-pane. And help to dim the daylight. Ah, man's pride Or woman's, — which is greatest } most averse To brushing cobwebs? Well, but she and he Remained fast friends : it seemed not more than so. Because he had bound his hands, and could not stir. An honorable man, if somewhat rash ; And she — not even for Romney would she spill A blot, as little even as a tear . . . Aurora Leigh. 191 Upon his marriage-contract, — not to gain A better joy for two than came by that ; For, though I stood between her heart and heaven, She loved me wholly. " Did I laugh, or curse ? I think I sat there silent, hearing all. Ay, hearing double, — Marian's tale, at once, And Romney's marriage-vow, "I'll keep to thee," Which means that woman-serpent. Is it time For church now ? " Lady Waldemar spoke more," Continued Marian ; " but as when a soul Will pass out through the sweetness of a song Beyond it, voyaging the uphill road, Even so mine wandered from the things I heard To those I suffered. It was afterward I shaped the resolution to the act. For many hours we talked. What need to talk ? The fate was clear and close ; it touched my eyes ; But still the generous lady tried to keep The case afloat, and would not let it go. ^ And argued, struggled upon Marian's side, Which was not Romney's, though she little knew What ugly monster would take up the end,— What griping death within the drowning death. Was ready to complete my sum of death." I thought, — Perhaps he's sliding now the ring Upon that woman's finger . . . She went on " The lady, failing to prevail her way, Upgathered my torn wishes from the ground, And pieced them with her strong benevolence; And as I thought I could breathe freer air Away from England, going without pause, Without farewell, just breaking with a jerk The blossomed offshoot from my thorny life. She promised kindly to provide the means, With instant passage to the colonies And full protection, ' would commit me straight To one who had once been her waiting-maid, And had the customs of the world, intent On changing England for Australia Herself, to carry out her fortune so.' 192 Aurora Leigh. For which I thanked the Lady Waldemar, As men upon their death-beds thank last friends Who lay the pillow straight : it is not much, And yet 'tis all of which they are capable, — This lying smoothly in a bed to die. And so, 'twas fixed ; and so, from day to day, The woman named came in to visit me." Just then the girl stopped speaking, sate erect, And stared at me as if I had been a ghost, ( Perhaps I looked as white as any ghost ) With large-eyed horror. " Does God make," she said, " All sorts of creatures really, do you think,? Or is it that the Devil slavers them So excellently, that we come to doubt Who's stronger, — he who makes, or he who mars ? I never liked the woman's face, or voice. Or ways : it made me blush to look at her ; It made me tremble if she touched my hand ; And when she spoke a fondling word, I shrank As if one hated me who had power to hurt ; And, every time she came, my veins ran cold, As somebody were walking on my grave. At last I spoke to Lady Waldemar : ' Could such a one be good to trust ? ' I asked. Whereat the lady stroked my cheek, and laughed Her silver laugh (one must be born to laugh To put such music in it), — ' Foolish girl. Your scattered wits are gathering wool beyond The sheep-walk reaches ! — leave the thing to me.* And therefore, half in trust, and half in scorn That I had heart still for another fear In such a safe despair, I left the thing. " The rest is short. I was obedient : I wrote my letter which delivered hiin From Marian to his own prosperities. And followed that bad guide. The lady ? — hush, I never blame the lady. Ladies who Sit high, however willing to look down, Will scarce see lower than their dainty feet , And Lady Waldemar saw less than I, With what a Devil's daughter I went forth Aurora Leigh. 193 Along the swine's road, down the precipice, In such a curl of hell-foam caught and choked, No shriek of soul in anguish could pierce through To fetch some help. They say there's help in heaven Yox all such cries. But if one cries from hell . . . What then .?— the heavens are deaf upon that side " A woman . . . hear me, let me make it plain . . . A woman ... not a monster . . . both her breasts Made right to suckle babes . . . she took me off, A woman also, young and ignorant. And heavy with my grief, my two poor eyes Near washed away with weeping, till the trees, The blessed unaccustomed trees and fields Ran either side the train like stranger dogs Unworthy of any notice, — took me off So dull, io blind, so only half alive. Not seeing by what road, nor by what ship, Nor toward what place, nor to what end of all. Men carry a corpse thus,— past the doorway, past The garden-gate, the children's play-ground, up The green lane,— then they leave it in the pit, To steep and find corruption, cheek to cheek With him who stinks since Friday. " But suppose . To go down with one's soul into the grave, To go down half dead, half alive, I say. And wake up with corruption . . . cheek to cheek With him who stinks since Friday! There it is, And that's the horror of 't, Miss Leigh. You feel ? You understand ?— no, do not look at me, But understand. The blank, blind weary way Which led, where'er it led. away at least; The shifted ship ... to Sydney, or to France, Still bound, wherever else, to another land ; The swooning sickness on the dismal sea, The foreign shore, the shameful house, the night. The feeble blood, the heavy-headed grief . . . No need to bring their damnable drugged cup, And yet they brought it. Hell's so prodigal Of Devil's gifts, hunts liberally in packs. Will kill no poor small creature of the wilds But fifty red wide throats must smoke at it, 194 Aiu'07-a Leigh. As HIS at me . . . when waking up at last . . . I told you that I waked up in the grave. " Enough so ! — it is plain enough so. True, We wretches cannot tell out all our wrong Without offence to decent happy folk. I know that we must scrupulously hint With half-words, delicate reserves, the thing Which no one scrupled we should feel in full. Let pass the rest, then ; only leave my oath Upon this sleeping child, — man's violence, Not man's seduction, made me what I am. As lost as ... I told ////// I should be lost. When mothers fail us, can we help ourselves } That's fatal ! And you call it being lost, That down came next day's noon, and caught me there Half gibbering and half raving on the floor. And wondering what had happened up in heaven, That suns should dare to shine when God himself Was certainly abolished. " I was mad, How many weeks I know not, — many weeks. I think they let me go when I was mad : They feared my eyes, and loosed me, as boys might A mad dog which they had tortured. Up and down I went, by road and village, over tracts Of open foreign country, large and strange. Crossed everywhere by long, thin poplar-lines Like fingers of some ghastly skeleton hand Through sunlight and through moonlight evermore Pushed out from hell itself to pluck me back. And resolute to get me, slow and sure ; While every roadside Christ upon his cross Hung reddening through his gory wounds at me. And shook his nails in anger, and came down To follow a mile after, wading up The low vines and green wheat, crying, " Take the girl ! She's none of mine from henceforth." Then I knew ( But this is somewhat dimmer than the rest ) The charitable peasants gave me bread. And leave to sleep in straw ; and twice they tied. At parting, Mary's image round my neck. How heavy it seemed ! — as heavy as a stone ; A woman has been strangled with less weight : Aurora Lci^h. 195 196 Aurora Leigh. I threw it in a ditch to keep it clean, And ease my breath a little, when none looked : I did not need such safeguards : brutal men Stopped short, Miss Leigh, in insult, when they had seen My face, — I must have had an awful look. And so I lived : the weeks passed on, — I lived. 'Twas living my old tramp-life o'er again, But this time in a dream, and hunted round By some prodigious dream-fear at my back. Which ended yet : my brain cleared presently; And there I sate, one evening, by the road, I, Marian Erie, myself, alone, undone, Facmg a sunset low upon the flats As if it were the finish of all time. The great red stone upon my sepulchre. Which angels were too weak to roll away. SEVENTH BOOK. " The woman's motive ? shall we daub ourselves With finding roots for nettles } 'tis soft clay. And easily explored. She had the means, The moneys, by the lady's liberal grace. In trust for that Australian scheme and me, Which so, that she might clutch with both her hands, And chink to her naughty uses undisturbed, She served me (after all it was not strange : 'Twas only what my mother would have done) A motherly, right damnable good turn. " Well, after. There are nettles everywhere ; P)Ut smooth green grasses are more common still : The blue of heaven is larger than the cloud. A miller's wife at Clichy took me in. And spent her pity on me, — made me calm. And merely very reasonably sad. She found me a servant's place in Paris, where I tried to take the cast-off life again, And stood as quiet as a beaten ass. Who, having fallen through overloads, stands up To let them charge him with another pack. Aurora Lcig/i. 197 *' A few months, so. My mistress, young and light, Was easy with me, less for kindness than Because she led, herself, an easy time Betwixt her lover and her looking-glass. Scarce knowing which way she was praised the most. She felt so pretty and so pleased all day. She could not take the trouble to be cross, But sometimes, as I stooped to tie her shoe. Would tap me softly with her slender foot. Still restless with the last night's dancing in't. And say, ' Fie, pale-face ! Are you English girls . All grave and silent ? mass-book still, and Lent ? And first-communion pallor on your cheeks. Worn past the time for't ? Little fool, be gay ! ' At which she vanished, like a fairy, through A gap of silver laughter. " Came an hour When all went otherwise. She did not speak. But clinched her brows, and clipped me with her eyes As if a viper with a pair of tongs, Too far for any touch, yet near enough To view the writhing creature,— then at last, ' Stand still there, in the holy Virgin's name. Thou Marian : thou'rt no reputable girl. Although sufficient dull for twenty saints ! 1 think thou mock'st me and my house,' she said ; ' Confess thou'lt be a mother in a month. Thou mask of saintship.' " Could I answer her } The light broke in so. It meant that, then, t/iat ? I had not thought of that, in all my thoughts. Through all the cold numb aching of my brow. Through all the heaving of impatient life Which threw me on death at intervals : through all The upbreak of the fountains of my heart The rains had swelled too large. It could mean t/iat ? Did Ood make mothers out of victims, then, And set such pure amens to hideous deeds ? Why not ? He overblows an ugly grave With violets which blossom in the spring. And / could be a mother in a month } I hope it was not wicked to be glad. I lifted up my voice and wept, and laughed— To heaven, not her— until it tore my throat. 198 Aurora Leigh. ' Confess, confess ! ' What was there to confess, Except man's cruelty, except my wrong? Except this anguish, or this ecstasy ? This shame or glory? The light woman there Was small to take it in : an acorn-cup Would take the sea in sooner. " ' Good ! ' she cried : ' Unmarried and a mother, and she laughs ! These unchaste girls are always impudent. Get out, intriguer ! Leave my house, and trot ! I wonder you should look me in the face. With such a filthy secret,' " Then I rolled My scanty bundle up, and went my way. Washed white with weeping, shuddering, head and foot. With blind, hysteric passion, staggering forth Beyond those doors. 'Twas natural, of course. She should not ask me where I meant to sleep ; I might sleep well beneath the heavy Seine, Like others of my sort : the bed was laid For us. But any woman, womanly, Had thought of him who should be in a month. The sinless babe that should be in a month. And if by chance he might be warmer housed Than underneath such dreary dripping eaves." I broke on Marian there. " Yet she herself, A wife, I think, had scandals of her own, A lover not her husband." " Ay," she said ; *' But gold and meal are measured otherwise : I learnt so much at school," said Marian Erie. "O crooked world," I cried, "ridiculous. If not so lamentable ! 'Tis the way With these light women of a thrifty vice, My Marian, — always hard upon the rent In any sister's virtue ! while they keep Their own so darned and patched with perfidy, That, though a rag itself, it looks as well Across a street, in balcony or coach. As any perfect stuff might. For my part, Fd rather take the wind-side of the stews Than touch such women with my finger-end ! Aurora Leigh. 199 They top the poor street-walker by their lie, And look the better for being so much worse The Devil's most devilish when respectable. But you, dear, and your story." All the rest Is here," she said, and signed upon the child. " I found a mistress-seamstress who was kind, And let me sew in peace among her girls. And what was better than to draw the threads All day and half the night for him and him } And so I lived for him, and so he lives ; And so I know, by this time, God lives too." She smiled beyond the sun, and ended so, And all my soul rose up to take her part Against the world's successes, virtues, fames. " Come with me, sweetest sister," 1 returned, " And sit within my house and do me good From henceforth, thou and thine ! ye are my own From henceforth. I am lonely in the world. And thou art lonely, and the child is half An orphan. Come ; and henceforth thou and I, Being still together, will not miss a friend, Nor he a father, since two mothers shall Make that up to him. I am journeying south. And in my Tuscan home I'll find a niche And set thee there, my saint, the child and thee. And burn the lights of love before thy face. And ever at thy sweet look cross myself From mixing with the world's prosperities ; That so, in gravity and holy calm. We two may live on toward the truer Hfe." She looked me in the face and answered not. Nor signed she was unworthy, nor gave thanks. But took the sleeping child, and held it out To meet my kiss, as if requiting me And trusting me at once. And thus, at once, I carried him and her to where I live : She's there now, in the little room asleep, I hear the soft child-breathing through the door ; And all three of us, at to-morrow's break. Pass onward, homeward, to our Italy. O Romney Leigh ! 1 have your debts to pay. Aurora Leigh. And I'll be just and pay them. But yourself To pay your debts is scarcely difficult ; To buy your life is nearly impossible, Being sold away to Lamia. My head aches ; I cannot see my road along this dark ; Nor can I creep and grope, as fits the dark. For these foot -catching robes of womanhood : A man might walk a little . . . but 1 ! — He loves The Lamia-woman, — and I write to him What stops his marriage, and destroys his peace. Or what perhaps shall simply trouble him, LIntil she only need to touch his sleeve With just a finger's tremulous white fiame, Saying, " Ah, Aurora Leigh ! a pretty tale, A very pretty poet ! I can guess The motive," — then, to catch his eyes in hers And vow she does not wonder, and they two To break in laughter, as the sea along A melancholy coast, and float up higher, In such a laugh, their fatal weeds of love I Ay, fatal, ay. And who shall answer me Fate has not hurried tides, and if to-night My letter would not be a night too late. An arrow shot into a man that's dead. To prove a vain intention } Would I show The new wife vile to make the husband mad } No, Lamia ! shut the shutters, bar the doors From every glimmer on thy serpent-skin : I will not let thy hideous secret out To agonize the man I love — I mean The friend I love ... as friends love. It is stranj-'r, To-day, while Marian told her story like To absorb most listeners, how I listened chief To a voice not hers, nor yet that enemy's. Nor God's in wrath . . . but one that mixed with mine Long years ago among the garden-trees. And said to vie, to me too, " Be my wife, Aurora." It is strange with what a swell Of yearning passion, as a snow of ghosts Might beat against the impervious door of heaven, I thought, " Now, if I had been a woman, such As God made women, to save men by love, Aurora Lcii^h. 20I Tears, tears ! vvhv we weep ? 'TiS WORTH INQUIRY ? 202 Aurora Leigh. By just my love I might have saved this man, And made a nobler poem for the world Than all I have failed in." But I failed besides In this ; and now he's lost— through me alone ! And, by my only fault, his empty house Sucks in at this same hour a wind from hell To keep his hearth cold, make his casements creak Forever to the tune of plague and sin — O Romney, O my Romney, O my friend ! My cousin and friend ! my helper, when I would ! My love, that might be ! mine I Why, how one weeps When one's too weary ! Were a witness by, He'd say some folly . . . that I loved the man. Who knows ? . . . and make me laugh again for scorn. At strongest, women are as weak in flesh. As men, at weakest, vilest, are in soul : So hard for women to keep pace with man ! As well give up at once, sit down at once. And weep as I do. Tears, tears ! why we weep } 'Tis worth inquiry.? — That we've shamed a life, Or lost a love, or missed a world, perhaps } By no means. Simply that we've walked too far, Or talked too much, or felt the wind i' the east; And so we weep, as if both body and soul Broke up in water — this way. Poor mixed rags Forsooth we're made of, like those other dolls That lean with pretty faces into fairs. It seems as if I had a man in me, Despising such a woman. Yet, indeed. To see a wrong or suffering moves us all To undo it, though we should undo ourselves ; Ay, all the more that we undo ourselves : That's womanly, past doubt, and not ill-moved. A natural movement, therefore, on my part. To fill the chair up of my cousin's wife. And save him from a Devil's company ! We're all so, — made so : 'tis our woman's trade To suffer torment for another's ease. The world's male chivalry has perished out ; But women are knights-errant to the last ; And if Cervantes had been Shakspeare too, Aurora Leigh. 203 He had made his Don a Donna. And so we rain our skies blue. So it clears, Put away This weakness. If, as I have just now said, A man's within me, let him act himself, Ignoring the poor conscious trouble of blood That's called the woman merely. I will write Plain words to England, — if too late, too late ; If ill accounted, then accounted ill : We'll trust the heavens with something. " Dear Lord Howe, You'll find a story on another leaf Of Marian Erie, — what noble friend of yours She trusted once, through what flagitious means, To what disastrous ends : the story's true. I found her wandering on the Paris quays, A babe upon her breast, — unnatural Unseasonable outcast on such snow, Unthawed to this time. I will tax in this Your friendship, friend, if that convicted she Be not his wife yet, to denounce the facts To himself, but otherwise to let them pass On tiptoe like escaping murderers, And tell my cousin merely — Marian lives, Is found, and finds her home with such a friend, Myself, Aurora. Which good news, ' She's found,' Will help to make him merry in his love : I send it, tell him, for my marriage-gift. As good as orange-water for the nerves. Or perfumed gloves for headache, — though aware That he, except of love, is scarcely sick : I mean the new love this time . . . since last year. Such quick forgetting on the part of men ! Is any shrewder trick upon the cards To enrich them .'' Pray instruct me how 'tis done. First, clubs ; and while you look at clubs, 'tis spades , That's prodigy. The lightning strikes a man, And, when we think to find him dead and charred . . . Why, there he is on a sudden playing pipes Beneath the splintered elm-tree ! Crime and shame, And all their hoggery, trample your smooth world. Nor leave more foot-marks than Apollo's kine, Whose hoofs were muffled by the thieving god 204 Aurora Leigh. In tamarisk-leaves and myrtle. I'm so sad, So weary and sad to-night, I'm somewhat sour,— Forgive me. To be blue and shrew at once Exceeds all toleration except yours ; But yours, I know, is infinite. Farewell ! To-morrow we take train for Italy. Speak gently of me to your gracious wife, As one, however far, shall yet be near In loving wishes to your house." I sign. And now I loose my heart upon a page, This— " Lady Waldemar, I'm very glad I never liked you ; which you knew so well You spared me, in your turn, to like me much. Your liking surely had done worse for me Than has your loathing, though the last appears Sufficiently unscrupulous to hurt. And not afraid of judgment. Now there's space Between our faces, I stand off, as if I judged a stranger's portrait, and pronounced Indifferently the type was good or bad. What matter to me that the lines are false } I ask you. Did I ever ink my lips By drawing your name through them as a friend's? Or touch your hands as lovers do } Thank God I never did ! And since you're proved so vile, Ay, vile, I say, — we'll show it presently, — I'm not obliged to nurse my friend in you, Or wash out my own blots in counting yours, Or even excuse myself to honest souls Who seek to press my lip, or clasp my palm,— ' Alas, but Lady Waldemar came first I ' 'Tis true, by this time you may near me so That you're my cousin's wife. You've gambled deep As Lucifer, and won the morning-star In that case ; and the noble house of Leigh Must henceforth with its good roof shelter you. I cannot speak and burn you up between Those rafters, I who am born a Leigh ; nor speak And pierce your breast through Romney's, I who live His friend and cousin : so 3^ou're safe. You two Must grow together like the tares and wheat Till God's great fire. But make the best of time. Aurora Leigh. ■ 205 " And hide this letter : let it speak no more Than I shall, how you tricked poor Marian Erie, And set her own love digging its own grave Within her green hope's pretty garden-ground,— Ay, sent her forth with some one of your sort, To'a wicked house in France, from which she fled With curses in her eyes and ears and throat, Her whole soul choked with curses, mad, in short, And madly scouring up and down for weeks The foreign hedgeless country, lone and lost,— So innocent, male fiends might slink within Remote hell-corners seeing her so defiled. "But you,— you are a woman, and more bold. To do you justice, you'd not shrink to face . . . We'll say, the unfledged life in the other room. Which, treading down God's corn, you trod in sight Of all the dogs in reach of all the guns,— Ay, Marian's babe, her poor unfathered child. Her yearling babe!- you'd face him when he wakes And opens up his wonderful blue eyes ; You'd meet them, and not wink perhaps, nor fear God's triumph in them and supreme revenge When righting his creation's balance-scale ( You pulled as low as Tophet ) to the top Of most celestial innocence. For me Who am not as bold, I own those infant eyes Have set me praving. " While they look at heaven. No need of protestation in my words Against the place you've made them ! let them look. They'll do your business with the heavens, be sure : I spare you common curses. " Ponder this ; If haply you're the wife of Romney Leigh, ( For which inheritance beyond your birth You sold that poisonous porridge called your soul ) I charge you be his faithful and true wife ! Keep warm his hearth, and clean his board, and, when He speaks, be quick with your obedience ; Still grind your paltry wants and low desires To dust beneath his heel, though, even thus. The ground must hurt him : it was writ of old, ' Ye shall not yoke together ox and ass,' 2o6 Aurora Leigh. The nobler and ignobler. Ay ; but you Shall do your part as well as such ill things Can do aught good. You shall not vex him, — mark, You shall not vex him, jar him when he's sad, Or cross him when he's eager. Understand To trick him with apparent sympathies. Nor let him see thee in the face too near, And unlearn thy sweet seeming. Pay the price Of lies by being constrained to lie on still : 'Tis easy for thy sort : a million more Will scarcely damn thee deeper. You are very safe from Marian and myself: We'll breathe as softly as the infant here, And stir no dangerous embers. Fail a point. And show our Romney wounded, ill content. Tormented in his home, we open mouth, And such a noise will follow, the last trump's Will scarcely seem more dreadful, even to you ; You'll have no pipers after : Romney will ( I know him ) push you forth as none of his. All other men declaring it well done ; While women, even the worst, your like, will draw Their skirts back, not to brush you in the street : And so I warn you. I'm . . . Aurora Leigh." The letter written, I felt satisfied. The ashes smouldering in me were thrown out By handfuls from me : I had writ my heart. And wept my tears, and now was cool and calm ; And, going straightway to the neighboring room, I lifted up the curtains of the bed Where Marian Erie — the babe upon her arm, Both faces leaned together like a pair Of folded innocences self-complete. Each smiling from the other — smiled and slept. There seemed no sin, no shame, no wrath, no grief. I felt she too had spoken words that night, But softer certainly, and said to God, Who laughs in heaven perhaps that such as I Should make ado for such as she. " Defiled " I wrote } " defiled " I thought her ? Stoop, Stoop lower, Aurora ! get the angels* leave To creep in somewhere, humbly on your knees. Doing which Aurora Leigh. 207 Within this round of sequestration white In which they have wrapt earth's foundlings, heaven's elect. The next day we took train to Italy, And fled on southward in the roar of steam. The marriage-bells of Romney must be loud To sound so clear through all. I was not well, And truly, though the truth is like a jest, I could not choose but fancy, half the way, I stood alone i' the belfry, fifty bells, Of naked iron, mad with merriment, ( As one who laughs and cannot stop himself ) All clanking at me, in me, over me. Until I shrieked a shriek I could not hear. And swooned with noise, but still, along my swoon, Was 'ware the baffled changes backward rang, Prepared at each emerging sense to beat And crash it out with clangor. I was weak ; I struggled for the posture of my soul In upright consciousness of place and time, But evermore, 'twixt waking and asleep. Slipped somehow, staggered, caught at Marian's e^'es A moment, (it is very good for strength To know that some one needs you to be strong) And so recovered what I call myself. For that time. I just knew it when we swept Above the old roofs of Dijon. Lyons dropped A spark into the night, half trodden out Unseen. But presently the winding Rhone Washed out the moonlight large along his banks Which strained their yielding curves out clear and clean To hold it, — shadow of town and castle blurred Upon the hurrying river. Such an air Blew thence upon the forehead, — half an air And half a water — that I leaned and looked. Then, turning back on Marian, smiled to mark That she looked only on her child, who slept, His face toward the moon too. So we passed The liberal open country and the close. And shot through tunnels, like a lightning-wedge By great Thor-hammers driven through the rock. Which, quivering through the intestine blackness, splits, 2o8 Aurora Leigh. And lets it in at once : the train swept in Athrob with effort, trembling with resolve, The fierce denouncing whistle wailing on. And dying off, smothered in the shuddering dark ; While we self-awed, drew troubled breath, oppressed As other Titans, underneath the pile And nightmare of the mountains. Out, at last, To catch the dawn afloat upon the land. —Hills, slung forth broadly and gauntly everywhere. Not crampt in their foundations, pushing wide Rich outspreads of the vineyards and the corn, (As if they entertained i' the name of France) While down their straining sides streamed manifest A soil as red as Charlemagne's knightly blood. To consecrate the verdure. Some one said, " Marseilles ! " And lo, the city of Marseilles, With all her ships behind her, and beyond, The cimiter of ever-shining sea For right-hand use, bared blue against the sky ! That night we spent between the purple heaven And purple water. I think Marian slept ; But I, as a dog a- watch for his master's foot. Who cannot sleep or eat before he hears, I sate upon the deck, and watched the night. And listened through the stars for Italy. Those marriage-bells I spoke of sounded far, As some child's go-cart in the street beneath To a dying man who will not pass the day, And knows it, holding by a hand he loves. I, too, sate quiet, satisfied with death, Sate silent. I could hear my own soul speak. And had my friend ; for Nature comes sometimes, And says, " I am ambassador for God." I felt the wind soft from the land of souls ; The old miraculous mountains heaved in sight, One straining past another along the shore, The way of grand dull Odyssean ghosts Athirst to drink the cool blue wine of seas, And stare on voyagers. Peak pushing peak, They stood. I watched, beyond that Tyrian belt Of intense sea betwixt them and the ship, Down all their sides the misty olive-woods Dissolving in the weak congenial moon. Au?'ora Leigh. 209 That night we spent between the purple heave> And Still disclosing some brown convent-tower. That seems as if it grew from some brown rock, Or many a little lighted village, dropt Like a fallen star upon so high a point You wonder what can keep it in its place From sliding headlong with the water-falls Which powder all the myrtle and orange groves With spray of silver. Thus my Italy Was stealing on us. Genoa broke with day ; The Doria's long pale palace striking out, From green hills in advance of the white town, A marble finger dominant to ships. Seen glimmering through the uncertain gray of dawn. Aui'ora Leis'h. And then I did not think, " My Italy ! " I thought, " My father ! " Oh, my father's house, Without his presence ! Places are too much. Or else too little, for immortal man, — Too little, when love's May o'ergrovvs the ground ; Too much, when that luxuriant robe of green Is rustling to our ankles in dead leaves. 'Tis only good to be or here or there, Because we had a dream on such a stone, Or this or that ; but once being wholly waked. And come back to the stone without the dream, We trip upon't, alas ! and hurt ourselves ; Or else it falls on us, and grinds us flat, — The heaviest gravestone on this burying earth. — But, while I stood and mused, a quiet touch Fell light upon my arm, and, turning round, A pair of moistened eyes convicted mine, " What, Marian ! is the babe astir so soon ? " " He sleeps," she answered. " I have crept up thrice, And seen you sitting, standing, still at watch. I thought it did you good till now ; but now "... "But now," I said, "you leave the child alone." " And you're alone," she answered ; and she looked As if I, too, were something. Sweet the help Of one we have helped ! Thanks, Marian, for such help. I found a house at Florence on the hill Of Bellosguardo. 'Tis a tower which keeps A post of double observation o'er That valley of Arno (holding as a hand The outspread city) straight toward Fiesole And Mount Morello and the setting sun, The Vallombrosan mountains opposite. Which sunrise tills as full as crystal cups Turned red to the brim because their wine is red. No sun could die, nor yet be born, unseen By dwellers at my villa. Morn and eve Were magnified before us in the pure Illimitable space and pause of sky. Intense as angels' garments blanched with God, Less blue than radiant. From the outer wall Of the garden drops the mystic floating gray Of olive-trees, (with interruptions green From maize and vine) until 'tis caught and torn Aurora Lcizh. Upon the abrupt black line of cypresses Which signs the way to Florence. Beautiful The city lies along the ample vale, Cathedral, tower and palace, piazza and street, The river trailing like a silver cord Through all, and curling loosely, both before And after, over the whole stretch of land Sown whitely up and down its opposite slopes With farms and villas. Many weeks had passed, No word was granted. Last, a letter came From Vincent Carrington, — " My dear Miss Leigh, You've been as silent as a poet should, When any other man is sure to speak. If sick, if vexed, if dumb, a silver piece Will split a man's tongue, — straight he speaks, and says, * Received that check.' But you ... I send you funds To Paris, and you make no sign at all. Remember I'm responsible, and wait A sign of you, Miss Leigh. " Meantime your book Is eloquent as if you were not dumb ; And common critics, ordinarily deaf To such fine meanings, and, like deaf men, loath To seem deaf, answering chance-wise, yes or no, ' It must be,' or ' It must not,' (most pronounced When least convinced) pronounce for once aright : You'd think they really heard, — and so they do . . . The burr of three or four who really hear And praise your book aright : fame's smallest trump Is a great ear-trumpet for the deaf as posts. No other being effective. Fear not, friend : We think here you have written a good book. And you, a woman ! It was in you — yes, I felt 'twas in you ; yet I doubted half If that od-force of German Reichenbach, W^hich still from female finger-tips burns blue. Could strike out as our masculine white-heats To quicken a man. Forgive me. All my heart Is quick with yours since, just a fortnight since, I read your book and loved it. " Will you love My wife too ? Here's my secret I might keep A month more from you ; but I yield it up 212 Au7'07'a Leigh. Because I know you'll write the sooner for't, Most women (of your height even) counting love Life's only serious business. Who's my wife That shall be in a month ? you ask ? nor guess ? Remember what a pair of topaz eyes You once detected, turned against the wall, That morning in my London painting-room ; The face half-sketched, and slurred ; the eyes alone ! But you . . . you caught them up with yours, and said ' Kate Ward's eyes surely,' — Now I own the truth : I had thrown them there to keep them safe from Jove, They would so naughtily find out their way To both the heads of both my Danaes, Where just it made me mad to look at them. Such eyes ! T could not paint or think of eyes But those,— and so I flung them into paint. And turned them to the wall's care. Ay, but now I've let them out, my Kate's. I've painted her, ( I change my style, and leave mythologies). The whole sweet face : it looks upon my soul Like a face on water, to beget itself. A half-length portrait, in a hanging cloak Like one you wore once ; 'tis a little frayed,— I pressed too for the nude, harmonious arm ; But she, she'd have her way, and have her cloak : She said she could be like you only so, And would not miss the fortune. Ah, my friend. You'll write and say she shall not miss your love Through meeting mine } in faith, she would not change. She has your books by heart more than my words. And quotes you up against me till I'm pushed Where, three months since, her eyes were : nay, in fact. Naught satisfied her but to make me paint Your last book folded in her dimpled hands. Instead of my brown palette, as I wished. And, grant me, the presentment had been newer : She'd grant me nothing. I compounded for The naming of the wedding-day next month. And gladly too. 'Tis pretty to remark How women can love women of your sort. And tie their hearts w^ith love-knots to your feet, Grow insolent about you against men. And put us down by putting up the lip. As if a man — there are such, let us own. Aurora Leigh. 213 Who write not ill— remains a man, poor wretch, While you !— Write weaker than Aurora Leigh, And there'll be women who believe of you ( Besides my Kate) that if you walked on sand You would not leave a footprint. ^^ ^^^ ^^^^ ^^^^ To wonder by my marriage, like poor Leigh ? ' Ka e Ward ! ' he said. ' Kate Ward ! he said ane^^^ ^r thought' ... he said, and stopped,-'! d.d not think ' . . . And then he dropped to silence. ^^ ^^^ ^^,^ ^^^^^^^^^ I had not seen him, you're aware, for long, But went, of course. I have not touched on this Through all this letter, conscious of your heart. And writing lightlier for the heavy fact. As clocks are voluble with lead. " How poor. To say I'm sorry! dear Leigh, dearest Leigh ! In those old davs of Shropshire.-pardon me — When he and you fought many a held of gold On what you should do, or you should not do,— Make bread, or verses, (it just came to that) I thought you'd one day draw a silken peace Through a golden ring. I thought so : foolishly, The event proved ; for you went more opposite To each other, month by month, and year by year. Until this happened. God knows best, we say. But hoarselv. When the fever took him hrst, Tust after I had writ to you in France They tell me Lady Waldemar mixed drinks, And counted grains, like any salaried nurse. Excepting that she wept too. Then, Lord Howe, You ?e rilht about Lord Howe, Lord Howe's a trump ; And yet, with such in his hand, a man like Leigh May lose as he does. There's an end to all. Yes, even this letter, though this second sheet May find you doubtful. Write a word for Kate : She reads my letters always, like a wife. And if she sees her name I'll see her smile And share the luck. So, bless you, friend of two ! I will not ask you what your feeling is At Florence with my pictures. I can hear 214 Aurora Leigh. Your heart a-flutter over the snow-hills ; And, just to pace the Pitti with you once, I'd give a half-hour of to-morrow's walk With Kate ... I think so. Vincent Carrington." The noon was hot : the air scorched like the sun, And was shut out. The closed persiani threw Their long-scored shadows on my villa-floor, And interlined the golden atmosphere Straight, still, — across the pictures on the wall. The statuette on the console, (of young Love And Psyche made one marble by a kiss) The low couch where I leaned, the table near, The vase of lilies Marian pulled last night, ( Each green leaf and each white leaf ruled in black As if for writing some new text of fate ) And the open letter rested on my knee ; But there the lines swerved, trembled, though I sate Untroubled, plainly, reading it again And three times. Well, he's married : that is clear, No wonder that he's married, nor, much more, That Vincent's therefore " sorry." Why, of course The lady nursed him when he was not well, Mixed drinks — unless nepenthe was the drink 'Twas scarce worth telling. But a man in love Will see the whole sex in his mistress' hood, The prettier for its lining of fair rose, Although he catches back and says at last, " I'm sorry," Sorry. Lady Waldemar At prettiest, under the said hood, preserved From such a light as I could hold to her face To flare its ugly wrinkles out to shame, Is^carce a wife for Romney, as friends judge, — Aurora Leigh, or Vincent Carrington : That's plain. And if he's " conscious of my heart "... It may be natural, though the phrase is strong ; ( One's apt to use strong phrases, being in love) And even that stuff of " fields of gold," "gold rings," And what he " thought," poor Vincent ! what he " thought, May never mean enough to ruffle me. — Why, this room stifles. Better burn than choke : Best have air, air, although it comes with fire ; Throw open blinds and windows to the noon. And take a blister on my brow instead Aurora Leigh. 215 Of this dead weight ! best perfectly be stunned By those insufferable cicale, sick And hoarse with rapture of the summer heat, That sing, like poets, till their hearts break,— sing Till men say.-' It's too tedious." Books succeed, And lives fail. Do I feel it so at last ? Kate loves a worn-out cloak for being like mine. While I live self-despised for being myself. And yearn toward some one else, who yearns away From what he is, in his turn. Strain a step Forever, yet gain no step ? Are we such We cannot, with our admirations even, Our tiptoe aspirations, touch a thing That's higher than we ? Is all a dismal flat. And God alone above each,— as the sun O'er level lagunes, to make them shine and stmk,— Laying stress upon us with immediate flame. While we respond with our miasmal fog. And call it mounting higher because we grow More highly fatal } Tush, Aurora Leigh ! You wear your sackcloth looped in Cesar's way. And brag your failings as mankind's. Be still. There is what's higher, in this very world Than you can live, or catch at. Stand aside. And look at others,— instance little Kate. She'll make a perfect wife for Carrington. She always has been looking round the earth For something good and green to alight upon And nestle into, with those soft-winged eyes, Subsiding now beneath his manly hand, ^ 'Twixt trembling lids of inexpressive joy. I will not scorn her, after all, too. much, That so much she should love me. A wise man Can pluck a leaf, and find a lecture in't ; And I too . . . God has made me,— I've a heart That's capable of worship, love, and loss : We say the same of Shakspeare's. I'll be meek And learn to reverence, even this poor myself. The book, too— pass it. " A good book," says he, " And you a woman." I had laughed at that But long since. I'm a woman, it is true, 2i6 Aurora Lei^h. Alas, and woe to us, when we feel it most ! Then least care have we for the crowns and goals And compliments on writing our good books. The book has some truth in it, I believe ; And truth outlives pain, as the soul does life. I know we talk our Phsedons to the end. Through all the dismal faces that we make, O'er-wrinkled with dishonoring agony From decomposing drugs. I have written truth, And I a woman, — feebly, partially. Inaptly in presentation, Romney '11 add, Because a woman. For the truth itself, That's neither man's nor woman's, but just God's ; None else has reason to be proud of truth : Himself will see it sifted, disinthralled, And kept upon the height and in the light, As far as and no farther than 'tis truth ; For now he has left off calling firmaments And strata, flowers and creatures, very good, He says it still of truth, which is his own. Truth, so far, in my book, — the truth which draws Through all things upwards, — that a twofold world Must go to a perfect cosmos. Natural things And spiritual, — who separates those two In art, in morals, or the social drift. Tears up the bond of nature, and brings death. Paints futile pictures, writes unreal verse. Leads vulgar days, deals ignorantly with men. Is wrong in short, at all points. We divide This apple of life, and cut it through the pips : The perfect round which fitted Venus' hand Has perished as utterly as if we ate Both halves. Without the spiritual, observe. The natural's impossible, no form. No motion : without sensuous, spiritual Is inappreciable, no beauty or power. And in this twofold sphere the twofold man ( For still the artist is intensely a man) Holds firmly by the natural to reach The spiritual beyond it, fixes still The type with mortal vision to pierce through. With eyes immortal to the antetype Aurora Leizh. 217 Some call the ideal, better called the real, And certain to be called so presently, When things shall have their names. Look long enough On any peasant's face here, coarse and lined, You'll catch Antinous somewhere in that clay, As perfect-featured as he yearns at Rome From marble pale with beauty ; then persist, And, if your apprehension's competent. You'll find some fairer angel at his back, As much exceeding him as he the boor. And pushing him with empyreal disdain Forever out of sight. Ay, Carrington Is glad of such a creed : an artist must. Who paints a tree, a leaf, a common stone With just his hand, and finds it suddenly Apiece with and conterminous to his soul. Why else do these things move him, — leaf, or stone 't The bird's not moved, that pecks at a spring-shoot ; Nor yet the horse, before a quarry agraze : But man, the twofold creature, apprehends The twofold manner, in and outwardly, And nothing in the world comes single to him, A mere itself, — cup, column, or candlestick, All patterns of what shall be in the Mount ; The whole temporal show related royally. And built up to eterne significance Through the open arms of God. " There's nothing great Nor small," has said a poet of our day. Whose voice will ring beyond the curfew of eve, And not be thrown out by the matin's bell : And truly, I reiterate. Nothing's small ! No lily-mufifled hum of a summer-bee. But finds some coupling with the spinning stars ; No pebble at your foot, but proves a sphere ; No chafftnch, but implies the cherubim ; And (glancing on my own thin, veined wrist) In such a little tremor of the blood The whole strong clamor of a vehement soul Doth utter itself distinct. Earth's crammed with heaven, And every common bush afire with God ; But only he who sees takes off his shoes. The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries. And daub their natural faces unaware More and more from the first similitude. 2i8 Aurora Leigh. Truth so far, in my book I— a truth which draws From all things upward. I, Aurora, still Have felt it hound me through the wastes of life As Jove did lo ; and until that hand Shall overtake me wholly, and on my head Lay down its large unfluctuating peace, The feverish gad-fly pricks me up and down. It must be. Art's the witness of what is Behind this show. If this world's show were all, Then imitation would be all in art. There Jove's hand gripes us ! for we stand here, we. If genuine artists, witnessing for God's Complete, consummate, undivided work ; — That every natural flower which grows on earth Implies a flower upon the spiritual side, Substantial, archetypal, all aglow With blossoming causes, — not so far away, But we whose spirit-sense is somewhat cleared May catch at something of the bloom and breath, — Too vaguely apprehended, though, indeed, Still apprehended, consciously or not, And still transferred to picture, music, verse, For thrilling audient and beholding souls By signs and touches which are known to souls. How known, they know not ; why, they cannot find : So straight call out on genius, say, " A man Produced this," when much rather they should say, " 'Tis insight, and he saw this." Thus is art Self-magnified in magnifying a truth Which, fully recognized, would change the world. And shift its morals. If a man could feel. Not one day, in the artist's ecstasy. But every day, — feast, fast, or working day, — The spiritual significance burn through The hieroglyphic of material shows. Henceforward he would paint the globe with wings, And reverence fish and fowl, the bull, the tree, And even his very body as a man ; Which now he counts so vile, that all the towns Make offal of their daughters for its use On summer-nights, when God is sad in heaven To think what goes on in his recreant world He made quite other ; while that moon he made Aurora Leigh. 219 To shine there, at the first love's covenant, Shines still, convictive as a marriage-ring Before adulterous eyes. How sure it That, if we say a true word, instantly We feel 'tis God's, not ours, and pass it on, Like bread at sacrament we taste and pass, Nor handle for a moment, as indeed We dared to set up any claim to such ! And I — my poem— let my readers talk. I'm closer to it, I can speak as well : I'll say with Romney, that the book is weak, The range uneven, the points of sight obscure, The music interrupted. Let us go. The end of woman (or of man, I think) Is not a book. Alas, the best of books Is but a word in art, which soon grows cramped. Stiff, dubious-statured, with the weight of years. And drops an accent or digamma down Some cranny of unfathomable time. Beyond the critic's reaching. Art itself. We've called the larger life, must feel the soul Live past it. For more's felt than is perceived. And more's perceived than can be interpreted, And love strikes higher with his lambent flame Than art can pile the fagots. Is it so ? When Jove's hand meets us with composing touch. And when at last we are hushed and satisfied, Then lo does not call it truth, but love } Well, well ! my father was an Englishman : My mother's blood in me is not so strong That I should bear this stress of Tuscan noon. And keep my wits. The town there seems to seethe In this Medcean boil-pot of the sun, And all the patient hills are bubbling round As if a prick would leave them flat. Does heaven Keep far off, not to set us in a blaze ? Not so ; let drag your fiery fringes, heaven, And burn us up to quiet. Ah ! we know Too much here, not to know what's best for peace ; We have too much light here, not to want more fire To purify and end us. We talk, talk, 2 20 Aurora Leixr/i. Conclude upon divine philosophies. And get the thanks of men for hopeful books ; Whereat we take our own life up, and . . . pshaw ! Unless we piece it with another's life, ( A yard of silk to carry out our lawn ) As well suppose my little handkerchief Would cover Samminiato, church and all. If out ! threw it past the cypresses, As, in this ragged, narrow life of mine. Contain my own conclusions. But at least We'll shut up the persiani, and sit down, And when my head's done aching, in the cool. Write just a word to Kate and Carrington. May joy be with them ! she has chosen well, And he not ill. I should be glad, I think. Except for Romney. Had he married Kate, I surely, surely, should be very glad, This Florence sits upon me easily, With native air and tongue. My graves are calm. And do not too much hurt me. 'Marian's good. Gentle, and loving, lets me hold the child, Or drags him up the hills to find me flowers And fill these vases ere I'm quite awake, ^ My grandiose red tulips, which grow wild ; Or Dante's purple lilies, which he blew To a larger bubble with his prophet breath ; Or one of those tall flowering reeds that stand In Arno like a sheaf of sceptres left By some remote dynasty of dead gods. To suck the stream for ages, and get green. And blossom wheresoe'er a hand divine Had warmed the place with ichor. Such I find At early morning laid across my bed. And wake up pelted with a childish laugh Which even Marian's low precipitous " Hush ! " Has vainly interposed to put away ; While I, with shut eyes, smile and motion for The dewy kiss that's very sure to come From mouth and cheeks, the whole child's face at once Dissolved on mine, as if a nosegay burst Its string with the weight of roses overblown. And dropt upon me. Surely I should be glad. Aurora Leigh. The little creature almost loves me now, And calls my name " Alola," stripping off The r's like thorns, to make it smooth enough To take between his dainty, milk-fed lips. God love him ! I should certainly be glad. Except, God help me! that I'm sorrowful Because of Romney. Romney, Romney ! Well, This grows absurd,— too like a tune that runs r the head, and forces all things in the world- Wind, rain, the creaking gnat or stuttering fly- To sing itself, and vex you ; yet perhaps A paltry tune you never fairly liked, Some " I'd be a butterfly," or " C'est I'amour." We're made so, — not such tyrants to ourselves. But still we are slaves to nature. Some of us Are turned, too, overmuch like some poor verse With a trick of ritournelle : the same thing goes, And comes back ever. Vincent Carrington Is " sorry," and I'm sorry ; but hcs strong To mount from sorrow to his heaven of love, And when he says at moments, " Poor, poor Leigh, Who'll never call his own so true a heart, So fair a face even," he must quickly lose The pain of pity in the blush he makes By his very pitying eyes. The snow, for him, Has fallen in May, and finds the whole earth warm, And melts at the first touch of the green grass. But Romney,— he has chosen, after all. I think he had as excellent a sun To see by as most others ; and perhaps Has scarce seen really worse than some of us. When all's said. Let him pass. I'm not too much A woman, not to be a man for once, And bury all my dead like Alaric, Depositing the treasures of my soul In this drained water-course, then letting flow The river of life again with commerce-ships, And pleasure-barges full of silks and songs. Blow, winds, and help us. Ah, we mock ourselves With talking of the winds ! perhaps as much 222 Aurora Leigh. With other resolutions. How it weighs, This hot, sick air ! and how I covet here The dead's provision on the river-couch. With silver curtains drawn on tinkling rings; Or else their rest in quiet crypts, laid by From heat and noise, from those cicale, say. And this more vexing heart-beat ! So it is. We covet for the soul the body's part. To die and rot. Even so, Aurora, ends Our aspiration who bespoke our place So far in the east. The occidental flats Had fed us fatter, therefore ? we have climbed Where herbage ends ? we want the beast's part now, And tire of the angel's ? Men define a man, The creature who stands front-ward to the stars. The creature who looks inward to himself. The tool-wright, laughing creature. 'Tis enough : We'll say, instead, the inconsequent creature, man. For that's his specialty. What creature else Conceives the circle, and then walks the square } Loves things proved bad, and leaves a thing proved good ^ You think the bee makes honey half a year, To loathe the comb in winter, and desire The little ant's food rather } But a man — Note men ! — they are but women, after all, As women are but Aurpras ! — there are men Born tender, apt to pale at a trodden worm, Who paint for pastime, in their favorite dream, Spruce auto-vestments flowered with crocus-fiames ; There are, too, who believe in hell, and lie ; There are, too, who believe in heaven, and fear ; There are, who waste their souls in working out Life's problem on these sands betwixt two tides. Concluding, " Give us the oyster's part, in death." Alas, long-suffering and most patient God, Thou needst be surelier God to bear with us Than even to have made us ! thou aspire, aspire From henceforth for me ! thou who hast thyself Endured this fieshhood, knowing how as a soaked And sucking vesture it can drag us down. And choke us in the melancholy deep. Sustain me, that with thee I walk these waves. Aurora Leigh. 223 Resisting '.—breathe me upward, thou \\\ me Aspiring, who art the way, the truth, the hfe,— That no truth henceforth seem mdifferent No way to truth laborious, and no life, Not even this life I live, intolerable ! The days went by. I took up the old days, With all their Tuscan pleasures worn and spoiled. Like some lost book we dropt m the long grass On such a happy summer afternoon. When last we read it with a lovmg friend, c • a And find in autumn, when the friend is gone, The grass cut short, the weather changed, too late, And stare at, as at somethmg wonderful, For sorrow, thinking how two hands before Had held up what is left to only \ one. And how we smiled when such a vehement nail Impressed the tiny dint here which presents This verse in fire forever. Ten- derly And mournfully I lived. I knew the birds And insects, which looked fath- ered by the f^ow^ers And emulous of their hues ; I recognized . The moths, with that great overpoise of wings Which make a mystery of them how at all They can stop flying ; butterflies, that bear Upon their blue wings such red embers round. They seem to scorch the blue air into holes Each flight they take ; and fireflies, that suspire In short soft lapses of transported flame Insects, which i.ooiced fatheked by the flowers. 224 Aurora Leigh. Across the tinkling dark, while overhead The constant and inviolable stars Outburn those lights-of-love ; melodious owls, ( If music had but one note and was sad, 'Twould sound just so), and all the silent swirl Of bats that seem to follow in the air Some grand circumference of a shadowy dome To which we are blind ; and then the nightingales, Which pluck our heart across a garden- wall, ( When walking in the town) and carry it So high into the bowery almond-trees We tremble and are afraid, and feel as if The golden flood of moonlight unaware Dissolved the pillars of the steady earth And made it less substantial. And I knew The harmless opal snakes, the large- mouthed frogs, ( Those noisy vaunters of their shallow streams ) And lizards, the green lightnings of the wall, Which, if you sit down quiet, nor sigh loud, Will flatter you, and take you for a stone, And flash familiarly about your feet With such prodigious eyes in such small heads ! — I knew them (though they had somewhat dwindled from My childish imagery), and kept in mind How last I sate among them equally. In fellowship and mateship, as a child Feels equal still toward insect, beast, and bird, Before the Adam in him has foregone All privilege of Eden, making friends And talk with such a bird or such a goat. And buying many a two-inch-wide rush-cage To let out the caged cricket on a tree, Saying, " Oh, my dear grillino, were you cramped ? And are you happy with the ilex-leaves ? And do you love me who have let you go ? Say j't'i- in singing, and I'll understand." But now the creatures all seemed farther off, No longer mine, nor like me, only there, A gulf between us. I could yearn, indeed, Like other rich men, for a drop of dew To cool this heat, — a drop of the early dew, The irrecoverable child-innocence (Before the heart took fire and withered life) Aurora Leigh. 225 When childhood might pair equally with birds ; But now ... the birds were grown too proud for us, Alas ! the very sun forbids the dew. And I— I had come back to an empty nest, Which every bird's too wise for. How I heard My father's 'step on that deserted ground, His voice along that silence, as he told The names of bird and insect, tree and flower, And all the presentations of the stars Across Valdarno, interposing still " My child," "my child." When fathers say, " My child, 'Tis easier to conceive the universe, And life's transitions down the steps of law. I rode once to the little mountain-house As fast as if to find mv father there ; Back we went as fast, to Florence. 2 26 Aurora Leigh. But when in sight oft, within fifty yards, I dropped my horse's bridle on his neck, And paused upon his flank. The house's front Was cased with lingots of ripe Indian corn In tessellated order and device Of golden patterns, not a stone of wall Uncovered, not an inch of room to grow A vine-leaf. The old porch had disappeared, And right in the open doorway sate a girl At plaiting straws, her black hair strained away To a scarlet kerchief caught beneath her chin In Tuscan fashion, her full ebon eyes. Which looked too heavy to be lifted so, Still dropt and lifted toward the mulberr^'-tree, On which the lads were busy with their staves In shout and laughter, stripping every bough. As bare as winter, of those summer leaves My father had not changed for all the silk In which the ugly silkworms hide themselves. Enough. My horse recoiled before my heart. I turned the rein abruptly. Back we went As fast, to Florence. That was trial enough Of graves. I would not visit, if I could, My father's, or my mother's any more, To see if stone-cutter or lichen beat So early in the race, or throw my flowers, Which could not out-smell heaven, or sweeten earth. They live too far above, that I should look So far below to find them : let me think That rather they are visiting my grave. Called life here, (undeveloped yet to life) And that they drop upon me now and then, For token or for solace, some small weed Least odorous of the growths of paradise, To spare such pungent scents as kill with joy. My old Assunta, too, was dead, — was dead. O land of all men's past ! for me alone It would not mix its tenses. I was past. It seemed, like others, — only not in heaven. And many a Tuscan eve I wandered down The cypress alley like a restless ghost That tries its feeble, ineffectual breath Aurora Leigh. 227 Upon its own charred funeral-brands put out Too soon, where black and stiff stood up the trees Against the broad vermilion of the skies. Such skies !— all clouds abolished in a sweep Of God's skirt, with a dazzle to ghosts and men. As down I went, saluting on the bridge The hem of such before 'twas caught away Beyond the peaks of Lucca. Underneath, The river, just escaping from the weight Of that intolerable glory, ran In acquiescent shadow murmurously ; While up beside it streamed the festa-folk With fellow-murmurs from their feet and fans, And issimo and ino and sweet poise Of vowels in their pleasant, scandalous talk ; Returning from the grand-duke's dairy-farm Before the trees grew dangerous at eight, (For "trust no tree by moonlight," Tuscans say,) To eat their ice at Donay's tenderly, Each lovely lady close to a cavalier Who holds her dear fan while she feeds her smile On meditative spoonfuls of vanille, And listens to his hot-breathed vows of love. Enough to thaw her cream, and scorch his beard. 'Twas little matter. I could pass them by Indifferently, not fearing to be known. No danger of being wrecked upon a friend. And forced to take an iceberg for an isle ! The very English here must wait, and learn To hang the cobweb of their gossip out To catch a fly. I'm happy. It's sublime, This perfect solitude of foreign lands ! To be as if you had not been till then. And were then, simply that you chose to be ; To spring up, not be brought forth from the ground, Like grasshoppers at Athens, and skip thrice Before a woman makes a pounce on you And plants you in her hair !— possess, yourself, A new world all alive with creatures new,— New sun, new moon, new flowers, new people— ah. And be possessed by none of them ! no right In one to call your name, inquire your where. Or what you think of Mister Someone's book. 228 Aurora Leis^h. Or Mister Other's marriage or decease, Or how's the headache which you had last week, Or why you look so pale still, since it's gone. — Such most surprising riddance of one's life Comes next one's death : 'tis disembodiment Without the pang. I marvel people choose To stand stock-still, like fakirs, till the moss Grows on them and they cry out, self-admired, " How verdant and how virtuous ! " Well, I'm glad, Or should be, if grown foreign to myself As surelv as to others. Musinir so, I walked the narrow, unrecognizmg streets, Where many a palace-front peers gloomily Through stony visors iron-barred, (prepared Alike, should foe or lover pass that way, For guest or victim,) and came wandering out Upon the churches with mild open doors And plaintive wail of vespers, where a few, Those chiefly women, sprinkled round in blots Upon the dusky pavement, knelt and prayed Toward the altar's silver glory. Oft a ray ( I liked to sit and watch ) would tremble out, Just touch some face more lifted, more in need, ( Of course a woman's) while I dreamed a tale To fit its fortunes. There was one who looked As if the earth had suddenly grown too large For such a little humpbacked thing as she ; The pitiful black kerchief round her neck Sole proof she had had a mother. One, again. Looked sick for love, seemed praying some soft saint To put more virtue in the new, fine scarf She spent a fortnight's meals on yesterday, That cruel Gigi might return his eyes From Giuliana. There was one, so old, So old, to kneel grew easier than to stand ; So solitary, she accepts at last Our Lady for her gossip, and frets on Against the sinful world which goes its rounds In marrying and being married, just the same As when 'twas almost good and had the right, ( Her Gian alive and she herself eighteen.) " And yet, now even, if Madonna willed. She'd win a tern in Thursday's lottery. Aurora Leigh. 229 And better all things. Did she dream for naught, That, boiling cabbage for the fast-day's soup, It smelt like blessed entrails ? such a dream For naught ? would sweetest Mary cheat her so, And lose that certain candle, straight and white As any fair grand-duchess in her teens, Which otherwise should flare here in a week ? Benig7ia sis, thou beauteous Queen of heaven ! " I sate there musing, and imagining- Such utterance from such faces, poor blind souls That writhe toward heaven along the Devil's trail : Who knows, I thought, but he may stretch his hand And pick them up ? 'Tis written in the Book He heareth the young ravens when they cry, And yet they cry for carrion. O my God ! And we who make excuses for the rest, We do it in our measure. Then I knelt. And dropped my head upon the pavement too, And prayed — since 1 was foolish in desire Like other creatures, craving offal-food — That he would stop his ears to what I said, And only listen to the run and beat Of this poor, passionate, helpless blood — And then I lay, and spoke not ; but he heard in heaven. So many Tuscan evenings passed the same. I could not lose a sunset on the bridge. And would not miss a vigil in the church, And liked to mingle with the outdoor crowd, So strange and gay, and ignorant of my face ; For men you know not are as good as trees. And only once, at the Santissima, I almost chanced upon a man I knew. Sir Blaise Delorme. He saw me certainly. And somewhat hurried, as he crossed himself, The smoothness of the action ; then half bowed, But only half, and merely to my shade, I slipped so quick behind the porphyry plinth, And left him dubious if 'twas really I, Or perad venture Satan's usual trick To keep a mounting saint uncanonized. But he was safe for that time, and 1 too : 230 Aurora Leigh. The argent angels in the altar-flare Absorbed his soul next moment. The good man ! In England we were scarce acquaintances, That here in Florence he should keep my thought Beyond the image on his eye, which came And went : and yet his thought disturbed my life ; For after that I oftener sat at home On evenings, watching how they fined themselves With gradual conscience to a perfect night, Until the moon, diminished to a curve, Lay out there like a sickle for His hand Who Cometh down at last to reap the earth. At such times ended seemed my trade of verse : I feared to jingle bells upon my robe Before the four-faced silent cherubim. With God so near me, could I sing of God } I did not write, nor read, nor even think, But sate absorbed amid the quickening glooms, Most like some passive broken lump of salt Dropt in by chance to a bowl of oenomel, To spoil the drink a little, and lose itself. Dissolving slowly, slowly, until lost. EIGHTH BOOK. One eve it happened, when I sate alone. Alone, upon the terrace of my tower, A book upon my knees to counterfeit The reading that I never read at all. While Marian, in the garden down below. Knelt by the fountain I could just hear thrill The drowsy silence of the exhausted day. And peeled a new fig from that purple heap In the grass beside her, turning out the red To feed her eager child, who sucked at it With vehement lips across a gap of air. As he stood opposite, face and curls aflame With that last sun-ray, crying, " Give me, give !" And stamping with imperious baby-feet, ( We're all born princes) something startled me, The laugh of sad and innocent souls that breaks Abruptly, as if frightened at itself, Aurora Leis^/t. 231 'Twas Marian laughed. I saw her glance above In sudden shame that 1 should hear her laugh, And straightway dropped my eyes upon my book, And knew, the first time, 'twas Boccaccio's tale, The P^alcon's, of the lover who for love Destroyed the best that loved him. Some of us Do it still, and then we sit, and laugh no more. "LsiMghyou, sweet Marian, you've the right to laugh, Since God himself is for you, and a child. For me there's somewhat less, and so I sigh. The heavens were making room to hold the night. The sevenfold heavens unfolding all their gates To let the stars out slowly (prophesied In close-approaching advent, not discerned). While still the cue-owls from the cypresses Of the Poggio called and counted every pulse Of the skyey palpitation. Gradually The purple and transparent shadows slow Had filled up the whole valley to the brim, And flooded all the city, which you saw As some drowned city in some enchanted sea, Cut off from nature, drawing you who gaze, With passionate desire, to leap and plunge, And find a sea-king with a voice of waves. And treacherous soft eyes, and slippery locks You cannot kiss but you shall bring away Their salt upon your lips. The duomobell Strikes ten, as if it struck ten fathoms down, So deep, and twenty churches answer it The same, with twenty various instances. Some gaslights tremble along squares and streets ; The Pitti's palace-front is drawn in fire ; And, past the quays, Maria Novella Place, In which the mystic obelisks stand up Triangular, pyramidal, each based Upon its four-square brazen tortoises, To guard that fair church, Buonarroti's Bride, That stares out from her large blind dial-eyes, ( Her quadrant and armillary dials, black With rhythms of many suns and moons) in vain Inquiry for so rich a soul as his. Methinks I have plunged, I see it all so clear . . . And O my heart . . . the sea-king ! 232 Aurora Leigh, In my ears The sound of waters. There he stood, my king ! I felt him, rather than beheld him. Up I rose, as if he were my king indeed, And then sate down, in trouble at myself, And struggling for my woman's empery. 'Tis pitiful ; but women are so made : We'll die for you, perhaps, — 'tis probable ; But we'll not spare you an inch of our full height : We'll have our whole just stature, — five feet four, Though laid out in our coffins : pitiful. — " You, Romney !— Lady Waldemar is here? " He answered in a voice which was not his. " I have her letter : you shall read it soon. But first I must be heard a little, I Who have waited long and travelled far for that, Although you thought to have shut a tedious book, And farewell. Ah, you dog-eared such a page, And here you find me." Did he touch my hand, Or but my sleeve } I trembled, hand and foot : He must have touched me. " Will you sit ? " I asked, And motioned to a chair ; but down he sate, A little slowly, as a man in doubt, Upon the couch beside me, couch and chair Being wheeled upon the terrace. •• You are come, My cousin Romney .-' This is wonderful. But all is wonder on such summer-nights ; And nothing should surprise us any more. Who see that miracle of stars. Behold." I signed above, where all the stars were out, As if an urgent heat had started there A secret writing from a sombre page, A blank last moment, crowded suddenly With hurrying splendors. " Then you do not know '''■ — He murmured. "Yes, I know," I said, " 1 know. I had the news from Vincent Carrington. And yet I did not think you'd leave the work In England for so much even,^though of course Aurora Leigh. 233 You'll make a work-day of your holiday, And turn it to our Tuscan people's use. — Who much needed helping, since the Austrian boar ( So bold to cross the Alp to Lombardy, And dash his brute front unabashed against The steep snow-bosses of that shield of God Who soon shall rise in wrath, and shake it clear ) Came hither also, raking up our grape And olive gardens with his tyrannous tusk. And rolling on our maize with all his swine." '* You had the news from Vincent Carrington," He echoed, picking up the phrase beyond, As if he knew the rest M-as merely talk To fill a gap and keep out a strong wind : " You had, then, Vincent's personal news ? " " His own," I answered. " All that ruined world of yours Seems crumbling into marriage. Carrington Has chosen wisely." " Do you take it so.? " He cried, " and is it possible at last "... He paused there, and then, inward to himself, — " Too much at last, too late ! yet certainly "... ( And there his voice swayed as an Alpine plank That feels a passionate torrent underneath ) " The knowledge, had I known it first or last. Could scarce have changed the actual case for 7ne, And best for her at this time." Nay, I thought He loves Kate Ward, it seems, now, like a man, Because he has married Lady Waldemar ! Ah, Vincent's letter said how Leigh was moved To hear that Vincent was betrothed to Kate. With what cracked pitchers go we to deep wells In this world ! Then I spoke, — " I did not think, My cousin, you had ever known Kate Ward." " In fact I never knew her. 'Tis enough That Vincent did, and therefore chose his wife For other reasons than those topaz eyes We've heard of. Not to undervalue them, For all that. One takes up the world with eyes." 234 Aurora Leigh. — Including Romney Leigh, I thought again, Albeit he knows them only by repute. How vile must all men be, since hes a man ! His deep pathetic voice, as if he guessed I did not surely love him, took the word : " You never got a letter from Lord Howe A month back, dear Aurora ? " None," I said. " I felt it was so," he replied. " Yet, strange ! Sir Blaise Delorme has passed through Florence } " "Ay, By chance I saw him in Our Lady's Church, ( I saw him, mark you ; but he saw not me) Clean-washed in holy water from the count Of things terrestrial, — letters and the rest : He had crossed us out together with his sins. Ay, strange ; but only strange that good Lord Howe Preferred him to the post because of pauls. For me, I'm sworn to never trust a man — At last with letters." " There were facts to tell. To smooth wdth eye and accent, Howe supposed . . . Well, well, no matter ! there was dubious need : You heard the news from Vincent Carrington. And yet perhaps you had been startled less To see me, dear Aurora, if you had read That letter." — Now he sets me down as vexed. I think I've draped myself in woman's pride To a perfect purpose. Oh, I'm vexed, it seems ! My friend Lord Howe deputes his friend Sir Blaise To break, as softly as a sparrow's egg That lets a bird out tenderly, the news Of Romney's marriage to a certain saint. To smooth with eye aiid accent, — indicate His possible presence. Excellently well You've played your part, my Lady Waldemar, — As I've played mine. " Dear Romney," I began, " You did not use of old to be so like A Greek king coming from a taken Troy 'Twas needful that precursors spread your path With three-piled carpets to receive your foot, Aurora Leigh. 235 And dull the sound oft. For myself, be sure, Although it frankly grinds the gravel here, I still can bear it. Yet I'm sorry, too, To lose this famous letter, which Sir Blaise Has twisted to a lighter absently To fire some holy taper. Dear Lord Howe Writes letters good for all things but to lose : And many a flower of London gossipry Has dropt wherever such a stem broke off. Of course I feel that, lonely among my vines. Where nothing's talked of, save the blight again, And no more Chianti ! Still the letter's use As preparation . . . Did I start indeed.^ Last night I started at a cockchafer. And shook a half-hour after. Have you learnt No more of women, 'spite of privilege. Than still to take account too seriously Of such weak flutterings ? Why, we like it, sir : We get our powers and our effects that way. The 'trees stand stiff and still at time of frost, If no wind tears them ; but let summer come. When trees are happy, and a breath avails To set them trembling through a million leaves In luxury of emotion. Something less It takes to move a woman : let her start And shake at pleasure, nor conclude at yours. The winter's bitter, but the summer's green." He answered, " Be the summer ever green With you, Aurora ! though you sweep your sex With somewhat bitter gusts from where you live Above them, whirling downward from your heights Your very own pine-cones, in a grand disdain Of the lowland burrs with which you scatter them. So high and cold to others and yourself, A little less to Romney were unjust. And thus I would not have you. Let it pass : I feel content so. You can bear, indeed. My sudden step beside you : but for me, 'Twould move me sore to hear your softened voice, — Aurora's voice, — if softened unaware In pity of what I am." Ah, friend ! I thought, As husband of the Lady Waldemar 236 Aurora Leigh. You're granted very sorely pifiable ; And yet Aurora Leigh must guard her voice From softening in the pity of your case, As if from lie or license. Certainly We'll soak up all the slush and soil of life With softened voices, ere v^^e come X-o yoii. At which I interrupted my own thought, And spoke out calmly. " Let us ponder, friend, Whate'er our state, we must have made it first ; And though the thing displease us, ay, perhaps Displease us warrantably, never doubt That other states, though possible once, and then Rejected by the instinct of our lives. If then adopted, had displeased us more Than this in which the choice, the will, the love. Has stamped the honor of a patent act From henceforth. What we choose may not be good ; But that we choose it proves it good for iis Potentially, fantastically, now Or last year, rather than a thing we saw, And saw no need for choosing. Moths will burn Their wings, — which proves that light is good for moths. Who else had flown not where they agonize." " Ay, light is good," he echoed, and there paused ; And then abruptly ..." Marian. Marian's well } " I bowed my head, but found no word. 'Twas hard To speak of her to Lady Waldemar's New husband. How much did he know, at last } How much.'' how little.'* He would take no sign, But straight repeated, — •" Marian. Is she well .'' " " She's well," I answered. She was there in sight An hour back ; but the night had drawn her home, Where still I heard her in an upper room, Her low voice singing to the child in bed. Who, restless with the summer-heat and play. And slumber snatched at noon, was long sometimes In falling off, and took a score of songs And mother hushes ere she saw him sound. Aurora Leiir/i. 237 " She's well," I answered. " Here?" he asked. " Yes, here." He stopped and sighed. " That shall be presently ; But now this must be. I have words to say, And would be alone to say them, I with you. And no third troubling." " Speak, then," I returned, " She will not vex you." At which, suddenly He turned his face upon me with its smile, As if to crush me. " I have read your book, Aurora." " You have read it," I replied, " And I have writ it — we have done with it. And now the rest } " " The rest is like the hrst," He answered, " for the book is in my heart, Lives in me, wakes in me, and dreams in me : My daily bread tastes of it ; and my wine Which has no smack of it, — I pour it out, It seem unnatural drinking." I took the word up : " Never waste your wine. The book lived in me ere it lived in you ; I know it closer than another does. And how it's foolish, feeble, and afraid, And all unworthy so much compliment. Beseech you, keep your wine, and, when you drink. Still wish some happier fortune to a friend Than even to have written a far better book." He answered gently : " That is consequent. The poet looks beyond the book he has made. Or else he had not made it. If a man Could make a man, he'd henceforth be a god In feeling what a little thing is man : It is not my case. And this special book, I did not make it, to make light of it : It stands above my knowledge, draws me up ; 'Tis high to me. It may be that the book Bitterly 238 Is not so high, but I so low, instead ; Still high to me. I mean no compliment : I will not say there are not, young or old, Male writers, ay, or female, let it pass. Who'll write us richer and completer books. A man may love a woman perfectly, And yet by no means ignorantly maintain A thousand women have not larger eyes : Enough that she alone has looked at him With eyes that, large or small, have won his soul. And so, this book, Aurora,— so, your book." " Alas ! " I answered, " is it so, indeed ? " And then was silent. Is it so, indeed, He echoed, " that a/as is all your word .'* " I said, " I'm thinking of a far-off June, When you and I, upon my birthday, once, Discoursed of life and art, with both untried. I'm thinking, Romney, how 'twas morning then, And now 'tis night," " And now," he said, " 'tis night." " I'm thinking," I resumed, " 'tis somewhat sad, That if I had known, that morning in the dew, My cousin Romney would have said such words On such a night at close of many years. In speaking of a future book of mine, It would have pleased me better as a hope Than as an actual grace it can at all : That's sad, I'm thinking." " Ay," he said, " 'tis night. " And there," I added lightly, " are the stars ; And here we'll talk of stars, and not of books." " You have the stars," he murmured, — " it is well : Be like them. Shine, Aurora, on my dark. Though high and cold, and only like a star. And for this short night only, — you who keep The same Aurora of the bright June day That withered up the flowers before my face. And turned me from the garden evermore, Aurora Leigh. 239 Because 1 was not worthy. Oh, deserved, Deserved ! that I, who verily had not learnt God's lesson half, attaining as a dunce To obliterate good words with fractious thumbs. And cheat myself of the context,—/ should push Aside, with male ferocious impudence, The world's Aurora, who had conned her part On the other side the leaf ! ignore her so, Because she was a woman and a queen, And had no beard to bristle through her song, My teacher, who has taught me with a book, My Miriam, whose sweet mouth, when nearly drowned, I still heard singing on the shore ! Deserved, That here I should look up unto the stars, And miss the glory "... " Can I understand ? ' I broke in. " You speak wildly, Romney Leigh, Or I hear wildly. In that morning-time We recollect, the roses were too red. The trees too green, reproach too natural If one should see not what the other saw : And now it's night, remember ; we have shades In place of colors ; we are now grown cold And old, my cousin Romney. Pardon me,— * I'm very happy that you like my book. And very sorry that I quoted back A ten-years' birthday. 'Twas so mad a thmg In any woman, I scarce marvel much You took it for a venturous piece of spite, Provoking such excuses as indeed I cannot call you slack in." " Understand. He answered sadly, " something, if but so. This night is softer than an English day, And men may well come hither when they're sick. To draw in easier breath from larger air. 'Tis thus with me : I come to you,— to you. My Italy of women, just to breathe My soul out once before you, ere I go, As humble as God makes me at the last, ( I thank him ) quite out of the way of men. And yours, Aurora,— like a punished child. 2 40 Aurora Leigh. His cheeks all blurred with tears and naughtiness, To silence in a corner. I am come To speak, beloved "... " Wisely, cousin Leigh, And worthily of us both." "Yes, worthily; For this time I must speak out, and confess That I, so truculent in assumption once. So absolute in dogma, proud in aim, And fierce in expectation, — I, who felt The whole world tugging at my skirts for help, As if no other man than I could pull, Nor woman, but I led her by the hand. Nor cloth hold, but I had it in my coat, — Do know myself to-night for what I was On that June-day, Aurora. Poor bright day. Which meant the best ... a woman and arose. And which I smote upon the cheek with words, Until it turned and rent me. Young you were. That birthday, poet ; but you talked the right : While I ... I built up follies, like a wall, To intercept the sunshine and your face. Your face ! that's worse." " Speak wisely, cousin Leigh." " Yes, wisely, dear Aurora, though too late. But then, not wisely. I was heavy then, And stupid, and distracted with the cries Of tortured prisoners in the polished brass Of that Phalarian bull, society. Which seems to bellow bravely like ten bulls. But, if you listen, moans and cries instead Despairingly, like victim's tossed and gored And trampled by their hoofs. I heard the cries Too close : I could not hear the angels lift A fold of rustling air, nor what they said To help my pity. I beheld the world As one great famishing carnivorous mouth, — A huge, deserted, callow, blind bird thing. With piteous open beak that hurt my heart. Till down upon the filthy ground I dropped, And tore the violets up to get the worms. Worms, worms, was all my cry : an open mouth, A gross want, bread to fill'it to the lips. Aurora Leigh. 241 No more. That poor men narrowed their demands To such an end was virtue, 1 supposed, Adjudicating that to see it so Was reason. Oh, I did not push the case Up higher, and ponder how it answers when The rich take up the same cry for themselves, Professing equally,—' An open mouth A gross need, food to fill us, and no more. Why, that's so far from virtue, only vice Can find excuse for't ! that makes libertmes, And slurs our cruel streets from end to end With eighty thousand women in one smile. Who only smile at night beneath the gas. The body's satisfaction, and no more,^ Is used for argument against the soul's, Here too : the want, here too, implies the right. — How dark I stood that morning in the sun. My best Aurora (though I saw your eyes) When first you told me . . . oh, I recollect The sound, and how vou lifted your small hand. And how your white dress and your burnished curls Went greatening round you in the still blue air, As if an inspiration from within Had blown them all out when you spoke the words, Even these,—' You will not compass your poor ends Of barley-feeding and material ease Without the poeVs individualism To work your universal. It takes a soul To move a body ; it takes a high-souled man To move the masses even to a cleaner sty ; It takes the ideal to blow an inch inside The dust of the actual ; and your Founers failed. Because not poets enough to understand That life develops from within.' I say Your words : I could say other words of yours ; For none of all your words will let me go. Like sweet verbena, which, being brushed against, Will hold us three hours after by the smell, In spite of long walks upon windy hills. But these words dealt in sharper perfume ; these Were ever on me, stinging through my dreams, And saying themselves forever o'er my acts Like some unhappy verdict. That I failed Is certain. Sty or no sty, to contrive 242 Aurora Leigh. The swine's propulsion toward the precipice Proved easy and plain. I subtly organized And ordered, built the cards up high and higher, Till, some one breathing, all fell flat again : In setting right society's wide wrong, Mere life's so fatal ! So I failed indeed Once, twice, and oftener, hearing through the rents Of obstinate purpose, still those words of yours,— ' You will not compass your poor ends, 7iot you ! ' But harder than you said them ; every time Still farther from your voice, until they came To overcrow me with triumphant scorn, Which vexed me to resistance. Set down this For condemnation. I was guilty here ; I stood upon my deed, and fought my doubt. As men will, — for I doubted, — till at last My deed gave way beneath me suddenly, And left me what I am. The curtain dropped, My part quite ended, all the foot-lights quenched. My own soul hissing at me through the dark, I ready for confession, — I was wrong, I've sorely failed, I've slipped the ends of life, I yield : you have conquered." " Stay," I answered him " I've something for your hearing, also. I Have failed too." " You ! " he said, " you're very great : The sadness of your greatness fits you well, As if the plume upon a hero's casque Should nod a shadow upon his victor's face." I took him up austerely, — " You have read My book, but not my heart ; for, recollect, 'Tis writ in Sanscrit, which 3^ou bungle at. I've surely failed, I know, if failure means To look back sadly on work gladly done, To wander on my Mountains of Delight, So called, (I can remember a friend's words As well as you, sir) weary, and in want Of even a sheep-path, thinking bitterly . . . Well, well ! no matter. I but say so much. To keep you, Romney Leigh, from saying more. And let you feel I am not so high indeed. That I can bear to have you at my foot, Aurora Leigh. 243 Or safe, that I can help you. That June day, Too deeply sunk in craterous sunsets now For you or me to dig it up alive ; To pluck it out all bleeding with spent flame At the roots, before those moralizing stars We have got instead, — that poor lost day, you said Some v^^ords as truthful as the thing of mine You cared to keep in memory ; and I hold If I that day, and being the girl I was, Had shown a gentler spirit, less arrogance, It had not hurt me. You will scarce mistake The point here. I but only think, you see. More justly, that's more humbly of myself. Than when I tried a crown on, and supposed . . . Nay, laugh, sir, — I'll laugh with you ! — pray you laugh. I've had so many birthdays since that day, I've learnt to prize mirth's opportunities. Which come too seldom. Was it you who said I was not changed ? the same Aurora ? Ah, We could laugh there too ! Why Ulysses' dog Knew htjn, and wagged his tail and died ; but if I had owned a dog, I too, before my Troy, And if you brought him here ... I warrant you He'd look into my face, bark lustily, And live on stoutly, as the creatures will Whose spirits are not troubled by long loves. A dog would never know me, I'm so changed. Much less a friend . . . except that you're misled By the color of the hair, the trick of the voice. Like that Aurora Leigh's." " Sweet trick of voice ! I Vv^ould be a dog for this, to know it at last. And die upon the falls of it. O love, O best Aurora ! are you then so sad You scarcely had been sadder as my wife f " " Your wife, sir ! I must certainly be changed. If I, Aurora, can have said a thing So light, it catches at the knightly spurs Of a noble gentleman like Romney Leigh, And trips him from his honorable sense Of what befits . . ." " You wholly misconceive," He answered. 244 Aurora Leigh. I returned, — " I'm glad of it. But keep from misconception, too, yourself : I am not humbled to so low a point, Nor so far saddened. If I am sad at all, Ten layers of birthdays on a woman's head Are apt to fossilize her girlish mirth. Though ne'er so merry : I'm perforce more wise, And that, in truth, means sadder. For the rest, Look here, sir : I was right, upon the whole, That birthday morning. 'Tis impossible To get at men excepting through their souls, However open their carnivorous jaws ; And poets get directlier at the soul Than any of your economists ; for which You must not overlook the poet's work When scheming for the w^orld's necessities. The soul's the way. Not even Christ himself Can save man else than as he holds man's soul ; And therefore did he come into our flesh, As some wise hunter, creeping on his knees With a torch, into the blackness of a cave. To face and quell the beast there, — take the soul, And so possess the whole man, body and soul. I said, so far, right, yes ; not farther, though : We both were wrong that June day,— both as wrong As an east wind had been. I who talked of art. And you who grieved for all men's griefs . . . what then } We surely made too small a part for God In these things. What we are imports us more Than what we eat ; and life, you've granted me, Develops from within. But innermost Of the inmost, most interior of the interne, God claims his own, divine humanity Renewing nature ; or the piercingest verse, Prest in by subtlest poet still must keep As much upon the outside of a man As the very bowl in which he dips his beard. — And then ... the rest ; I cannot surely speak : Perhaps I doubt more than you doubted then, If I the poet's veritable charge Have borne upon my forehead. If I have. It might feel somewhat liker to a crown, The foolish green one, even. Ah, I think, And chiefly when the sun shines, that I've failed. Aiu'ora Leigh. 245 Bui what then, Romney ? Though we fail indeed, You ... I ... a score of such weak w^orkers ... He Fails never. If he cannot work by us. He will work over us. Does he want a man, Much less a woman, think you ? Every time The star winks there, so many souls are born, Who all shall work too. Let our own be calm : We should be ashamed to sit beneath those stars, Impatient that we're nothing." " Could we sit Just so forever, sweetest friend," he said, " My failure would seem better than success. And yet indeed your book has dealt with me More gently, cousin, than you ever will. Your book brought down entire the bright June day. And set me wandering in the garden-walks, And let me watch the garland in a place You blushed so . . . nay, forgive me, do not stir ; I only thank the book for what it taught. And what permitted. Poet doubt yourself, But never doubt that you're a poet to me From henceforth. You have written poems, sweet. Which moved me in secret, as the sap is moved In still March branches, signless as a stone ; But this last book o'ercame me like soft rain Which falls at midnight, when the tightened bark Breaks out into unhesitating buds, And sudden protestations of the spring. In all your other books I saw hvX you. A man may see the moon so, in a pond. And not be nearer therefore to the moon, Nor use the sight . . . except to drown himself: And so I forced my heart back from the sight, For what had /, I thought, to do with her, Aurora . . . Romney.'' But in this last book You showed me something separate from yourself, Beyond you. and I bore to take it in, And let it draw me. You have shown me truths, O June-day friend, that help me now at night When June is over, — truths not yours, indeed, But set within my reach by means of you. Presented by your voice and verse the way To take them clearest. Verily I was wrong ; And verily many thinkers of this age, 246 Aurora Leis:h. Ay, many Christian teachers, half in heaven, Are wrong in just my sense who understood Our natural world too insularly, as if No spiritual counterpart com- pleted it, Consummating its meaning, rounding all To justice and per- fection, line by line. Form by for m , nothing single nor alone. The great below clinched by the great above, Shade here authen- ticating sub- stance there. The body proving spirit, as the effect The cause : we meantime being too grossly apt To hold the natural, as dogs a bone, ( Though reason and nature beat us in the face ) So obstinately that we'll break our teeth Or ever we let go. For everywhere We're too materialistic, eating clay, (Like men of the west) instead of Adam's corn And Noah's wine, — clay by handfuls, clay by lumps, Until we're filled up to the throat with clay, And grow the grimy color of the ground On which we are feeding. Ay, materialist The age's name is. God himself, with some. Is apprehended as the bare result Of what his hand materially has made. Expressed in such an algebraic sign Called God ; that is, to put it otherwise, A MAN MAY SEE THE MOOn SO, IN A POND. Aurora Leigh. 247 They add up nature to a naught of God, And cross the quotient. There are many even, Whose names are written in the Christian church To no dishonor, diet still on mud. And splash the altars with it. You might think The clay Christ laid upon their eyelids, when. Still blind, he called them to the use of sight. Remained there to retard its exercise With clogging incrustations. Close to heaven. They see for mysteries, through the open doors, Vague puffs of smoke from pots of earthenware, And fain would enter, when their time shall come, With quite another body than St. Paul Has promised, — husk and chaff, the whole barley-corn, Or Where's the resurrection ?" " Thus it is, I sighed. And he resumed with mournful face. " Beginning so, and filling up with clay The wards of this great key, the natural world, And fumbling vainly therefore at the lock Of the spiritual, we feel ourselves shut in With all the wild-beast roar of struggling life. The terrors and compunctions of our souls. As saints with lions, — we who are not saints, And have no heavenly lordship in our stare To awe them backward. Ay, we are forced, so pent. To judge the whole too partially . . . confound Conclusions. Is there any common phrase Significant, with the adverb heard alone. The verb being absent, and the pronoun out 1; But we, distracted in the roar of life. Still insolently at God's adverb snatch. And bruit against him that his thought is void, His meaning hopeless, — cry, that everywhere The government is slipping from his hand. Unless some other Christ (say Romney Leigh) Come up and toil and moil and change the world, Because the First has proved inadequate, However we talk bigly of his work And piously of his person. We blaspheme At last, to finish our doxology. Despairing on the earth for which he died." " So now," I asked, "you have more hope of men.'' " 248 Aurora Leigh. " I hope," he answered. " I am come to think That God will have his work done, as you said, And that we need not be disturbed too much For Romney Leigh or others having failed With this or that quack nostrum, — recipes For keeping summits by annulling depths, For wrestling with luxurious lounging sleeves, And acting heroism without a scratch. We fail, — what then .'' Aurora, if I smiled To see you, in your lovely morning-pride, Try on the poet's wreath which suits the noon ( Sweet cousin, walls must get the weather-stain Before they grow the ivy ) certainly I stood myself there worthier of contempt. Self-rated in disastrous arrogance, As competent to sorrow for mankind And even their odds. A man may well despair. Who counts himself so needful to success. I failed . I throw the remedy back on God, And sit down here beside you, in good hope." " And yet take heed," I answered, " lest we lean Too dangerously on the other side. And so fail twice. Be sure, no earnest work Of any honest creature, howbeit weak. Imperfect, ill-adapted, fails so much It is not gathered as a grain of sand To enlarge the sum of human action used For carrying out God's end. No creature works So ill, observe, that therefore he's cashiered. The honest earnest man must stand and work. The woman also : otherwise she drops At once below the dignity of man, Accepting serfdom. Free men freely work. Whoever fears God fears to sit at ease." I He cried, " True. After Adam, work was curse The natural creature labors, sweats, and frets. But, after Christ, work turns to privilege, And henceforth, one with our humanity. The Six-day Worker, working still in us. Has called us freely to work on with him In high companionship. So, happiest ! I count that heaven itself is only work Aurora Leij^/i. 249 To a surer issue. Let us work, indeed, But no more work as Adam, nor as Leigh Erewhile, as if the only man on earth. Responsible for all the thistles blown, And tigers couchant, struggling in amaze Against disease and winter, snarling on Forever that the world's not paradise. cousin, let us be content, in work. To do the thing we can, and not presume To fret because it's little. 'Twill employ Seven men they say to make a perfect pin ; Who makes the head, content to miss the point ; Who makes the point, agreed to leave the join : And if a man should cry, ' I want a pin. And I must make it straightway, head and point,' His wisdom is not worth the pin he wants. Seven men to a pin, and not a man too much. Seven generations, haply, to this world, To right it visibly a finger's breadth, And mend its rents a little. Oh, to storm And say, ' This world here is intolerable ; 1 will not eat this corn, nor drink this wine, Nor love this woman, flinging her my soul Without a bond for't as a lover should. Nor use the generous leave of happiness As not too good for using generously ' — ( Since virtue kindles at the touch of joy, Like a man's cheek laid on a woman's hand. And God, who knows it, looks for quick returns From joys ) — to stand and claim to have a life Beyond the bounds of the individual man, And raze all personal cloisters of the soul To build up public stores and magazines, As if God's creatures otherwise were lost, The builder surely saved by any means ! To think, — 1 have a pattern on my nail. And I will carve the world new after it, And solve so these hard social questions, nay. Impossible social questions, since their roots Strike deep in evil's own existence here, Which God permits because the question's hard To abolish evil nor attaint free-will. Ay, hard to God, but not to Romney Leigh ; For Romney has a pattern on his nail 250 Aurora Leigh. (Whatever may be lacking on the Mount), And, not being overnice to separate What's element from what's convention, hastes By line on line to draw you out a world. Without your help indeed, unless you take His yoke upon you, and will learn of him, So much he has to teach ! — so good a world, The same the whole creation's groaning for ! No rich nor poor, no gain nor loss nor stint, No pottage in it able to exclude A brother's birthright, and no right of birth. The pottage, — both secured to every man. And perfect virtue dealt out like the rest Gratuitously, with the soup at six, To whoso does not seek it." "Softly, sir," I interrupted. " I had a cousin once I held in reverence. If he strained too wide. It was not to take honor, but give help. The gesture was heroic. If his hand Accomplished nothing . . . (well, it is not proved) That empty hand thrown impotently out Were sooner caught, I think, by One in heaven, Than many a hand that reaped a harvest in And keeps the scythe's glow on it. Pray you,, then. For my sake merely, use less bitterness In speaking of my cousin." "Ah," he said, " Aurora ! when the prophet beats the ass. The angel intercedes." He shook his head. " And yet to mean so well, and fail so foul. Expresses ne'er another beast than man : The antithesis is human. Hearken, dear : There's too much abstract willing, purposing. In this poor world. We talk by aggregates. And think by systems, and, being used to face Our evils in statistics, are inclined To cap them with unreal remedies Drawn out in haste on the other side the slate." " That's true," I answered, fain to throw up thought, And make a game oft. " Yes, we generalize Enough to please you. If we pray "at all. We pray no longer for our daily bread. Aurora Leigh. 25 But next centenary's harvests. If we give, Our cup of water is not tendered till We lay down pipes and found a company With branches. Ass or angel, 'tis the same : A woman cannot do the thing she ought. Which means whatever perfect thing she can. In life, in art, in science, but she fears To let the perfect action take her part, And rest there : she must prove what she can do Before she does it, prate of woman's rights. Of woman's mission, woman's function, till The men (who are prating too on their side) cry. ' A woman's function plainly is ... to talk.' Poor souls, they are very reasonably vexed : They cannot hear each other talk." An artist, judge so } " "•And you. I, an artist, yes. Because, precisely, I'm an artist, sir, And woman, if another sate in sight, I'd whisper, — ' Soft, my sister ! not a word ! By speaking we prove only we can speak, Which he, the man here, never doubted. What He doubts is, whether we can do the thing With decent grace we've not yet done at all. Now, do it ; bring your statue, — you have room ! He'll see it even by the starlight here ; And if 'tis ere so little like the god Who looks out from the marble silently Along the track of his own shining dart Through the dusk of ages, there's no need to speak : The universe shall henceforth speak for you, And witness, " She who did this thing was born To do it, — claims her license in her work." ' And so with more works. Whoso cures the plague, Though twice a woman, shall be called a leech ; Who rights a land's finances is excused For touching coppers, though her hands be white, — But we, we talk I " " It is the age's mood He said : " we boast, and do not. We put up Hostelry signs where'er we lodge a day, Some red colossal cow with mighty paps A Cyclops' fingers could not strain to milk, 252 Aurora Leigh. Then bring out presently our saucerful Of curds. We want more quiet in our works, More knowledge of the bounds in which we work, More knowledge that each individual man Remains an Adam to the general race, Constrained to see, like Adam, that he keep His personal state's condition honestly, Or vain all thoughts of his to help the world, Which still must be developed from its one. If bettered in its many. We indeed, Who think to lay it out new like a park, — \Ve take a work on us which is not man's ; For God alone sits far enough above To speculate so largely. None of us ( Not Romney Leigh ) is mad enough to say, We'll have a grove of oaks upon that slope. And sink the need of acorns. Government, If veritable and lawful, is not given By imposition of the foreign hand, Nor chosen from a pretty pattern-book Of some domestic idealogue who sits And coldly chooses empire, where as well He might republic. Genuine government Is but the expression of a nation, good Or less good, even as all society, Howe'er unequal, monstrous, crazed, and cursed. Is but the expression of men's single lives, The loud sum of the silent units. What, We'd change the aggregate, and yet retain Each separate figure } whom do we cheat by that.^ Now, not even Romney." " Cousin, you are sad. Did all your social labor at Leigh Hall And elsewhere come to naught, then .^ " " It was naught," He answered mildly. " There is room indeed For statues still, in this large world of God's, But not for vacuums : so I am not sad, — Not sadder than is good for what I am. My vain phalanstery dissolved itself ; My men and women of disordered lives, I brought in orderly to dine and sleep. Broke up those waxen masks I made them wear, With tierce contortions of the natural face. Aurora Leigh. 253 And cursed me for my tyrannous constraint In forcing- crooked creatures to live straight, And set the country hounds upon my back To bite and tear me for my wicked deed Of trying to do good without the church, Or even the squires, Aurora. Do you mind Your ancient neighbors ? The great book-club teems With 'sketches,' ' summaries,' and ' last tracts/ but twelve, On socialistic troublers of close bonds Betwixt the generous rich and grateful poor. The vicar preached from ' Revelation,' (till The doctor woke) and found me with ' the frogs ' On three successive Sundays : ay, and stopped To weep a little (for he's getting old) That such perdition should o'ertake a man Of such fair acres, — in the parish, too ! He printed his discourses ' by request ; ' And, if your book shall sell as his did, then Your verses are less good than I suppose. The women of the neighborhood subscribed. And sent me a copy bound in scarlet silk. Tooled edges, blazoned with the arms of Leigh : I own that touched me." " What, the pretty ones } Poor Romney ! " " Otherwise the effect was small. I had my windows broken once or twice By liberal peasants naturally incensed At such a vexer of Arcadian peace. Who would not let men call their wives their own To kick like Britons, and made obstacles When things went smoothly, as a baby drugged, Toward freedom and starvation, bringing down The wicked London tavern-thieves and drabs To affront ttie blessed hillside drabs and thieves With mended morals, quotha, — fine new lives ! — My windows paid for't. I was shot at, once, By an active poacher who had hit a hare From the other barrel, (tired of springeing game So long upon my acres, undisturbed. And restless for the country's virtue, yet He missed me) ay, and pelted very oft In riding through the village. ' There he goes, Who'd drive away our Christian gentlefolks, 254 Aurora Leigh. .,W'^-^:\ vf 1 WAS SHOT AT, ONCE, BY AN ACTIVE POACHER. Aurora Leigh. 255 To catch us undefended in the trap He baits with poisonous cheese, and lock us up In that pernicious prison of Leigh Hall With all his murderers ! Give another name, And say Leigh Hell, and burn it up with fire.' And so' they did, at last, Aurora." Did " You never heard it, cousin ? Vincent's news Came stinted, then." t • t u n 2 " They did ? Tney burnt Leigh Hall ? " You're sorry, dear Aurora ? Yes indeed, They did it perfectly ; a thorough work. And not a failure, this time. Let us grant 'Tis somewhat easier, though, to burn a house Than build a system ; yet that's easy, too— In a dream. Books, pictures, ay, the pictures ! What. You think your dear Vandykes would give them pause ? Our proud ancestral Leighs, with those peaked beards. Or bosoms white as foam thrown up on rocks From the old-spent wave. Such calm defiant looks They flared up with ! now nevermore to twit The bones in the family vault with ugly death. Not one was rescued, save the Lady Maud, Who threw you down, that morning you were born, The undeniable lineal mouth and chin, To wear forever for her gracious sake ; For which good deed I saved her : the rest went : And you, you're sorry, cousin. Well, for me. With all my phalansterians safely out, ( Poor hearts, they helped the burners, it was said, And certainly a few clapped hands and yelled ) The ruin did not hurt me as it might ; As when, for instance, I was hurt one day, A certain letter being destroyed. In fact. To see the great house flare so . . . oaken floors Our fathers made so fine with rushes once, Before our mothers furbished them with trains. Carved wainscoats, panelled walls, (the favorite slide For draining off a martyr— or a rogue) The echoing galleries, half a half-mile long. And all the various stairs that took you up, And took you down, and took you round about Upon their slippery darkness, recollect. 256 Aurora Leigh. All helping to keep up one blazing jest ; The Hames through all the casements pushing forth Like red-hot devils crinkled into snakes, All signifying, ' Look you, Romney Leigh, We save the people from your saving, here, Yet so as by lire ! we make a pretty show Besides, — and that's the best you've ever done,' — To see this, almost moved myself to clap. The ' vale et plaude ' came too with effect, When in the roof fell, and the fire that paused. Stunned momently beneath the stroke of slates And tumbling rafters, rose at once and roared, And, wrapping the whole house (which disappeared In a mounting whirlwind of dilated liame), Blew upward straight its drift of fiery chaf^ In the face of heaven . . . which blenched, and ran up higher." " Poor Romney ! " " Sometimes when I dream," he said, " I hear the silence after, 'twas so still. For all those wild beasts, yelling, cursing round. Were suddenly silent while you counted five, — So silent that you heard a young bird fall From the top-nest in the neighboring rookery. Through edging over-rashly toward the light. The old rooks had already fled too far To hear the screech they fled with, though you saw Some flying still, like scatterings of dead" leaves In autumn-gusts, seen dark against the sky, — All flying, ousted, like the house of Leigh." " Evidently 'twould have beei A fine sight for a poet, sweet, like you, To make the verse blaze after. I myself, Even I, felt something in the grand old trees. Which stood that moment like brute Druid gods Amazed upon the rim of ruin, where, As into a blackened socket, the great fire Had dropped, still throwing up splinters now and then To show them gray with all their centuries. Left there to witness that on such a day The house went out." Aurora Leigh. 257 " Ah ! " " While you counted five, I seemed to feel a little like a Leigh ; But then it passed, Aurora. A child cried, And I had enough to think of what to do With all those houseless wretches in the dark. And ponder where they'd dance the next time,— they Who had burnt the viol." " Did you think of that ? Who burns his viol will not dance, I know. To cymbals, Romney." " O my sweet, sad voice," He cried, — " O voice that speaks and overcomes! The sun is silent ; but Aurora speaks." " Alas I " I said, " I speak I know not what: I'm back in childhood, thinking as a child, A foolish fancy — will it make you smile ?— I shall not from the window of my room Catch sight of those old chimneys any more." " No more," he answered, " If you pushed ope day Through all the green hills to our fathers' house. You'd come upon a great charred circle, where The patient earth was singed an acre round, With one stone stair, symbolic of my life. Ascending, winding, leading up to naught. 'Tis worth a poet's seeing. Will you go } " I made no answer. Had I any right To weep with this man, that I dared to speak ? A woman stood between his soul and mine. And waved us off from touching evermore. With those unclean white hands of hers. Enough. We had burnt our viols and were silent. So, The silence lengthened till it pressed. I spoke To breathe,—"! think you were ill afterward." " More ill," he answered, " had been scarcely ill. I hoped this feeble fumbling at life's knot Might end concisely; but I failed to die. As' formerly I failed to live, and thus Grew willing, having tried all other ways, 258 Anro7'a Leigh. To try just God's. Humility's so good When pride's impossible. Mark us, how we make Our virtues, cousin, from our wornout sins. Which smack of them from henceforth. Is it right, For instance, to wed here while you love there } And yet, because a man sins once, the sin Cleaves to him in necessity to sin, That if he sin not so, to damn himself. He sins so, to damn others with himself : And thus to wed here, loving there, becomes A duty. Virtue buds a dubious leaf Round mortal brows : your ivy's better, dear. — Yet she, 'tis certain, is my very wife. The very lamb left mangled by the wolves Through my own bad shepherding : and could I choose But take her on my shoulder past this stretch Of rough, uneasy wilderness, poor lamb, Poor child, poor child .•* Aurora, my beloved, I will not vex you any more to-night ; But, hav'ing spoken what I came to say, The rest shall please you. What she can in me, — Protection, tender liking, freedom, ease,— She shall have surely, liberall\^ for her And hers, Aurora. Small amends they'll make For hideous evils which she had not known Except by me, and for this imminent loss, This forfeit presence of a gracious friend, Which also she must forfeit for my sake. Since . . . drop your hand in mine a moment, sweet, We're parting ! — Ah, my snowdrop, what a touch. As if the wind had swept it off ! you grudge Your gelid sweetness on my palm but so, A moment } angry, that I could not bear You . . . speaking, breathing, living, side by side With some one called my wife , . . and live myself } Nay, be not cruel : you must understand ! Your lightest footfall on a floor of mine Would shake the house, my lintel being uncrossed 'Gainst angels : henceforth it is night with me, And so, henceforth, I put the shutters up : Auroras must not come to spoil my dark." He smiled so feebh', with an empty hand Stretched sideway from me — as indeed he looked To any one but me to give him help ; Aurora Leigh. 259 And while the moon came suddenly out full, The double-rose of our Italian moons, Sufficient plainly for the heaven and earth, ( The stars, struck dumb, and washed away in dews Of golden glory, and the mountains steeped In divine languor) he, the man, appeared So pale and patient, like the marble man A sculptor puts his personal sadness in To join his grandeur of ideal thought — As if his mallet struck me from my height Of passionate indignation, I who had risen Pale, doubting paused. . . . Was Romney mad indeed? Had all this wrong of heart made sick the brain ? Then quiet, with a sort of tremulous pride, " Go, cousin," I said coldly : " a farewell Was sooner spoken 'twixt a pair of friends In those old days than seems to suit you now. Howbeit, since then, I've writ a book or two, I'm somewhat dull still in the manly art Of phrase and metaphrase. Why, any man Can carve a score of white Loves out of snow, As Buonarroti in my Florence there. And set them on the wall in some safe shade, — As safe, sir, as your marriage ! very good ; Though if a woman took one from the ledge To put it on the table by her flowers, And let it mind her of a certain friend, 'Twould drop at once, (so better) would not bear Her nail-mark even, where she took it up A little tenderly (so best, I say :) For me, I would not touch the fragile thing And risk to spoil it half an hour before The sun shall shine to melt it : leave it there. I'm plain at speech, direct in purpose : when I speak, you'll take the meaning as it is, And not allow for puckerings in the silk By clever stitches. I'm a woman, sir. And use the woman's figures naturally. As you the male license. So, I wish you well. I'm simply sorry for the griefs you've had. And not for your sake only, but mankind's. This race is never grateful : from the first, One fills their cup at supper with pure wine, 2 6o Aurora Leigh. Which back they give at cross-time on a sponge, In vinegar and gall." " If gratefuller," He murmured, " by so much less pitiable ! God's self would never have come down to die, Could man have thanked him for it." " Happily 'Tis patent, that, whatever," I resumed, " You suffered from this thanklessness of men. You sink no more than Moses' bulrush-boat When once relieved of Moses ; for you're light. You're light, my cousin ! w^hich is well for you. And manly. For myself — now mark me, sir, They burnt Leigh Hall ; but if, consummated To devils, heightened beyond Lucifers, They had burnt instead a star or two of those We saw above there just a moment back. Before the moon abolished them, destroyed And riddled them in ashes through a sieve On the head of the foundering universe — what then } If you and I remained still you and I, It could not shift our places as mere friends. Nor render decent j^ou should toss a phrase Beyond the point of actual feeling ! — Nay, You shall not interrupt me : as you said, We're parting. Certainly, not once nor twice To-night you've mocked me somewhat, or yourself. And I, at least, have not deserved it so That I should meet it unsurprised. But now, Enough. We're parting . . . parting. Cousin Leigh, I wish you well through all the acts of life And life's relations, wedlock not the least. And it shall ' please me,' in your words, to know You yield your wife protection, freedom, ease. And very tender liking. May you live So happy with her, Romney, that your friends Shall praise her for it. Meantime some of us Are wholly dull in keeping ignorant Of what she has suffered by you, and what debt Of sorrow your rich love sits down to pay : But, if 'tis sweet for love to pay its debt, 'Tis sweeter still for love to give its gift : And you, be liberal in the sweeter way ; You can, I think. At least as touches me. Aurora Leigh. 261 You owe her, cousin Romney, no amends. She is not used to hold my gown so fast You need entreat her now to let it go : The lady never was a friend of mine, Nor capable — I thought you knew as much — Of losing for your sake so poor a prize As such a worthless friendship. 13e content. Good cousin, therefore, both for her and you ! I'll never spoil your dark, nor dull your noon, Nor vex you when you're merry or at rest : You shall not need to put a shutter up To keep out this Aurora, though your north Can make Auroras which vex nobody. Scarce known from night, I fancied ! let me add, My larks fly higher than some windows. Well, You've read your Leighs. Indeed 'twould shake a house. If such as I came in with outstretched hand Still warm and thrilling from the clasp of one . . . Of one we know ... to acknowledge, palm to palm, As mistress there, the Lady Waldemar." " Now God be wath us ! " . . . with a sudden clash Of voice he interrupted. " What name's that ? You spoke a name, Aurora." " Pardon me I would that, Romney, I could name your wife Nor wound you, yet be worthy." "Are we mad ? ' He echoed — " wife ! mine ! Lady Waldemar ! 1 think you said my wife." He sprang to his feet, And threw his noble head back toward the moon, As one who swims against a stormy sea, Then laughed with such a helpless, hopeless scorn, I stood and trembled. " May God judge me so ! ' He said at last, — " I came convicted here, And humbled sorely, if not enough. I came. Because this woman from her crystal soul Had shown me something which a man calls light ; Because too, formerly, I sinned by her, As then and ever since 1 have bv God, 262 Aurora Lei^h. Through arrogance of nature, — though I loved . . . Whom best I need not say, since that is writ Too plainly in the book of my misdeeds : And thus I came here to abase myself, And fasten, kneeling, on her regent brows A garland which I startled thence one day Of her beautiful June youth. But here again I'm baffled, fail in my abasement as My aggrandizement : there's no room left for me At any woman's foot who misconceives My nature, purpose, possible actions. What ! Are you the Aurora who made large my dreams To frame your greatness ? you conceive so small .'' You stand so less than woman through being more, And lose your natural instinct (like a beast) Through intellectual culture .'' since indeed I do not think that any common she Would dare adopt such monstrous forgeries For the legible life-signature of such As I, with all my blots, with all my blots ! At last, then, peerless cousin, we are peers; At last we're even. Ah, you've left 3'our height, And here upon my level we take hands. And here I reach you to forgive you, sweet, And that's a fall, Aurora. Long ago You seldom understood me ; but before I could not blame you. Then, you only seemed So high above, you could not see below ; But now I breathe, — but now I pardon ! Nay, We're parting. Dearest, men have burnt my house, Maligned my motives ; but not one, I swear, Has wronged my soul as this Aurora has, Who called the Lady Waldemar my wife." Not married to her ! Yet you said ". Nay, read the lines " (he held a letter out) " She sent you through me." Again By the moonlight there I tore the meaning out with passionate haste Much rather than I read it. Thus it ran. Aurora Leigh. 263 NINTH BOOK. Even thus. I pause to write it out at length, The letter of the Lady Waldemar. " I prayed your cousin Leigh to take you this; He says he''ll do it. After years of love, Or what is called so, when a woman frets And fools upon one string of a man's name, And fingers it forever till it breaks. He may perhaps do for her such a thing. And she accept it without detriment. Although she should not love him any more. And I, who do not love huii, nor love you, Nor you, Aurora, choose you shall repent Your most ungracious letter, and confess, Constrained by his convictions, (he's convinced) You've wronged me foully. Are you made so ill, You woman, to impute such ill to me? We both had mothers, — lay in their bosom once. And, after all, I thank you, Aurora Leigh, For proving to myself that there are things I would not do, — not for my life, nor him, — Though something I have somewhat overdone ; For instance, when I went to see the gods One morning on Olympus, with a step That shook the thunder from a certain cloud. Committing myself vilely. Could I think The Muse I pulled my heart out from my breast To soften had herself a sort of heart. And loved my mortal } He at least loved her, I heard him say so : 'twas my recompense, When, watching at his bedside fourteen days, He broke out ever, like a flame at whiles Between the heats of fever, ' Is it thou .'' Breathe closer, sweetest mouth ! ' And when, at last The fever gone, the wasted face extinct. As if it irked him much to know me there. He said, ' 'Twas kind, 'twas good, 'twas womanly, ( And fifty praises to excuse no love), ' But was the picture safe he had ventured for } ' And then, half wandering, — ' I have loved her well. Although she could not love me.' ' Say instead,' 264 Aurora Lt'h^/i. Watching at his bedside. Aurora Leigh. 265 I answered, ' she does love you.' 'Twas my turn To rave : I would have married him so changed, Although the world had jeered me properly For taking up with Cupid at his worst, The silver quiver worn off on his hair. ' No, no,' he murmured, ' no, she loves me not ; Aurora Leigh does better. Bring her book And read it softly, Lady Waldemar, Until I thank your friendship more for that Than even for harder service.' So I read Your book, Aurora, for an hour that day : I kept its pauses, marked its emphasis ; My voice, empaled upon its hooks of rhyme. Not once would writhe, nor quiver, nor revolt ; I read on calmly, — calmly shut it up, Obesrving, ' There's some merit in the book ; And yet the merit in't is thrown away, As chances still with women if we write Or write not : we want string to tie our flowers, So drop them as we walk, which serves to show The way we went. Good-morning, Mister Leigh ; You'll find another reader the next time. A woman who does better than to love, I hate ; she will do nothing very well : Male poets are preferable, straining less. And teaching more.' 1 triumphed o'er you both. And left him. " When I saw him afterward, I had read your shameful letter, and my heart. He came with health recovered, strong, though pale, — Lord Howe and he, a courteous pair of friends, — To say what men dare say to women, when Their debtors. But I stopped them with a word, And proved I had never trodden such a road To carry so much dirt upon my shoe. Then, putting into it something of disdain, 1 asked forsooth his pardon, and m.y own, For having done no better than to love. And that not wisely, though 'twas long ago, And had been mended radically since. 1 told him, as I tell you now. Miss Leigh, And proved 1 took some trouble, for his sake, ( Because 1 knew he did not love the girl ) To spoil my hands with working in the stream 266 Aurora Leigh. Of that poor bubbling nature, till she went, Consigned to one I trusted (my own maid Who once had lived full five months in my house. Dressed hair superbly) with a lavish purse To carry to Australia where she had left A husband, said she. If the creature lied, The mission failed, — we all do fail and lie More or less, — and I'm sorry, which is all Expected from us when we fail the most, And go to church to own it. What I meant Was just the best for him, and me, and her . . . Best even for Marian ! — I am sorry for't, And very sorry. Yet my creature said, She saw her stop to speak in Oxford Street To one ... no matter ! I had sooner cut My hand off (though 'twere kissed the hour before. And promised a duke's troth-ring for the next) Than crush her silly head with so much wrong. Poor child ! I would have mended it with gold, Until it gleamed like St. Sophia's dome When all the faithful troop to morning prayer: But he, he nipped the bud of such a thought With that cold Leigh look which I fancied once, And broke in, ' Henceforth she was called his wife. His wife required no succor : he was bound To Florence to resume this broken bond ; Enough so. Both were happ3% he and Howe, To acquit me of the heaviest charge of all ' — — At which I shot my tongue against my fly, And struck him : ' Would he carry, he was just, A letter from me to Aurora Leigh, And ratify from his authentic mouth My answer to her accusation ? ' — ' Yes, If such a letter were prepared in time.' — He's just, your cousin ; ay, abhorrently : He'd wash his hands in blood to keep them clean. And so, cold, courteous, a mere gentleman, He bowed, we parted. " Parted. Face no more. Voice no more, love no more ! wiped wholly out, Like some ill scholar's scrawl from heart and slate : Ay, spit on, and so wiped out utterly. By some coarse scholar ! I have been too coarse. Too human. Have we business, in our rank, Aurora Leig/i. 267 With blood i' the veins ? I will have henceforth none, Not even to keep the color at my lip. A rose is pink and pretty without blood ; Why not a woman ? When we've played in vain The game, to adore, — we have resources still, And can play on, at leisure, being adored : Here's Smith already swearing at my feet That I'm the typic she. Away with Smith !— Smith smacks of Leigh, — and henceforth I'll admit No socialist within three crinolines, To live and have his being. But for you. Though insolent your letter and absurd, And though I hate you frankly, — take my Smith I For when you have seen this famous marriage tied, A most unspotted Erie to a noble Leigh, ( His love astray on one he should not love ) Howbeit you may not want his love, beware. You'll want some comfort. So I leave you Smith ; Take Smith ! — he talks Leigh's subjects, somewhat worse ; Adopts a thought of Leigh's, and dwindles it ; Goes leagues beyond, to be no inch behind ; Will mind you of him, as a shoe-string may Of a man : and women when they are made like you Grow tender to a shoe-string, footprint even. Adore averted shoulders in a glass, And memories of what, present once, was loathed. And yet you loathed not Romney, though you played At ' fox-and-goose ' about him with your soul : Pass over fox, you rub out fox, — ignore A feeling, you eradicate it— the act's Identical. " I wish you joy, Miss Leigh, You've made a happy marriage for your friend, And all the honor, well-assorted love. Derives from you who love him, whom he loves ! You need not wish ?ne joy to think of it, I have so much. Observe, Aurora Leigh, Your droop of eyelid is the same as his. And but for you I might have won his love, And to you I have shown my naked heart ; For which three things, I hate, hate, hate you. Hush ! Suppose a fourth, — I cannot choose but think That, with him, I were virtuouser than you Without him : so I hate vou from this eulf 268 Am'ora Leigh. And hollow of my soul which opens out To what, except for you, had been my heaven, And is, instead, a place to curse by ! Love." An active kind of curse. I stood there cursed, Confounded. I had seized and caught the sense Of the letter, with its twenty stinging snakes. In a moment's sweep of e3'esight, and I stood Dazed. " Ah ! not married." " You mistake," he said, " I'm married. Is not Marian Erie my wife } As God sees things, I have a wife and child ; And I, as I'm a man who honors God, Am here to claim them as my child and wife. I felt it hard to breathe, much less to speak. Nor word of mind are needed. Some one else Was there for answering. " Romney," she began, " My great good angel, Rom- ney." Then, at first, I knew that Marian Erie was beautiful. She stood there, still and pal- lid as a saint, Dilated, like a saint in ec- stasy, As if the floating moonshine interposed ^^ Betwixt her foot and the earth, and raised her up To float upon it. " I had left my child, Who sleeps," she said, " and, having drawn this way, I heard you speaking . . . friend ! — Confirm me now. You take this Marian, such as wicked men Have made her, for your honorable wife } " She stood thei A SAINT. Aurora Leigh. 269 The thrilling, solemn, proud, pathetic voice. He stretched his arms out toward that thrilling voice, As if to draw it on to his embrace. — " I take her as God made her, and as men Must fail to unmake her, for my honored wife." She never raised her eyes, nor took a step, But stood there in her place, and spoke again. — " You take this Marian's child, which is her shame In sight of men and women, for your child. Of whom you will not ever feel ashamed } " The thrilling, tender, proud, pathetic voice. He stepped on toward it, still with outstretched arms. As if to quench upon his breast that voice. — " May God so father me as 1 do him, And so forsake me as I let him feel He's orphaned haply. Here I take the child To share my cup, to slumber on my knee. To play his loudest gambol at my foot. To hold my rtnger in the public ways. Till none shall need inquire, ' Whose child is this ? ' The gesture saying so tenderly, ' My own.' " She stood a moment silent in her place ; Then turning toward me very slow and cold, — " And you, — what say you .^ — will you blame me much, If, careful for that outcast child of mine, I catch this hand that's stretched to me and him, Nor dare to leave him friendless in the world Where men have stoned me ? Have I not the right To take so mere an aftermath from life, Else found so wholly bare } Or is it wrong To let your cousin, for a generous bent. Put out his ungloved fingers among briers To set a tumbling bird's-nest somewhat straight } You will not tell him, though we're innocent. We are not harmless . . . and that both our harms Will stick to his good, smooth, noble life like burrs, Never to drop ofT, though he shakes the cloak } " You've been my friend : you will not now be his } You've known him that he's worthy of a friend. And you're his cousin, lady, after all, 270 Aurora Leigh. And therefore more than free to take his part, Explaining, since the nest is surely spoilt, And Marian what you know her, — though a wife. The world would hardly understand her case Of being just hurt and honest ; while for him, 'Twould ever twit him with his bastard child And married harlot. Speak while yet there's time. You would not stand and let a good man's dog Turn round and rend him, because his, and reared Of a generous breed ; and will you let his act. Because it's generous ? Speak. I'm bound to you, And I'll be bound by only you in this." The thrilling, solemn voice, so passionless. Sustained, yet low, without a rise or fall, As one who had authority to speak, And not as Marian. I looked up to feel If God stood near me, and beheld his heaven As blue as Aaron's priestly robe appeared To Aaron when he took it off to die. And then I spoke, — " Accept the gift, I say. My sister Marian, and be satisfied. The hand that gives has still a soul behind Which will not let it quail for having given, Though foolish worldlings talk they know not what Of what they know not. Romney's strong enough For this : do you be strong to know he's strong. He stands on right's side : never flinch for him. As if he stood on the other. You'll be bound By me } I am a woman of repute ; No fly-blow gossip ever specked my life ; My name is clean and open as this hand. Whose glove there's not a man dares Blab about. As if he had touched it freely. Here's my hand To clasp your hand, my Marian, owned as pure ! — As pure, as I'm a woman and a Leigh ; And, as I'm both, I'll witness to the\vorld That Romney Leigh is honored in his choice Who chooses Marian for his honored wife." Her broad, wild, woodland eyes shot out a light ; Her smile was wonderful for rapture. " Thanks, My great Aurora." Forward then she sprang, And, dropping her impassioned spaniel head Aurora Leigh. 271 With all its brown abandonment of curls On Romney's feet, we heard the kisses drawn Through sobs upon the foot, upon the ground— " O Romney ! O my angel ! O unchanged ! Though since we've parted I have passed the grave. But death itself could only better thee. Not change thee. Thee I do not thank at all : I but thank God who made thee what thou art. So whollv godlike." When he tried m vaui To raise her to his embrace, escaping thence As any leaping fawn from a huntsman's grasp. She bounded off, and 'lighted beyond reach. Before him, with a staglike majesty Of soft, serene defiance, as she knew He could not touch her, so was tolerant He had cared to try. She stood there with her great Drowned eyes, and dripping cheeks, and strange sweet smile That lived through all, as if one held a light Across a waste of waters,— shook her head To keep some thoughts down deeper in her soul- Then, white and tranquil like a summer-cloud. Which, having rained itself to a tardy peace. Stands still in heaven as if it ruled the day, Spoke out again,—" Although, my generous friend, Since last we met and parted you're unchanged. And, having promised faith to Marian Erie, Maintain it, as she were not changed at all ; And though that's worthy, though that's full of balm To any conscious spirit of a girl Who once has loved you as I loved you once,— Yet still it will not make her . . . if she's dead, And gone away w^here none can give or take In marriage, — able to revive, return And wed you,— will it, Romney } Here's the pomt ; My friend, we'll see it plainer : you and I Must never, never, never join hands so. Nav, let me say it ; for I said it first To'God, and placed it, rounded to an oath. Far, far above the moon there, at his feet, As surely as 1 wept just now at yours,— We never, never, never join hands so. And now, be patient with me : do not think 272 Auro7-a Leigh. I'm speaking- from a false humility. The truth is, 1 am grown so proud with grief, And He has said so often through his nights And through his mornings, ' Weep a little still, Thou foolish Marian, because women must, But do not blush at all except for sin,' — That I, who felt myself unworthy once Of virtuous Romney and his high-born race, Have come to learn, — a woman, poor or rich. Despised or honored, is a human soul, And what her soul is, that she is herself, Although she should be spit upon of men. As is the pavement of the churches here. Still good enough to pray in. And being chaste And honest, and inclined to do the right. And love the truth, and live my life out green And smooth beneath his steps,'! should not fear To make him thus a less uneasy time Than many a happier woman. Very proud You see me. Pardon, that I set a trap To hear a confirmation in your voice, Both yours and yours. It is so good to know 'Twas really God who said the same before ; And thus it is in heaven, that first God speaks, And then his angels. Oh, it does me good, It wipes me clean and sweet from devil's dirt, That Romney Leigh should think me worthy still Of being his true and honorable wife ! Henceforth I need not say, on leaving earth, I had no glory in it. For the rest. The reason's ready (master, angel, friend. Be patient with me) wherefore you and 1 Can never, never, never join hands so. I know you'll not be angry like a man ( Y ox you are none) when I shall tell the truth, Which is, I do not love you, Romney Leigh, I do not love you. Ah, well I catch my hands, Miss Leigh, and burn into my eyes with yours, — 1 swear I do not love him. Did I once } 'Tis said that women have been bruised to death, And yet, if once they loved, that love of theirs Could never be drained out with all their blood : I've heard such things and pondered. Did I indeed Love once ? or did I only worship } Yes, Aurora Leigh. 273 Perhaps, O friend, I set you up so high Above all actual good, or hope of good, Or fear of evil, all that could be mine, I haply set vou above love itself. And out of 'reach of these poor woman's arms, Angelic Romney. What was in my thought ? To be your slave, your help, your toy, your tool. To be your love ... I never thought of that. To give you love . . . still less. I gave you love ? I think I did not give you any thing ; I was but only yours,— upon my knees, All yours, in soul and body, in head and, heart,— A creature you had taken from the ground. Still crumbling through your fingers to your feet To join the dust she came from. Did I love. Or did I worship.? Judge, Aurora Leigh ! But, if indeed I loved, 'twas long ago, So long '.—before the sun and moon were made. Before the hells were open, ah, before I heard my child cry in the desert night, And knew he had no father. It may be I'm not as strong as other women are. Who, torn and crushed, are not undone from love. It may be I am colder than the dead. Who, being dead, love always. But for me. Once killed, this ghost of Marian loves no more. No more . . . except the child ... no more at all. I told your cousin, sir, that I was dead ; And now she thinks I'll get up from my grave. And wear mv chin-cloth for a wedding-veil, And glide along the churchyard like a bride, _ While all the dead keep whispering through the withes, ' You would be better in your place with us, You pitiful corruption ! ' At the thought. The damps break out on me like leprosy. Although I'm clean. Ay, clean as Marian Erie ! As Marian Leigh, I know I were not clean : Nor have I so much life that I should love. Except the child. Ah God ! I could not bear To see my darling on a good man's kriees. And know bv such a look, or such a sigh. Or such a silence, that he thought sometimes, ^ ' This child was fathered by some cursed wretcli . . . For, Romney, angels are less tender-wise 2 74 Aurora Leigh. Than God and mothers : t\&n yott would think What we think never. He is ours, the child ; And we would sooner vex a soul in heaven By coupling with it the dead body's thought It left behind it in a last month's grave Than in my child see other than ... my child. We only never call him fatherless Who has God and his mother. my babe, My pretty, pretty blossom an ill wind Once blew upon my breast ! Can any think I'd have another, — one called happier, A fathered child, with father's love and race That's worn as bold 'and open as a smile. To vex my darling when he's asked his name And has no answer ? What ! a happier child Than mine, my best, who laughed so loud to-night He could not sleep for pastime ? Nay, I swear By life and love, that if I lived like some. And loved like . . . some, ay, loved you, Romney Leigh, As some love, (eyes that have wept so much see clear) I've room for no more children in my arms, My kisses are all melted on one mouth, I would not push my darling to a stool To dandle babies. Here's a hand shall keep Forever clean without a marriage-ring. To tend my boy until he cease to need One steadying finger of it, and desert ( Not miss ) his mother's lap to sit with men. And when I miss him (not he me) I'll come And say, ' Now give me some of Romney's work, — To help your outcast orphans of the world And comfort grief with grief.' For you, meantime. Most noble Romney, wed a noble wife. And open on each other your great souls : I need not farther bless you. If I dared But strain and touch her in her upper sphere And say, * Come down to Romney — pay my debt ! ' I should be joyful with the stream of joy Sent through me. But the moon is in my face . . . I dare not, — though I guess the name he loves : I'm learned with my studies of old days. Remembering how he crushed his under lip When some one came and spoke, or did not come : Aurora, I could touch her with my hand. Aui'ora Leigh. 275 And fly because I dare not." She was gone. He smiled so sternly that I spoke in haste. " Forgive her — she sees clearly for herself : Her instinct's holy." " / forgive ! " he said, " I only marvel how she sees so sure, While others "... there he paused, then hoarse, abrupt, — " Aurora, you forgive us, her and me ? For her, the thing she sees, poor loyal child. If once corrected by the thing I know. Had been unspoken, since she loves you well. Has leave to love you ; while for me, alas ! If once or twice I let my heart escape This night . . . remember, where hearts slip and fall They break beside : we're parting, — parting, — ah. You do not love, that you should surely know What that word means. Forgive, be tolerant : It had not been, but that I felt myself So safe in impuissance and despair I could not hurt you, though I tossed my arms And sighed my soul out. The most utter wretch Will choose his postures when he comes to die, However in the presence of a queen ; And you'll forgive me some unseemly spasms Which meant no more than dying. Do you think I had ever come here in my perfect mind, Unless I had come here in my settled mind Bound Marian's, — bound to keep the bond, and give My name, my house, my hand, the things I could. To Marian } For even / could give as much : Even I, affronting her exalted soul By a supposition that she wanted these, Could act the husband's coat and hat set up To creak i' the wind, and drive the world-crows off From pecking in her garden. Straw can fill A hole to keep out vermin. Now, at last, I own heaven's angels round her life suffice To fight the rats of our society, Without this Romney. I can see it at last ; And here is ended my pretension w^hich The most pretended. Over-proud of course, Even so! — but not so stupid . . . blind . . . that I, Whom thus the great Taskmaster of the world 276 Aurora Leigh. Has set to meditate mistaken work, — My dreary face against a dim blank wall Throughout man's natural lifetime, — could pretend Or wish . . . O love, I have loved you ! O my soul, I have lost you ! But I swear by all yourself, And all you might have been to me these years If that June morning had not failed my hope, I'm not so bestial to regret that day This night, — this night, which still to you is fair ; Nay, not so blind, Aurora. I attest Those stars above us v^'hich I cannot see "... " You cannot "... " That if Heaven itself should stoop. Remix the lots, and give me another chance, I'd say, ' No other ! ' I'd record my blank. Aurora never should be wife of mine." " Not see the stars .^ " " 'Tis worse still not to see To find your hand, although we're parting, dear. A moment let me hold it ere we part. And understand my last words — these at last I — I would not have you thinking when I'm gone That Romney dared to hanker for your love In thought or vision, if attainable, ( Which certainly for me it never was ) And wished to use it for a dog to-day To help the blind man stumbling. God forbid ! And now I know he held you in his palm. And kept you open-eyed to all my faults, To save you at last from such a dreary end. Believe me, dear, that if I had known, like him. What loss was coming on me, I had done As well in this as he has. — Farewell you Who are still my light,— farew^ell ! How late it is I I know that now. You've been too patient, sweet. I will but blow my whistle toward the lane. And some one comes, — the same who brought me here. Get in. Good-night." " A moment. Heavenly Christ I A moment. Speak once, Romney. 'Tis not true. I hold your hands, I look into your face— You see me .'' " Aurora Leigh. 277 " No more than the blessed stars. Be blessed too, Atirora. Nay, my sweet, You tremble. Tender-hearted I Do you mind Of yore, dear, how you used to cheat old John, And let the mice out slyly from his traps, Until he marvelled at the soul in mice Which took the cheese, and left the snare ? The same Dear soft heart always ! 'Twas for this I grieved Howe's letter never reached you. Ah, you had heard Of illness, not the issue, not the extent, — My life long sick with tossings up and down. The sudden revulsion in the blazing house. The strain and struggle both of body and soul. Which left fire running in my veins for blood Scarce lacked that thunderbolt of the falling beam Which nicked me on the forehead as I passed The gallery-door with a burden. Say heaven's bolt, Not William Erie's, not Marian's father's, — tramp And poacher, whom I found for what he was. And, eager for her sake to rescue him. Forth swept from the open highway of the world, Road-dust and all, till, like a woodland boar Most naturally unwilling to be tamed. He notched me with his tooth. But not a word To Marian ! And I do not think, besides, He turned the tilting of the beam my way ; And if he laughed, as many swear, poor wretch. Nor he nor I supposed the hurt so deep. We'll hope his next laugh may be merrier, In a better cause." " Blind, Romney ? " " Ah, my friend, You'll learn to say it in a cheerful voice. I, too, at first desponded. To be blind. Turned out of nature, mulcted as a man, Refused the daily largess of the sun To humble creatures ! When the fever's heat Dropped from me, as the flame did from my house, And left me ruined like it, stripped of all The hues and shapes of aspectable life, A mere bare blind stone in the blaze of day, ^ A man, upon the outside of the earth. As dark as ten feet under, in the grave, — Why, that seemed hard." 278 Aurora Leigh " No hope A tear ! you weep, Divine Aurora ? tears upon my hand I've seen you weeping for a mouse, a bird, — But, weep for me, Aurora ? Yes, there's hope. No hope of sight : I could be learned, dear, And tell you in what Greek and Latin name The visual nerve is withered to the root. Though the outer eyes appear indifferent, Unspotted in their crystals. But there's hope. The spirit, from behind this dethroned sense, Sees, waits in patience till the walls break up From which the bas-relief and fresco have dropt : There's hope. The man here, once so arrogant And restless, so ambitious, for his part, Of dealing with statistically packed Disorders (from a pattern on his nail); And packing such things quite another way. Is now contented. From his personal loss He has come to hope for others when they lose. And wear a gladder faith in what we gain . . . Through bitter experience, compensation sweet, Like that tear, sweetest. I am quiet now As tender surely for the suffering world. But quiet, — sitting at the wall to learn, Content henceforth to do the thing I can ; For though as powerless, said I, as a stone, A stone can still give shelter to a worm. And it is worth while being a stone for that. There's hope, Aurora." "Is there hope for me ? For me } — and is there room beneath the stone For such a worm } And if I came and said . . . What all this weeping scarce will let me say. And yet what women cannot say at all But weeping bitterly . . . (the pride keeps up Until the heart breaks under it) ... I love, — I love you, Romney "... " Silence ! " he exclaimed. " A w^oman's pity sometimes makes her mad. A man's distraction must not cheat his soul To take advantage of it. Yet 'tis hard — Farewell, Aurora." *' But I love you, sir ; Aurora Leigh. 279 And when a woman says she loves a man, The man must hear her, though he love her not, Which . . . hush ! ... he has leave to answer in his turn She will not surely blame him. As for me, You call it pity, think I'm generous ? 'Twere somewhat easier, for a woman proud As I am, and I'm very vilely proud. To let it pass as such, and press on you Love born of pity, — seeing that excellent loves Are born so, often, nor the quicklier die,— And this would set me higher by the head Than now I stand. No matter. Let the truth Stand high ; Aurora must be humble : no. My love's not pity merely. Obviously I'm not a generous woman, never was. Or else, of old, I had not looked so near To weights and measures, grudging you the power To give, as first I scorned your power to judge For me, Aurora. I would'have no gifts Forsooth, but God's ; and I w^ould use them, too, According to my pleasure and my choice. As he and I were equals, you below. Excluded from that level of interchange Admitting benefaction. You were wrong In much ? you said so. I was wrong in most. Oh, most ! You only thought to rescue men By half-means, half-way, seeing half their wants, While thinking nothing of your personal gain. But I, who saw the human nature broad At both sides, comprehending too the soul's. And all the high necessities of art. Betrayed the thing I saw, and wronged my own life For which I pleaded. Passioned to" exalt The artist's instinct in me at the cost Of putting down the woman's, I forgot No perfect artist is developed here From any imperfect woman. Flower from root, And spiritual from natural, grade by grade In all our life. A handful of the earth To make God's image ! the despised poor earth, The healthy odorous earth, — I missed, with it The divine breath that blows the nostrils out To ineffable inflatus, — ay, the breath Which love is. Art is much ; but love is more. 28o Aurora Lei^rJi. art, my art, thou'rt much ; but love is more I Art symbolizes heaven ; but love is God, And makes heaven. 1, Aurora, fell from mine. 1 would not be a woman like the rest, A simple woman who believes in love, ? And owns the right of ^ love because she i loves, / And, hearing she's be- loved, is satisfied With what contents God : I must an- alyze, Confront, and question, just as if a fiy Refused to warm itself in any sun Till such was in Icoiic : I must fret, Forsooth, because the month was o n 1 v May, Be faithless of the kind of proffered love, And captious, lest it miss my dignity. And scornful, that my lover sought a wife To use ... to use ! O Romney, O m y love ! I am changed since then, changed wholly ; for indeed If now you'd stoop so low to take my love, And use it roughly, without stint or spare. The month was only As men use common thinQ;s with more May. I u- j behnid, ( And, in this, ever would be more be- hind) To any mean and ordinary end, The joy would set me, like a star in heaven, So high up, I should shine because of height, Aurora Leigh. 28] And not of virtue. Yet in one respect, Just one, beloved, I am in no wise changed : 1 love you, loved you . . . loved you first and last, And love you on forever. Now I know- I loved you always, Romney. She who died Knew that, and said so ; Lady Waldemar Knows that . . . and Marian. I had known the same, Except that I was prouder than I knew, And not so honest. Ay, and as I live, I should have died so, crushing in my hand This rose of love, the wasp inside and all, Ignoring ever to my soul and you Both rose and pain, — except for this great loss. This great despair, — to stand before your face And know you do not see me where I stand. You think, perhaps, I am not changed from pride, And that I chiefly bear to say such words Because you cannot shame me with your eyes } calm, grand eyes, extinguished in a storm. Blown out like lights o'er melancholy seas. Though shrieked for by the shipwrecked I O my Dark, My Cloud, — to go before me every day. While I go ever toward the wilderness, — 1 would that you could see me bare to the soul ! If this be pity, 'tis so for myself, And not for Romney : he can stand alone ; A man like him is never overcome : No woman like me counts him pitiable While saints applaud him. He mistook the world ; But I mistook my own heart, and that slip Was fatal. Romney, will you leave me here } So wrong, so proud, so weak, so unconsoled, So mere a woman ! — and I love you so, I love you, Romney" — Could I see his face I wept so } Did I drop against his breast. Or did his arms constrain me } Were my cheeks Hot, overflooded, with my tears, or his? And which of our two large explosive hearts So shook me ? That I know^ not. There were words That broke in utterance . . . melted in the fire ; Embrace that was convulsion . . . then a kiss As long and silent as the ecstatic night. 282 Aurora Leigh. And deep, deep, shuddering breaths, which meant beyond Whatever could be told by word or kiss. But what he said ... I have written day by day, With somewhat even writing. Did I think That such a passionate rain would intercept And dash this last page ? What he said, indeed, I fain would write it down here like the rest. To keep it in my eyes, as in my ears. The heart's sweet scripture, to be read at night When weary, or at morning when afraid, And lean my heaviest oath on when I swear. That when all's done, all tried, all counted here, All great arts, and all good philosophies. This love just puts its hand out in a dream. And straight outstretches all things. What he said I fain would write. But, if an angel spoke In thunder, should we haply know much more Than that it thundered ? If a cloud came down And wrapt us wholly, could we draw its shape, As if on the outside, and not overcome ? And so he spake. His breath against my face Confused his words, yet made them more intense, — ( As when the sudden finger of the wind Will wipe a row of single city lamps To a pure white line of flame, more luminous Because of obliteration ) more intense. The intimate presence carrying in itself Complete communication, as with souls. Who, having put the body off, perceive Through simply being. Thus 'twas granted me To know he loved me to the depth and height Of such large natures, ever competent. With grand horizons by the sea or land. To love's grand sunrise. Small spheres hold small fires ; But he loved largely, as a man can love, Who, baffled in his love, dares live his life, Accept the ends which God loves, for his own, And lift a constant aspect. From the day I brought to England my poor searching face, C An orphan even of my father's grave) He had loved me, watched me, watched his soul in mine. Aurora Leigh. 283 Which in me grew and heightened into love. For he, a boy still, had been told the tale Of how a fairy bride from Italy, With smells of oleanders in her hair, Was coming through the vines to touch his hand ; Whereat the blood of boyhood on the palm Made sudden heats. And when at last I came. And lived before him, lived, and rarely smiled. He smiled, and loved me for the thing I was, A3 every child will love the year's first flower, ( Not certainly the fairest of the year, But in which the complete year seems to blow) The poor sad snowdrop, growing between drifts, Mysterious medium 'twixt the plant and frost, So faint with winter while so quick with spring. And doubtful if to thaw itself away With that snow near it. Not that Romney Leigh Had loved me coldly. If I thought so once. It was as if I had held my hand in fire, And shook for cold. But now I understood Forever, that the very fire and heat Of troubling passion in him burned him clear, And shaped to dubious order word and act ; That, just because he loved me over all, — All wealth, all lands, all social privilege. To which chance made him unexpected heir, — And just because on all these lesser gifts. Constrained by conscience and the sense of wrong, He had stamped with steady hand God's arrow-mark Of dedication to the human need, He thought it should be so, too, with his love. He, passionately loving, would bring down His love, his life, his best, (because the best) His bride of dreams, who walked so still and high Through flowery poems, as through meadow-grass. The dust of golden lilies on her feet. That she should walk beside him on the rocks In all that clang and hewing out of men, And help the work of help which was his life, And prove he kept back nothing, — not his soul. And when I failed him,— for I failed him, I,— And when it seemed he had missed my love, he thought, " Aurora makes room for a working-noon," And so, self-girded with torn strips of hope. 284 Aurora Leigh Took up his life as if it were for death, (Just capable of one heroic aim) And threw it in the thickest of the world, At which men laughed as if he had drowned a dog. No wonder, — since Aurora failed him first ! The morning and the evening made his day. But oh the night ! O bitter-sweet ! O sweet ! dark, O moon and stars, O ecstasy Of darkness ! O great mystery of love, In which absorbed, loss, anguish, treason's self, Enlarges rapture, as a pebble dropt In some full winecup over-brims the wine ! While we two sate together, leaned that night So close my very garments crept and thrilled With strange electric life, and both my cheeks Grew red, then pale, with touches from my hair In which his breath was ; while the golden moon Was hung before our faces as the badge Of some sublime, inherited despair. Since ev'er to be seen by only one, — A voice said, low and rapid as a sigh, Yet breaking, I felt conscious, from a smile, " Thank God, who made me blind to make me see ! Shine on, Aurora, dearest light of souls, Which rul'st forevermore both day and night ! 1 am happy." I fiung closer to his breast. As sword that after battle flings to sheath ; And, in that hurtle of united souls, The mystic motions which in common moods Are shut be^'ond our sense broke in on us, And, as we sate, we felt the old earth spin. And all the starry turbulence of worlds Swing round us in their audient circles, till If that same golden moon were overhead Or if beneath our feet, we did not know. And then calm., equal, smooth with weights of joy, His voice rose, as some chief musician's song Amid the old Jewish temple's Selah-pause, And bade me mark how we two met at last Upon this moon-bathed promontory of earth, To give up much on each side, then take all. Aurora Leigh. 285 " Beloved," it sang, " we must be here to work; And men who. work can only work for men. And, not to work in vain, must comprehend Humanity, and so work humanly. And raise men's bodies still by raising souls, As God did first." " But stand upon the earth," I said, " to raise them, (this is human too ; There's nothing high which has not first been low; My humbleness, said One, has made me great !) As God did last." " And work all silently And simply," he returned. " as God does all ; Distort our nature never for our work. Nor count our right hands stronger for being hoofs. The man most man, with tenderest human hands. Works best for men, as God in Nazareth." He paused upon the word, and then resumed : " Fewer programmes, we w'ho have no prescience. Fewer systems, we who are held, and do not hold. Less mapping out of masses to be saved, By nations or by sexes. Fourier's void, And Comte absurd, and Cabet, puerile. Subsist no rules of life outside of life. No perfect manners, without Christian souls : The Christ himself had been no Law-giver Unless he had given the life too, with the law." I echoed thoughtfully, — " The man most man Works best for men, and, if most man indeed. He gets his manhood plainest from his soul ; While obviously this stringent soul itself Obeys the old law^ of development, The Spirit ever witnessing in ours. And love, the soul, of soul, within the soul, Evolving it sublimely. First, God's love." " And next," he smiled, " the love of wedded souls. Which still presents that mystery's counterpart. Sweet shadow-rose upon the water of life, Of such a mystic substance, Sharon gave A name to ! human, vital, fructuous rose. Whose calyx holds the multitude of leaves. 286 Aurora Leigh. Loves filial, loves fraternal, neighbor-loves And civic, — all fair petals, all good scents, All reddened, sweetened, from one central Heart ! ' " Alas ! " I cried, " it was not long ago You swore this very social rose smelt ill." " Alas ! " he answered, " is it a rose at all ? The filial's thankless, the fraternal's hard, The rest is lost. I do but stand and think, Across the waters of a troubled life, This flower of heaven so vainly overhangs, What perfect counterpart would be in sight If tanks were clearer. Let us clean the tubes. And wait for rains. O poet, O my love. Since / was too ambitious in my deed. And thought to distance all men in success, ( Till God came on me, marked the place, and said, ' Ill-doer, henceforth keep within this line. Attempting less than others ; ' and I stand And work among Christ's little ones, content,) Come thou, my compensation, my dear sight. My morning-star, my morning ! rise and shine. And touch my hills with radiance not their own. Shine out for two, Aurora, and fulfil My falling-short that must be I work for two. As I, though thus restrained, for two shall love ! Gaze on, with inscient vision, toward the sun. And from his visceral heat pluck out the roots Of light beyond him. Art's a service, mark : A silv-er key is given to thy clasp. And thou shalt stand unwearied, night and day. And fix it in the hard, slow-turning wards, To open, so, that intermediate door Betwixt the different planes of sensuous form And form insensuous, that inferior men May learn to feel on still through these to those, And bless thy ministration. The world waits For help. Beloved, let us love so well. Our work shall still be better for our love, And still our love be sweeter for our work, And both commended, for the sake of each, By all true workers and true lovers born. Now press the clarion on thy woman's lip, Auror-a Leigh. 287 ( Love's holy kiss shall still keep consecrate) And breathe thy fine keen breath along the brass, And blow all class-walls level as Jericho's Past Jordan, crying from the top of souls, To souls, that here assembled on earth's f^ats. They get them to some purer eminence Than any hitherto beheld for clouds ! What height we know not, but the way we know, And how, by mounting ever, we attain. And so climb on. It is the hour for souls. That bodies, leavened by the will and love. Be lightened to redemption. The world's old ; But the old world waits the time to be renewed, Toward which new hearts in individual growth Must quicken, and increase to multitude In new dynasties of the race of men, Developed whence shall grow spontaneously New churches, new economies, new laws Admitting freedom, new societies Excluding falsehood : He shall make all new." My Romney I — Lifting up my hand in his. As wheeled by seeing spirits toward the east, He turned instinctively, where, faint and far. Along the tingling desert of the sky. Beyond the circle of the conscious hills. Where laid in jasper-stone as clear as glass The first foundations of that new, near day W^hich should be builded out of heaven to God. He stood a moment with erected brows In silence, as a creature might who gazed, — Stood calm, and fed his blind, majestic eyes Upon the thought of perfect noon : and when I saw his soul saw, — "Jasper first," I said, " And second, sapphire ; third, chalcedony ; The rest in order, — last, an amethyst." A DRAMA OF EXILE Scene.— yy/t- otiter side of the gate of Eden shut fast 7vith cloud, from the depth of which revolves a sword of fire self moved. Adam and Eve are seen in the distance, flying along the glare. Lucifer, alone. Rejoice in the clefts of Gehenna, My exiled, my host ! Earth has exiles as hopeless as when a Heaven's empire was lost. Through the seams of her shaken foundations Smoke up in great joy ! With the smoke of your fierce exultations Deform and destroy ! Smoke up with your lurid revenges. And darken the face Of the white heavens, and taunt them with changes From glory and grace ! We in falling, while destiny strangles. Pull down with us all. Let them look to the rest of their angels ! Who's safe from a fall ? He saves not. Where's Adam ? Can pardon Requicken that sod ? Unkinged is the King of the Garden, The image of God. Other exiles are cast out of Eden, More curse has been hurled : Come up, O my locusts, and feed in The green of the world ! 290 A Drain a of Exile Come up I we have conquered by evil Good reigns not alone : / prevail now, and, angel or devil. Inherit a throne. Exiles are cast out of Ede> [/// sudden apparition a watch of iimicmerable angels, rank^ above rank, slopes 7ip from around the f^ate to the zejiith. The angel Gahriel descends. '\ Luc. Hail, Gabriel, the keeper of the gate I Now that the fruit is plucked, prince Gabriel, I hold that Eden is impregnable Under thy keeping. Gab. Angel of the sin. Such as thou standest, — pale in the drear light Which rounds the rebel's work with Maker's wrath, — Thou shalt be an Idea to all- souls, A monumental melancholy gloom Seen down all ages, whence to mark despair. And measure out the distances from good. Go from us straightway ! Luc. Wherefore } Gab. Lucifer, Thy last step in this place trod sorrow up. Recoil before that sorrow, if not this sword. Lite. Angels are in the world : wherefore not I ? Exiles are in the world : wherefore not I ? The cursed are in the world : wherefore not I .'' Gab. Depart ! Luc. And Where's the logic of " depart "} A Drama of Exile. 291 Our lady Eve had half been satisfied To obey her Maker, if I had not learnt To fix my postulate better. Dost thou dream Of guarding- some monopoly in heaven Instead of earth ? Why. I can dream with thee To the length of thy wings. Gab. I do not dream. This is not heaven, even in a dream, nor earth, As earth was once, first breathed among the stars, Articulate glory from the mouth divine. To which the myriad spheres thrilled audibly, Touched like a lute-string, and the sons of God Said Amen, singing it. I know that this Is earth not new created, but new cursed — This, Eden's gate, not opened, but built up With a final cloud of sunset. Do I dream } Alas, not so ! this is the Eden lost By Lucifer the serpent ; this the sword (This sword alive with justice and with fire) That smote upon the forehead Lucifer The angel. Wherefore, angel, go, depart ! Enough is sinned and suffered. Liic. By no means. Here's a brave earth to sin and suffer on : It holds fast still ; it cracks not under curse ; It holds like mine immortal. Presently We'll sow it thick enough with graves as green Or greener certes, than its knowledge-tree. We'll have the cypress for the tree of life. More eminent for shadow : for the rest. We'll build it dark with towns and pyramids. And temples, if it please you : we'll have feasts And funerals also, merrymakes and wars. Till blood and wine shall mix, and run along Right o'er the edges. And, good Gabriel, (Ye like that word in heaven ), / too have strength. Strength to behold Him, and not worship Him ; Strength to fall from Him, and not cry on Him ; Strength to be in the universe, and yet Neither God nor his servant. The red sign Burnt on my forehead, which you taunt me with. Is God's sign that it bows not unto God, — The potter's mark upon his work to show It rings well to the striker. I and the earth 292 A Drama of Exile. Can bear more curse. Gab. O miserable earth, ruined angel ! Luc. Well, and if it be, 1 CHOSE this ruin : I elected it Of my will, not of service. What I do, I do volitient, not obedient. And overtop thy crown with my despair. My sorrow crowns me. Get thee back to heaven, And leave me to the earth, which is mine own In virtue of her ruin, as I hers In virtue of my revolt ! turn thou, from both That bright, impassive, passive angelhood, And spare to read us backward any more Of the spent hallelujahs ! Gab. Spirit of scorn, I might say of unreason, I might say That who despairs, acts ; that who acts, connives With God's relations set in time and space ; That who elects, assumes a something good Which God made possible ; that who loves, obeys The law of a Life-maker . . . Luc. Let it pass : No more, thou Gabriel ! What if I stand up And strike my brow against the crystalline Roofing the creatures — shall I say, for that. My stature is too high for me to stand, Henceforward I must sit.^ Sit thou! Gab. I kneel. Luc. A heavenly answer. Get thee to thy heaven. And leave my earth to me ! Gab. Through heaven and ean'.i God's will moves freely, and I follow it, As color follows light. He overflows The firmamental walls with deity, Therefore with love. His lightnings go abroad ; His pity may do so ; his angels must Whene'er he gives them charges. Luc. Verily, I and my demons, who are spirits of scorn. Might hold this charge of standing with a sword 'Twixt man and his inheritance, as well As the benignest angel of you all. Gab. Thou speakest in the shadow of thy change. A Drama of Exile. 293 If thou hadst gazed upon the face of God This morning for a moment, thou hadst known That only pity fitly can chastise. Hate but avenges. Lice. As it is, I know Something of pity. When I reeled in heaven. And my sword grew too heavy for my grasp, Stabbing through matter which it could not pierce So much as the first shell of, toward the throne ; When I fell back, down, staring up as I fell, The lightnings holding open my scathed lids, And that thought of the infinite of God Hurled after to precipitate descent. When countless angel faces still and stern Pressed out upon me from the level heavens Adown the abysmal spaces, and I fell. Trampled down by your stillness, and struck blind By the sight within your eyes, — 'twas then I knew How ye could pity, my kind angelhood ! Gab. Alas, discrowned one, by the truth in me Which God keeps in me, I would give away All— save that truth and his love keeping it, — To lead thee home again into the light. And hear thy voice chant with the morning stars When their rays tremble round them with much song Sung in more gladness ! Luc. Sing, my morning star ! Last beautiful, last heavenly, that I loved ! If I could drench thy golden locks with tears. What were it to this angel .'* Gab. What love is. And now I have named God. Luc. Yet, Gabriel, By the lie in me which I keep myself, Thou'rt a false swearer. Were it otherwise, What dost thou here, vouchsafing tender thoughts To that earth-angel or earth-demon (which, Thou and I hav^e not solved the problem yet Enough to argue), that fallen Adam there. That red-clay and a breath, who must, forsooth, Live in a new apocalypse of sense. With beauty and music waving in his trees. And running in his rivers, to make glad His soul made perfect } — is it not for hope — 294 ^ Drama of Exile. A hope within thee deeper than thy truth — Of finally conducting him and his To fill the vacant thrones of me and mine, Which affront heaven with their vacuity? Gab. Angel, there are no vacant thrones in heaven To suit thy empty words. Glory and life Fulfil their own depletions ; and, if God Sighed you far from him, his next breath drew in A compensative splendor up the vast, Flushing the starry arteries. Luc. With a change ! So let the vacant thrones and gardens too Fill as may please you ! — and be pitiful, As ye translate that word, to the dethroned And exiled, ^ — man or angel. The fact stands, That I, the rebel, the cast out and down, Am here, and will not go ; while there, along The light to which ye flash the desert out, Flies your adopted Adam, your red-clay In two kinds, both being flawed. Why, what is this.^ Whose work is this } Whose hand was in the work } Against whose hand ? In this last strike, methinks, I am not a fallen angel ! Gab. Dost thou know Aught of those exiles } Luc. Ay : I know they have fled Silent all day along the wilderness : I know they wear, for burden on their backs. The thought of a shut gate of Paradise, And faces of the marshalled cherubim Shining against, not for, them ; and I know They dare not look in one another's face. As if each were a cherub ! Gab. Dost thou know Aught of their future ? Luc. Only as much as this : That evil will increase and multiply Without a benediction. Gab. Nothing more } Luc. Why, so the angels taught ! What should be more ? Gab. God is more. Luc. Proving what } Gab. That he is God, And capable of saving. Lucifer, A Drama of Exile. 295 I charge thee, by the soHtude he kept Ere he created, leave the earth to God ! Luc. My foot is on the earth, firm as my sin. Gab. I charge thee, by the memory of heaven Ere any sin was done, leave earth to God ! Ltic. My sin is on the earth, to reign thereon. Gab. I charge thee, by the choral song we sang, When, up against the white shore of our feet, The depths of the creation swelled and brake, And the new worlds — the beaded foam and flower Of all that coil — roared outward into space On thunder-edges, leave the earth to God ! Luc. My woe is on the earth, to curse thereby. Gab. I charge thee, by that mournful morning star Which trembles . . . Luc. Enough spoken. As the pine In norland forest drops its weight of snows By a night's growth, so, growing toward my ends I drop thy counsels. Farewell, Gabriel ! Watch out thy service : I achieve my will. And peradventure in the after-years, When thoughtful men shall bend their spacious brows Upon the storm and strife seen everywhere To ruffle their smooth manhood, and break up With lurid lights of intermittent hope Their human fear and wrong, they may discern The heart of a lost angel in the earth. CHORUS OF EDEN SPIRITS. [Chanting from Paradise, zu/iile Adkm and Y.V¥. fly across the suwrd-glare.) Harken, oh harken ! let your souls behind you Turn, gently moved ! Our voices feel along the Dread to find you, O lost, beloved ! Through the thick-shielded and strong-marshalled angels They press and pierce : Our requiems follow fast on our evangels : Voice throbs in verse. We are but orphaned spirits left in Eden A time ago : 296 A Drama of Exile. God gave us golden cups, and we were bidden To feed you so. But now our right hand hath no cup remaining, No work to do ; The mystic hydromel is spilt, and staining The whole earth through, — Most ineradicable stains, for showing (Not interfused I) That brighter colors were the world's foregoing, Than shall be used. Harken, oh harken ! ye shall harken surely, For years and years, The noise beside you, dripping coldly, purely, Of spirits' tears. The yearning to a beautiful denied you Shall strain your powers ; Ideal sweetnesses shall over-glide you, Resumed from ours. In all your music our pathetic minor Your ears shall cross, And all good gifts shall mind you of diviner, With sense of loss. We shall be near you in your poet-languors And wild extremes. What time ye vex the desert with vain angers. Or mock with dreams. And when upon you, weary after roaming, Death's seal is put. By the foregone ye shall discern the coming, Through eyelids shut. Spirits of the trees. Hark ! the Eden trees are stirring, Soft and solemn in your hearing, — Oak and linden, palm and fir, Tamarisk and juniper. Each still throbbing in vibration Since that crowning of creation When the God-breath spake abroad, Let us make mati like to God ! And the pine stood quivering As the awful word went by. Like a vibrant music -string Stretched from mountain-peak to sky ; And the platan did expand Slow and gradual, branch and head ; A Drama of Exile. 297 And the cedar's strong black shade Fluttered brokenly and grand : Grove and wood were swept aslant In emotion jubilant. Voice of the same, but softer. Which divine impulsion cleaves In dim movements to the leaves Dropt and lifted, dropt and lifted, In the sunlight greenly sifted, — In the sunlight and the moonlight Greenly sifted through the trees. Ever wave the Eden trees In the nightlight and the moonlight. With a ruffling of green branches Shaded off to resonances, Never stirred by rain or breeze. Fare ye well, farewell ! The sylvan sounds, no longer audible, Expire at Eden's door. Each footstep of your treading Treads out some murmur which ye heard before. Farewell ! the trees of Eden Ye shall hear nevermore. River-spirits. Hark the flow of the four rivers, Hark the flow ! How the silence round you shivers. While our voices through it go Cold and clear ! A softer voice. Think a little, while ye hear. Of the banks Where the willows and the deer Crowd in intermingled ranks, As if all would drink at once Where the living water runs ! — Of the fishes' golden edges Flashing in and out the sedges ; Of the swans, on silver thrones. Floating down the winding streams With impassive eyes turned shoreward. And a chant of undertones, And the lotus leaning forward To help them into dreams ! 298 A Drama of Exile. Fare ye well, farewell ! The river-sounds, no longer audible. Expire at Eden's door. Each footstep of your treading Treads out some murmur which ye heard before. Farewell ! the streams of Eden Ye shall hear nevermore. Bird-spirit. I am the nearest nightingale That singeth in Eden after you, And I am singing loud and true, And sweet : I do not fail. I sit upon a cypress-bough, Close to the gate, and I fling my song Over the gate and through the mail Of the warden angels marshalled strong, — Over the gate, and after you. And the warden-angels let it pass. Because the poor brown bird, alas ! Sings in the garden, sweet and true. And I build my song of high, pure notes, Note over note, height over height, Till I strike the arch of the Infinite ; And I bridge abysmal agonies With strong, clear calms of harmonies ; And something abides, and something floats In the song which I sing after you. Fare ye well, farewell ! The creature-sounds, no longer audible. Expire at Eden's door. Each footstep of your treading Treads out some cadence which ye heard before. Farewell ! the birds of Eden Ye shall hear nevermore. Flower-spirits. We linger, we linger, The last of the throng, Like the tones of a singer Who loves his own song. We are spirit-aromas Of blossom and bloom. We call your thoughts home, as Ye breathe our perfume. To the amaranth's splendor A Drama of Exile. 299 Afire on the slopes ; To the lily-bells tender And R:ray heliotropes We are spirit-aromas of blossom and bloom. To the poppy-plains keeping Such dream-breath and blee. That the angels there stepping Grew whiter to see ; 300 A Drama of Exile. To the nook set with moly, Ye jested one day in, Till your smile waxed too holy, And left your lips praying ; To the rose in the bower-place, That dripped o'er you sleeping To the asphodel flower-place, Ye walked ankle-deep in. We pluck at your raiment. We stroke down your hair, We faint in our lament. And pine into air. Fare ye well, farewell ! The Eden scents, no longer sensible, Expire at Eden's door, Each footstep of your treading Treads out some fragrance which ye knew before. Farewell! the flowers of Eden Ye shall smell nevermore. \There is silence. Adam and Eve fly on, and jiever look back. Only a colossal sha- dow, as of the dark Angel passing quickly, is cast upon the sword-glare. Scene. — The extremity of the sword-glare. Adam. Pausing a moment on this outer edge, Where the supernal sword-glare cuts in light The dark exterior desert, hast thou strength. Beloved, to look behind us to the gate } Eve. Have I not strength to look up to thy face } Adam. We need be strong : yon spectacle of cloud, Which seals the gate up to the final doom. Is God's seal manifest. There seem to lie A hundred thunders in it, dark and dead. The unmolten lightnings vein it motionless ; And, outward from its depth, the self-moved sword Swings slow its awful gnomon of red fire From side to side, in pendulous horror slow, Across the stagnant ghastly glare thrown flat On the intermediate ground from that to this. The angelic hosts, the archangelic pomps. A Drama of Exile. 301 Thrones, dominations, princedoms, rank on rank, Rising sublimely to the feet of God, On either side, and overhead the gate, Show like a glittering and sustained smoke Drawn to an apex. That their faces shine Betwixt the solemn clasping of their wings Clasped high to a silver point above their heads. We only guess from hence, and not discern. Eve. Though we were near enough to see them shine, The shadow on thy face were awfuUer To me, at least, — to me, — than all their light. Adam. What is this. Eve ? Thou droppest heavily In a heap earthward, and thy body heaves Under the golden floodings of thine hair. Eve. O Adam, Adam ! by that name of Eve, — Thine Eve, thy life, — which suits me little now, Seeing that I now confess myself thy death And thine undoer, as the snake was mine, — I do adjure thee put me straight away. Together with my name ! Sweet, punish me ! O love, be just ! and ere we pass beyond The light cast outward by the fiery sword, Into the dark which earth must be to us, Bruise my head with thy foot, as the curse said My seed shall the first tempter's ! — strike with curse. As God struck in the garden ! and as he, Being satisfied with justice and with wrath. Did roll his thunder gentler at the close, Thou, peradventure, mayst at last recoil To some soft need of mercy. Strike, my lord ! /, also, after tempting, writhe on the ground, And I would feed on ashes from thine hand. As suits me, O my tempted ! Adam. My beloved. Mine Eve and life, I have no other name For thee, or for the sun, than what ye are, — My utter life and light ! If we have fallen, It is that we have sinned, — we. God is just ; And, since his curse doth comprehend us both, It must be that his balance holds the weights Of first and last sin on a level. What ! Shall I, who had not virtue to stand straight Among the hills of Eden, here assume To mend the justice of the perfect God, 302 A Drama of Exile. By piling up a curse upon his curse, Against thee, — thee ? Eve. For so, perchance, thy God Might take thee into grace for scorning me, Thy wrath against the sinner giving proof Of inward abrogation of the sin : And so the blessed angels might come down And walk with thee as erst, — I think they would, — Because I was not near to make them sad. Or soil the rustling of their innocence. Adam. They know me. I am deepest in the guilt, If last in the transgression. Eve. Thou ! Adam. If God, Who gave the right and joyaunce of the world Both unto thee and me, gave thee to me, — The best gift last, — the last sin was the worst, Which sinned against more complement of gifts And grace of giving. God ! I render back Strong benediction and perpetual praise From mortal feeble lips (as incense-smoke Out of a little censer may fill heaven). That thou, in striking my benumbed hands. And forcing them to drop all other boons Of beauty and dominion and delight. Hast left this well-beloved Eve, this life Within life, this best gift between their palms, In gracious compensation. Eve. Is it thy voice. Or some saluting angel's, calling home My feet into the garden ? Adam. O my God ! I, standing here between the glory and dark, — The glory of thy wrath projected forth From Eden's wall, the dark of our distress. Which settles a step off in that drear world,— Lift up to thee the hands from whence hath fallen Only creation's sceptre, thanking thee That rather thou hast cast me out with her Than left me lorn of her in Paradise, With angel looks and angel songs around To show the absence of her eyes and voice, And make society full desertness Without her use in comfort. A Dfama of Exile. 303 Eve. Where is loss ? Am I in Eden ? Can another speak Mine own love's tongue? Adam. Because, with her, I stand Upright, as far as can be in this fall. And look away from heaven which doth accuse, And look away from earth which doth convict, Into her face, and crown my discrowned brow Out of her love, and put the thought of her Around me for an Eden full of birds. And lift her body up — thus— to my heart, And with my lips upon her lips — thus, thus — Do quicken and sublimate my mortal breath. Which cannot climb against the grave's steep sides, But overtops this grief. Eve. I am renewed. My eyes grow with the light which is in thine ; The silence of my heart is full of sound. Hold me up — so ! Because 1 comprehend This human love, I shall not be afraid Of any human death ; and yet, because I know this strength of love, I seem to know Death's strength by that same sign. Kiss on my lips. To shut the door close on my rising soul, Lest it pass outwards in astonishment. And leave thee lonely ! Adam. Yet thou liest. Eve, Bent heavily on thyself across mine arm. Thy face flat to the sky. Eve. Ay ; and the tears Running, as it might seem, my life from me. They run so fast and warm. Let me lie so. And weep so, as if in a dream or prayer. Unfastening, clasp by clasp, the hard tight thought Which clipped my heart, and showed me evermore Loathed of thy justice as I loathe the snake. And as the pure ones loathe our sin. To-day, All day, beloved, as we fled across This desolating radiance cast by swords. Not suns, my lips prayed soundless to myself, Striking against each other, " O Lord God ! " ('T was so I prayed) " I ask thee by my sin, And by thy curse, and by thy blameless heavens, Make dreadful haste to hide me from thy face 304 A Drama of Exile. And from the face of my beloved here For whom I am no helpmeet, quick away Into the new dark mystery of death ! I will lie still there ; 1 will make no plaint ; I will not sigh, nor sob, nor speak a word. Nor struggle to come back beneath the sun, Where, peradventure, I might sin anew Against thy mercy and his pleasure. Death, Oh, death, whate'er it be, is good enough For such as I am ; while for Adam here, No voice shall say again, in heaven or earth, "// is not good for him to be alone.'' Adam. And was it good for such a prayer to pass, My unkind Eve, betwixt our mutual lives? If I am exiled, must I be bereaved ? Eve. 'T was an ill prayer : it shall be prayed no more. And God did use it like a foolishness. Giving no answer. Now my heart has grown Too high and strong for such a foolish prayer : Love makes it strong. And since I was the first In the transgression, with a steady foot I will be first to tread from this sword-glare Into the outer darkness of the waste, — And thus I do it. Adam. Thus I follow thee, As ere while in the sin. — What sounds ! what sounds ! I feel a music which comes straight from heaven, As tender as a watering dew. Eve. I think That angels, not those guarding Paradise, But the love angels, who came erst to us. And, when we said " GOD," fainted unawares Back from our mortal presence unto God, (As if he drew them inward in a breath,) His name being heard of them, — I think that they With sliding voices lean from heavenly towers. Invisible, but gracious. Hark — how soft ! CHORUS OF INVISIBLE ANGELS. Faint and tender. Mortal man and woman. Go upon your travel ! A Drama of Exile. 305 Heaven assist the human Smoothly to unravel All that web of pain Wherein ye are holden. Do ye know our voices Chanting down the Golden? Do ye guess our choice is, Being unbeholden, To be barkened by you yet again ? This pure door of opal God hath shut between us, — Us his shining people, You who once have seen us And are blinded new ; Yet, across the doorway, Past the silence reaching, Farewells evermore may, Blessing in the teaching, Glide from us to you. First sojiichoriis. Think how erst your Eden, Day on day succeeding, With our presence glowed. We came as if the heavens were bowed To a milder music rare. Ye saw us in our solemn treading. Treading down the steps of cloud, While our wings, outspreading Double calms of whiteness. Dropped superfluous brightness Down from stair to stair. Seco7id seniichorus. Or oft, abrupt though tender. While ye gazed on space. We flashed our angel-splendor In either human face. With mystic lilies in our hands. From the atmospheric bands, Breaking with a sudden grace, We took you unaware ! While our feet struck glories Outward, smooth and fair, Which we stood on floorwise 3o6 A Drama of Exile. Platfcrnied in mid-air. First semic/iorits. Or oft, when heaven descended, Stood we in our wondering sight In a mute apocalypse With dumb vibrations on our lips From hosannas ended. And grand half-vanishings Of the empyreal things Within our eyes belated. Till the heavenly Infinite, Falling off from the Created, Left our inward contemplation Opened into ministration. C/iorus. Then upon our axle turning Of great joy to sympathy, W^e sang out the morning Broadening up the sky ; Or we drew Our music through The noontide's hush and heat and shine, Informed with our intense Divine ! Interrupted vital notes Palpitating hither, thither, Burninir out into the ether. Sensible like fiery motes ; Or, whenever twilight drifted Through the cedar masses. The globed sun we lifted. Trailing purple, trailing gold. Out between the passes Of the mountains manifold. To anthems slowly sung ! While he, aweary, half in swoon For joy to hear our climbing tune Transpierce the stars' concentric rings, — The burden of his glory flung In broken lights upon our wings. [ The chant dies away confusedly and Lucifer appears. Luc. Now may all fruits be pleasant to thy lips Beautiful Eve I The times have somewhat changed A Draitia of Exile. 307 Since thou and I had talk beneath a tree, Albeit ye are not gods yet. Eve. Adam, hold My right hand strongly ! It is Lucifer, — And we have love to lose. Adam. V the name of God, Go apart from us, thou Lucifer ! And leave us to the desert thou hast made Out of thy treason. Bring no serpent-slime Athwart this path kept holy to our tears, Or we may curse thee with their bitterness. Luc. Curse freely ! Curses thicken. Why, this Eve Who thought me once part worthy of her ear, And somewhat wiser than the other beasts, — • Drawing together her large globes of eyes. The light of which is throbbing in and out Their steadfast continuity of gaze, — Knots her (air eyebrows in so hard a knot. And down from her white heights of womanhood Looks on me so amazed, I scarce should fear To wager such an apple as she plucked. Against one riper from the tree of life. That she could curse too — as a woman may — Smooth in the vowels. Eve. So — speak wickedly : I like it best so. Let thy words be wounds. For so I shall not fear thy power to hurt ; Trench on the forms of good by open ill. For so I shall wax strong and grand with scorn. Scorning myself for ever trusting thee As far as thinking, ere a snake ate dust. He could speak wisdom. Luc. Our new gods, it seems. Deal more in thunders than in courtesies. And, sooth, mine own Olympus, which anon I shall build up to loud-voiced imagery From all the wandering visions of the world, May show worse railling than our lady Eve Pours o'er the rounding of her argent arm. But why should this be ? Adam pardoned Eve. Adam. Adam loved Eve. Jehovah pardoned both ! Eve. Adam forgave Eve, because loving Eve. Luc. So, well. Yet Adam was undone of Ev^e, As both were by the snake : therefore forgive. 308 A Drama of Exile. In like wise, fellow-temptress, the poor snake, Who stung there, not so poorly ! \Aside.\ Eve. Hold thy wrath. Beloved Adam ! Let me answer him ; For this time he speaks truth, which we should hear, And asks for mercy, which I most should grant. In like wise, as he tells us, in like wise ! — And therefore I thee pardon, Lucifer, As freely as the streams of Eden flowed When we were happy by them. So, depart ; Leave us to walk the remnant of our time Out mildly in the desert. Do not seek To harm us any more, or scoff at us. Or, ere the dust be laid upon our face. To find there the communion of the dust And issue of the dust. Go ! Adam. At once go ! Lmc. Forgive ^ and go ! Ye images of clay. Shrunk somewhat in the mould, what jest is this ? What words are these to use ? By what a thought Conceive ye of me } Yesterday — a snake ! To-day — what } Adam. A strong spirit. Eve. A sad spirit. Adam. Perhaps a fallen angel. — Who shall say ! Luc. Who told thee, Adam } Adatn. Thou ! — the prodigy Of thy vast brows and melancholy eyes. Which comprehend the heights of some great fall. I think that thou hast one day worn a crown Under the eyes of God. Luc. And why of God } Adajn. It were no crown else. Verily, I think Thou'rt fallen far. I had not yesterday Said it so surely ; but I know to-day Grief by grief, sin by sin. Luc. A crown by a crown. Adam. Ay, mock me ! now I know more than I knew Now I know that thou art fallen below hope Of final re-ascent. Luc. Because } Adam. Because A spirit who expected to see God, Though at the last point of a million years. A Dra7na of Exile. 309 Could dare no mockery of a ruined man Such as this Adam. Lice. Who is high and bold, — Be it said passing, — of a good red clay Discovered on some top of Lebanon, Or haply of Aornus, beyond sweep Of the black eagle's wing. A furlong lower Had made a meeker king for Eden. Soh ! Is it not possible by sin and grief (To give the things your names) that spirits should rise, Instead of falling ? Adam. Most impossible. The Highest being the Holy and the Glad, Whoever rises must approach delight And sanctity in the act. Luc. Ha, my clay king ! Thou wilt not rule by wisdom very long The after-generations. Earth, methinks. Will disinherit thy philosophy For a new doctrine suited to thine heirs, And class these present dogmas with the rest Of the old-w'orld traditions, — Eden fruits And Saurian fossils. Eve. Speak no more with him. Beloved ! it is not good to speak with him. — Go from us, Lucifer, and speak no more ! We have no pardon which thou dost not scorn. Nor any bliss, thou seest, for coveting. Nor innocence for staining. Being bereft. We would be alone. Go ! Ltfc. Ah ! ye talk the same, All of you, — spirits and clay, — Go, and depart ! In heaven they said so, and at Eden's gate. And here re-iterant in the wilderness. None saith, Stay with me, for thy face is fair ! None saith. Stay with me, for thy voice is sweet ! And yet I was not fashioned out of clay. Look on me, woman ! Am I beautiful .'' Eve. Thou hast a glorious darkness, Ltcc. Nothing more ? Eve. I think no more. Luc. False heart, thou thinkest more ! Thou canst not choose but think, as I praise God, Unwillingly but fully, that I stand 3 1 o A Drama of Exile. Most absolute in beauty. As yourselves Were fashioned very good at best, so we Sprang very beauteous from the creant Word Which thrilled behind us, God himself being moved When that august work of a perfect shape. His dignities of sovran angelhood, Swept out into the universe, divine, With thunderous movements, earnest looks of gods. And silver-solemn clash of cymbal wings, Whereof was I, in motion and in form, A part not poorest. And yet — yet, perhaps. This beauty which I speak of is not here. As God's voice is not here, nor even my crown, — I do not know. What is this thought or thing Which I call beauty ? Is it thought or thing? Is it a thought accepted for a thing ? Or both ? or neither? — a pretext, a word ? Its meaning flutters in me like a flame Under my own breath : my perceptions reel Forevermore around it, and fall off. As if it, too, were holy. Eve. Which it is. Ada7n. The essence of all beauty I call love. The attribute, the evidence and end. The consummation to the inward sense, Of beauty apprehended from without, I still call love. As form when colorless Is nothing to the eye, — that pine-tree there, Without its black and green, being all a blank, — So, without love, is beauty undiscerned In man or angel. Angel ! rather ask What love is in thee, what love moves to thee, And what collateral love moves on with thee ; Then shalt thou know if thou art beautiful. Luc. Love ! what is love ? I lose it. Beauty and love I darken to the image. Beauty — love ! \He fades muay, while a low jmtsic soiuids. Adam. Thou art pale, Eve. Eve. The precipice of ill Down this colossal nature dizzies me : And hark ! the starry harmony remote A Drama of Exile. 311 Seems measuring the heights from whence he fell. Adam. Think that we have not fallen so ! By the hope And aspiration, by the love and faith, We do exceed the stature of this angel. Eve. Happier we are than he is by the death. Adam. Or, rather, by the life of the Lord God. How dim the angel grows, as if that blast Of music swept him back into the dark ! \The music is stronger, gatiiering itself into uncertain articulation. Eve. It throbs in on us like a plaintive heart, Pressing with slow pulsations, vibrative. Its gradual sweetness through the yielding air, To such expression as the stars may use, Most starry-sweet and strange. With every note That grows more loud the angel grows more dim, Receding in proportion to approach, Until he stand afar, — a shade. Adam. Now, words. SONG OF THE MORNING STAR TO LUCIFER. He fades utterly away, and vanishes as it proceeds. Mine orbed image sinks Back from thee, back from thee, As thou art fallen, methinks. Back from me, back from me. O my light-bearer. Could another fairer Lack to thee, lack to thee } Ah, ah, Heosphoros ! I loved thee with the fiery love of stars Who love by burning, and by loving move Too near the throned Jehovah not to love. Ah, ah, Heosphoros ! Their brows flash fast on me from gliding cars. Pale-passioned for my loss. Ah, ah, Heosphoros ! Mine orbed heats drop cold Down from thee, down from thee. As fell thy grace of old Down from me, down from me. 312 A D ratlin of Exile Ah, am, Heosphoros ! A Drama of Exile, 313 my light-bearer, Is another fairer Won to thee, won to thee ? Ah, ah, Heosphoros, Great love preceded loss, Known to thee, known to thee. Ah, ah ! Thou, breathing thy communicable grace Of life into my light. Mine astral faces, from thine angel face Hast inly fed. And flooded me with radiance overmuch From thy pure height. Ah, ah! Thou, with calm, floating pinions both ways spread, Erect, irradiated. Didst sting my wheel of glory On, on before thee, Along the Godlight, by a quickening touch ! Ha, ha ! Around, around, the firmamental ocean I swam expanding with delirious fire ! Around, around, around, in blind desire To be drawn upward to the Infinite — Ha, ha ! Until, the motion flinging out the motion To a keen whirl of passion and avidity, To a dim whirl of languor and delight, I wound in gyrant orbits smooth and white With that intense rapidity. Around, around, 1 wound and interwound. While all the cyclic heavens about me spun. Stars, planets, suns, and moons dilated broad. Then flashed together into a single sun. And w^ound, and wound in one : And as they wound I wound, around, around. In a great fire I almost took for God. Ha, ha, Heosphoros ! Thine angel glory sinks Down from me, down from me : My beauty falls, methinks, Down from thee, down from thee. 314 A Drama of Exile. O my light-bearer, O my path-preparer, Gone from me, gone from me ! Ah, ah, Heosphoros ! I cannot kindle underneath the brow Of this new angel here who is not thou. All things are altered since that time ago ; And if I shine at eve, I shall not know. I am strange, I am slow. Ah, ah, Heosphoros ! Henceforward, human eyes of lovers be The only sweetest sight that I shall see, With tears between the looks raised up to me, Ah, ah ! When, having wept all night, at break of day Above the folded hills, they shall survey My light, a little trembling, in the grav, Ah, ah ! And, gazing on me, such shall comprehend. Through all my piteous pomp at morn or even And melancholy leaning out of heaven, That love, their own divine, may change or end, That love may close in loss ! Ah, ah, Heosphoros ! Scene. — Farther on. A wild open country seen vaguely in the approaching night. Adam. How doth the wide and melancholy earth Gather her hills around us, gray and ghast, And stare with blank significance of loss Right in our faces ! Is the wind up } Eve. Nay. Adam. And yet the cedars and the junipers Rock slowly, through the mist, without a sound, And shapes which have no certainty of shape Drift duskly in and out between the pines. And loom along the edges of the hills. And lie fiat, curdling in the open ground, — Shadows without a body, which contract And lengthen as we gaze on them. Eve. O life, AVhich is not man's nor angel's ! What is this ? Adam. No cause for fear. The circle of God's life Contains all life beside. A Dnwia of Exile. 315 Eve. I think the earth Is crazed with curse, and wanders from the sense Of those first laws affixed to form and space Or ever she knew sin. Adam. We will not fear : We were brave sinning. Eve. Yea, I plucked the fruit With eyes upturned to heaven, and seeing there Our god-thrones, as the tempter said, not GoD. My heart, which beat then, sinks. The sun hath sunk Out of sight with our Eden. Adam. ' Night is near. Eve. And God's curse nearest. Let us travel back. And stand within the sword-glare till we die. Believing it is better to meet death Than suffer desolation. Adatn. Nay, beloved ! We must not pluck death from the Maker's hand, As erst we plucked the apple : we must wait Until he gives death, as he gave us life, Nor murmur faintly o'er the primal gift Because we spoilt its sweetness with our sin. Eve. Ah, ah ! dost thou discern what I behold ? Adam. I see all. How the spirits in thine eyes From their dilated orbits bound before To meet the spectral Dread ! Eve. I am afraid — Ah, ah ! the twilight bristles wild with shapes Of intermittent motion, aspect vague, And mystic bearings, which o'ercreep the earth, Keeping slow time with horrors in the blood. How near they reach . . . and far ! How gray they move, Treading upon the darkness without feet. And fluttering on the darkness without wings ! Some run like dogs, with noses to the ground ; Some keep one path, like sheep ; some rock, like trees ; Some glide, like a fallen leaf ; and some flow on, Copious as rivers. Adam.. Some spring up like fire ; And some coil . . . Eve. Ah, ah ! dost thou pause to say Like what } — coil like the serpent, when he fell From all the emerald splendor of his height And writhed, and could not climb aq^ainst the curse,— 3 1 6 A Drama of Exile. Not a ring's length. I am afraid — afraid — I think it is God's will to make me afraid Permitting these to haunt us in the place Of his beloved angels, gone from us Because we are not pure. Dear pity of God, That didst permit the angels to go home. And live no more with us who are not pure, Save us, too, from a loathly company. Almost as loathly in our eyes, perhaps. As ive are in the purest ! Pity us, — Us too I nor shut us in the dark, away From verity and from stability. Or what we name such through the precedence Of earth's adjusted uses ! leave us not To doubt, betwixt our senses and our souls, Which are the more distraught, and full of pain, And weak of apprehension ! Adam. Courage, sweet ! The mystic shapes ebb back from us and drop With slow concentric movement, each on each, Expressing wider spaces, and collapsed In lines more definite for imagery And clearer for relation, till the throng Of shapeless spectra merge into a few Distinguishable phantasms vague and grand, Which sweep out and around us vastily. And hold us in a circle and a calm. Eve. Strange phantasms of pale shadow ! there are twelve. Thou who didst name all lives, hast names for these } Ada?n. Methinks this is the zodiac of the earth, Which rounds us with a visionary dread. Responding with twelve shadowy signs of earth, In fantasque apposition and approach, To those celestial, constellated twelve Which palpitate adown the silent nights Under the pressure of the hand of God Stretched wide in benediction. At this hour Not a star pricketh the flat gloom of heaven ; But, girdling close our nether wilderness, The zodiac-figures of the earth loom slow. Drawn out, as suiteth with the place and time. In twelve colossal shades, instead of stars, Through which the ecliptic line of mystery Strikes bleakly with an unrelenting scope, A Drama of Exile. 3 1 7 Foreshowing life and death. Eve. By dream, or sense, Do we see this ? Adam. Our spirits have climbed high By reason of the passion of our grief, And from the top of sense looked over sense. To the significance and heart of things, Rather than things themselves. Eve. And the dim twelve . . . Adam. Are dim exponents of the creature-life. As earth contains it. Gaze on them, beloved ! By stricter apprehension of the sight. Suggestions of the creatures shall assuage The terror of the shadows ; what is known Subduing the unknown, and taming it From all prodigious dread. That phantasm, there. Presents a lion, albeit twenty times As large as any lion, with a roar . Set soundless in his vibratory jaws, And a strange horror stirring in his mane. And there a pendulous shadow seems to weigh, — Good against ill, perchance ; and there a crab Puts coldly out its gradual shadow-claws. Like a slow blot that spreads, till all the ground Crawled over by it seems to crawl itself. A bull stands horned here, with gibbous glooms ; And a ram likewise ; and a scorpion writhes Its tail in ghastly slime, and stings the dark. This way a goat leaps with wild blank of beard ; And here fantastic fishes duskly float. Using the calm for waters, while their fins Throb out quick rhythms along the shallow air. While images more human — Eve. How he stands. That phantasm of a man — who is not thou ! Two phantasms of two men ! Ada7n. One that sustains. And one that strives, resuming, so, the ends Of manhood's curse of labor.^ Dost thou see 'Adam recognizes in Aquarius the water-bearer, and Sag:ittarius \\\^ archer, distinct types of the man bearing and the man combating,— the passive and active forms of human labor. I hope that the preceding zo- diacal signs— transferred to the earthly shadow and representative purpose —of Aries, Taurus. Cancer, Leo, Libra, Scorpio. Capricornus, and Pisces, are sufficiently obvious to the reader. 3i8 A Drama of Exile. That phantasm of a woman ? Eve. I have seen ; But look off to those small humanities^ Which draw me tenderly across my fear — Lesser and fainter than my womanhood, Or yet thy manhood — with strange innocence" Set in the misty lines of head and hand. They lean together ! I would gaze on them Longer and longer, till my watching eyes, As the stars do in watching any thing. Should light them forward from their outline vague To clear configuration. [ Two spirits, of organic and in- 07-ganic nature, arise from the ground.] But what shapes Rise up between us in the open space, And thrust me into horror, back from hope ! Adam. Colossal shapes — twin sovran images. With a disconsolate, blank majesty Set in their wondrous faces ; with no look, And yet an aspect, — a significance Of individual life and passionate ends. Which overcomes us gazing. O bleak sound ! shadow of sound ! O phantasm of thin sound ! How it comes, wheeling, as the pale moth wheels,- Wheeling and wheeling in continuous wail Around the cyclic zodiac, and gains force. And gathers, settling coldly like a moth, On the wan faces of these images We see before us, whereby modified. It draws a straight line of articulate song From out that spiral faintness of lament. And by one voice expresses many griefs. First spirit. 1 am the spirit of the harmless earth. God spake me softly out among the stars, — As softly as a blessing of much worth ; And then his smile did follow, unawares, 1 Her maternal instinct is excited by Gemini. A Drai7ta of Exile. 3 1 9 That all things fashioned so for use and duty Might shine anointed with his chrism of beauty — Yet I wail ! 1 drave on with the worlds exultingly. Obliquely down the Godlight's gradual fall ; Individual aspect and complexity Of gyratory orb and interval Lost in the fluent motion of delight Toward the high ends of Being beyond sight — Yet I wail f Seco7id Spirit. I am the spirit of the harmless beasts, Of flying things, and creeping things, and swimming; Of all the lives, erst set at silent feasts, That found the love-kiss on the goblet brimming, And tasted in each drop within the measure The sweetest pleasure of their Lord's good pleasure — Yet I wail ! What a full hum of life around his lips Bore witness to the fulness of creation ! How all the grand words were full-laden ships. Each sailing onward from enunciation To separate existence, and each bearing The creature's power of joying, hoping, fearing ! — Yet I wail ! Eve. They wail, beloved ! they speak of glory and God, And they wail — wail. That burden of the song Drops from it like its fruit, and heavily falls Into the lap of silence. Adam. Hark, again ! First spirit. I was so beautiful, so beautiful. My joy stood up within me bold to add A word to God's, and, when his work was full, To " very good," responded " very glad ! " Filtered through roses, did the light enclose me. And bunches of the grape swam blue across me — Yet I wail ! Second Spirit. I bounded with my panthers : I rejoiced In my young tumbling lions rolled together : My stag, the river at his fetlocks, poised, Then dipped his antlers through the golden weather In the same ripple which the alligator 32 o A Drama of Exile. Left, in his joyous troubling of the water — Yet I wail ! First Spirit. O my deep waters, cataract and flood. What wordless triumph did your voices render ! O mountain-summits, where the angels stood. And shook from head and wing thick dews of splendor ! How with a holy quiet did your Earthy Accept that Heavenly, knowing ye were worthy ! — Yet I wail ! Second Spirit. O my wild wood-dogs, with your listening eyes ; My horses ; my ground-eagles, for swift fleeing ; My birds, with viewless wing of harmonies ; My calm cold fishes of a silver being, — How happy were ye, living and possessing, fair half-souls capacious of full blessing ! — Yet I wail ! First Spirit. 1 wail, I wail ! Now hear my charge to-day, Thou man, thou woman, marked as the misdoers By God's sword at your backs ! I lent my clay To make your bodies, which had grown more flowers ; And now, in change for what I lent, ye give me The thorn to vex, the tempest-fire to cleave me — And I wail ! Second Spirit. I wail, I wail ! Behold ye, that I fasten My sorrow's fang upon your souls dishonored ? Accursed transgressors ! down the steep ye hasten, Your crown's weight on the world, to drag it downward Unto your ruin. Lo ! my lions scenting The blood of wars, roar hoarse and unrelenting — And I wail ! First Spirit. 1 wail, I wail ! Do you hear that I wail ? I had no part in your transgression — none. My roses on the bough did bud, not pale ; My rivers did not loiter in the sun ; / was obedient. Wherefore in my centre Do I thrill at this curse of death and winter } — Do I wail } Second Spirit. I wail, I wail ! I wail in the assault A Drama of Exile. 32; Of undeserved perdition, sorely wounded 1 My nightingale sang sweet without a fault ; My gentle leopards innocently bounded. We were obedient. What is this convulses Our blameless life with pangs and fever-pulses? — And I wail ! Eve. I choose God's thunder and his angels' swords To die by, Adam, rather than such words. Let us pass out, and flee. Adam. We cannot flee. This zodiac of the creatures' cruelty Curls round us, like a river cold and drear. And shuts us in, constrainmg us to hear. Eirst Spirit. I feel your steps, O wandering sinners, strike A sense of death to me, and undug graves ! The heart of earth, once calm, is trembling like The ragged foam along the ocean-waves ; The restless earthquakes rock against each other ; The elements moan round me, " Mother, mother " — And I wail ! SecoJid Spirit. Your melancholy looks do pierce me through ; Corruption swathes the paleness of your beauty. Why have ye done this thing ? What did we do That we should fall from bliss, as ye from duty ? Wild shriek the hawks, in waiting for their jesses. Fierce howl the wolves along the wildernesses— And I wail ! Adam. To thee, the Spirit of the harmless earth. To thee, the Spirit of earth's harmless lives. Inferior creatures, but still innocent, Be salutation from a guilty mouth Yet worthy of some audience and respect From you who are not guilty. If we have sinned, God hath rebuked us, who is over us To give rebuke or death, and if ye wail Because of any suffering from our sin,— Ye who are under and not over us, — Be satisfied with God, if not with us. And pass out from our presence in such peace As we have left you, to enjoy revenge Such as the heavens have made you. Verily, There must be strife between us large as sin. 32 2 A Drama of Exile. Eve. No strife, mine Adam ! Let us not stand high Upon the wrong we did to reach disdain, Who rather should be humbler evermore, Since self-made sadder. Adam, shall I speak, I who spake once to such a bitter end, — Shall I speak humbly now, who once was proud ? I, schooled by sin to more humility Than thou hast, O mine Adam, O my king, — My king, if not the world's ? Adam. Speak as thou wilt. Eve. Thus, then, my hand in thine — . . . Sweet, dreadful Spirits I I pray you humbly, in the name of God, Not to say of these tears, which are impure — Grant me such pardoning grace as can go forth From clean volitions toward a spotted will. From the wronged to the wronger, this and no more ! I do not ask more. I am 'ware, indeed, That absolute pardon is impossible From you to me, by reason of my sin ; And that I cannot evermore, as once, With worthy acceptation of pure joy. Behold the trances of the holy hills Beneath the leaning stars, or watch the vales Dew-pallid with their morning ecstasy ; Or hear the winds make pastoral peace between Two grassy uplands ; and the river-wells Work out their bubbling mysteries underground ; And all the birds sing, till for joy of song. They lift their trembling wings as if to heave The too-much weight of music from their heart And float it up the ether. I am 'ware That these things I can no more apprehend With a pure organ into a full delight. The sense of beauty and of melody Being no more aided in me by the sense Of personal adjustment to those heights Of what I see well formed, or hear well tuned. But rather coupled darkly, and made ashamed By my percipiency of sin and fall In melancholy of humiliant thoughts. But, oh ! fair, dreadful Spirits— albeit this. Your accusation must confront my soul, And your pathetic utterance and full gaze A Dra7na of Exile. 323 Must evermore subdue me. — be content ! Conquer me gently, as if pitying me, Not to say loving ; let my tears fall thick As watering dews of Eden, unreproached ; And, when your tongues reprove me, make me smooth. Not ruffled, — smooth and still with your reproof, And, peradventure, better while more sad. For look to it, sweet Spirits, look well to it, It will not be amiss in you, who kept The law of your own righteousness, and keep The right of your own griefs to mourn themselves, To pity me twice fallen,— from that and this. From joy of place, and also right of wail ; " I wail " being not for me, — only " I sin. " The birds sing, till for joy of song, they lift thei R TREMBLING WINGS. Look to it, O sweet Spirits ! For was I not, At that last sunset seen in Paradise, When all the westering clouds flashed out in throngs Of sudden angel-faces, face by face, All hushed and solemn, as a thought of God Held them suspended,— was I not, that hour, The lady of the world, princess of life. Mistress of feast and favor } Could I touch A rose with my white hand, but it became Redder at once ? Could I walk leisurely Along our swarded garden, but the grass Tracked me with greenness } Could I stand aside 324 A Dratna of Exile. A moment underneath a cornel-tree, But all the leaves did tremble as alive With songs of fifty birds who were made glad Because I stood there ? Could I turn to look With these twain eyes of mine, — now weeping fast, Now good for only weeping, — upon man, Angei, or beast, or bird, but each rejoiced Because I looked on him ? Alas, alas ! And is not this much woe, — to cry " Alas I " Speaking of joy ? And is not this more shame, — To have made the woe myself, from all that joy ? To have stretched my hand, and plucked it from the tree, And chosen it for fruit ? Nay, is not this Still most despair,^to have halved that bitter fruit, And ruined so the sweetest friend I have, Turning the Greatest to mine enemy ? Adam. I will not hear thee speak so. Hearken, Spirits Our God, who is the enemy of none. But only of their sin, hath set your hope And my hope in a promise on this head. Show reverence, then, and never bruise her more With unpermitted and extreme reproach. Lest, passionate in anguish, she fling down Beneath your trampling feet God's gift to us Of sovranty by reason and freewill, Sinning against the province of the soul To rule the soulless. Reverence her estate. And pass out from her presence with no words. Eve. O dearest heart, have patience with my heart ! O Spirits, have patience, 'stead of reverence. And let me speak ; for, not being innocent. It little doth become me to be proud. And I am prescient by the very hope And promise set upon me, that henceforth Only my gentleness shall make me great, My humbleness exalt me. Awful Spirits, Be witness that I stand in your reproof But one sun's length off from my happiness — Happy, as I have said, to look around. Clear to look up ! — and now ! I need not speak — Ye see me what I am : ye scorn me so. Because ye see me what I have made myself From God's best making ! Alas, — peace foregone, Love wronged, and virtue forfeit, and tears wept A Drama of Exile. 325 Upon all, vainly ! Alas, me ! alas. Who have undone myself from all that best, Fairest, and sweetest, to this wretchedest, Saddest, and most defiled — cast out, cast down — What word metes absolute loss ? Let absolute loss Suffice you for revenge. For /, who lived Beneath the wings of angels yesterday, Wander to-day beneath the roofless world : /, reigning the earth's empress yesterday, Put off from me to-day your hate with prayers : /, yesterday, who answered the Lord God, Composed and glad as singing-birds the sun. Might shriek now from our dismal desert, " God, " And hear him make reply, " What is thy need, — Thou whom I cursed to-day ? " Adam. Eve ! Eve. I, at last. Who yesterday was helpmate and delight Unto mine Adam, am to-day the grief And curse-meet for him. And so pity us. Ye gentle Spirits, and pardon him and me ; And let some tender peace, made of our pain, Grow up betwixt us, as a tree might grow, With boughs on both sides ! in the shade of which. When presently ye shall behold us dead, For the poor sake of our humility Breathe out your pardon on our breathless lips. And drop your twilight dews against our brows, And stroking with mild airs our harmless hands Left empty of all fruit, perceive your love Distilling through your pity over us. And suffer it, self-reconciled, to pass ! Lucifer rises in the circle. Luc. Who talks here of a complement of grief } Of expiation wrought by loss and fall } Of hate subduable to pity ? Eve } Take counsel from thy counsellor the snake. And boast no more in grief, nor hope from pain. My docile Eve ! I teach you to despond, Who taught you disobedience. Look around ! Earth-spirits and phantasms hear you talk unmoved. As if ye were red clay again, and talked. What are your words to them ? your grief to them } 326 A Dra7?ia of Exile. Your deaths, indeed, to them ? Did the hand pause For their sake, in the plucking of the fruit, That they should pause iox yoii in hating you ? Or will your grief or death, as did your sin, Bring change upon their final doom ? Behold, Your grief is but your sin in the rebound, And cannot expiate for it. Adam.. That is true. Luc. Ay ; that is true. The clay king testifies To the snake's counsel, — hear him ! — very true. Earth-spirits. I wail, I wail ! Ltic. And certes, that is true. Ye wail, ye all wail. Peradventure I Could wail among you. O thou universe. That boldest sin and woe, — more room for wail ! Distant Starry Voice. Ah, ah, Heosphoros ! Heos- phoros ! Adam. Mark Lucifer ! He changes awfully. Eve. It seems as if he looked from grief to God, And could not see him. Wretched Lucifer ! Adam. How he stands — yet an angel ! Earth-spirits. We all wail ! Luc. (after a pause). Dost thou remember, Adam, when the curse Took us in Eden ? On a mountain-peak Half-sheathed in primal woods, and glittering In spasms of awful sunshine at that hour, A lion couched, part raised upon his paws. With his calm, massive face turned full on thine, And his mane listening. When the ended curse Left silence in the world, right suddenly He sprang up rampant, and stood straight and stiff. As if the new reality of death Were dashed against his eyes, and roared so fierce, (Such thick carniv^orous passion in his throat Tearing a passage through the wrath and fear) And roared so wild, and smote from all the hills Such fast keen echoes crumbling down the vales Precipitately, — that the forest beasts, One after one, did mutter a response Of savage and of sorrowful complaint Which trailed along the gorges. Then, at once. He fell back, and rolled crashing from the height Into the dusk of pines. A Driwia of Exile. 327 Adam. It might have been. I heard the curse alone. Earth-spirits. I wail, I wail ! Luc. That lion is the type of what I am. And as he fixed thee with his full-faced hate, And roared O Adam, comprehending doom, So, gazing on the face of the Unseen, I cry out here between the heavens and earth My conscience of this sin, this woe, this wrath. Which damn me to this depth. Earth-spirits. I wail, I wail ! Eve. I wail — O God ! Euc. I scorn you that ye wail. Who use your petty griefs for pedestals To stand on, beckoning pity from without. And deal in pathos of antithesis Of what ye were forsooth, and what ye are I — I scorn you like an angel ! Yet one cry I, too, would drive up like a column erect. Marble to marble, from my heart to heaven, A monument of anguish to transpierce And overtop your vapory complaints Expressed from feeble woes. Earth-spirits. I wail, I wail ! Luc. For, O ye heavens, ye are my witnesses. That I, struck out from nature in a blot. The outcast and the mildew of things good. The leper of angels, the excepted dust Under the common rain of daily gifts, — I the snake, I the tempter, I the cursed, — To whom the highest and the lowest alike Say, Go from us : we have no need of thee, — Was made by God like others. Good and fair He did create me ! ask him if not fair ; Ask if I caught not fair and silverly His blessing for chief angels on my head Until it grew there, a crown crystalized ; Ask if he never called me by my name, Lucifer, kindly said as " Gabriel " — Lucifer, soft as " Michael ! " while serene I, standing in the glory of the lamps. Answered, " My Father," innocent of shame And of the sense of thunder. Ha ! ye think, White angels in your niches, I repent. 328 A Drama of Exile. And would tread down my own offences back To service at the footstool ? That's read wrong ! I cry as the beast did, that I may cry Expansive, not appealing ! Fallen so deep, Against the sides of this prodigious pit I cry, cry, dashing out the hands of wail On each side, to meet anguish everywhere, And to attest it in the ecstasy And exaltation of a woe sustained, Because provoked and chosen. Pass along Your wilderness, vain mortals ! Puny griefs In transitory shapes, be henceforth dwarfed To your own conscience by the dread extremes Of what I am and have been. If ye have fallen. It is but a step's fall, the whole ground beneath. Strewn woolly soft with promise : if ye have sinned, Your prayers tread high as angels ; if ye have grieved, Ye are too mortal to be pitiable : The power to die disproves the right to grieve. Go to ! Ye call this ruin } I half scorn The ill I did you ! Were ye wronged by me, Hated and tempted and undone of me, Still, what's your hurt to mine of doing hurt. Of hating, tempting, and so ruining } This sword's ///// is the sharpest, and cuts through The hand that wields it. Go ! I curse you all. Hate one another, — feebly, — as ye can ! I would not certes cut you short in hate : Far be it from me ! Hate on as ye can ! I breathe into your faces. Spirits of earth. As wintry blast may breathe on wintry leaves. And, lifting up their brownness, show beneath The branches bare. Beseech you, Spirits, give To Eve, who beggarly entreats your love For her and Adam when they shall be dead. An answer rather fitting to the sin Than to the sorrow, as the heavens, I trow, For justice' sake gave theirs. I curse you both, Adam and Eve. Say grace, as after meat, After my curses. May your tears fall hot On all the hissing scorns o' the creatures here — A Drama of Exile. 329 And yet rejoice ! Increase and multiply, Ye in your generations, in all plagues, Corruptions, melancholies, poverties, And hideous forms of life and fears of death, The thought of death being alway eminent, Immovable, and dreadful in your life, And deafly and dumbly insignificant Of any hope beyond, as death itself. Whichever of you lieth dead the first. Shall seem to the survivor, yet rejoice ! My curse catch at you strongly, body and soul, And He find no redemption, nor the wing Of seraph move your way — and yet rejoice !^ — Rejoice, because ye have not set in you This hate which shall pursue you, — this fire-hate Which glares without, because it burns within ; Which kills from ashes, — this potential hate, Wherein I, angel, in antagonism To God and his reflex beatitudes, Moan ever in the central universe With the great woe of striving against Love, And gasp for space amid the Infinite, And toss for rest amid the Desertness, Self-orphaned by my w'ill, and self-elect To kingship of resistant agony Toward the Good round me, hating good and love, And willing to hate good and to hate love. And willing to will on so evermore. Scorning the Past, and damning the To come — Go and rejoice ! — I curse you. [Lucifer vanishes. Ear'th-spirits. And we scorn you ! There's no pardon Which can lean to you aright. When your bodies take the guerdon Of the death-curse in our sight. Then the bee that hummelh lowest shall transcend you ; Then ye shall not move an eyelid, Though the stars look down your eyes ; And the earth which ye defiled Shall expose you to the skies, — " Lo ! these kings of ours, who sought to comprehend you.' 330 A Drama of Exile. First spirit. And the elements shall boldly All your dust to dust constrain. Unresistedly and coldly I will smite you with my rain. From the slowest of my frosts is no receding. Second Spirit. And my little worm, appointed To assume a royal part, He shall reign, crowned and anointed, O'er the noble human heart. Giv^e him counsel against losing of that Eden ! Adam. Do ye scorn us } Back your scorn Toward your faces gray and lorn, As the wind drives back the rain, Thus I drive with passion-strife, — I, who stand beneath God's sun. Made like God, and, though undone, Not unmade for love and life. Lo ! ye utter threats in vain. By my free will that chose sin, By mine agony within Round the passage of the fire, By the pinings which disclose That my native soul is higher Than what it chose, We are yet too high, O Spirits, for your disdain. Eve. Nay, beloved ! If these be low. We confront them from no height. We have stooped down to their level By infecting them with evil. And their scorn that meets our blow Scathes aright. — Amen. Let it be so. Earth -spirits . We shall triumph, triumph greatly, When ye lie beneath the sward. There our lily shall grow stately. Though ye answer not a word, And her fragrance shall be scornful of your silence : While your throne ascending calmly, We, in heirdom of your soul, Flash the river, lift the palm-tree. The dilated ocean roll, By the thoughts that throbbed within you, round the islands. A Drama of Exile. ZZ^ Alp and torrent shall inherit Your significance of will, And the grandeur of your spirit Shall our broad savannahs fill ; In our winds your exultations shall be springing. Even your parlance, which in- veigles, By our rudeness shall be won. Hearts poetic in our eagles Shall beat up against the sun. And strike downward in articu- late clear singing. the Your bold speeches our W moth With his thunderous jj shall wield. Your high fancies shall c Mammoth Breathe sublimely up shield Of St. Michael at God's thront- who waits to speed him, Till the heavens' smooth- grooved thunder, Spinning back, shall leave them clear. And the angels, smiling wonder With dropt looks from sphere to sphere, Shall cry, "Ho, ye heirs of Adam! ye exceed him." Adam. Root out thine eyes, sweet, from the dreary ground ! Beloved, we may be overcome by God, But not by these. Eve. By God, perhaps, in these SHALL IN Voi-R SIGN OF WILL. (JKKLN 1 HEKIT IFICANCI 332 A Drama of Exile. Adam. I think not so. Had God foredoomed despair, He had not spoken hope. He may destroy Certes, but not deceive. Eve. Behold this rose ! I plucked it in our bower of Paradise This morning, as 1 went forth, and my heart Has beat against its petals all the day. I thought it would be always red and full. As when I plucked it. Is it } Ye may see. I cast it down to you that ye may see. All of you ! Count the petals lost of it. And note the colors fainted ! Ye may see ! And I am as it is, who yesterday Grew in the same place. Oh ye Spirits of earth, I almost, from my miserable heart, Could here upbraid you for your cruel heart, Which will not let me, down the slope of death. Draw any of your pity after me. Or lie still in the quiet of your looks. As my flow^er, there, in mine. \A bleak tuind, quicken id ivitk indistinct hnnian voices, spins around the earth zodiac, filling the circle zvith its presence and then, availing off into the east, carries the rose azvay with it. 'Ev'E falls tip 071 her face, Adam stands erect. Adam. So verily. The last departs. Eve. So memory follows hope. And life both. Love said to me, " Do not die," And I replied, " O Love, I will not die. I exiled and I will not orphan Love." But now it is no choice of mine to die*: My heart throbs from me. Adaui. Call it straightway back ! Death's consummation crowns completed life, Or comes too early. Hope being set on thee For others, if for others, then for thee, — For thee and me. \^The XV I lid revolves from the east, and round again to the east. A Drama of Exile. 333 perfinned by the Eden-rose, and full of voices whicJi sweep out into articulation as tliey pass Let thy soul shake its leaves To feel the mystic wind — hark ! Eve. I hear life. Infa7it Voices passing in the wind. Oh, we live ! oh, we live ! And this life that we receive Is a warm thing- and a new, Which we softly bud into From the heart and from the brain, Something strange that overmuch is Of the sound and of the sight. Flowing round in trickling touches, With a sorrow and delight ; Yet is it all in vain ? Rock us softly, Lest it be all in vain. Youthful Voices passing. Oh, we live ! oh, we live ! And this life that we achieve Is a loud thing and a bold. Which, with pulses manifold, Strikes the heart out full and fain, — Active doer, noble liver. Strong to struggle, sure to conquer, Though the vessel's prow will quiver At the lifting of the anchor ; Yet do we strive in vain ? Infant Voices passing. Rock us softly. Lest it be all in vain. Poet Voices passing. Oh, we live ! oh, we live ! And this life that we conceive Is a clear thing and a fair. Which we set in crystal air That its beauty may be plain, With a breathing and a flooding Of the heaven-life on the whole. While we hear the forests budding 334 ^ Draitia of Exile, To the music of the soul ; Yet is it tuned in vain ? Infant Voices passing. Rock us softly, Lest it be all in vain. Philosophic Voices passing. Oh, we live ! oh, we live ! And this life that we perceive Is a great thing and a grave, Which for others' use we have. Duty-laden to remain. We are helpers, fellow-creatures. Of the right against the wrong, We are earnest-hearted teachers Of the truth which maketh strong: Yet do we teach in vain .'' Infant Voices passing. Rock us softly, Lest it be all in vain. Revel Voices passing. Oh, we live ! oh, we live I And this life that we reprieve Is a low thing and a light. Which is jested out of sight, And made worthy of disdain. Strike with bold electric laughter The high tops of things divine : Turn thy head, my brother, after, Lest thy tears fall in my wine ; For is all laughed in vain } Infant Voices passing. Rock us softly. Lest it be all in vain. Eve. I hear a sound of life, — of life like ours, Of laughter and of wailing, of grave speech. Of little plaintive voices innocent. Of life in separate courses, flowing out Like our four rivers to some outward main. I hear life — life ! Adam. And so thy cheeks have snatched Scarlet to paleness, and thine eyes drink fast Of glory from full cups, and thy moist lips Seem trembling, both of them, with earnest doubts Whether to utter words, or only smile. A Drama of Exile. t^ZS Eve. Shall I be mother of the coming life ? Hear the steep generations, how they fall Adown the visionary stairs of Time Like supernatural thunders, far, yet near, Sowing their fiery echoes through the hills ! Am I a cloud to these, — mother to these ? Earth-spirits. And bringer of the curse upon all these. [Eve sinks down again. Poet Voices passing. Oh, we live ! oh, we h've ! And this life that we conceive Is a noble thing and high, Which we climb up loftily To view God without a stain. Till, recoiling where the shade is, We retread our steps again. And descend the gloomy Hades To resume man's mortal pain. Shall it be climbed in vain ? Infant Voices passing. Rock us softly. Lest it be all in vain. Lot'e Voices passijig. Oh, we live ! oh, we live ! And this life we would retrieve Is a faithful thing apart Which we love in, heart to heart, • Until one heart fitteth twain. " Wilt thou be one with me } " " I will be one with thee." •' Ha, ha ! we love and live ! " Alas ! ye love and die. Shriek — who shall reply ? For is it not loved in vain ? Infant Voices passing. Rock us softly, Though it be all in vain. Aged Voices passing. Oh, we live ! oh, we live ! And this life we would survive Is a gloomy thing and brief. Which, consummated in grief, Leaveth ashes for all gain. Is it not all in vain .'' 336 A Drama of Exile. Infattt Voices passing. Rock us softly, Though it be all in vain. [ Voices die away. Earth-spirits. And bringer of the curse upon ail these. Eve. The voices of foreshown humanity- Die off : so let me die. Adam. So let us die, When God's will soundeth the right hour of death. Earth-spirits. And bringer of the curse upon all these. Eve. O Spirits ! by the gentleness ye use In winds at night, and floating clouds at noon, In gliding waters under lil^^-leaves, In chirp of crickets, and the settling hush A bird makes in her nest with feet and wings, — Fulfil your natures now ! Earth-spirits. Agreed, allowed ! We gather out our natures like a cloud. And thus fulfil their lightnings ! Thus, and thus ! Harken, oh, harken to us ! First Spirit. As the storm-wind blows bleakly from the norland, As the snow-wind beats blindly on the moorland, As the simoom drives hot across the desert. As the thunder roars deep in the Unmeasured, As the torrent tears the ocean-world to atoms. As the whirlpool grinds it fathoms below fathoms, Thus — and thus ! Second Spirit. As the yellow toad, that spits its poison chilly, As the tiger in the jungle crouching stilly, As the wild boar, with ragged tusks of anger. As the wolf-dog, with teeth of glittering clangor, As the vultures, that scream against the thunder, As the owlets, that sit, and moan asunder ; Thus — and thus ! Eve. Adam ! God ! Adam. Cruel, unrelenting Spirits ! By the power in me of the sovran soul, Whose thoughts keep pace yet with the angel's march, I charge you into silence, trample you Down to obedience. I am king of you I A Drama of Exile. 337 Earth-spirits. Ha, ha ! thou art king ! With a sin for a crown, And a soul undone ! Thou, the antagonized, Tortured, and agonized, Held in the ring Of the zodiac ! Now, king, beware ! We are many and strong, Whom thou standest among ; And we press on the air, And w^e stifle thee back, And we multiply where Thou wouldst trample us down From rights of our own To an utter wrong. And from under the feet of thy scorn, O forlorn. We shall spring up like corn. And our stubble be strong. Adam. God, there is power in thee ! I make appeal Unto thy kingship. Eve. There is pity in Thee, O sinned against, great God ! My seed, my seed. There is hope set on Thee, — I cry to thee. Thou mystic Seed that shalt be ! — leave us not In agony beyond what we can bear. Fallen in debasement below thunder-mark, A mark for scorning, taunted and perplext By all these creatures we ruled yesterday. Whom thou. Lord, rulest alway ! O my Seed, Through the tempestuous years that rain so thick Betwixt my ghostly vision and thy face. Let me have token ! for my soul is bruised Before the serpent's head is. \A vision of Christ appears in the midst of the zodiac, tvtiich pales before the heavenly light. The Earth-spirits grozv grayer and fainter. Christ. I am here! Adam. This is God ! Curse us not, God. any more ! ;^^S A Df'ama of Exile. Eve. But gazing so, so, with omnific eyes, Lift my soul upward till it touch thyjeet I Or lift it only — not to seem too proud — To the low height of some good angel's feet, For such to tread on when he walketh straight, And thy lips praise him ! Christ. Spirits of the earth, I meet you with rebuke for the reproach And cruel and unmitigated blame Ye cast upon your masters. True, they have sinned And true their sin is reckoned into loss For you the sinless. Yet your innocence. Which of you praises ? since God made your acts Inherent in your lives, and bound your hands With instincts and imperious sanctities From self-defacement. Which of you disdains These sinners, who in falling proved their height Above you by their liberty to fall } And which of you complains of loss by them. For whose delight and use ye have your life And honor in creation } Ponder it ! This regent and sublime Humanity, Though fallen, exceeds you ! this shall film your sun. Shall hunt your lightning to its lair of cloud. Turn back your rivers, footpath all your seas. Lay flat your forests, master with a look Your lion at his fasting, and fetch down Your eagle fiying. Nay, without this law Of mandom, ye would perish, — beast by beast Devouring, — tree by tree, with strangling roots And trunks set tuskwise. Ye would gaze on God With imperceptive blankness up the stars. And mutter, " Why, God, hast thou made us thus ? " And, pining to a sallow idiocy, Stagger up blindly against the ends of life, Then stagnate into rottenness, and drop Heavily — poor, dead matter — piecemeal down The abysmal spaces, like a little stone Let fall to chaos. Therefore over you Receive man's sceptre ! therefore be content To minister with voluntary grace And melancholy pardon every rite And function in you to the human hand ! Be ye to man as angels are to God, — A Drama of Exile. 339 Servants in pleasure, singers of delight, Suggesters to his soul of higher things Than any of your highest ! So at last, He shall look round on you with lids too straight To hold the grateful tears, and thank you well, And bless you when he prays his secret prayers, And praise you, when he sings his open songs, For the clear song-note he has learnt in you Of purifying sweetness, and extend Across your head his golden fantasies Which glorify you into soul from sense. Go, serve him for such price ! That not in vain, Nor yet ignobly, ye shall serve, I place My word here for an oath, mine oath for act To be hereafter. In the name of which Perfect redemption and perpetual grace I bless you through the hope and through the peace Which are mine, — to the love which is myself. Eve. Speak on still, Christ ! Albeit thou bless me not In set words, I am blessed in barkening thee — Speak, Christ! Christ. Speak, Adam ! Bless the woman, man. It is thine office. Adam. Mother of the world. Take heart before this Presence I Lo, my voice, Which, naming erst the creatures, did express ( God breathing through my breath ) the attributes And instincts of each creature in its name. Floats to the same afflatus, — floats and heaves. Like a water-weed that opens to a wave, A full-leaved prophecy affecting thee, Out fairly and wide. Hencefoward arise, aspire To all the calms and magnanimities. The lofty uses and the noble ends, The sanctified devotion and full work. To which thou art elect forevermore, First woman, wife, and mother ! Eve. And .first in sin. Adai7t. And also the sole bearer of the Seed Whereby sin dieth. Raise the majesties Of thy disconsolate brows, O well-beloved, And front with level eyelids the To come. And all the dark o' the world ! Rise, woman, rise To thy peculiar and best altitudes 340 A Dra??ia of Exile. Of doing good and of enduring ill, Of comforting for ill, and teaching good, And reconciling all that ill and good Unto the patience of a constant hope, — Rise with thy daughters ! If sin came by thee, And by sin, death, the ransom-righteousness The heavenly life and compensative rest, Shall come by means of thee. If woe by thee Had issue to the world, thou shalt go forth An angel of the woe thou didst achieve, Found acceptable to the world instead Of others of that name, of whose bright steps Thy deed stripped bare the hills. Be satisfied : Something thou hast to bear through womanhood, Peculiar suffering answering to the sin, — Some pang paid down for each new human life. Some weariness in guarding such a life. Some coldness from the guarded, some mistrust From those thou hast too well served, from those beloved Too loyally some treason ; feebleness Within thy heart and, cruelty without. And pressures of an alien tyranny With its dynastic reasons of larger bones And stronger sinews. But go to ! thy love Shall chant itself its own beatitudes After its own life-working. A child's kiss Set on thy sighing lips shall make thee glad ; A poor man served by thee shall make thee rich ; A sick man helped by thee shall make thee strong : Thou shalt be served thyself by every sense Of service which thou renderest. Such a crown I set upon thy head, — Christ witnessing With looks of prompting love, — to keep thee clear Of all reproach against the sin forgone, From all the generations which succeed. Thy hand which plucked the apple I clasp close ; Thy lips which spake wrong counsel I kiss close ; I bless thee in the name of Paradise And by the memory of Edenic joys Forfeit and lost, — by that last cypress-tree. Green at the gate, which thrilled as we came out ; And by the blessed nightingale which threw Its melancholy music after us ; And by the flowers, whose spirits flill of smells A Dratna of Exile. 341 Did follow softly, plucking us behind Back to the gradual banks, and vernal bowers, And fourfold river-courses. By all these I bless thee to the contraries of these ; I bless thee to the desert and the thorns, To the elemental change and turbulence, And to the roar of the estranged beasts, And to the solemn dignities of grief, To each one of these ends, and to their END Of death and the hereafter. Eve. I accept For me and for my daughters this high part, Which lowly shall be counted. Noble work Shall hold me in the place of garden rest. And, in the place of Eden's lost delight, Worthy endurance of permitted pain ; While on my longest patience there shall wait Death's speechless angel, smiling in the east Whence cometh the cold wind. I bow myself Humbly henceforward on the ill I did, That humbleness may keep it in the shade. Shall it be so ? Shall I smile, saying so ? Seed ! O King! O God, who shall be seed,— What shall I say? As Eden's fountains swelled Brightly betwixt their banks, so swells my soul Betwixt thy love and power. And, sweetest thoughts Of foregone Eden, now, for the first time Since God said " Adam," walking through the trees, 1 dare to pluck you, as I plucked erewhile The lily or pink, the rose or heliotrope. So pluck I you— so largely— with both hands, And throw you forward on the outer earth Wherein we are cast out, to sweeten it. Adam. As thou, Christ, to illume it, boldest Heaven Broadly over our heads. [ The Christ is gradually trans- figured, during the follotving phrases of dialogue, into hii- jnanity and suffering. Eve, O Saviour Christ, Thou standest mute in glory, like the sun ! 342 A Drama of Exile. Adam. We worship in thy silence, Saviour Christ. Eve. Thy brows grow grander with a forecast woe ; Diviner, with the possible of death. We worship in thy sorrow, Saviour Christ. Adam. How do thy clear still eyes transpierce our souls. As gazing through them, toward the Father-throne In a pathetical, full Deity, Serenely as the stars gaze through the air Straight on each other ! Eve. O pathetic Christ, Thou standest mute in glory, like the moon ! Christ. Eternity stands alway fronting God ; A stern colossal image, with blind eyes. And grand dim lips that murmur evermore, God, God, God ! while the rush of life and death, The roar of act and thought, of evil and good, The avalanches of the ruining worlds Tolling down space, — the new worlds' genesis Budding in fire, — the gradual humming growth Of the ancient atoms and first forms of earth, The slow procession of the swathing seas And firmamental waters, and the noise Of the broad, fluent strata of pure airs, — All these flow omvard in the intervals Of that reiterated sound of — God ! Which WORD innumerous angels straightway lift Wide on celestial altitudes of song And choral adoration, and then drop The burden softly, shutting the last notes In silver wings. Howbeit, in the noon of time Eternity shall wax as dumb as death, While a new voice beneath the spheres shall cry, " God I Why hast thou forsaken me, my God } " And not a voice in heaven shall answer it. [ T/ie transfiguj'ation is compleh in sadness. Adam. Thy speech is of the heavenlies, yet, O Christ, Awfully human are thy voice and face ! Eve. My nature overcomes me from thine eyes. Christ. In the set noon of time shall one from heaven. An angel fresh from looking upon God, Descend before a woman, blessing her. A Drama of Exile. 343 With perfect benediction of pure love, For all the world in all its elements, Yox all the creatures of earth, air, and sea, For all men in the body and in the soul. Unto all ends of glory and sanctity. Eve. O pale pathetic Christ. I worship thee ! I thank thee for that woman ! Christ. Then at last, I, wrapping round me your humanity. Which, being sustained', shall neither break nor burn Beneath the fire of Godhead, will tread earth. And ransom you and it, and set strong peace Betwixt you and its creatures. With my pangs I will confront your sins ; and, since those sins Have sunken to all Nature's heart from yours, The tears of my clean soul shall follow them. And set a holy passion to work clear Absolute consecration. In my brow Of kingly whiteness shall be crowned anew Your discrowned human nature. Look on me ! As I shall be uplifted on a cross In darkness of eclipse and anguish dread, So shall I lift up in my pierced hands,— Not into dark, but light ; not unto death, But life,— beyond the reach of guilt and grief, The whole creation. Henceforth in my name Take courage, O thou woman, — man, take hope ! Your grave shall be as smooth as Eden's sward Beneath the steps of your prospective thoughts, And, one step past it, a new Eden-gate Shall open on a hinge of harmony, And let you through to mercy. Ye shall fall No more within that Eden, nor pass out Any more from it. In which hope, move on, First sinners and first mourners. Live and love. Doing both nobly, because lowlily ; Live and work, strongly, because patiently ! And, for the deed of death, trust it to God That it be well done, unrepented of. And not to loss. And thence with constant prayers Fasten your souls so high, that constantly The smile of your heroic cheer may float Above all floods of earthly agonies. Purification being the joy of pain ! 344 ^ Drama of Exile. [The vision ^Christ vanishes. Adam and Eve stand in an ec- stasy. The earth-zodiac pales away shade by shade, as the stars, star by star, shine out in the sky ; and the following chant from ///^/z^i? Eai tli-spirits {as they sweep back into the zodiac, and disappear with it ) accompanies the process oj change. Ea rth -spirits. By the mighty word thus spoken Both for Uving and for dying, We our homage oath, once broken, Fasten back again in sighing. And the creatures and the elements renew their covenanting. Here forgive us all our scorning; Here we promise milder duty ; And the evening and the morning Shall re-organize in beauty A sabbath day of sabbath joy, for universal chanting. And if, still, this melancholy May be strong to overcome us ; If this mortal and unholy We still fail to cast out from us ; If we turn upon you unaware your own dark influences ; If ye tremble when surrounded By our forest pine and palm trees ; If we cannot cure the wounded With our gum-trees and our balm-trees ; And if your souls all mournfully sit down among your senses, — Yet, O mortals do not fear us ! We are gentle in our languor ; Much more good ye shall have near us Than any pain or anger, A Drama of Exile 345 And our God's refracted blessing in our blessing shall be given. By the desert's endless vigil We will solemnize your passions; By the wheel of the black eagle We will teach you exaltations, When he sails against the wind, to the white spot up in heaven. Ye shall find us tender nurses To your weariness of nature, And our hands shall stroke the curse's Dreary furrows from the creature, Till your bodies shall lie smooth in death, and straight and slumberful. Then a couch we will provide vor. Then a couch we will provide you Where no summer heats shall dazzle. Strewing on you and beside you Thyme and rosemary and basil. And the yew-tree shall grow overhead to keep all safe and cool. Till the Holy Blood awaited Shall be chrism around us running, Whereby, newly consecrated, 346 A Drama of Exile. We shall leap up in God's sunning, To join the spheric company which purer worlds assemble ; While, renewed by new evangels, Soul-consummated, made glorious, Ye shall brighten past the angels. Ye shall kneel to Christ victorious. And the rays around his feet beneath your sob- bing lips shall tremble. YThe phaniastic vision has all passed ; the earth-zodiac has broJzen like a belt, and is dis- solved f)'07n the desert. The Earth-spirits vanish and the stars shine out above. CHORUS OF INVISIBLE ANGELS, While Adam and Eve advance into the desert, hand in hand. Hear our heavenly promise Through your mortal passion I Love ye shall have from us, In a pure relation. As a fish or bird Swims or fhes, if moving, We unseen are heard To live on by loving. Far above the glances Of your eager eyes, Listen ! we are loving. Listen, through man's ignorances, " Listen, through God's mysteries, Listen, down the heart of things, — Ye shall hear our mystic wings Murmurous with loving. Through the opal door Listen evermore How we live by loving ! Fi'?'si semichortis. When your bodies therefore Reach the grave, their goal. A Drama of Exile. 347 Softly will we care for Each enfranchised soul. Softly and unloathiy, Through the door of opal, Toward the heavenly people, Floated on a minor fine Into the full chant divine, We will draw you smoothly, While the human in the minor Makes the harmony diviner. Listen to our loving ! Second semichorics. There, a sough of glory Shall breathe on you as you come, Ruffling round the doorway All the light of angeldom. From the empyrean centre Heavenly voices shall repeat, " Souls, redeemed and pardoned, enter, For the chrism on you is sweet." And every angel in the place, Lovvlily shall bow his face, P'olded fair on softened sounds. Because upon your hands and feet He images his Master's wounds. Listen to our loving ! First semicJiorus. So, in the universe's Consummated undoing, Our seraphs of white mercies Shall hover round the ruin. Their wings shall stream upon the flame As if incorporate of the same In elemental fusion ; And calm their faces shall burn out With a pale and mastering thought. And a steadfast looking of desire From out between the clefts of fire, While they cry, in the Holy's name, To the final Restitution. Listen to our loving ! 348 A TJrama of Exile. Second scin I'th o> i/s. So, when the day of God is To the thick graves accompted, Awaking the dead bodies, The angel of the trumpet Shall split and shatter the earth To the roots of the grave Which never before were slackened, And quicken the charnel birth With his blast so clear and brave That the dead shall start, and stand erect, And every face of the burial-place Shall the awful single look reflect Wherewith he them awakened. Listen to our loving I First semichorus. But wild is the horse of Death. He will leap up wild at the clamor Above and beneath. And where is his Tamer On that last day. When he crieth, Ha, ha ! To the trumpet's blare. And pavveth the earth's Aceldama ? When he tosseth his head. The drear-white steed. And ghastlily champeth the last moon-ray. What angel there Can lead him away, That the living may rule for the dead } Second semichorus. Yet a Tamer shall be found ! One more bright than seraph crowned, And more strong than cherub bold, Elder, too, than angel old. By his gray eternities. He shall master and surprise The steed of Death. For he is strong, and he is fain : He shall quell him with a breath, And shall lead him where he will, A Drama of Exile. 349 With a whisper in the ear, P^ull of fear, And a hand upon the mane, Grand and still. First sonichorus. Through the flats of Hades, where the souls assemble. He will guide the Death-steed calm between their ranks, While, like beaten dogs, they a little moan and tremble To see the darkness curdle from the horse's glittering flanks. Through the flats of Hades, where the dreary shade is, Up the steep of heaven, will the Tamer guide the steed, — Up the spheric circles, circle above circle, We who count the ages shall count the tolling tread ; Every hoof-fall striking a blinder, blanker sparkle From the stony orbs, which shall show as they were dead. Second semichortis. All the way the Death-steed with tolling hoofs shall travel ; Ashen gray the planets shall be motionless as stones ; Loosely shall the systems eject their parts coeval ; Stagnant in the spaces shall float the pallid moons ; Suns that touch their apogees, reeling from their level, Shall run back on their axles in wild, low, broken tunes. Chorus. Up against the arches of the crystal ceiling. From the horse's nostrils, shall steam the blurting breath ; Up between the angels pale with silent feeling. Will the Tamer calmly lead the horse of Death. Semichortis. . Cleaving all that silence, cleaving all that glory, Will the Tamer lead him straightway to the Throne ; " Look out, O Jehovah, to this I bring before thee. With a hand nail-pierced, — I who am thy Son." Then the Eye Divinest, from the Deepest, flaming, On the mystic courser shall look out in fire : Blind the beast shall stagger where it overcame him, Meek as lamb at pasture, bloodless in desire. Down the beast shall shiver, slain amid the taming, And by life essential the phantasm Death expire. Chorus. Listen, man, through life and death. Through the dust and through the breath, Listen down the heart of things ! 350 A DMma of Exile. Ye shall hear our mystic wings Murmurous with loving. A Voice from below. Gabriel, thou Gabriel 1 A Voice from above. What wouldst thou with me ? First Voice. I heard thy voice sound in the angels' song, And I would give thee question. Second Voice. Question me ! First Voice. Why have I called thrice to my morning star, And had no answer.^ All the stars are out, And answer in their places. Only in vain I cast my voice against the outer rays Of my star shut in light behind the sun. No more reply than from a breaking string. Breaking when touched. Or is she not my star } Where is my star, my star ? Have ye cast down Her glory like my glory ? Has she waxed Mortal, like Adam } Has she learnt to hate Like any angel ?. Second Voice. She is sad for thee. All things grow sadder to thee, one by one. Angel Chorus. Live, work on, O Earthy ! By the Actual's tension Speed the arrow worthy Of a pure ascension ; From the low earth round you Reach the heights above you ; From the stripes that wound you Seek the loves that love you. God's divinest burneth plain Through the crystal diaphane Of our loves that love you. First Voice. Gabriel, O Gabriel ! Second Voice. What wouldst thou with me ? First Voice. Is it true, O thou Gabriel, that the crown Of sorrow which I claimed, another claims } That He claims that too.^ Second Voice. Lost one, it is true. First Voice. That He will be an exile from his heaven To lead those exiles homeward } Second Voice. It is true. First Voice. That He will be an exile by his will, * As I by mine election ? Second Voice. It is true. A Drama of Exile. 351 Ft'rst Voice. That / shall stand sole exile finally,— Made desolate for fruition ? Second Voice. It is true. First Voice. Gabriel ! Seco7id Voice. I hearken. First Voice. Is it true besides, Aright true, that mine orient star will give Her name of " Bright and Morning Star " to Him, And take the fairness of his virtue back To cover loss and sadness ? Secotid Voice, It is true. First Voice. llNtrue, UNtrue ! O Morning Star, O Mine, Who sittest secret in a veil of light Far up the starry spaces, say — Untrue! Speak but so loud as doth a wasted moon To Tyrrhene waters. I am Lucifer. \^A pause. Silence hi the stars. All things grow sadder to me, one by one. Angel Chorus. Exiled human creatures, Let your hope grow larger, Larger grows the vision Of the new delight. From this chain of Nature's God is the Discharger, And the Actual's prison Opens to your sight. . Semichorus. Calm the stars and golden In a light exceeding : What their rays have measured Let your feet fulfil ! These are stars beholden By your eyes in Eden ; Yet across the desert, See them shining still ! Chorus. Future joy and far light, Working such relations, Hear us singing gently, Exiled is not lost I God, above the starlight, God. above the patience. 352 A Drama of Exile. Shall at last present ye Guerdons worth the cost. Patiently enduring, Painfully surrounded, Listen how we love you, Hope the uttermost ! Waiting for that curing Which exalts the wounded, Hear us sing above you — Exiled, but not lost ! [ The stars shine on brightly while Adam and Eve pursue their taay into the far 7vilder?iess. There is a sound through the siletice, as of the failing tears of an a nee I. THE SERAPHIM. I look for Angels' songs, and hear Him cry." Giles Fletcher. PART THE FIRST. \It is the time of the crucifixion; and the angels of heaven have. departed to7vards the 'earth, except the two seraphim, Ador the Strong, and Zerah the Bright One. The place is the outer side of the shut heavenly gate ^i Ador. O SERAPH, pause no more ! Beside this gate of heaven we stand alone. Zerah. Of heaven I Ador. Our brother-hosts are gone — Zerah. Are gone before. Ador. And the golden harps the angels bore, To help the songs of their desire, ^ Still burning from their hands of fire, Lie, without touch or tone. Upon the glass-sea shore. Zerah. Silent upon the glass-sea shore ! Ador. There the Shadow from the throne, Formless with infinity, Hovers o'er the crystal sea AwfuUer than light derived. And red with those primeval heats Whereby all life has lived. Zerah. Our visible God, our heavenly seats! Ador. Beneath us sinks the pomp angelical. Cherub and seraph, powers and virtues, all. 354 '-^'^^^^ Seraphim. The roar of whose descent has died To a still sound, as thunder into rain. Immeasurable space spreads, magnified With that thick life, along the plane The worlds slid out on. What a fall And eddy of wings innumerous, crossed By trailing curls that have not lost The glitter of the God-smile shed On every prostrate angel's head ! What gleaming-up of hands that fling Their homage in retorted rays, From high instinct of worshipping, And habitude of praise ! Zerah. Rapidly they drop below us. Pointed palm, and wing, and hair Indistinguishable, show us Only pulses in the air Throbbing with a fiery beat. As if a new creation heard Some divine and plastic word, And, trembling at its new-found being, Awakened at our feet. Ador. Zerah, do not wait for seeing ! His voice, his, that thrills us so As we our harpstrings, uttered Go, Behold the Holy i7i his woe ! And all are gone, save thee and — Zerah. Thee ! Ador. I stood the nearest to the throne, In hierarchical degree. What time the Voice said Go I And whether I was moved alone By the storm-pathos of the tone Which swept through heaven the alien name of woe. Or whether the subtle glory broke Through my strong and shielding wings, Bearing to my finite essence Incapacious of their presence, Infinite imaginings. None knoweth save the Throned who spoke ; But I, who at creation stood upright, And heard the God-breath move Shaping the words that lightened. " Be there light," Nor trembled but with love. The Seraphim. 355 Now fell down shudderingly, My face upon the pavement whence I had towered, As if in mine immortal overpowered By God's eternity. Zerah. Let me wait ! let me wait ! Ador. Nay, gaze not backward through the gate ! God fills our heaven with God's own solitude Till all the pavements glow. His Godhead being no more subdued By itself, to glories low Which seraphs can sustain, What if thou, in gazing so, Shouldst behold but only one Attribute, the veil undone, — Even that to which we dare to press Nearest for its gentleness, — Ay, his love ! How the deep ecstatic pain Thy being's strength would capture ! Without language for the rapture. Without music strong to come And set the adoration free. For ever, ever, wouldst thou be Amid the general chorus dumb, God-stricken to seraphic agony. Or, brother, what if on thine eyes In vision bare should rise The life-fount whence his hand did gather With solitary force Our immortalities ! Straightway how thine own would wither. Falter like a human breath. And shrink into a point like death. By gazing on its source ! — My words have imaged dread. Meekly hast thou bent thine head, And dropt thy wings in languishment Overclouding foot and face. As if God's throne were eminent Before thee in the place. Yet not — not so, O loving spirit and meek, dost thou fulfil The supreme Will. Not for obeisance, but obedience. 356 The Seraphim. Give motion to thy wings ! Depart from hence ! The Voice said, " Go ! " Zerah. Beloved, I depart. His will is as a spirit within my spirit, A portion of the being I inherit. His will is mine obedience. I resemble A flame all undefiled, though it tremble, I go and tremble. Love me, O beloved ! O thou, who stronger art, And standest ever near the Infinite, Pale with the light of Light, Love me, beloved ! — me, more newly made. More feeble, more afraid. And let me hear with mine thy pinions moved. As close and gentle as the loving are. That, love being near, heaven may not seem so far. Ador. I am near thee, and I love thee. Were I loveless, from thee gone, Love is round, beneath, above thee, God, the omnipresent one. Spread the wing, and lift the brow ! Well-beloved, what fearest thou } Zerah. I fear, I fear — Ador. What fear ? Zerah. The fear of earth. Ador. Of earth, the God-created, and God-praised In the hour of birth } Where every night the moon in light Doth lead the waters silver-faced } Where every day the sun doth lay A rapture to the heart of all The leafy and reeded pastoral, As if the joyous shout which burst From angel lips to see him first Had left a silent echo in his ray ? Zerah. Of earth, the God-created and God-curst, Where man is, and the thorn ; Where sun and moon have borne No light to souls forlorn ; Where Eden's tree of life no more uprears Its spiral leaves and fruitage, but instead The yew-tree bows its melancholy head, And all the undergrasses kills and sears. Ador. Of earth the weak, The Seraphim. 357 Made and unmade ? Where men that faint do strive for crowns that fade ? Where, having won the profit which they seek. They lie beside the sceptre and the gold With fleshless hands that cannot wield or hold, And the stars shine in their unwinking eyes ? Zerah. Of earth the bold, Where the blind matter wrings An awful potence out of impotence, Bowing the spiritual things To the things of sense ; Where the human will replies With ay and no. Because the human pulse is quick or slow ; Where every night the moon in light Doth lead the waters silver-faced. Where Love succumbs to Change, With only his own memories, for revenge. And the fearful mystery — Ador. Called Death ? Zerah. Nay, death is fearful ; but who saith " To die," is comprehensible. What's fearfuUer, thou knowest well, Though the utterance be not for thee. Lest it blanch thy lips from glory — Ay ! the cursed thing that moved A shadow of ill, long time ago. Across our heaven's own shining floor, And when it vanished some who were 358 The Seraph ini. On thrones of holy empire there, Did reign — were seen — were— never more. Come nearer, O beloved ! Ador. I am near thee. Didst thou bear thee Ever to this earth ? Zerah. Before. When thrilling from his hand along Its lustrous path with spheric song The earth was deathless, sorrowless. Unfearing, then, pure feet might press The grasses brightening with their feet, For God's own voice did mix its sound In a solemn confluence oft With the rivers' flowing round. And the life-tree's waving soft. Beautiful new earth and strange ! Ador. Hast thou seen it since — the change } Zerah. Nay, or wherefore should I fear To look upon it now } I have beheld the ruined things Only in depicturings Of angels from an earthly mission. Strong- one, even upon thy brow. When, with task completed, given Back to us in that transition, I have beheld thee silent stand. Abstracted in the seraph band, Without a smile in heaven. Ador. Then thou wast not one of those Whom the loving Father chose In visionary pomp to sweep O'er Judaea's grassy places, O'er the shepherds and the sheep. Though thou art so tender, dimming All the stars except one star With their brighter, kinder faces ? And using heaven's own tune in hymning, While deep response from earth's own mountains ran, " Peace upon earth, good-will to man." Zerah. " Glory to God." I said amen afar. And those who from that earthly mission are. Within mine ears have told That the seven everlasting Spirits did hold With such a sweet and prodigal constraint The Seraphim. 359 There is a tree ! — it hath no leaf nor root. The meaning- yet the mystery of the song What time they sang it, on their natures strong, That, gazing down on earth's dark steadfastness, And speaking the new peace in promises. The love and pity made their voices faint Into the low and tender music, keeping The place in heaven of what on earth is weeping. Ador. Peace upon earth. Come down to it. Zerah. Ah me ! I hear thereof uncomprehendingly. Peace where the tempest, where the sighing is, And worship of the idol, 'stead of His } Ador. Yea, peace, where He is. Zerah. He ! Say it again. Ador. Where He is. ZeraJi. Can it be That earth retains a tree Whose leaves like Eden foliage can be swayed By the breathing of His voice, nor shrink and fade } Ador. There is a tree ! — it hath no leaf nor root ; Upon it hangs a curse for all its fruit : Its shadow on His head is laid. For He, the crowned Son, Has left his crown and throne. Walks earth in Adam's clay, Eve's snake to bruise and slay — Zerah. Walks earth in clay ? Ador. And, walking in the clay which he created, He through it shall touch death. What do I utter? what conceive ? did breath Of demon howl it in a blasphemy ? 360 The Seraphim. Or was it mine own voice, informed, dilated By the seven confluent Spirits. — Speak. — answer me ! Who said man's victim was his deity? Zerah. Beloved, beloved, the word came forth from thee. Thine eyes are rolling a tempestuous light Above, below, around, As putting thunder questions without cloud. Reverberate without sound, To universal nature's depth and height. The tremor of an inexpressive thought Too self-amazed to shape itself aloud O'erruns the awful curving of thy lips ; And while thme hands are stretched above. As newly they had caught Some litghning from the throne, or showed the Lord Some retributive sword. Thy brows do alternate with wild eclipse And radiance, with contrasted wrath and love, As God had called thee to a seraph's part, With a man's quailing heart. Ador. O heart, O heart of man ! O ta'en from human clay To be no seraph's, but Jehovah's own ! Made holy in the taking. And yet unseparate From death's perpetual ban. And human feelings sad and passionate; Still subject to the treacherous forsaking Of other hearts, and its own steadfast pain. O heart of man— of God ! which God has ta'en From out the dust, with its humanity Mournful and weak, yet innocent, around it. And bade its many pulses beating lie Beside that incommunicable stir Of Deity wherewith he interwound it. O man ! and is thy nature so defiled That all that holy heart's devout law-keeping. And low pathetic beat in deserts wild, And gushings pitiful of tender weeping For traitors who consigned it to such woe, — That all could cleanse thee not, without the flow Of blood, the life-blood — ///^— and streaming so? O earth the thundercleft, windshaken, where The louder voice of "blood and blood" doth rise. The Seraphim. 361 Hast thou an altar for this sacrifice ? heaven ! O vacant throne ! crowned hierarchies that wear your crown When his is put away ! Are ye unshamed that ye cannot dim Your aUen brightness to be liker him, Assume a human passion, and downlay Your sweet secureness for congenial fears. And teach your cloudless ever-burning eyes The mystery of his tears ? Zcrah. I am strong, I am strong, Were I never to see my heaven again, 1 would wheel to earth like the tempest rain Which sweeps there with an exultant sound To lose its life as it reaches the ground. I am strong, I am strong. Away from mine inward vision swim The shining seats of my heavenly birth, I see but his, I see but him — The Maker's steps on his cruel earth. Will the bitter herbs of earth grow sweet To me, as trodden by his feet } Will the vexed accurst humanity, As worn by him, begin to be A blessed, yea, a sacred thing. For love and awe and ministering } 1 am strong, I am strong. By our angel ken shall we survey His loving smile through his woful clay } I am swift, I am strong, The love is bearing me along. Ador. One love is bearing us along. PART THE SECOND. \Mid-air above Judcca. Ador and Zerah are a little apart from the visible angelic hosts.] Ador. Beloved, dost thou see } Zerah. Thee — thee. Thy burning eyes already are Grown wild and mournful as a star 362 The Seraphim. Whose occupation is for aye To look upon the place of clay Whereon thou lookest now. Thy crown is fainting on thy brow- To the likeness of a cloud, The forehead's self a little bowed From its aspect high and holy, As it would in meekness meet Some seraphic melancholy : Thy very wings that lately flung An outline clear do flicker here . And wear to each a shadow hung. Dropped across thy feet. In these strange contrasting glooms Stagnant with the scent of tombs, Seraph faces, O my brother. Show awfully to one another. Ador. Dost thou see ? Zerah. Even so : I see Our empyreal company, Alone the memory of their brightness Left in them, as in thee. The circle upon circle, tier on tier. Piling earth's hemisphere With heavenly infiniteness, Above us and around. Straining the whole horizon like a bow : Their songful lips divorced from all sound, A darkness gliding down their silvery glances, Bowing their steadfast solemn countenances As if they heard God speak, and could not glow. Ador. Look downward ! dost thou see } Zerah. And wouldst thou press that vision on my words .•' Doth not earth speak enough Of change and of undoing. Without a seraph's witness ? Oceans rough W^ith tempest, pastoral swards Displaced by fiery deserts, mountains ruing The bolt fallen yesterday, That shake their piny heads, as who would say " We are too beautiful for our decay " — • .Shall seraphs speak of these things } Let alone Earth to her earthly moan I The Seraphim. 363 Voice of all things. Is there no moan but hers ? Ador. Hearest thou the attestation Of the roused universe Like a desert Hon shaking Dews of silence from its mane ? With an irrepressive passion Uprising at once, Rising up and forsaking Its solemn state in the circle of suns, To attest the pain Of him who stands (O patience sweet !) In his own handprints of creation. With human feet ? Voice of all things. Is there no moan but ours ? Zerah. Forms, Spaces, Motions wide, meek, insensate things, O congregated matters ! who inherit Instead of vital powers Impulsions God-supplied ; Instead of influent spirit, A clear informing beauty ; Instead of creature-duty Submission calm as rest. Lights, without feet or wings, In golden courses sliding ! Glooms, stagnantly subsiding. Whose lustrous heart away was prest Into the argent stars ! Ye crystal, tirmamental bars That hold the skyey waters free From tide or tempest's ecstasy ! Airs universal ! thunders lorn That wait your lightnings in cloud-cave Hewn out by the winds ! O brave And subtle elements ! the Holy Hath charged me by your voice with folly.^ Enough, the mystic arrow leaves its wound. Return ye to your silences inborn. Or to your inarticulated sound. Ador. Zerah ! Zerah. Wilt thou rebuke ! God hath rebuked me, brother. I am weak. 1 " His angels he charged with folly." — Job iv. 18. 364 The Seraphim. Ador. Zerah, my brother Zerah ! could I speak Of thee, 'twould be of love to thee. Zerah. Thy look Is fixed on earth, as mine upon thy face. Where shall I seek His } I have thrown One look upon earth, but one. Over the blue mountain lines, Over the forests of palms and pines, Over the harvest-lands golden, Over the valleys that fold in The gardens and vines — He is not there. All these are unworthy Those footsteps to bear. Before which, bowing down I would fain quench the stars of my crown In the dark of the earthy. Where shall I seek him } No reply .'* Hath language left thy lips, to place Its vocal in thine eye ? Ador, Ador ! are we come To a double portent, that Dumb matter grows articulate, And songful seraphs dumb. ^ Ador, Ador I Ador. I constrain The passion of my silence. None Of those places gazed upon Are gloomy enow to fit his pain. Unto Him whose forming word Gave to nature flower and sward, She hath given back again For the myrtle, the thorn, For the sylvan calm, the human scorn. Still, still, reluctant seraph, gaze beneath ! There is a city — Zerah. Temple and tower. Palace and purple, would droop like a flower, ( Or a cloud at our breath ) If He neared in his state The outermost gate. Ador. Ah me, not so The Seraphim. 365 In the state of a king did the victim go ! And Thou who hangest mute of speech 'Twixt heaven and earth, with forehead yet Stained by the bloody sweat, God ! man-! thou hast forgone thy throne in each. Zerah. Thine eyes behold him ! Ador. _ Yea, below. Track the gazing of mine eyes, Naming God within thine heart That its weakness may depart, And the vision rise ! Seest thou yet, beloved ? Zerah. I see Beyond the city, crosses three. And mortals three that hang thereon 'Ghast and silent to the sun. Round them blacken and welter and press Staring multitudes whose father Adam was, whose brows are dark With his Cain's corroded mark, Who curse with looks. Nay— let me rather Turn unto the wilderness ! Ador. Turn not ! God dwells with men. Zerah. Above He dwells with angels, and they love. Can these love } With the living's pride They stare at those who die, who hang In their sight and die. They bear the streak Of the crosses' shadow, black not wide. To fall on their heads, as it swerves aside When the victims' pang Makes the dry wood creak. Ador. The cross — the cross ! Zerah. A woman kneels The mid cross under, With white lips asunder. And motion on each. They throb as she feels, With a spasm, not a speech ; And her lids, close as sleep. Are less calm, for the eyes Have made room there to weep Drop on drop— Ador. Weep? Weep blood, 366 The Seraphim. All women, all men ! He sweated it, He, For your pale womanhood And base manhood. Agree That these water-tears, then. Are vain, mocking like laughter. Weep blood ! Shall the flood Of salt curses, whose foam is the darkness, on roll Forward, on from the strand of the storm-beaten years, And back from the rocks of the horrid hereafter, And up in a coil from the present's wrath-spring. Yea, down from the windows of heaven opening. Deep calling to deep as they meet on His soul — And men weep only tears? Zerah. Little drops in the lapse ! And yet, Ador, perhaps It is all that they can. Tears ! the lovingest man Has no better bestowed Upon man. Ador. Nor on God. Zerah. Do all-givers need gifts ? If the Giver said " Giv-e," the first motion would slay Our Immortals, the echo would ruin away The same worlds which he made. Why, what angel uplifts Such a music, so clear, It may seem in God's ear Worth more than a woman's hoarse weeping.^ And thus, Pity tender as tears I above thee would speak, Thou woman that weepest ! weep unscorned of us ! I, the tearless and pure, am but loving and weak. Ador. Speak low, my brother, low, — and not of love Or human or angelic ! Rather stand Before the throne of that Supreme above. In whose infinitude the secrecies Of thine own being lie hid, and lift thine hand Exultant, saying, " Lord God, I am wise ! " Than utter here, " I love." Zerah. And yet thine eyes Do utter it. They melt in tender light, — The tears of heaven. Ador. Of heaven. Ah, me ! Zerah. Ador! The Seraphim. 367 Ador. Say on ! Zerah. The crucified are three. Beloved, they are unlike. Ador. Unlike. Zerah. For one Is as a man who has sinned, and still Doth wear the wicked will, The hard, malign life-energy. Tossed outward, in the parting soul's disdain, On brow and lip that cannot change again. Ador. And one — Zerah. Has also sinned. And yet (O marvel !) doth the Spirit-wind Blow white those waters ? Death upon his face Is rather shine than shade, — A tender shine by looks beloved made : He seemeth dying in a quiet place, And less by iron wounds in hands and feet Than heart-broke by new joy too sudden and sweet. Ador. And ONE ! — Zerah. And one !— Ador. Why dost thou pause ? Zerah. God ! God I Spirit of my spirit ! who movest Through seraph veins in burning deity To light the quenchless pulses ! — Ador. But hast trod The depths of love in thy peculiar nature, And not in any thou hast made and lovest In narrow seraph hearts ! — Zerah. Above, Creator ! Within, Upholder ! Ador. And below, below. The creature's and the upholden's sacrifice ! Zerah. Why do I pause } Ador. There is a silentness That answers thee enow, That, like a brazen sound Excluding others, doth ensheathe us round : Hear it. It is not from the visible skies, Though they are still, Unconscious that their own dropped dews express The light of heaven on every earthly hill. It is not from the hills, though calm and bare 368 The Seraphim. They, since their first creation, Through midnight cloud or morning's glittering air. Or the deep deluge blindness, toward the place Whence thrilled the mystic word's creative grace, And whence again shall come The word that uncreates. Have lift their brows in voiceless expectation. It is not from the places that entomb Man's dead, though common Silence there dilates Her soul to grand proportions, worthily To fill life's vacant room. Not there — not there. Not yet within those chambers lieth He, A dead one in his living world ; his south And west winds blowing over earth and sea, And not a breath on that creating mouth. But now a silence keeps (Not death's, nor sleep's) The lips whose whispered word Might roll the thunders round reverberated. Silent art thou, O my Lord, Bowing down thy stricken head ! Fearest thou a groan of thine WouM make the pulse of thy creation fail As thine own pulse } — would rend the veil Of visible things, and let the flood Of the unseen Light, the essential God, Rush in to whelm the undivine } Thy silence, to my thinking, is as dread. Zerah. O silence ! Ado7'. Doth it say to thee — the name. Slow-learning seraph } Zerah. I have learnt. Ador. The flame Perishes in thine eyes. Zerah. He opened his, And looked. I cannot bear — Ador. Their agony } Zerah. Their love. God's depth is in them. From his brows White, terrible in meekness, didst thou see The lifted eyes unclose } He is God, seraph ! Look no more on me, O God — I am not God. Ador. The loving is The Seraphim. 369 Sublimed within them by the sorrowful. In heaven we could sustain them. Zerah. Heaven is dull, Mine Ador, to man's earth. The light that burns In fluent, refluent motion Along the crystal ocean ; The springing of the golden harps between The bowery wings, in fountains of sweet sound ; The winding, wandering music that returns Upon itself, exultingly self-bound In the great spheric round Of everlasting praises ; The God-thoughts in our midst that intervene, Visibly flashing from the supreme throne Full in seraphic faces Till each astonishes the other, growri More beautiful with worship and delight— My heaven ! my home of heaven ! my infinite Heaven choirs ! what are ye to this dust and death, This cloud, this cold, these tears, this failing breath, Where God's immortal love now issueth In this man's woe ? Ador. His eyes are very deep, yet calm. Zerah. No more On me, Jehovah-man— Ador. Calm-deep. They show A passion which is tranquil. They are seeing No earth, no heaven, no men that slay and curse. No seraphs that adore ; Their gaze is on the invisible, the dread, The things we cannot view or think or speak, Because we are too happy, or too weak, — The sea of ill for which the universe With all its piled space, can find no shore, With all its life no living foot to tread. But he, accomplished in Jehovah-being, Sustains the gaze adown. Conceives the vast despair. And feels the billowy griefs come up to drown, Nor fears, nor faints, nor fails, till all be finished. Zerah. Thus, do I find Thee thus ? My undiminished And undiminishable God !— my God ! The echoes are still tremulous along 37© The Seraph i7n. The heavenly mountains, of the latest sonj^^ Thy manifested glory swept abroad In rushing past our lips : they echo aye " Creator, thou art strong T Creator, thou art blessed over all." By what new utterance shall I now recall, Unteaching the heaven-echoes ? dare I say, " Creator, thou art feebler than thy work ! Creator, thou art sadder than thy creature ! A worm, and not a man. Yea, no worm, but a curse " ? I dare not so mine heavenly phrase reverse. Albeit the piercing thorn and thistle-fork (Whose seed disordered ran From Eve's hand trembling when the curse did reach her Be garnered darklier in thy soul, the rod That smites thee never blossoming, and thou Grief-bearer for thy world, with unkinged brow — I leave to men their song of Ichabod : I have an angel-tongue — 1 know but praise. Ador. Hereafter shall the blood-bought captives raise The passion-song of blood. Zerah. And we, extend Our holy vacant hands towards the throne, Crying, " We have no music." Ador. Rather, blend Both musics into one. The sanctities and sanctified above Shall each to each, with lifted looks serene, Their shining faces lean, And mix the adoring breath. And breathe the full thanksgiving. Zerah. But the love — The love, mine Ador ! Ador. Do we love not ? Zerah. Yea, But not as man shall ! not with life for death, New-throbbing through the startled being ; not With strange astonished smiles, that ever may Gush passionate, like tears, and fill their place ; Nor yet with speechless memories of what Earth's winters were, enverduring the green Of every heavenly palm Whose windless, shadeless calm The Seraphim. 371 Moves only at the breath of the Unseen. Oh, not with this blood on us, and this face, Still, haply, pale with sorrow that it bore In our behalf, and tender evermore. With nature all our own, upon us gazing-, Nor yet with these forgiving hands upraising Their unreproachful wounds, alone to bless ! Alas, Creator ! shall we love thee less Than mortals shall ? Ador. Amen ! so let it be. We love in our proportion to the bound Thine infinite our finite set around, And that is finitely, thou infinite, And worthy infinite love ! And our delight Is watching the dear love poured out to thee From ever fuller chalice. Blessed they, Who love thee more than we do : blessed we. Viewing that love which shall exceed even this, And winning in the sight a double bliss For all so lost in love's supremacy. The bliss is better. Only on the sad Cold earth there are who say It seemeth better to be great than glad. The bliss is better. Love him more, O man. Than sinless seraphs can ! Ze7-ah. Yea, love him more ! Voices of the angelic multitude. Yea, more ! Ador. The loving word Is caught by those from whom we stand apart ; For silence hath no deepness in her heart Where love's low name low breathed would not be heard By angels, clear as thunder. Angelic Voices. Love him more. Ador. Sweet voices, swooning o'er The music which ye make ! Albeit to love there were not ever given A mournful sound wheo uttered out of heaven, That angel-sadness ye w^ould fitly take Of love be silent now ! We gaze adown Upon the incarnate Love who wears no crown. Zerah. No crown ! the woe instead Is heavy on his head, Pressing inward on his brain With a hot and clinging pain 372 The Seraphim. Till all tears are prest away, And clear and calm his vision may Peruse the black abyss. No rod, no sceptre, is Holden in his fingers pale : They close instead upon the nail. Concealing the sharp dole, Never stirring to put by The fair hair peaked with blood, Drooping forward from the rood Helplessly, heavily. On the cheek that waxeth colder, Whiter ever, and the shoulder Where the government was laid. His glory made the heavens afraid : Will he not unearth this cross from its hole ? His pity makes his piteous state ; Will he be uncompassionate Alone to his proper soul ? Yea, will he not lift up His lips from the bitter cup. His brows from the dreary weight. His hand from the clinching cross. Crying, " My Father, give to me Again the joy I had with thee Or ere this earth was made for loss " ? No stir — no sound. The love and woe being interwound. He cleaveth to the woe, And putteth forth heaven's strength below — To bear. Ador. And that creates his anguish now, Which made his glory there. Zerah. Shall it need be so ? Awake, thou Earth ! behold, — Thou, uttered forth of old In all thy life-emotion, In all thy vernal noises ; In the rollings of thine ocean. Leaping founts, and rivers running, In thy woods' prophetic heaving Ere the rains a stroke have given ; In the winds' exultant voices When they feel the hills anear ; The Seraphhn. 373 In the firmamental sunning, And the tempest which rejoices Thy full heart with an awful cheer ! Thou, uttered forth of old, And with all thy music rolled In a breath abroad By the breathing God ! Awake ! He is here ! behold ! Even thoit — Beseems it good To thy vacant vision dim, That the deadly ruin should For thy sake encompass him ? That the Master-word should lie A mere silence, while his own Processive harmony, The faintest echo of his lightest tone Is sweeping in a choral triumph by ? Awake ! emit a cry ! And say, albeit used From Adam's ancient years To falls of acrid tears, To frequent sighs unloosed. Caught back to press again On bosoms zoned with pain, — To corses still and sullen The shine and music dulling With closed eyes and ears That nothing sweet can enter, Com moving thee no less With that forced quietness Than the earthquake in thy centre — Thou hast not learnt to bear This new divine despair ! These tears that sink into thee. These dying eyes that view thee. This dropping blood from lifted rood, They darken and undo thee. Thou canst not presently sustain this corse- Cry, cry, thou hast not force ! Cry, thou wouldst fainer keep Thy hopeless charnels deep, Thyself a general tomb Where the first and the second Death 374 '^^^^ Seraphim. Sit gazing face to face, And mar each other's breath, While silent bones through all the place 'Neath sun and moon do faintly glisten, And seem to lie and listen For the tramp of the coming Doom. Is it not meet That they who erst the Eden fruit did eat Should champ the ashes ? That they who wrap them in the thunder-cloud Should wear it as a shroud, Perishing by its flashes ? That they who vexed the lion should be rent ? Cry, cry, " I will sustain my punishment. The sin being mine, but take away from me This visioned dread — this Man — this Deity ! " The Earth. I have groaned ; I have travailed : I am weary. I am blind with my own grief, and cannot see. As clear-eyed angels can, his agony ; And what I see 1 also can sustain. Because his power protects me from his pain. I have groaned ; I have travailed : I am dreary, Harkening the thick sobs of my children's heart : How can I say " Depart " To that Atoner making calm and free } Am I a God as he. To lay down peace and power as willingly .'' Ador. He looked for some to pity : there is none. All pity is within him, and not for him. His earth is iron under him, and o'er him His skies are brass. His seraphs cry, "Alas ! " With hallelujah voice that cannot weep. And man, for whom the dreadful work is done . . . Scornful Voices from the Earth. If verily this be the Eternal's son — Ador. Thou hearest. Man is grateful. Zerah. * Can I hear, Nor darken into man, and cease forever My seraph smile to wear } Was it for such It pleased him to overleap His glory with his love, and sever From the God-light and the throne, The Seraphim. 37.S And all angels bowing down, From whom his every look did touch New notes of joy on the unworn string Of an eternal worshipping ? For such he left his heaven ? There, though never bought by blood And tears, we gave him gratitude : We loved him there, though unforgiven. His Seraphs cry " Alas A dor. The light is riven Above, around, And down in lurid fragments tiung, That catch the mountain-peak and stream With momentary gleam. Then perish in the water and the ground. River and waterfall, Forest and wilderness. 376 The Scrap hiffi. Mountain and city, are together wrung Into one shape, and that is shapelessness : The darkness stands for all. Zerah. The pathos hath the day undone : The death-look of his eyes Hath overcome the sun. And made it sicken in its narrow skies. Ador. Is it to death } He dieth. Zerah. Through the dark He still, he only, is discernible. The naked hands and feet transfixed stark, The countenance of patient anguish white. Do make themselves a light More dreadful than the glooms which round them dwel And therein do they shine. Ador. God ! Father-God ! Perpetual Radiance on the radiant throne ! Uplift the lids of inward deity, Flashing abroad Thy burning Infinite ! Light up this dark where there is nought to see Except the unimagined agony Upon the sinless forehead of the Son ! Zerah. God, tarry not ! Behold, enow Hath he wandered as a stranger, Sorrowed as a victim. Thou Appear for him, O Father ! Appear for him, Avenger ! Appear for him. Just One and Holy One, For he is holy and just ! At once the darkness and dishonor rather To the ragged jaws of hungry chaos rake. And hurl aback to ancient dust These mortals that make blasphemies With their made breath, this earth and skies That only grow a little dim, Seeing their curse on him. But him, of all forsaken. Of creature and of brother, Never wilt thou forsake ! Thy living and thy loving cannot slacken Their firm essential hold upon each other. And well thou dost remember how his part Was still to lie upon thy breast, and be The Seraphim. 377 Partaker of the light that dwelt in thee Ere sun or seraph shone ; And how, while silence trembled round the throne, Thou countedst by the beatings of his heart The moments of thine own eternity. Awaken, O right hand with the lightnings ! Again gather His glory to thy glory ! What estranger, What ill supreme in evil, can be thrust Between the faithful Father and the Son ? Appear for him, O Father ! Appear for him, Avenger ! Appear for him. Just One and Holy One, For he is holy and just ! Ador. Thy face upturned toward the throne is dark ; Thou hast no answer, Zerah. Zerah. No reply, O unforsaking Father? Ador. Hark ! Instead of downward voice, a cry Is uttered from beneath. Zerah. And by a sharper sound than death Mine immortality is riven. The heavy darkness which doth tent the sky Floats backward as by a sudden wind ; But I see no light behind ; But I feel the farthest stars are all Stricken and shaken. And I know a shadow sad and broad Doth fall— doth fall On our vacant thrones in heaven. Voice from the Cross. MY GOD, MY GOD, Why hast thou me forsaken ? The Earth. Ah me, ah me, ah me ! the dreadful why '. My sin is on thee, sinless one ! Thou art God-orphaned for my burden on thy head. Dark sin, white innocence, endurance dread ! ■ Be still within your shrouds, my buried dead, Nor work with this quick horror round mine heart. Zerah. He hath forsaken Him. I perish. Ador. Hold Upon his name ! we perish not. Of old His will— Zerah. I seek his will. Seek, seraphim ! 378 The Seraphiin. My God, my God ! where is it ? Doth that curse Reverberate spare us, seraph or universe ? He hath forsaken Him. Ador. He cannot fail. Angel Voices. We faint, we droop ; Our love doth tremble like fear. Voices of Fallen Angels frojn the Earth, Do we prevail } Or are we lost .'' Hath not the ill we did Been heretofore our good ? Is it not ill that One, all sinless, should Hang heavy with all curses on a cross } Nathless, that cry ' With huddled faces hid Within the empty graves which men did scoop To hold more damned dead, we shudder through What shall exalt us, or undo, — Our triumph, or our loss. Voice from the Cross. It is finished. Zerah. Hark, again I Like a victor speaks the slain. Angel Voices. Finished be the trembling vain ! Ador. Upward, like a well-loved son, Looketh He, the orphaned One. Angel Voices. Finished is the mystic pain. Voices of Fallen Angels. His deathly forehead at the word Gleameth like a seraph sword. Angel Voices. Finished is the demon reign. Ador. His breath, as living God, createth ; His breath, as dying man, completeth. Angel Voices. Finished work his hands sustain. The Earth. In mine ancient sepulchres. Where my kings and prophets freeze, Adam dead four thousand years, Unawakened by the universe's Everlasting moan. Aye his ghastly silence mocking — Unawakened by his children's knocking At his old sepulchral stone, " Adam, Adam, all this curse is Thine and on us yet ! " — Unawakened by the ceaseless tears Wherewith they made his cerement wet, " Adam, must thy curse remain ? " — Starts with sudden life and hears. Through the slow dripping of the caverned eaves, — 77/6' Seraphim. ^y^ Angel Voices. Finished is his bane. Voice from the Cross. Father ! my spirit to thine HANDS IS GIVEN. Ador. Hear the wailing winds that be By wings of unclean spirits made ! They in that last look survej^ed The love they lost in losing heaven, And passionately flee With a desolate cry that cleaves The natural storms, though they are lifting God's strong cedar-roots like leaves. And the earthquake and the thunder, Neither keeping either under. Roar and hurtle through the glooms. And a few pale stars are drifting Past the dark to disappear, What time, from the splitting tombs Gleamingly the dead arise. Viewing with their death-calmed eyes The elemental strategies, To witness, victory is the Lord's. Hear the wail o' the spirits ! hear ! Zerah. I hear alone the memory of his words. EPILOGUE. I. My song is done. My voice that long hath faltered shall be still. The mystic darkness drops from Calvary's hil Into the common light of this day's sun. II. I see no more thy cross, O holy Slain ! I hear no more the horror and the coil Of the great world's turmoil Feeling thy countenance too still —nox veil Of demons sweeping past it to their prison. 380 The Seraphim. The skies that turned to darkness with thy pain Make now a summer's day ; And on my changed ear that sabbath bell Records how Christ is risen. III. And I — ah, what am I To counterfeit, with faculty earth-darkened, Seraphic brows of light, And seraph language never used nor barkened ? Ah me ! what word that seraphs say, could come From mouth so used to sighs, so soon to lie Sighless, because then breathless, in the tomb? IV. Bright ministers of God and grace, of grace Because of God ! — whether ye bow adown In your own heaven, before the living face Of Him who died, and deathless wears the crown, Or whether at this hour ye haply are Anear, around me, hiding in the night Of this permitted ignorance your light, This feebleness to spare, — Forgive me, that mine earthly heart should dare Shape images of unincarnate spirits, And lay upon their burning lips a thought Cold with the weeping which mine earth inherits. And though ye find in such hoarse music, wrought To copy yours, a cadence all the while Of sin and sorrow, only pitying smile ! Ye know to pity, well. /, too, may haply smile another day At the fair recollection of this lay. When God may call me in your midst to dv/ell, To hear your most sweet music's miracle. And see your wondrous faces. May it be ! For his remembered sake, the Slain on rood. Who rolled his earthly garment red in blood (Treading the wine-press) that the weak, like me, Before his heavenly throne should walk in white. PROMETHEUS BOUND FROM THE GREEK OF ^SCHYLUS. PERSONS OF THE DRAMA. Prometheus. Heph^stus. OcEANUS. . lo, daughter of Inachus. Hermes. Strength and Force. Chorus of Ocean Nymphs. Scene. — Strength and Force, Heph^stus and Prome- theus, at the Rocks. Strength. We reach the utmost Hmit of the earth, — The Scythian track, the desert without man. And now, Hephcestus, thou must needs fulfil The mandate of our Father, and with links Indissoluble of adamantine chains Fasten against this beetling precipice This guilty god. Because he filched away Thine own bright flower, the glory of plastic fire, And gifted mortals with it, — such a sin It doth behoove he expiate to the gods. Learning to accept the empery of Zeus. And leave off his old trick of loving man. Hephcestus. O Strength and Force, for you our Zeus's will Presents a deed for doing, no more ! — But /, I lack your daring, up this storm-rent chasm To fix with violent hands a kindred god, Howbeit necessity compels me so That I must dare it, and our Zeus commands With a most inevitable word. Ho, thou ! High-thoughted son of Themis, who is sage ! 382 Prometheus Bound. Thee loath, I loath must rivet fast in chains Against this rocky height unclomb by man, Where never human voice nor face shall find Out thee who lov'st them ; and thy beauty's flower, Scorched in the sun's clear heat, shall fade away. Night shall come up with garniture of stars To comfort thee with shadow, and the sun Disperse with retrickt beams the morning-frosts ; But through all changes, sense of present woe Shall vex thee sore, because with none of them There comes a hand to free. Such fruit is plucked From love of man ! And in that thou, a god, Didst brave the wrath of gods, and give away Undue respect to mortals, for that crime Thou art adjudged to guard this joyless rock. Erect, unslumbering, bending not the knee. And many a cry and unavailing moan To utter on the air. For Zeus is stern. And new-made kings are cruel. Strength. Be it so. Why loiter in vain pity ? Why not hate A god the gods hate ?'— one, too, who betrayed Thy glory unto men ? Hephcestus. An awful thing Is kinship joined to friendship. StreJigth. Grant it be : Is disobedience to the Father's word A possible thing } Dost quail not more for that ? Hephastus. Thou, at least, art a stern one, ever bold. Strength. Why, if I wept, it were no remedy ; And do not thou spend labor on the air To bootless uses. HephcEstus. Cursed handicraft ! I curse and hate thee, O my craft ! Strength. Why hate Thy craft most plainly innocent of all These pending ills ? Hephcestus. I would some other hand Were here to work it I Strength. All wt)rk hath its pain. Except to rule the gods. There is none free Except King Zeus. HephcEstus. I know it very well ; I argue not against it. Prometheus Bound, 383 Strength. Why not, then, Make haste and lock the fetters over him. Lest Zeus behold thee lagging ? HephcEstus. Here be chains. Zeus may behold these. Streftgth. Seize him ; strike amain ; Strike with the hammer on each side his hands ; Rivet him to the rock. Hephaestus. The work is done, And thoroughly done. Strength. Still faster grapple him ; Wedge him in deeper ; leave no inch to stir. He's terrible for finding a way out From the irremediable. HephcEstus. Here's an arm, at least, Grappled past freeing. Strength. Now, then, buckle me The other securely. Let this wise one learn He's duller than our Zeus. Hephastus. Oh, none but he Accuse me justly. Strength. Now, straight through the chest, Take him and bite him with the clenching tooth Of the adamantine wedge, and rivet him. HephcBstus. Alas, Prometheus, what thou sufferest here I sorrow over. Streftgth. Dost thou flinch again, And breathe groans for the enemies of Zeus } Beware lest thine own pity find thee out. Hephcestus. Thou dost behold a spectacle that turns The sight o' the eyes to pity. Strength. ' I behold A sinner suffer his sin's penalty. But lash the thongs about his sides. Hephcestus. So much I must do. Urge no farther than I must. Strength. Ay, but I will urge ! and, with shout on shout, Will hound thee at this quarry. Get thee down. And ring amain the iron round his legs. Hephcestus. That work was not long doing. Strength. Heavily now Let falf the strokes upon the perforant gyves ; For he who rates the work has a heavy hand. Hephastus. Thy speech is savage as thy shape. 384 Prometheus Bound. Strength. Be thou Gentle and tender, but revile not me For the firm will and the untruckling hate. Hephcestus. Let us go. He is netted round with chains. Strength. Here, now, taunt on I and, having spoiled the gods Of honors, crown withal thy mortal men Who live a whole day out. Why, how could they Draw off from thee one single of thy griefs } Methinks the Daemons gave thee a wrong name, Prometheus, which means Providence, because Thou dost thyself need providence to see Thy roll and ruin from the top of doom. Prometheus {alone). O holy /Ether, and swift-winged Winds, And River-wells, and Laughter innumerous Of yon sea-waves ! Earth, mother of us all, And all-viewing cyclic Sun, I cry on you, — Behold me a god, what I endure from gods ! Behold, with throe on throe. How, wasted by this woe, I wrestle down the myriad years of time ! Behold how, fast around me, The new King of the happy ones sublime Has flung the chain he forged, has shamed and bound me ! Woe, woe ! to-day's woe and the coming morrow's I cover with one groan. And where is found me A limit to these sorrows ? And yet v^'hat word do I say ? I have foreknown Clearly all things that should be ; nothing done Comes sudden to my soul ; and I must bear What is ordained with patience, being aware Necessity doth front the universe With an invincible gesture. Yet this curse Which strikes me now I find it hard to brave In silence or in speech. Because I gave Honor to mortals, I have yoked my soul To this compelling fate. Because I stole The secret fount of fire, whose bubbles went Over the ferule's brim, and manward sent Art's mighty means and perfect rudiment. That sin I expiate in this agony. Hung here in fetters, 'neath the blanchmg sky. Ah, ah me ! what a sound ! Prometheus Bound. 385 What a fragrance sweeps up from a pinion unseen Of a god, or a mortal, or nature between, Sweeping up to this rock where the Earth has her bound, To have sight of my pangs, or some guerdon obtain. Lo, a god in the anguish, a god in the chain ! The god Zeus hateth sore. And his gods hate again, vs many as tread on his glori- fied floor, Ijecause I loved mortals too much evermore. Alas me ! what a murmur and motion I hear. As of birds flying near ! And the air undersings The light stroke of their wings. And all life that approaches I wait for in fear. Chorus of Sea-nymphs, \st strophe. Fear nothing ! our troop Floats lovingly up With a quick -oaring stroke Of wings steered to the rock. Having softened the soul of our father below. For the gales of swift-bear- ing have sent me a sound, And the clank of the iron, the malletted blow. Smote down the pro- found Of my caverns of old, And struck the red light in a blush from my brow. Till I sprang up unsandalled, in haste to behold. And rushed forth on my chariot of wings manifold. #• Behold me A god, what FROM GODS Prometheus. Alas me ! alas me ! Ye offspring of Tethys, who bore at her breast 386 Prometheus Bound. Many children, and eke of Oceanus, he, Coiling- still around earth with perpetual unrest ! Behold me and see How transfixed with the fang- Of a fetter I hang On the high-jutting rocks of this fissure, and keep An uncoveted watch o'er the world and the deep. Chorus, \st antistrophe. 1 behold thee, Prometheus ; yet now, yet now, A terrible cloud whose rain is tears Sweeps over mine eyes that witness how Thy body appears Hung awaste on the rocks by infrangible chains; For new is the hand, new the rudder, that steers The ship of Olympus through surge and wind. And of old things passed, no track is behind. Provietheus. Under earth, under Hades, Where the home of the shade is. All into the deep, deep Tartarus, I would he had hurled me adown. I would he had plunged me, fastened thus In the knotted chain, with the savage clang, All into the dark, where there should be none. Neither god nor another, to laugh and see. But now the winds sing through and shake The hurtling chains wherein I hang, And I in my naked sorrows make Much mirth for my enemy. Chorus, 2d strophe. Nay ! who of the gods hath a heart so stern As to use thy woe for a mock and mirth } Who would not turn more mild to learn Thy sorrows ? who of the heaven and earth Save Zeus } But he Right wrathfully Bears on his sceptral soul unbent, And rules thereby the heavenly seed, Nor will he pause till he content His thirsty heart in a finished deed, Or till Another shall appear. To win by fraud, to seize by fear, The hard-to-be-captured gov^ernment. Prometheus Bound. 387 Prometheus. Yet even of me he shall have need, That monarch of the blessed seed, — Of me, of me who now am cursed By his fetters dire, — To wring- my secret out withal, And learn by whom his sceptre shall Be filched from him, as was at first His heavenly fire. But he never shall enchant me With his honey-lipped persuasion ; Never, never, shall he daunt me. With the oath and threat of passion, Into speaking as they want me. Till he loose this savage chain. And accept the expiation Of my. sorrow in his pain. Chorus, 2d antistrophe. Thou art, sooth, a brave god, And, for all thou hast borne From the stroke of the rod. Nought relaxest from scorn. But thou speakest unto me Too free and unworn ; And a terror strikes through me And festers my soul, And I fear, in the roll Of the storm, for thy fate In the Ship far from shore ; Since the son of Saturnus is hard in his hate, And unmoved in his heart evermore. Prometheus. I know that Zeus is stern ; I know he metes his justice by his will ; And yet his soul shall learn More softness w^hen once broken by this ill ; And, curbing his unconquerable vaunt. He shall rush on in fear to meet with me Who rush to meet with him in agony. To issues of harmonious covenant. Chorus. Remove the veil from all things, and relate The story to us, — of what crime accused, Zeus smites thee with dishonorable pangs. Speak, if to teach us do not grieve thyself. 3^^ Prometheus Bound. Prometheus. The utterance of these things is torture to me, But so, too, is their silence : each way Hes Woe strong as fate. When gods began with wrath, And war rose up between their starry brows, Some choosing to cast Chronos from his throne That Zeus might king it there, and some in haste With opposite oaths, that they would have no Zeus To rule the gods forever, — I, who brought The counsel I thought meetest, could not move The Titans, children of the Heaven and Earth, What time, disdaining in their rugged souls My subtle machinations, they assumed It was an easy thing for force to take The mastery of fate. My mother, then. Who is called not only Themis, but Earth too, (Her single beauty joys in many names) Did teach me with reiterant prophecy What future should be, and how conquering gods Should not prevail by strength and violence, But by guile only. When I told them so. They would not deign to contemplate the truth On all sides round ; whereat I deemed it best To lead my willing mother upwardly, And set my Themis face to face with Zeus As willing to receive her. Tartarus, With its abysmal cloister of the Dark, Because I gave that counsel, covers up The antique Chronos and his siding hosts, • And, by that counsel helped, the king of gods Hath recompensed me with these bitter pangs ; For kingship wears a cancer at the heart, — Distrust in friendship. Do ye also ask What crime it is for which he tortures me.^ That shall be clear before you. When at first He filled his father's throne, he instantly Made various gifts of glory to the gods. And dealt the empire out. Alone of men. Of miserable men, he took no count. But yearned to sweep their track off from the world. And plant a newer race there. Not a god Resisted such desire, except myself. / dared it ! / drew mortals back to light, From meditated ruin deep as hell ! Prometheus Bound. 389 For which wrong I am bent down in these pangs Dreadful to suffer, mournful to behold, And I who pitied man am thought myself Unworthy of pity ; while I render out Deep rhythms of anguish 'neath the harping hand That strikes me thus, — a sight to shame your Zeus ! Chorus. Hard as thy chains, and cold as all these rocks, Is he, Prometheus, who withholds his heart From joining in thy woe. I yearned before To fly this sight ; and, now I gaze on it, I sicken inwards. Prometheus. To my friends, indeed, I must be a sad sight. Chorus. And didst thou sin No more than so ? Prometheus. I did restrain besides My mortals from premeditating death. Chorus. How didst thou medicine the plague-fear of death } Prometheus. I set blind Hopes to inhabit in their house. Chorus. By that gift thou didst help thy mortals well. Prometheus. I gave them also fire. Chorus. And have they now. Those creatures of a day, the red-eyed fire } Proinetheus. They have, and shall learn by it many arts. Chorus. And truly for such sins Zeus tortures thee. And will remit no anguish ? Is there set No limit before thee to thine agony } Prometheus. No other — only what seems good to HIM. Chorus. And how will it seem good } what hope remains ? Seest thou not that thou hast sinned } But that thou hast sinned It glads me not to speak of, and grieves thee ; Then let it pass from both, and seek thyself Some outlet from distress. Prometheus. It is in truth An easy thing to stand aloof from pain, And lavish exhortation and advice On one vexed sorely by it. I have known All in prevision. By my choice, my choice, I freely sinned, — I will confess my sin, — And, helping mortals, found mine own despair. I did not think indeed that I should pine Beneath such pangs against such skyey rocks, 39 o Prometheus Bound. Doomed to this drear hill, and no neighboring Of any life. But mourn not ye for griefs I bear to-day : hear rather, dropping down To the plain, how other woes creep on to me, And learn the consummation of my doom. Beseech you, nymphs, beseech you, grieve for me Who now am grieving ; for Grief walks the earth. And sits down at the foot of each by turns. Chorus. We hear the deep clash of thy words, Prometheus, and obey. And I spring with a rapid foot away From the rushing car and the holy air, The track of birds ; And I drop to the rugged ground, and there Await the tale of thy despair. Ocean us enters. Oceanus, I reach the bourne of my weary road Where I may see and answer thee, Prometheus, in thine agony. On the back of the quick-winged bird I glode, And I bridled him in With the will of a god. Behold, thy sorrow aches in me Constrained by the force of kin. Nay, though that tie were all undone. For the life of none beneath the sun Would I seek a larger benison Than I seek for thine. And thou shalt learn my words are truth, That no fair parlance of the mouth Grows falsely out of mine. Now give me a deed to prove my faith ; For no faster friend is named in breath Than I, Oceanus, am thine. Promeiheus. Ha ! what has brought thee } Hast thou also come To look upon my woe ? How hast thou dared To leave the depths called after thee } the caves Self-hewn, and self-roofed with spontaneous rock, To visit Earth, the mother of my chain } Hast come, indeed, to view my doom, and mourn That I should sorrow thus } Gaze on, and see Priwietheus Bound. 391 How I, the fast friend of your Zeus, — how I The erector of the empire in his hand, Am bent beneath that hand in this despair. Oceanus. Prometheus, I behold ; and I would fain Exhort thee, though already subtle enough, To a better wisdom. Titan, know thyself, And take new softness to thy manners, since A new king rules the gods. If words like these. Harsh words and trenchant, thou wilt fling abroad, Zeus haply, though he sit so far and high. May hear thee do it, and so this wrath of his. Which now affects thee fiercely, shall appear A mere child's sport at vengeance. Wretched god, Rather dismiss the passion which thou hast, And seek a change from grief. Perhaps I seem To address thee with old saws and outworn sense ; Yet such a curse, Prometheus, surely waits . On lips that speak too proudly : thou, meantime, Art none the meeker, nor dost yield a jot To evil circumstance, preparing still To swell the account of grief with other griefs Than what are borne. Beseech thee, use me, then, For counsel : do not spurn against the pricks, Seeing that who reigns, reigns by cruelty Instead of right. And now I go' from hence, And will endeavor if a power of mine Can break thy fetters through. For thee — be calm, And smooth thy words from passion. Knowest thou not Of perfect knowledge, thou who knowest too much, That, where the tongue wags, ruin never lags } Prometheus. I gratulate thee who hast shared and dared All things with me, except their penalty. Enough so ! leave these thoughts. It cannot be That thou shouldst move him. He may not be moved ; And thou, beware of sorrow on this road. Oceanus. Ay ! ever wiser for another's use Than thine. The event, and not the prophecy. Attests it to me. Yet, where now I rush, Thy wisdom hath no power to drag me back, Because I glory, glory, to go hence. And win for thee deliverance from thy pangs. As a free gift from Zeus. Prometheus. Why there, again, 392 Prometheus Bound. I give thee gratulation and applause. Thou lackest no good will. But, as for deeds. Do naught ! 'twere all done vainly, helping naught, Whatever thou w^ouldst do. Rather take rest, " And keep thyself from evil. If I grieve, I do not therefore wish to multiply The griefs of others. Verily, not so ! For still my brother's doom doth vex my soul, — My brother Atlas, standing in the west, Shouldering the column of the heaven and earth, A difficult burden ! I have also seen. And pitied as I saw, the earth-born one, The inhabitant of old Cilician caves, The great war-monster of the hundred heads, (All taken and bowed beneath the violent Hand) Typhon the fierce, who did resist the gods, And, hissing slaughter from his dreadful jaws. Flash out ferocious glory from his eyes As if to storm the throne of Zeus. Whereat, The sleepless arrow of Zeus flew straight at him. The headlong bolt of thunder-breathing flame. And struck him downward from his eminence Of exultation ; through the very soul It struck him, and his strength was withered up To ashes, thunder-blasted. Now he lies, A helpless trunk, supinely, at full length Beside the strait of ocean, spurred into By roots of ^tna, high upon whose tops Hephaestus sits, and strikes the flashing ore. From thence the rivers of fire shall burst away Hereafter, and devour with savage jaws The equal plains of fruitful Sicily, Such passion he shall boil back in hot darts Of an insatiate fury and sough of flame. Fallen Typhon, howsoever struck and charred By Zeus's bolted thunder. But for thee. Thou art not so unlearned as to need My teaching ; let thy knowledge save thyself. / quaff the full cup of a present doom, And wait till Zeus hath quenched his will in wrath. Oceaiius. Prometheus, art thou ignorant of this. That words do medicine anger ? Prometheus. If the word With seasonable softness touch the soul. Pro77icthcus Bound. 393 And, where the parts are ulcerous, sear them not By any rudeness. Oceanus. With a noble aim To dare as nobly — is there harm in that ? Uost thou discern it ? Teach me. Prometheus. I discern Vain aspiration, unresultive work. Oceanus. Then suffer me to bear the brunt of this, Since it is profitable that one who is wise Should seem not wise at all. Promethetis. And such would seem My very crime. FUO.M THF.XCE THE RHERS OF FIRE SHAI.I, BURST AWAY. Oceanus. In truth thine argument Sends me back home. Prometheus. Lest any lament for me Should cast thee down to hate. Oceanus. The hate of him Who sits a new king on the absolute throne } Prometheus. Beware of him, lest thine heart grieve by him. Oceanus. Thy doom, Prometheus, be my teacher ! Prometheus. CiO ! Depart ! Beware ! And keep the mind thou hast. 394 Pi'omcthcus Bound. Oceanus. Thy words drive after, as I rush before. Lo, my four-footed bird sweeps smooth and wide The flats of air with balanced pinions, glad To bend his knee at home in the ocean-stall. [Oceanus departs. C/iori(s, is/ strophe I moan thy fate, I moan for thee, Prometheus ! From my eyes too tender Drop after drop incessantly The tears of my heart's pity render My cheeks wet from their fountains free ; Because that Zeus, the stern and cold. Whose law is taken from his breast, Uplifts his sceptre manifest Over the gods of old. \st antisirophe. All the land is moaning With a murmured plaint to-day ; All the mortal nations Having habitations In the holy Asia Are a dirge entoning For thine honor and thy brothers', Once majestic beyond others In the old belief, — Now are groaning in the groaning Of thy deep-voiced grief. id strophe. Mourn the maids inhabitant Of the Colchian land, Who with white, calm bosoms stand In the battle's roar: Mourn the Scythian tribes that haunt The verge of earth, Mjeotis' shore. 2d ajitistrophc. Yea ! Arabia's battle crown, And dwellers in the beetling town Mt. Caucasus sublimely nears — An iron squadron, thundering down With the sharp-prowed spears. Fromdhcus Bjund. 395 But one other before have I seen to remain By invincible pain, Bound and vanquished, — one Titan ! 'twas Atlas, who bears In a curse from the gods, by that strength of his own Which he evermore wears, The weight of the heaven on his shoulder alone, While he sighs up the stars ; And the tides of the ocean wail, bursting their bars ; Murmurs still the profound. And black Hades roars up through the chasm of the ground, And the fountains of pure-running rivers moan low In a pathos of woe. Prometheus. Beseech you, think not I am silent thus Through pride or scorn, I only gnaw my heart With meditation, seeing myself so wronged. For see — their honors to these new-made gods, What other gave but I, and dealt them out With distribution ? Ay ! but here I am dumb ; For here I should repeat your knowledge to you. If I spake aught. List rather to the deeds I did for mortals ; how, being fools before, I made them wise and true in aim of soul. And let me tell you, — not as taunting men. But teaching you the intention of my gifts, — How, first beholding, they beheld in vain. And, hearing, heard not, but, like shapes in dreams, Mixed all things wildly down the tedious time, Nor knew to build a house against the sun With wicketed sides, nor any wood-craft knew, But lived, like silly ants, beneath the ground In hollow caves unsunned. There came to them No steadfast sign of winter, nor of spring Flower-perfumed, nor of summer full of fruit. But blindly and lawlessly they did all things, Until I taught them how the stars do rise And set in mystery, and devised for them Number, the inducer of philosophies, The synthesis of letters, and, beside, The artificer of all things, memory. That sweet muse-mother. I was first to yoke The servile beasts in couples, carrying An heirdom of man's burdens on their backs. I joined to chariots, steeds, that love the bit They champ at, — the chief pomp of golden ease. 396 Prometheus Bound. And none but I originated ships, The seaman's chariots, wanderings on the brine With linen wings. And I — oh, miserable I — Who did devise for mortals all these arts, Have no device left now to save myself From the woe I suffer. Chorus. Most unseemly woe Thou sufferest, and dost stagger from the sense Bewildered I Like a bad leech falling sick, Thou art faint at soul, and canst not find the drugs Required to save thyself. Prometheus. Harken the rest, And marvel further, what more arts and means I did invent, — this, greatest : if a man Fell sick, there was no cure, nor esculent Nor chrism nor liquid, but for lack of drugs Men pined and wasted, till I showed them all Those mixtures of emollient remedies Whereby they might be rescued from disease. I fixed the various rules of mantic art. Discerned the vision from the common dream. Instructed them in vocal auguries Hard to interpret, and defined as plain The wayside omens, — flights of crook-clawed birds,- Showed which are by their nature fortunate. And which not so, and what the food of each. And what the hates, affections, social needs Of all to one another,— taught what sign Of visceral lightness, colored to a shade. May charm the genial gods, and what fair spots Commend the lung and liver. Burning so The limbs incased in fat, and the long chine, I led my mortals on to an art abstruse, And cleared their eyes to the image in the fire, Erst filmed in dark. Enough said now of this. For the other helps of man hid underground. The iron and the brass, silver and gold, Can any dare affirm he found them out Before me } None, I know I unless he choose To lie in his vaunt. In one word learn the whole, — That all arts came to mortals from Prometheus. Chorus. Give mortals now no inexpedient help, Neglecting thine own sorrow. I have hope still To see thee, breaking from the fetter here, Prometheus Bound. ,Qy Stand up as strong as Zeus. Prometheus. This ends not thus. The oracular fate ordains. I must be bowed By infinite woes and pangs to escape this chain Necessity is stronger than mine art. Chorus. Who holds the helm of that Necessity ? '^''''Furier' '^^'^ threefold Fates and the unforgetting Chorus. Is Zeus less absolute than these are ^ Prometheus. Yea And therefore cannot fly what is ordained. Chorus. What is ordained for Zeus, except to be A king forever } Prometheus. 'Tis too early yet For thee to learn it : ask no more ^P^'''''- Perhaps 1 hy secret may be something holy } Prometheus. Turn To another matter : this, it is not time To speak abroad, but utterly to veil In silence. For by that same secret kept, I scape this chain's dishonor, and its woe. Chorus, 1st strophe. Never, oh never, May Zeus, the all-giver, Wrestle down from his throne In that might of his own To antagonize mine ! Nor let me delay As I bend on my way Toward the gods of the shrine Where the altar is full Of the blood of the bull. Near the tossing brine Of Ocean my father. May no sin be sped in the word that is said, But my vow be rather Consummated, • Nor evermore fail, nor evermore pine. 1st antistrophe. 'Tis sweet to have Life lengthened out 398 Prometheus Bound. With hopes proved brave By the very doubt, Till the spirit infold Those manifest joys which were foretold. But I thrill to behold Thee, victim doomed, By the countless cares And the drear despairs Forever consumed, — And all because thou, who art fearless now Of Zeus above, Didst overflow for mankind below With a free-souled, reverent love. Ah, friend, behold and see ! What's all the beauty of humanity .' Can it be fair ? What's all the strength ? Is it strong ? And what hope can they bear. These dying livers, living one day long ? Ah, seest thou not, my friend, How feeble and slow, And like a dream, doth go This poor blind manhood, drifted from its end ? And how no mortal wranglings can confuse The harmony of Zeus } Prometheus, I have learnt these things From the sorrow in thy face. Another song did fold its wings Upon my lips in other days. When round the bath and round the bed The hymeneal chant instead I sang for thee, and smiled, And thou didst lead, with gifts and vows, Hesione, my father's child, To be thy w^edded spouse. Jo enters. lo. What land is this ? what people is here ? And who is he that writhes, I see, In the rock-hung chain ? Now what is the crime that hath brought thee to pain ? Now what is the land — make answer free — Prometheus Bound. 399 Which I wander through in my wrong and fear ? Ah, ah, ah me ! The gad-fly stingeth to agony I . O Earth, keep off that phantasm pale Of earth-born Argus !— ah ! I quail When my soul descries That herdsman with the myriad eyes W^hich seem, as he comes, one crafty eye. Graves hide him not, though he should die ; But he doggeth me in my misery From the roots of death,' on high, on high ; And along the sands of the siding deep. All famine-worn, he follows me. And his waxen reed doth undersound The waters round. And giveth a measure that giveth sleep. Woe, woe, woe ! Where shall my weary course be done ? What wouldst thou with me, Saturn's son ? And in what have I sinned, that I should go Thus yoked to grief by thine hand forever ? Ah, ah ! dost vex me so That I madden and shiver Stung through with dread ? Flash the fire down to burn me ! Heave the earth up to cover me ! Plunge me in the deep, with the salt waves over me. That the sea-beasts may be fed ! king do not spurn me In my prayer ! For this w^andering everlonger, evermore. Hath overworn me. And I know not on what shore 1 may rest from my despair. Chorus. Hearest thou w'hat the ox-horned maiden saith ? Prometheus. How could I choose but harken what she saith. The frenzied maiden ? — Inachus's child ? — Who love-warms Zeus's heart, and now is lashed By Here's hate along the unending ways ? lo. Who taught thee to articulate that name, — 400 Prometheus Bound » My father's ? Speak to his child By grief and shame defiled ! Who art thou, victim, thou who dost acclaim Mine anguish in true words on the wide air, And callest, too, by name the curse that came From Here unaware, To waste and pierce me with its maddening goad ? Ah, ah, I leap With the pang of the hungry ; I bound on the road ; I am driven by my doom ; I am overcome By the wrath of an enemy strong and deep ! Are any of those who have tasted pain, Alas ! as wretched as I ? Now tell me plain, doth aught remain For my soul to endure beneath the sky ? Is there any help to be holpen by ? If knowledge be in thee, let it be said ! Cry aloud — cry To the wandering, woful maid. Prometheus. Whatever thou wouldst learn, I will declare No riddle upon my lips, but such straight words As friends should use to each other when they talk. Thou seest Prometheus, who gave mortals fire. lo. O common help of all men, known of all, O miserable Prometheus, for what cause Dost thou endure thus } Prometheus. I have done with wail For my own griefs but lately. lo. Wilt thou not Vouchsafe the boon to me } Prometheus. Say what thou wilt. For I vouchsafe all. lo. Speak, then, and reveal Who shut thee in this chasm. Prometheus. The will of Zeus, The hand of his Hephaestus. lo. And what crime Dost expiate so ? Prometheus. Enough for thee I have told In so much only. lo. Nay, but show besides The limit of my wandering, and the time Which yet is lacking to fulfil my grief. P7'077ietheus Bou?id. 401 Prometheus. Why, not to know were better than to know For such as thou. lo. Beseech thee, blind me not To that which I must suffer. Prometheus. If I do. The reason is not that I grudge a boon. lo. What reason, then, prevents thy speaking out ? Prometheus. No grudgmg, but a fear to break thine heart. lo. Less care for me, 1 pray thee. Certainty I count for advantage. Prometheus. Thou wilt have it so, And therefore I must speak. Now hear — Chorus. Not yet. Give half the guerdon my way. Let us learn First what the curse is that befell the maid, Her own voice telling her own wasting woes : The sequence of that anguish shall await The teaching of thy lips. Prometheus. It doth behoove That thou, maid lo, shouldst vouchsafe to these The grace they pray, — the more, because they are called Thy father's sisters ; since to open out And mourn out grief, where it is possible To draw a tear from the audience, is a work That pays its own price well. Jo. I cannot choose But trust you, nymphs, and tell you all ye ask. In clear words, though I sob amid my speech In speaking of the storm-curse sent from Zeus, And of my beauty, from which height it took Its swoop on me, poor wretch ! left thus deformed And monstrous to your eyes. For evermore Around my virgin-chamber, wandering went The nightly visions which entreated me With syllabled smooth sweetness, — " Blessed maid, Why lengthen out thy maiden hours, when fate Permits the noblest spousal in the world } When Zeus burns with the arrow of thy love. And fain would touch thy beauty.^ — Maiden, thou Despise not Zeus ! depart to Lerne's mead That's green around thy father's flocks .and stalls, Until the passion of the heavenly Eye Be quenched in sight." Such dreams did all night long Constrain me, — me, unhappy! — till I dared 402 Profnetheiis Bound. To tell my father how they trod the dark With visionary steps. Whereat he sent His frequent heralds to the Pythian fane, And also to Dodona, and inquired How best, by act or speech, to please the gods. The same returning brought back oracles Of doubtful sense, indefinite response, Dark to interpret ; but at last there came To Inachus an answer that was clear, Thrown straight as any bolt, and spoken out,— This : " He should drive me from my home and land, And bid me wander to the extreme verge Of all the earth ; or, if he willed it not. Should have a thunder with a fiery eye Leap straight from Zeus to burn up all his race To the last root of it." By which Loxian word Subdued, he drove me forth, and shut me out, He loath, me loath ; but Zeus's violent bit Compelled him to the deed : when instantly My body and soul were changed and distraught, And, horned as ye see, and spurred along By the fanged insect, with a maniac leap 1 rushed on to Cenchrea's limpid stream. And Lerne's fountain-water. There, the earth-born. The herdsman Argus, most immitigable Of wrath, did find me out, and track me out With countless eyes set staring at my steps ; And though an unexpected sudden doom Drew him from life, I, curse-tormented still. Am driven from land to land before the scourge The gods hold o'er me. So thou hast heard the past And, if a bitter future thou canst tell. Speak on. I charge thee, do not flatter me, Through pity, with false words ; for in my mind Deceivmg works more shame than torturing doth. Chorus. Ah, silence here ! Nevermore, nevermore, Would I languish for The stranger's word To thrill in mine ear — Nevermore for the wrong and the woe and the fear So hard to behold, Prometheus Bound. 403 vSo cruel to bear, Piercing my soul with a double-edged sword Of a sliding cold. Ah, Fate ! ah, me ! I shudder to see This wandering maid in her agony. Prometheus. Grief is too quick in thee, and fear too full : Be patient till thou hast learnt the rest. Chorus. Speak : teach, To those who are sad already, it seems sweet, By clear foreknowledge to make perfect, pain. Prometheus. The boon ye asked me first was lightly won ; For first ye asked the story of this maid's grief, As her own lips might tell it. Now remains To list what other sorrows she so young Must bear from Here. Inachus's child, O thou ! drop down thy soul my weighty words. And measure out the landmarks which are set To end thy wandering. Toward the orient sun First turn thy face from mine, and journey on Along the desert-flats till thou shalt come Where Scythia's shepherd-peoples dwell aloft. Perched in wheeled wagons under woven roofs. And twang the rapid arrow past the bow. Approach them not, but, siding in thy course The rugged shore-rocks resonant to the sea, Depart that country. On the left hand dwell The iron-workers, called the Chalybes, Of whom beware, for certes they are uncouth. And nowise bland to strangers. Reaching so The stream Hybristes (well the scorner called). Attempt no passage, — it is hard to pass, — Or ere thou come to Caucasus itself, That highest of mountains, where the river leaps The precipice in his strength. Thou must toil up Those mountain-tops that neighbor with the stars. And tread the south way, and draw near, at last, The Amazonian host that hateth man, Inhabitants of Themiscyra, close Upon Thermodon, where the sea's rough jaw Doth gnash at Salmydessa, and provide A cruel host to seamen, and to ships A stepdame. They, with unreluctant hand. 404 Prometheus Bound. Shall lead thee on and on till thou arrive Just where the ocean-gates show narrowest On the Cimmerian isthmus. Leaving which, Behooves thee swim with fortitude of soul The strait Masotis. Ay, and evermore That traverse shall be famous on men's lips, That strait called Bosphorus, the horned one's road. So named because of thee, who so wilt pass From Europe's plain to Asia's continent. How think ye, nymphs ? the king of gods appears Impartial in ferocious deeds .'' Behold ! The god desirous of this mortal's love Hath cursed her with these wanderings. Ah, fair child. Thou hast met a bitter groom for bridal troth ! For all thou yet hast heard can only prove The incompleted prelude of thv doom. Id. Ah, ah ! Prometheus. Is't thy turn now to shriek and moan ? How wilt thou, when thou hast barkened what remains ? Chorus. Besides the grief thou hast told, can aught remain } Prometheus. A sea of foredoomed evil worked to storm. lo. What boots my life, then ? why not cast myself Down headlong from this miserable rock, That, dashed against the flats, I may redeem My soul from sorrow } Better once to die Than day by day to suffer. Prometheus. Verily, It would be hard for thee to bear my woe For whom it is appointed not to die. Death frees from woe ; but I before me see In all my far prevision not a bound To all I suffer, ere that Zeus shall fall From being a king. lo. And can it ever be That Zeus shall fall from empire } Prometheus. Thou, methinks, Wouldst take some joy to see it. lo. Could I choose } I who endure such pangs now, by that god ! Prometheus. Learn from me, therefore, that the event shall be. lo. By whom shall his imperial sceptred hand Be emptied so } Proi7ietheus Botmd. 405 Prometheus. Himself shall spoil himself, Through his idiotic counsels. lo. How? declare, Unless the word bring evil. Prometheus. He shall wed. And in the marriage-bond be joined to grief. lo. A heavenly bride, or human } Speak it out, If it be utterable. Prometheus. Why should I say which } It ought not to be uttered, verily. Id. Then It is his wife shall tear him from his throne .'* Pro7netheus. It is his wife shall bear a son to him More mighty than the father. lo. From this doom Hath he no refuge .'' Prometheus. None : or ere that I Loosed from these fetters — lo. Yea ; but who shall loose While Zeus is adverse ? Prometheus. One who is born of thee : It is ordained so. lo. What is this thou sayest ? A son of mine shall liberate thee from woe ? Prometheus. After ten generations count three more, And find him in the third. lo. The oracle Remains obscure. Prometheus. And search it not to learn Thine own griefs from it. To. Point me not to a good To leave me straight bereaved. Prometheus. I am prepared To grant thee one of two things. lo. But which two } Set them before me ; grant me power to choose. Pro7netheus. I grant it ; choose now ! Shall I name aloud What griefs remain to wound thee, or what hand Shall save me out of mine } Chorus. Vouchsafe, O god, The one grace of the twain to her who prays. The next to me, and turn back neither prayer Dishonored by denial. To herself Recount the future wandering of her feet ; 4o6 Prometheus Bound. Then point me to the looser of thy chain, Because I yearn to know him. Prometheus. Since ye will, Of absolute will, this knowledge, I will set No contrary against it, nor keep back A word of all ye ask for. lo, first To thee I must relate thy wandering course Far winding. As I tell it, write it down In thy soul's book of memories. When thou hast past The refluent bound that parts two continents, Track on the footsteps of the orient sun In his own fire across the roar of seas, — Fly till thou hast reached the Gorgonsean flats Beside Cisthene. There the Phorcides, Three ancient maidens, live, with shape of swan, One tooth between them, and one common eye, On whom the sun doth never look at all With all his rays, nor evermore the moon When she looks through the night. Anear to whom Are the Gorgon sisters three, enclothed with wings, With twisted snakes for ringlets, man-abhorred : There is no mortal gazes in their face. And gazing can breathe on. I speak of such To guard thee from their horror. Ay, and list Another tale of a dreadful sight : beware The Griffins, those unbarking dogs of Zeus, Those sharp-mouthed dogs ! — and the Arimaspian host Of one-eyed horsemen, habiting beside The river of Pluto that runs bright with gold : Approach them not, beseech thee. Presently Thou'lt come to a distant land, a dusky tribe Of dwellers at the fountain of the Sun, Whence flows the River ^thiops ; wind along Its banks, and turn off at the cataracts, Just as the Nile pours from the Bybline hills His holy and sweet wave : his course shall guide Thine own to that triangular Nile-ground Where, lo, is ordained for thee and thine A lengthened exile. Have I said in this Aught darkly or incompletely ? — now repeat The question, make the knowledge fuller ! Lo, I have more leisure than I covet here. Chorus. If thou canst tell us aught that's left untold, Or loosely told ; of her most dreary flight, Prometheus Bound. 407 Declare it straight ; but, if thou hast uttered all, Grant us that latter grace for which we prayed. Remembering how we prayed it. Prometheus. She has heard The uttermost of her wandering. There it ends. But, that she may be certain not to have heard All vainly, I will speak what she endured Ere coming hither, and invoke the past To prove my prescience true. And so— to leave A multitude of words, and pass at once To the subject of thy course— when thou hadst gone To those Molossian plains which sweep around Dodona shouldering Heaven, whereby the fane Of Zeus Thesprotian keepeth oracle, And, wonder past belief, where oaks do wave The Gorgon sisteks three Articulate adjurations — (ay, the same Saluted thee in no perplexed phrase, But clear with glory, noble wife of Zeus That shouldst be, there some sweetness took thy sense!) Thou didst rush further onward, stung along The ocean-shore, toward Rhea's mighty bay. And, tost back from it, wast tost to "it again In stormy evolution : and know well. In coming time that hollow of the sea Shall bear the name Ionian, and present A monument of lo's passage through, Unto all mortals. Be these words the signs Of my soul's power to look beyond the veil Of visible things. The rest to you and her I will declare in common audience, nvmphs, Returning thither where my speech brake off. There is a town, Canobus, built upon 4o8 Prometheus Bound. The earth's fair margin, at the mouth of Nile, And on the mound washed up by it : lo, there Shall Zeus give back to thee thy perfect mind. And only by the pressure and the touch Of a hand not terrible ; and thou to Zeus Shalt bear a dusky son who shall be called Thence Epaphus, Touched. That son shall pluck the fruit Of all that land wide-watered by the flow Of Nile ; but after him, when counting out As far as the fifth full generation, then Full fifty maidens, a fair woman-race. Shall back to Argos turn reluctantly, To fly the proffered nuptials of their kin, Their father's brothers. These being passion-struck, Like falcons bearing hard on flying doves. Shall follow hunting at a quarry of love They should not hunt ; till envious Heaven maintain A curse betwixt that beauty and their desire. And Greece receive them, to be overcome In murtherous woman-war by fierce red hands Kept savage by the night. For every wife Shall slay a husband, dyeing deep in blood The sword of a double edge — (I wish indeed As fair a marriage-joy to all my foes !) One bride alone shall fail to smite to death The head upon her pillow, touched with love. Made impotent of purpose, and impelled To choose the lesser evil, — shame on her cheeks. Than blood-guilt on her hands ; which bride shall bear A royal race in Argos. Tedious speech Were needed to relate particulars Of these things ; 'tis enough that from her seed Shall spring the strong He, famous with the bow, Whose arm shall break my fetters off. Behold, I\Iy mother Themis, that old Titaness, Delivered to me such an oracle ; But how and when, I should be long to speak, And thou, in hearing, wouldst not gain at all. lo. Eleleu, eleleu ! How the spasm and the pain. And the fire on the brain. Strike, burning me through ! How the sting of the curse, all aflame as it flew, Pricks me onward again I Prometheus Bound. 409 How my heart in its terror is spurning my breast, And my eyes like the wheels of a chariot roll round ! ! am whirled from my course, to the east, to the west. In the whirlwind of frenzy all madly invvound ; And my mouth is unbridled for anguish and hate, And my words beat in vain, in wild storms of unrest, On the sea of my desolate fate. lo rtishes out. Ch ones, — strophe. Oh, wise was he, oh, wise was he, Who first within his spirit knew, And with his tongue declared it true. That love comes best that comes unto The equal of degree ! And that the poor and that the low- Should seek no love from those above. Whose souls are fluttered with the flow Of airs about their golden height. Or proud because they see arow Ancestral crowns of light. Afitistrophe. Oh, never, never, may ye. Fates, Behold me with your awful eyes Lift mine too fondly up the skies Where Zeus upon the purple waits ! Nor let me step too near, too near. To any suitor bright from heaven ; Because I see, because I fear, This loveless maiden vexed and laden By this fell curse of Here, driven On wanderings dread and drear. Epode. Nay, grant an equal troth instead Of nuptial love, to bind me by ! It will not hurt, I shall not dread To meet it in reply. But let not love from those above Revert and fix me, as I said, With that inevitable Eye ! I have no sword to fight that fight, I have no strength to tread that path, 4IO Prometheus Bound. I know not if my nature hath The power to bear, I cannot see Whither from Zeus's infinite I have the power to flee. Prometheus. Yet Zeus, albeit most absolute of will, Shall turn to meekness, — such a marriage-rite He holds in preparation, which anon, Shall thrust him headlong from his gerent seat Adown the abysmal void ; and so the curse His father Chronos muttered in his fall, As he fell from his ancient throne and cursed, Shall be accomplished wholly. No escape From all that ruin shall the filial Zeus Find granted to him from any of his gods. Unless I teach him. I the refuge know, And I, the means. Now, therefore, let him sit And brave the imminent doom, and fix his faith On his supernal noises hurtling on With restless hand the bolt that breathes out fire ; For these things shall not help him, none of them, Nor hinder his perdition when he falls To shame, and lower than patience : such a foe He doth himself prepare against himself, A wonder of unconquerable hate, An organizer of sublimer fire Than glares in lightnings, and of grander sound Than aught the thunder rolls, out-thundering it. With power to shatter in Poseidon's fist The trident-spear, which, while it plagues the sea, Doth shake the shores around it. Ay, and Zeus, Precipitated thus, shall learn at length The difference betwixt rule and servitude. Chorus. Thou makest threats for Zeus of thy desires. Prometheus. I tell you all these things shall be fulfilled Even so as I desire them. Chorus. Must we, then, Look out for one shall come to master Zeus ? Prometheus. These chains weigh lighter than his sor- rows shall. Chorus. How art thou not afraid to utter such words } Prometheus. What should / fear, who cannot die ? Chorus. But he Can visit thee with dreader woe than death's. Prometheus Bound. ^jj Promet/icHs. Why. let him do it ! I am here, prepared tor all things and their pangs. <<^horiis. The wise are they Who reverence Adrasteia. Pronetheiis. Reverence thou, Adore thou, flatter thou, whomever reigns. Whenever reigning ! But for me, your Zeus Is less than nothing. Let him act and reign His brief hour out according to his will : He will not, therefore, rule the gods too long. But lo I I see that courier-god of Zeus, That new-made menial of the new-crowned king : He, doubtless, comes to announce to us something new. Hermes enters. Hermes. I speak to thee, the sophist, the talker-down Of scorn by scorn, the sinner against gods. The reverencer of men, the thief of fire,— I speak to thee and adjure thee : Zeus requires Thy declaration of what marriage-rite Thus moves thy vaunt, and shall hereafter cause His fall from empire. Do not wrap thy speech In riddles, but speak cleaiiv. Never cast Ambiguous paths, Prometheus, for my feet. Since Zeus, thou mayst perceive, is scarcely won To mercy by such means. Prometheus. A speech well-mouthed In the utterance, and full-minded in the sense. As doth befit a servant of the gods ! New gods, ye newly reign, and think, forsooth. \ e dwell in towers too high for any dart To carry a wound there ! Have I not stood by While two kings fell from thence ? and shall I 'not Behold the third, the same who rules you now. Fall, shamed to sudden ruin ? Do I seem To tremble and quail before vour modern gods ? Far be it from me ! For thyself, depart ; Re-tread thy steps in haste. To all thou hast asked I answer nothing. Her Dies. Such a wind of jjride Impelled thee of yore full sail upon these rocks. Prometheus. I wt)uld not barter— learn thou soothlv that !-- 412 Prometheus Bound. My suffering for thy service. I maintain It is a nobler thing to serve these rocks Than live a faithful slave to father Zeus. Thus upon scorners I retort their scorn. Hermes. It seems that thou dost glory in thy despair. Prometheus. I glory } Would my foes did glory so, And I stood by to see them ! — naming whom, Thou art not unremembered. Hermes. Dost thou charge Me also with the blame of thy mischance ? Prometheus. I tell thee I loathe the universal gods. Who, for the good I gave them, rendered back The ill of their injustice. Hermes. Thou art mad. Thou art raving, Titan, at the fever-height. Prometheus. If it be madness to abhor my foes. May I be mad ! Hermes. If thou wert prosperous, Thou wouldst be unendurable. Prometheus. Alas ! Hermes. Zeus knows not that word. Prometheus. But maturing Time Teaches all things. Hermes. Howbeit, thou hast not learnt The wisdom yet, thou needest. Prometheus. If I had, I should not talk thus with a slave like thee. Hermes. No answer thou vouchsafest, I believe. To the great Sire's requirement. Prometheus. Verily I owe him grateful service, and should pay it. Hermes. Why thou dost mock me, Titan, as I stood A child before thy face. Prometheus. No child, forsooth. But yet more foolish than a foolish child. If thou expect that I should answer aught Thy Zeus can ask. No torture from his hand, Nor any machination in the world, Shall force my utterance ere he loose, himself. These cankerous fetters from me. For the rest, Let him now hurl his blanching lightnings down, And with his white-winged snows, and mutterings deep Of subterranean thunders, mix all things. Confound them in disorder. None of this Fro7)ietheus Boimd. 413 Shall bend my sturdy will, and make me speak The name of his dethroner who shall come. Hermes. Can this avail thee ? Look to it ! Pronietheus. Long ago It was looked forward to, precounselled of. Hermes. Vain god, take righteous courage ! Dare for once To apprehend and front thine agonies With a just prudence. Prometheus. Vainly dost thou chafe My soul with exhortations, as yonder sea Goes beating on the rock. Oh ! think no more That I, fear-struck by Zeus to a woman's mind, Will supplicate him, loathed as he is, With feminine upliftings of my hands, To break these chains. Far from me be the thought I Hermes. I have indeed, methinks, said much in vain, For still thy heart beneath my showers of prayers Lies dry and hard, nay, leaps like a young horse Who bites against the new bit in his teeth. And tugs and struggles against the new-tried rein, Still fiercest in the feeblest thing of all, Which sophism is ; since absolute will disjoined From perfect mind is worse than weak. Behold, Unless my words persuade thee, what a blast And whirlwind of inevitable woe Must sweep persuasion through thee ! For at hrst The Father will split up this jut of rock With the great thunder and the bolted flame, And hide thy body where a hinge of stone Shall catch it like an arm ; and, when thou hast passed A long black time within, thou shalt come out To front the sun while Zeus's winged hound. The strong, carnivorous eagle, shall wheel down To meet thee, self-called to a daily feast. And set his fierce beak in thee, and tear off The long rags of thy flesh, and batten deep Upon thy dusky liver. Do not look For any end, moreover, to this curse. Or ere some god appear to accept thy pangs On his own head vicarious, and descend With unreluctant step the darks of hell And gloomy abysses around Tartarus. Then ponder this, — this threat is not a growth 414 Froinetheus Bound. Of vain invention ; it is spoken and meant : King Zeus's mouth is impotent to lie, Consummating the utterance by the act. So, look to it, thou ! take heed, and nevermore Forget g'ood counsel to indulge self-will. Chorus. Our Hermes suits his reasons to the times, At" least I think so, since he bids thee drop Self-will for prudent counsel. Yield to him! When the wise err, their wisdom makes their shame. Prometheus. Unto me the foreknower, this mandate of power He cries, to reveal it. What's strange in my fate, if I suffer from hate At the hour that I feel it } Let the locks of the lightning, all bristling and whitening. Flash, coiling me round. While the ether goes surging 'neath thunder and scourging Of wild winds unbound ! Let the blast of the firmament whirl from its place The earth rooted below. And the brine of the ocean, in rapid emotion. Be driven in the face Of the stars up in heaven, as they walk to and fro ! Let him hurl me anon into Tartarus — on — To the blackest degree. With Necessity's vortices strangling me down ; But he cannot join death to a fate meant for vie ! Hermes. Why, the w^ords that he speaks and the thoughts that he thinks Are maniacal ! — add. If the Fate who hath bound him should loose not the links. He were utterly mad. Then depart ye who groan with him. Leaving to moan with him ; Go in haste ! lest the roar of the thunder anearing Should blast you to idiocy, living and hearing. Chorus. Change thy speech for another, thy thought for a new. If to move me and teach me indeed be thy care ; For thy words swerve so far from the royal and true That the thunder of Zeus seems more easy to bear. How ! couldst teach me to venture such vileness ? behold ! I choose with this victim this anguish foretold ! I recoil from the traitor in haste and disdain, Prometheus Bound. 415 And I know that the curse of the treason is worse Than the pang of the chain, Hermes. Then remember, O nymphs, what I tell you before. Nor, when pierced by the arrows that Ate will throw you, Cast blame on your fate, and declare evermore That Zeus thrust you on anguish he did not foreshow you. Nay, verily, nay ! for ye perish anon For your deed, by your choice. By no blindness of doubt. No abruptness of doom, but by madness alone, In the great net of Ate, whence none cometh out. Ye are wound and undone. Prouiethens. Ay ! in act now, in word now no more. Earth is rocking in space. And the thunders crash up with a roar upon roar. And the eddying lightnings flash fire in my face. And the whirlwinds are whirling the dust round and round. And the blasts of the winds universal leap free. And blow each upon each with a passion of sound, And ether goes mingling in storm with the sea. Such a curse on my head, in a manifest dread. From the hand of your Zeus has been hurtled along. Oh my mother's fair glory ! O Ether, enringing All eyes with the sweet common light of thy bringing ! Dost see how I suffer this wrong ? H 18 89 m ^ov^ ' .'^ V > • " « , 'vt ,-1^^ •n-o< •»b V* : C .' il HECKMAN BINDERY INC. j^ DEC 88 ipQW N. MANCHESTER,